Chapter 53 Loving me is the greatest confidence for people to exist in the world
As soon as the news of Wen Nian and Xu Zhijian's reunion spread, the gossipy colleagues in the company immediately rushed over and pestered Wen Nian with questions in the studio for a long time.
"You're so good, you silly girl. You hid it so well. I was wondering why he suddenly came to our company." Jiang Tan poked her forehead and scolded her.
Wen Nian smiled embarrassedly: "Sorry, we were having a conflict at that time, so it's hard to say."
Wang Keling looked expectant. "Finally, you're back together. We've been holding it in for days and haven't dared to ask. Tell us the story of you and this little bully."
Qingqing: "Oh my god, are you as upset as I am? God knows how shocked I was when I saw Xu Zhijian getting slapped in the face downstairs. It was like smoke rising from my ancestors' graves!"
Zhuang Shi joked, "It was because he felt bad without you. In the end, he couldn't hold it in any longer and woke us up in the middle of the day, scratching his head and telling us the news."
Everyone laughed.
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Before we knew it, late autumn had quietly arrived.
After get off work, Wen Nian just walked out of the company and saw a man standing not far away. He was wearing a black coat and a brown scarf. The blood-red sunset was shining on his face, and a cool breeze was blowing gently.
I have to admit that after seeing this face for so many years, she still gets amazed from time to time.
My colleagues who came down with me joked, "Oh my, someone's boyfriend is here, so we're leaving first."
Wen Nian came to his senses and said goodbye to them.
Walking towards Xu Zhijian, he asked, "Haven't you been busy making games these days? Why are you leaving get off work so early?"
Xu Zhijian naturally took her hand and opened the car door. "Work is not as important as spending time with your girlfriend. Get in the car. What do you want to eat today? Let's eat outside."
"good."
Xu Zhijian: "Are you cold?"
"It's not cold. The scarf you knitted for me last time was quite warm."
He smiled and fastened her seat belt.
The car started.
Wen Nian thought for a long time: "Let's go to the hot pot restaurant we went to last time. It seems pretty good."
"Last time..."
Xu Zhijian recalled and hissed, "That time with Chu Yuxuan?"
"Ah?" Wen Nian reacted: "No, you took me there when you first joined our company."
He let out a long "oh" and said in a light tone: "Okay."
Just like before, Xu Zhijian seemed a little unapproachable to people he didn't know well, but he was extremely talkative to those he knew well, especially Wen Nian, and they chatted about everything from what dishes they were going to eat to the rookie employees they met at the company today.
Chattering.
Perhaps a quiet person really needs a noisy guy around. Wen Nian didn't find it noisy. She listened to him while feeling the wind, and responded from time to time.
As for Xu Zhijian, he could only feel truly at ease in her presence.
Wen Nian was the only one in the world who always said he was childish, because she was the only one who gave him the confidence to be so childish.
In the past, he always liked to hang out outside, not because he was addicted to wine and women, but more to use these things to fill his empty childhood and his equally empty heart.
Naturally, most of the people he came into contact with were the same as him. Over time, he became numb. Those things were tasteless to him, but it was a pity to throw them away. Day after day, boredom permeated his life.
Only Wen Nian is completely different from those people. After meeting her, life seems to suddenly be filled with light.
He never expected to receive the most passionate and sincere love, but she gave it to him.
At this moment, the hustle and bustle of the city becomes the embodiment of a comfortable life.
Xu Zhijian glanced at her out of the corner of his eye, and finally breathed a sigh of relief from the inside out, as if the boat that had been drifting in his heart had finally reached the shore.
It turns out that the sunset in Beijing is so beautiful.
Noticing his gaze, Wen Nian looked over: "What are you looking at? Drive carefully."
Xu Zhijian withdrew his gaze from her face and said, "Nothing, I was just thinking, I want to pick you up from get off work for the rest of my life."
Wen Nian laughed and said nothing.
In her spare time, she opened the drawer and found a familiar packaging box inside.
Xu Zhijian glanced at it and said, "We took this photo in Ningcheng last time. You were so cruel as to leave me there without even looking at it. I took both copies back. One is at home, and the other is right here."
Ningcheng...
Wen Nian remembered that it was taken during the filming of the show, when he was doing a task in the photo studio.
She took it out and looked at it.
Both dressed in exquisite Miao clothing, separated by a piece of cloth, they each extended their left and right hands, gesturing to knock on the wall. Whether it was fate or sheer coincidence, their gazes met, a mixture of sadness and bitterness, evoking a beauty of love and hate.
"You know what, it's quite nice." Wen Nian put the photo back into the box: "Since it's mine, I'll take it back."
"Yeah." A smile appeared in the corner of Xu Zhijian's eyes.
I chose the same location as last time.
After sitting down, Xu Zhijian handed the menu to Wen Nian: "Take a look, what do you want to eat?"
Wen Nian ordered a few random dishes, and he added a few desserts. After handing the menu to the waiter, he turned back to play with her.
Speaking of childishness, he also liked to pull her hands and tinker with them, pinching her nails and rubbing her finger bones.
It seemed like he enjoyed any way to have physical contact with her.
Wen Nian was bored and thought of something. She rolled her eyes and suddenly pulled her hand out of his, turning her face away with an unhappy look.
Xu Zhijian didn't understand what was going on, so he went to catch her and asked, "What's wrong?"
She snorted, "You didn't give me the first bite last time."
What a righteous person.
Xu Zhijian was so angry that he laughed. He patiently played along with her, "Wen Xiaonian, you're not being polite. I gave you the first bite last time, and I knew this would happen."
"I think you have forgotten. Let me help you recall." He said as he was about to kiss her.
Wen Nian quickly pushed him away, embarrassed: "What are you doing? In public, pay attention to your image."
"Who told you to wrong me?"
At this moment, an excited voice came from a distance: "Xu Zhijian!"
Changjun had already walked over and sat across from him, "What a coincidence, you're eating here too."
"Changjun?" Xu Zhijian glanced at him: "Why are you here?"
"Oh, I'm just craving the beef here." Chang Jun looked at Wen Nian with a smile: "Come to think of it, it's because Wen Nian brought us Qingzhou's specialty beef jerky that year."
"You know, before that, I didn't like beef at all. But that beef jerky was really delicious, fragrant and tender. This is the only place around here that sells beef from Qingzhou, so I came here."
Wen Nian's heart moved.
I remember that she had just met Xu Zhijian's friends at that time. She took the opportunity to go to Qingzhou to participate in the competition defense, and when she came back, she specially brought some local specialties for everyone, hoping to improve their relationship.
However, because of everyone's bad reactions that day, she thought they all disliked it.
This incident was such a big blow to her at the time that even after a long time, she still had nightmares about it.
She smiled slightly and said naturally: "Really? I thought you guys didn't like it very much at the time."
Chang Jun: "How could that be? I just don't like beef at first. I definitely don't dislike your gift. The others probably eat too much or are just being reserved."
"Anyway, none of the beef jerky you brought was wasted. Before leaving, Xu Zhijian specifically told me to eat it all, saying his girlfriend would be unhappy if I didn't finish it."
"After returning home, everyone took photos of him eating everything and posted them on the group chat just to tease him."
He became more and more excited as he spoke, almost forgetting that the person involved was still present, and he became sarcastic: "I still remember his arrogance that day, as if he had never dated anyone before."
When this matter was mentioned, Wen Nian was shocked.
Did Xu Zhijian actually say such a thing at that time?
By the end of the day, she was so distracted and lost in her own sorrow that she didn't notice.
"Enough of this and that." Xu Zhijian was annoyed and crossed his arms to chase Chang Jun away. "Your pot will be cooked soon. Go and check it out. Don't disturb our private time."
"Okay, okay, I won't say anymore. I'm not very perceptive. Please eat slowly." Chang Jun was about to stand up. Before leaving, he patted his chest and said to Wen Nian, "I wish you a happy reunion. Remember to find me if you have any problems. If Xu Zhijian wants to bully you, I will help you teach him a lesson."
Xu Zhijian tutted his words, "Get out of here now, and stop acting like a big brother."
Being chased by him, Chang Jun snorted, looked back as he walked away, and finally said: "Thank you for the beef jerky, goodbye."
The person had already walked away. Wen Nian smiled and nodded, listening to Xu Zhijian's casual complaints: "What a horrible thing, always saying things that are unpleasant to the ear."
He turned around to look at her and warned her in a coquettish tone: "Don't listen to his nonsense. How could I bear to bully you? From now on, you will be the only one bullying me."
Seeing that she didn't say anything, he asked, "What's wrong? Don't you believe it?"
But suddenly she felt that she seemed to have neglected a lot of things in the past.
Wen Nian took a breath, and returned to his original arrogant expression. He snorted, "You were just bullying me."
Xu Zhijian coaxed her innocently: "It was you who wronged me first."
"I don't care." She said in a domineering tone, "From now on, you can't touch me without my permission."
"Even holding hands is not allowed?"
"no."
Xu Zhijian wilted: "Okay."
Halfway through the meal, Wen Nian suddenly had the urge to look at his phone.
Xu Zhijian was very frank and gave her the password without hesitation. "Go ahead and check it out. I don't have any secrets."
In reality, Wen Nian wasn't looking for anything to investigate him. She had done it before, but she never found anything bad. Now, she trusted him even more.
But I haven't touched it for a long time, so I'm a little curious.
"Who said I wanted to check you? I just wanted to see if you still have any old photos of me in your gallery. I deleted them all at that time, and it's a good opportunity to retrieve them through you." As she said that, she really opened the gallery and started to rummage through it.
Xu Zhijian took a leisurely sip of his drink: "Of course—"
Before he finished drinking, he coughed up the drink and hurriedly grabbed his phone, "Hey, you can't just look at the gallery!"
Wen Nian deliberately held it far away, becoming even more curious, "Why?"
"Why so many? I can't look at it. Give it to me now! I'll find you a photo."
It was the first time Wen Nian saw him so nervous, and she was very surprised.
This photo is a must-see today.
Seeing he couldn't snatch it away, Xu Zhijian gave up struggling, a look of embarrassment creeping onto his face: "Do you really want to see it?"
Wen Nian nodded vigorously.
"Okay, you see." He lay down on the sofa, ready to die.
Wen Nian continued to flip through the pages in confusion.
It wasn't until a row of mysterious objects popped out that she was suddenly startled and immediately turned off her phone.
Xu Zhijian couldn't hold back and laughed out loud.
Seeing her standing there in a daze, her face flushed red like a ripe apple, it was even more amusing. He spread his hands and said, "You insisted on seeing it. It has nothing to do with me."
Wen Nian's face was swollen, and he was angry and embarrassed: "What kind of good person would shoot that kind of thing!"
"Calm down and eat something." Xu Zhijian pushed Pudding towards her, forced a smile, and said patiently, "Most people have a few private photos on their phones."
"It's not that I have a great body, I just can't help but take pictures when I admire myself. If you don't like it, I'll delete it when I get home."
Really not wanting to discuss this topic with him in a place like this, Wen Nian blocked his mouth with rice cakes.
"Eat your food! Stop talking."
Xu Zhijian uttered an "oh" and asked while chewing, "Still watching?"
Wen Nian thought about it and decided to check his WeChat again.
Then he came across the chat history between him and Chen Qi.
The latest message from the other party reads: [Sorry, I just found out you're back together. I won't bother you anymore. I wish you happiness. After all this time, I have no regrets. Please thank her for giving me courage.]
Xu Zhijian's reply: [Thank you, I will tell her.]
Xu Zhijian was originally concentrating on eating, but when he saw her stop at this chat box, he was instinctively startled and quickly explained:
"Don't get me wrong, I'm innocent with her. This person wanted to pursue me at the time, but I absolutely didn't give her the slightest hope. I also made my feelings clear in a timely manner, without cursing or hurting her self-esteem, just like you taught me before."
"If you don't believe me, look at the chat history above. I told her every time that I only like you."
He looked nervous and spoke incoherently.
Wen Nian smiled, put down the phone, and didn't bring up the topic again. "This hot pot is really delicious. Let's come again next time."
Only after making sure that nothing was wrong did Xu Zhijian breathe a sigh of relief.
He is in a sensitive period now, but he dare not make her angry at all.
"Well, I'll come again next time."
It was not until today that Wen Nian clearly realized that much of the pain in the past was caused by herself.
Because she was sensitive and cowardly, she imagined many crises in her mind, tried every means to restrain him, and confirmed his feelings over and over again, but she forgot to trust him and ignored the good things he did for her.
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It has been a long time since the two of them reconciled.
During this period, sweetness became their daily life. Unfortunately, the distance between them remained the same, even worse than a year ago.
Perhaps after going through so much, Xu Zhijian learned to be more restrained and became more cautious when facing Wen Nian. Apart from hugging her and kissing her every day, he no longer offended her.
That night, the two came out of the hot pot restaurant, went to see a movie, and finally returned home. Xu Zhijian said good night to Wen Nian at the door as usual, and then went back to his room.
Wen Nian went back and held Xiao Xiao in his arms while he lay on the sofa, thinking about it.
A while ago, when they just got back together, she hadn't adapted yet and she thought this distance was good, but now she's beginning to feel that it can't go on like this.
In the end, someone has to take the first step towards the other. Xu Zhijian was afraid that she would be unhappy, so he was very careful. If he waited for him to take the initiative, it would probably take forever.
Should I take the initiative this time?
In fact, Wen Nian himself is not a person who is good at taking the initiative. Except for the year when he forced himself to take the initiative when he first started dating Xu Zhijian, after a series of "training" methods, he almost always took the initiative.
After all, this person always enjoys doing this and has no use for her at all.
Gradually, she became completely passive in intimate contact.
It's time to take back some initiative.
Yeah, that's right.
The more Wen Nian thought about it, the more it made sense, and she was eager to try it out. Just as she was thinking of a solution, a thunder outside the window suddenly attracted her attention.
The timing is perfect.
After two hours of mental preparation, Wen Nian searched many related posts online, washed herself thoroughly, and sprayed herself with perfume.
Finally knocked on Xu Zhijian's door.
Soon, the door opened and Xu Zhijian stood behind the door in his pajamas. He had probably taken a shower and his hair was still a little damp.
"What's wrong? Baby."
Even though he was mentally prepared, Wen Nian still couldn't suppress his nervousness. His ears were already a little hot, and his brain was starting to become unclear. He blurted out, "You... haven't slept yet?"
Seeing that something seemed amiss with her, Xu Zhijian touched her forehead and said softly, "No, I'm arranging work. What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"
"No... I just..."
Never mind.
Wen Nianxin made up her mind, stepped forward and put her arms around his waist, put her little face close to his arms, and said in one breath: "I just watched a horror movie, and there was thunder outside. I'm a little scared. You sleep with me."
The air was quiet for a few seconds.
Her heartbeat beside her ear was thumping again and again. Seeing that he didn't respond, she hugged him tighter.
The voice was soft and ambiguous, and the command was accompanied by a hint of coquettishness. This carefully designed remedy naturally worked.
Xu Zhijian was stunned for a moment, his clear eyes blinked, his Adam's apple rolled slightly, and his voice was low: "Are we going to your house or mine?"
"They're all...coming."
"good."
Wen Nian followed him in.
Xu Zhijian walked to the living room first: "You go up first, I'll turn off the computer."
"Yeah." Wen Nian ran up in slippers.
As the lights were turned off, the room became dark.
Wen Nian was lying in bed, and her heartbeat quickened when she heard the sound of someone coming up the stairs.
The moment the mattress beside him sank, his unique lemon scent hit his face, followed by a series of rustling sounds. Wen Nian silently clutched the quilt.
After waiting for a while, the bedroom became completely quiet and the man didn't say a word.
The rhythmic breathing sounded again and again.
Just...sleep like this?
The dim light from the night light is just enough to see the other person's outline.
She blinked, waited for a moment, and tentatively asked, "Are you...sleepy?"
Xu Zhijian paused: "Not bad."
She nodded, and when she was thinking about what to say, she remembered that he had just said he was working, so she said, "Are you busy? If you are busy, you don't have to come and sleep with me."
"I'm not busy. It's the same if I do it tomorrow." This time, he didn't hesitate at all.
"Oh." The topic ended again.
After a while, Wen Nian saw that he had his back to her, quiet as if he had fallen asleep.
She sighed silently, knowing that he must be awake, just waiting for her.
Only dead people sleep without breathing.
Forget it, since I have decided to take the initiative, I will take the initiative to the end and give him a way out.
Wen Nian moved slowly and came behind him.
She slowly reached out her hand and hugged him along his waist. Xu Zhijian had a very thin waist and tight abdominal muscles, and it felt strange to hug him.
Sure enough, within two seconds, the man could no longer pretend and suddenly turned over and hugged her back.
He even came closer and deliberately asked, "What are you doing?"
His peach blossom eyes were shining, with a clear smile of success in them.
The two people's breathing entangled together, and the scorching heat in front of them once again burned away Wen Nian's newly regained sanity.
She said nothing and just pressed her lips against his.
The night was cold, and the soft, sweet kiss was like a cup of the most tempting hot tea, making one unable to stop. He responded quickly and returned the favor with several times more passion.
The warmth she conveyed continued to deepen.
Soon, the room was filled with dense kisses and panting sounds.
He didn't let go until Wen Nian groaned, holding her face and chuckling: "You are so proactive, is it hard for you to hold it in normally?"
As he said this, he kissed her red face again, like a cat teasing its owner.
I have to admit that this is indeed the case. After all, facing such a face every day, no one can remain unshakable. Several times, Wen Nian almost impulsively wanted to forgive him on the spot.
After taking a hard breath, she hugged his neck and said in a soft and sweet voice: "Well, it's so hard to bear it."
He lowered his head and said in a hoarse voice: "Me too."
In fact, before breaking up, they had already met each other openly and even left marks on each other's bodies.
Just like Xu Zhijian said before, she had seen and touched every part of his body. But when she touched it again, Wen Nian still gasped.
"Are you scared?" He held her hand that was clutching the bed sheet, rubbed it against his lips, and said innocently, "But it's too late to regret now. I probably won't let you go, baby."
Wen Nian had only learned a little about this kind of thing online before. Many people said that it might be very uncomfortable the first time, so she prepared herself mentally in advance and found that it was not that difficult to accept.
She was a little resistant at first, but fortunately Xu Zhijian was calm for once, as if he was serving her exclusively. Later, she gradually adapted and he began to take care of herself.
The transition from gentle breeze and drizzle to raging waves completely broke the tenderness and sweetness.
All the desires accumulated over the years were completely released this night.
"We finally belong to each other..."
The rain outside the window stopped and started again, and then stopped again. After who knows how many times, Wen Nian finally got a chance to take a breath. Her dizzy consciousness slowly came to an end. She opened her dry eyes and let him hold her in his arms.
My sight slowly focused, and I could vaguely see the sky outside the window.
After a while of tenderness, Wen Nian poked his waist and said in a weak voice, "Go take a shower."
"Okay." He stood up and carried her to the bathroom.
Both of them were slightly obsessed with mysophobia, so after washing themselves, they changed the sheets and quilt before lying down. Because they had work the next day, they dragged their exhausted bodies and quickly fell into a deep sleep.
The next day at breakfast, Wen Nian came to his senses, his face suddenly darkened, and he asked, "Xu Zhijian, have you done this before?"
Xu Zhijian, who was enjoying his breakfast, was almost startled and said with a smile, "You don't know whether I did it or not?"
"Then how come you are so good at it?"
"Oh, this is a question." He pretended to be deep and kept her in suspense before speaking: "Just because you haven't done it doesn't mean you can't do it, baby."
He patted her head lovingly again, his eyes smiling: "For someone as smart as your boyfriend, there's no need to learn this kind of thing. He can learn it just by reading biology books a few times."
Unable to bear his arrogance, Wen Nian said lightly, "Oh."
Lower your head and drink the porridge.
After this incident, Xu Zhijian was even more eager to get closer to Wen Nian. Seeing that she was silent, he took the opportunity to ask, "By the way, when are we going to meet each other's parents?"
Wen Nian paused holding the spoon.
Thinking of her parents, she subconsciously frowned.
As if noticing her reaction, Xu Zhijian said softly, "If you don't feel ready, then we won't meet. The main thing is that I want to take things a step further with you, and I want to complete all the necessary tasks seriously."
"No, I just think my hometown is quite far away and not very convenient." She twirled the spoon, thoughtfully: "But I do have to go back sometime."
Although she had grievances against her parents, blood is thicker than water after all.
No matter what happens, as an only child, she is destined to repay their kindness in raising her since she was born.
Xu Zhijian didn't know much about Wen Nian's parents, but judging from her attitude, he guessed that she probably didn't have a good relationship with them.
With Wen Nian's personality, she would always mention the people she liked in front of him, such as her childhood friend and best friend Duan Shuangyue. She had never met the person, but she had heard her name so many times that her ears were covered with calluses.
But I have never heard her mention anything about her parents on her own initiative.
Xu Zhijian picked up a meatball and handed it to her mouth: "Well, we can go back whenever you want. I will accompany you wherever you go."
It is said that love is the greatest confidence for people to exist in the world.
Wen Nian raised her eyes and looked at the bright face in front of her, which was illuminated by the sun. Suddenly, she felt deeply moved.
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