The smell of orange-flavored laundry detergent.
It is clearly the embrace that I am most attached to and feel most secure in.
Yunli's nose felt sore and his vision gradually blurred.
She didn't understand why Yun Yongchang was so overbearing and gave Fu Shizhe a cold look in person, without even showing basic respect.
She also didn't understand why Fu Shizhe openly said that he was dropping out of school, when he could have just gotten away with it.
He said this as if he didn't care at all about Yun Yongchang's opinion.
It was as if she didn't care about his objection.
Fu Shize's voice was hoarse: "Lili..."
"My dad has a bad temper and is quite feudal. He always wanted me to stay in Xifu." Yun Li did not intend to defend Yun Yongchang. He sniffed and said, "My dad shouldn't be like this. He doesn't understand you. It's very rude."
She hesitated and said, "You don't have to tell me about your suspension..." Not wanting him to think she was blaming him, Yun Li pretended to be relaxed and said, "Because many people don't understand you, I think you are amazing."
Fu Shi looked at her and nodded.
"I saw a video of you when I was in the first year of high school. It was of you winning a prize in a competition. After the college entrance examination, I went to Western University of Science and Technology to look for you." Yun Li was embarrassed to mention his embarrassing story, "But I didn't see you."
He is clearly the most promising young man.
It helped her get through the most difficult time in high school and was also the future she had always dreamed of.
"Wait a moment." Yunli felt much better. He found his notebook and played the video that he had collected for a long time.
After they reunited, she watched the video over and over again.
The video was shot many years ago, and the pixels are not high, so it is not difficult to distinguish the former teammates.
Fu Shize looked at these images and was instantly distracted.
He returned to the podium, where the audience was crowded, noisy, and brightly lit. In the blink of an eye, the scene was cut into pieces.
He saw the person hugging him from behind and suddenly turned his eyes away.
"Don't look at it anymore."
Yunli was stunned for a moment and turned off the video.
She thought he might be in a bad mood because of Yun Yongchang's opposition.
She was at a loss: "I admired you for a long time. At that time, I hung your photo on the wall and did my homework in front of it every day..."
She insisted on telling him that they had a long history.
She admired him seven years ago and fell in love with him seven years later.
She didn't want the two of them to be together after so much effort, but to be separated just because of Yun Yongchang's opposition.
Fu Shi lowered his jaw, not looking moved, and listened to her talk absent-mindedly.
He just didn't seem to care.
He won't be touched by the fact that she worshipped him seven years ago.
Just like the behavior of someone who doesn't like her.
Yunli was talking in a dull mood. After a long while, she said, "Let's go back to Jiangnan Garden."
The two of them spoke in silence along the way.
Long-term repression gave rise to anger. After arriving at Jiangnan Garden, Yun Li walked to his room with a strong purpose, picked up the photo album and continued to flip through it.
Scroll all the way to the last photo.
She didn't look at it at all.
He is so smart, he always controls everything, and he clearly knows what he wants to know. Yun Li clenched his palms weakly and asked softly: "Aren't you going to tell me something?"
Fu Shi turned his head and asked her, "What did you say?"
“…”
Fu Shi showed no emotion: "You want me to go back to school and become the same person I was before?"
Of course, Yunli did want him to return to school. She didn't want him to sink into the endless darkness, and his once brilliant light became extremely dim. But it was obviously not what she wanted to ask now.
Yunli said stiffly, "Yes."
Fu Shi folded his arms, leaned against the wall and looked at her silently. After a long time, he did not comment, but just said lightly: "I know."
His tone and eyes were just as distant as when they first met.
Yunli waited for his next words, waiting for him to tell her what had happened.
But he remained leaning against the wall, not moving closer and showing no intention of speaking.
The deeply buried time bomb exploded.
Yunli's sense of powerlessness grew stronger and stronger, and it seemed that the gap between them would never be eliminated.
Why was she always isolated by him? She couldn't get into his heart despite trying so many times, as if she was dispensable.
He didn't need her to participate and share.
She didn't feel that he valued their relationship.
Yunli closed the photo album with force and put it back to its original position.
She never knew she would be so rude in front of Fu Shi Ze. She walked out with red eyes.
Fu Shi grabbed her wrist.
Yunli was angry and didn't say anything, so he just pried his hands apart.
After returning to her room, Yunli took a long time to calm down. She sat on the edge of the bed sadly, looking at her door.
…
The sound of water stopped, and the bathroom was filled with mist. Fu Shi put the towel on his hair, and water droplets fell. He wiped his hair very slowly.
Yunli has fallen asleep.
He took a taxi to a nearby bar. Xu Qingsong had been waiting there for a while. When he saw him, he sneered, "Why didn't you bring Yunli with you?"
Ever since Fu Shizhe started dating, Xu Qingsong couldn't remember how many times he had tried to ask him out to play but failed.
Fu Shi said nothing, took off his black windbreaker and put it aside, leaving only a white shirt on his body with the sleeves half rolled up.
Xu Qingsong raised his eyes: "Did you have a fight?"
Seeing that he didn't say anything, Xu Qingsong tried to recreate the scene of two pieces of wood quarreling in his mind, and couldn't help but say: "It's really hard to imagine."
“…”
Fu Shi lowered his eyes and looked at the whiskey in the glass. He drank several glasses without saying a word.
After he came to EAW, Xu Qingsong had more contact with him. He also knew about his suspension of study, and he had more or less heard from others that his personality had changed a lot.
As far as I can remember, Fu Shi doesn't care at all about what others think of him.
It seems that how you live is your own business.
The person next to him stared at the empty wine glass and said bitterly: "I was better before."
"She also likes the old me."
Based on these two sentences, Xu Qingsong could already guess the general idea.
Xu Qingsong and Yun Li were not familiar with each other, but he just felt that this kind of thing was also normal.
Anyone who has seen his prime will only find it incongruous with the current shadow.
Xu Qingsong was silent for a while: "Are you disappointed now?"
“…”
"It's not disappointment, I just feel sorry for her." Fu Shi said self-deprecatingly, shaking his wine glass: "It's not the person she likes."
It's not that Fu Shi hasn't thought about this possibility.
After all, what's good about him now?
…
Yunli woke up at only six or seven o'clock. She got out of bed and put her feet into slippers.
These are the couple slippers bought by Fu Shi Ze.
She struggled for a while and went outside to wash up.
In the past, my biggest hope before going to bed every day was to see Fu Shizhe after waking up.
He can be seen in the living room.
He would stand at the kitchen door, breakfast in hand, and ask her, "Are you awake?"
She went to the bathroom to wash up and saw two messages from Fu Shi Ze, which were sent around four in the morning.
【Keep your breakfast warm in the microwave. Heat it for one minute before eating.】
[My grandma is seriously ill, so I went back to stay by her bedside.]
Is it such a coincidence?
In Yunli's opinion, the two had a fight last night and their relationship was in jeopardy.
She couldn't tell whether this was Fu Shizhe's excuse to avoid her, and she had no way to pursue the matter.
He may not have liked her that much in the first place, and after seeing Yun Yongchang's appearance yesterday, he may not have a particularly strong desire to continue with her.
The wound that had been healed was torn open again.
She set the microwave to one minute in a depressed mood, and a ding sound rang out in the empty house.
Feeling empty inside, Yunli sat at the dining table, staring at the breakfast in a daze.
Eggs and toast, with a glass of milk.
Accustomed to having two people in the room, she ate her toast and felt an endless sense of loneliness.
Without notifying Fu Shizhe, Yunli took a taxi back to Qilixiangdu.
It was not until the afternoon that she remembered to reply to Fu Shizhe: [Okay. Take good care of yourself.]
She avoided thinking about their problems.
It seems that if I bury my head, things won't get any worse.
There were also recorded drone videos and audios in the notebook. Yunli spent several days editing them and uploaded the finished products to E Station.
Fu Shi would send her WeChat messages, mostly explaining what happened during the day.
He sent a message and she replied.
Sometimes in the middle of the night when she got emotional, Yunli wanted to pour out her inner struggle and doubts about this relationship to Fu Shizhe regardless of everything, but she would usually type a long paragraph and delete it in the end.
She didn't want to go through this again, having to repeatedly confirm that he didn't actually like and care about her that much.
When Fu Shizhe called her, they would fall into silence for a long time.
They all wanted to say something, but none of them said it.
Love is not just sweet.
There will be a lot of friction, sadness, suspicion and worries in love.
Not everyone can learn to love while in a relationship.
…
The only sound in the room was the occasional sound of instruments.
Fu Shi looked at the frail old man, his temples graying, the wrinkles on his face showing the traces of time, and his spotted hands weakly holding his.
He sat there until the monitor turned into a horizontal line.
Fu Shi straightened the quilt for the old man.
"I don't want to go to the funeral."
Leaving these words behind, he went out directly. The temperature outside was three degrees, and Fu Shi forgot to put on his coat. The people passing by looked like zombies, including himself.
My grandmother's death was predictable, and her life was forcibly prolonged using instruments.
However, there is no one left who has watched him grow up since he was a child.
Fu Shi had no memory of his parents since he was born. When he grew up and remembered a little, he knew that his parents taught at Western University of Science and Technology and spent most of their time in the school laboratory except for sleeping.
Since his parents were unable to accompany him, he was raised by his grandparents since childhood.
Jiang Yuan and Chen Jinping were born on the same day, and this connection prompted Chen Jinping to believe that the two families had a strong affinity.
His earliest memory was when he was three years old. Jiang Yuan was seven years old at that time. Worried that Jiang Yuan couldn't walk steadily, he took him to buy pomegranates from a roadside stall.
He bought two and gave him one.
Fu Shize had never been content since childhood, had a bit of a ruffian personality, attended too many cram schools, and whenever he had free time he would drag Jiang Yuan around to hang out and get into trouble.
If discovered by grandparents, the older Jiang Yuan will take all the responsibility.
Jiang Yuan has a gentle personality and can coax his grandparents with sweet words. He often smiles and tells Fu Shizhe to learn more.
He and Jiang Yuan went to the same elementary school and junior high school. He was four years younger than Jiang Yuan. After skipping a grade to the junior high school, he was much smaller than his classmates and his height was the same.
The two of them always went in and out together. Jiang Yuan had something to do at home that day, so he went home alone. The senior students were said by their families to be inferior to him, a ten-year-old skipper.
Fu Shize has never been afraid of anything since he was a child. He ignored the fact that there were four people opposite him and walked forward with his schoolbag.
Several students beat him up, took out everything in his bag, and threw it into the ditch nearby.
In fact, he doesn't really care.
Anyway, when Jiang Yuan comes back, two against four should be safer than one against four.
That was the only time Fu Shi Ze was bullied, but he did not tell Jiang Yuan immediately.
Someone sent a text message to Jiang Yuan to tell him about this. He ran straight back to school from home and pushed those people into the ditch.
That was one of the rare times Jiang Yuan lost his temper, and he accused him coldly: "Aze, you are older now, so you don't want to tell me about things, right?"
After that, Fu Shize did not hide anything from him.
When he was in high school, his parents wanted to take him to Xifu Experimental Middle School, but he refused.
The only reason to stay in Nanwu is that I want to go to the same high school as Jiang Yuan.
Later, they went to the same university and studied the same major.
He grew up under Jiang Yuan's protection.
Jiang Yuan taught him how to get along with others, how to love others, and how it feels to be loved.
As time went by, he and Jiang Yuan became more and more alike; the other was his brother, playmate, and good friend.
My grandfather passed away before the college entrance examination.
Two years ago, Jiang Yuan said goodbye to him.
The two years since Jiang Yuan left seemed to have never existed.
Fu Shi hopes that it really does not exist.
Today, grandma also passed away.
It rains when all the loved ones leave.
Nanwu, why is there always so much rain?
I started the car numbly. There was a sea of cars and people, and the information around me was highly blurred. The rain exploded violently on the glass.
He couldn't and didn't want to lose again.
He wanted to be by her side.
He didn't want to make empty promises.
He just wants Yunli to give him some time, and he will turn back into the old Fu Shi Ze.
After parking the car, Fu Shi walked to the entrance of Qilixiangdu, panting and soaking wet. The moment he raised his hand, in that instant, he suddenly remembered.
Oh, she didn't like the look of him.
He shouldn't have come to see her in such a miserable state.
After leaving Qilixiangdu, Fu Shi drove to the Nanwu City Cemetery. The sky was covered with dark clouds and it felt like night at three o'clock in the afternoon.
Fu Shi Ze was the only one on the dark road.
Following the familiar route, he walked to the place where he usually stayed, and the person in the photo was smiling as before.
"Grandma is gone."
Jiang Yuan would not give him an answer.
"I still have centimeters."
He remembered the day he went to Xifu. After a year and a half, he returned to the laboratory building of the School of Control. He went to Jiang Yuan's office and found that his workstation had been replaced.
Other people's computers, pen holders, notebooks, and coats were neatly arranged on it.
Clearly, there were countless times before when he went in and saw Jiang Yuan's coat.
No one remembers him anymore.
The gap in my heart got bigger.
He walked down the stairs sluggishly. He couldn't see the road clearly. He just felt that the darkness stretched on and on. In an instant, he saw the end.
Her face was red from the cold, her eyes were shining, and she handed him the card folder.
The gap in my heart was filled.
Fu Shi repeated: "I still have centimeters."
After he finished speaking, he laughed at himself again: "Lili met me seven years ago."
He lowered his eyes, leaned against the stone tablet, and curled himself up: "What she wants and likes is that Fu Shi Ze."
"I didn't dare tell her."
"That Fu Shi Ze can't go back."
"I didn't dare tell her."
He muttered to himself, the rain got into his eyes. The night was late, and he forgot the passage of time under the cover of darkness.
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