Everything will be fine
The continuous bursts of strong emotions and an overly tired body made Ji Yunding numb to a very dangerous state. She was distracted and would feel like she was floating in the air, looking down at her actions from time to time.
However, Ji Yunding needs to keep a certain degree of chaos and noise in her mind to dilute her various thoughts, otherwise she may not be able to hold on.
"Wait a moment, it will be ready soon." Zero said something incomprehensible and stood there motionless.
Ji Yunding shook her head, and suddenly found that the tinnitus and dissociation caused by not sleeping for a long time stopped instantly. There was silence around her, as if she had just had a good sleep.
"It's not your fault. Human history is like a river, and individuals - even special ones like you - are just drops of water in it. However, now you can grasp the direction of the real world."
"I don't care about them. Please get rid of the so-called 'real world' and never interfere in my life again. Never change the world I live in, and then return Ji Liuxing to me. That's enough."
"I'm sorry, but that's not my call. As I told you, I'm a tool, and what I can do depends on how far you've come."
Ji Yunding thought about it and changed his words: "Then just let me go over there and I'll kill them all."
Of course, law-abiding civil servants generally would not be so extreme, but Ji Yunding could not care about these words now.
"In fact, you don't need to do anything. The real world right now is just like what you just saw - there is no one alive. Of course, the world you know is the same too. No one is alive except you."
Zero's tone was a little strange, as if he hesitated for a moment and then was forced to speak reluctantly.
Ji Yunding intuitively felt that Zero's previous hostility towards her had completely dissipated, replaced by an inexplicable sympathy. This overly human emotion reminded her of the "emotional simulation system" in the pile of files she had seen before.
If it can produce such complex emotions, can it really be called a tool? But before Ji Yunding could think about this question, Zero continued.
"In order to pursue the so-called 'eternity', to gain an advantage in the game, to grab more resources, and to operate more efficiently, humans have invented methods to remove 'emotions'.
At first, not everyone accepted this, but humans who removed their emotions were often able to gain an advantage in competition. Gradually, those who did not remove their emotions were defined as inferior humans.
Out of the instinct of admiring the strong and hating the weak, people yearn for stronger people, and the way to become strong is simply to abandon emotions - the newly developed technology will not even make it painful to extract emotions, it is so easy.
The real world is different from here. The subjectivity there is not independent, and emotions will dissipate directly. The weirdness there is defined as a kind of human brain electromagnetic wave, which also depends on matter to exist.
All the strange things that happened were attributed to those who were not removed. They were taxed more, discriminated against, and isolated - and even this situation only lasted until the number of removed people completely overwhelmed the number of those who were not removed.
The war happened, and real humans had to face monsters without morals, emotions, and unscrupulous means. Everything you can think of that breaks down human ethics has happened in the real world.
Although you are mentally strong enough, I have been implanted with an emotional simulation system and a moral system, which I choose not to elaborate on. If you need to know the details, please ask me later.
In the logic of the removers, they have merged with the rules, and their exploration of the objective world has come to an end. Therefore, they began to use the non-removers to explore the subjective world.
The so-called "special individuals" are people with serious mental illnesses. They are more special and have more experimental value. Because most patients with mental illnesses will actively or passively choose to remove emotions earlier, there are very few remaining samples.
However, after all the undead were imprisoned for experiments, something unexpected happened. Like the living dead you just saw, after all the undead were put into a deep sleep, they lost their 'power'.
Naturally, without emotions there is no motivation. They have no will and will not do anything independently. All actions are in fact driven by what has not been removed.
They exist, but they just exist, like stones, like mountains, like the rising and setting of the sun and moon. However, they can also be injected with emotions.
Therefore, you can then decide what kind of people should exist in this world, just like Nuwa created humans, and use the Removers to shape the ‘humans’ and ‘society’ you expect.”
"It's none of my business. It doesn't matter if they die or not. Just give me back my life."
Ji Yunding expressed her demands in a concise manner. Humans just love to do bad things, and she doesn't want to deal with these things at all.
The so-called real world neither pays her a salary nor provides her with five social insurances and one housing fund, nor does it help her deal with matters big or small such as public opinion.
Those who help her, love her, are loved by her, and whom she cares about are not people in the so-called real world, so why should she care about their lives?
Humans should have become stronger for the sake of emotions, but instead they have abandoned emotions because of the law of the jungle. It's a bit ironic - after all, humans are creatures with nothing but emotions, and Ji Yunding knows this best.
But for people who have lived in a social environment for a long time, they may have been accustomed to the value of emotions being infinitely belittled and ignored since childhood. They may not even be able to clearly perceive their own emotions, let alone understand the emotions of others. If you think about it carefully, it is not surprising.
"...I'm sorry about this." Zero turned his head slightly, not looking at Ji Yunding's expression. "You are the only one who survived the multiple experiments based on the consciousness segmentation simulation technology."
"What's the meaning?"
“Using the multiple experiments done with the brain in a vat hypothesis, if you’ve heard of the monkey and typewriter metaphor, you can think of yourself as the complete works of Shakespeare that emerged after humans have explored the subjective world almost infinitely many times.
Too many iterations will increase the calculation pressure and even cause data overlap and errors - that is, the apocalypse you have experienced and the lack of world logic.
According to calculations, each special individual is put into three rounds, and they are put into place in sequence. Through the consciousness division, multiple groups of experiments are set up horizontally. This is relatively stable. In simple terms, there are an infinite number of you doing your third round at the same time.
The purpose of the experiment is to screen out individuals who are most similar to the removed ones in terms of actions, and who retain the emotions of the non-removed ones to the greatest extent, and who can be called "human" in any sense..."
"I don't care about that, just get to the point."
Zero hesitated for a moment and sighed, "The failed individuals will be wiped out. The individuals before you are dead, long before you entered this world. What you see are all simulations of them."
The stars had long been annihilated, and the light that fell on humans was just cold corpse light, but it was these ashes that turned Ji Yunding into a living human being.
Seeing Ji Yunding frozen in place, Zero quietly stepped aside. Then, Ji Yunding heard a familiar voice calling her name.
"...A-Qing?"
Ji Yunding turned around and saw Li Fengqing waving at her, in this place where she would never appear, and then he clapped his hands stiffly at her, as if to congratulate her.
"From the moment you enter here, data clearing begins in order to save computing power. But this is not your problem. If you fail, you will just be cleared as well."
These are the rules, the rules of this subjective world set by humans.
Ji Yunding ignored Zero's words, took two steps forward, grabbed Li Fengqing's shoulders and shook them gently.
"Ah Qing?"
There was no response. Li Fengqing just looked at Ji Yunding and smiled. He didn't raise his hand to knock on her forehead, and didn't have any other reaction.
Ji Yunding vaguely recalled that four or five years ago, she and Li Fengqing were whispering to each other while looking up the dictionary, and the name she came up with was laughed at by Li Fengqing.
The head teacher, Mr. Wang, tapped each of them lightly on the forehead, asking them not to disturb other students.
By the way, Li Fengqing kept saying that the dessert shop was making money and that she didn't want to let Ji Yunding down for his investment in her. But Ji Yunding didn't think it was an investment at all, he just wanted Aqing to be happy.
Even though Li Fengqing and Ji Yunding were from completely different circles, the two of them would still often sit in the dessert shop and talk, chatting about whatever they could.
Turning around again, Ji Yunding saw Zheng Nuo and Li Xiaowen. Her two good roommates were looking at her and clapping with the same standard smile.
Three years ago, the three of them were crowded in the dormitory, talking about GPA, points and the future. Zheng Nuo had a quick temper, while Li Xiaowen had a slow temper. Sometimes they would quarrel while talking, and then make up after the quarrel.
Ji Yunding would be considered by Zheng Nuo to have a quicker temper than her sometimes, and by Li Xiaowen to have a slower temper than her sometimes. In fact, it was just a matter of caring or not caring, but Ji Yunding did not say it directly.
The dormitory agreed that there would be no overnight hatred. If there was any dissatisfaction, it should be said and argued. After the argument, the problem was solved and everything was fine. Zheng Nuo and Ji Yunding both believed in this, and Li Xiaowen was also influenced to learn to express himself more directly.
When I close my eyes in the dark, I can hear them talking about everything under the sun, and occasionally they interject a word. It makes me feel safe and happy.
Ji Yunding gently loosened Li Fengqing's shoulders, helped her straighten out the wrinkles on her collar and shoulders that had just been shaken out by Ji Yunding, and looked up at Tang Yun in silence.
Tang Yun looked down at Ji Yunding. This time he did not pick her up. He just smiled and clapped.
"No, Sister Tang...this is not right." Ji Yunding stubbornly separated Tang Yun's hands, preventing her from clapping.
He was more demanding than anyone else because he wanted his students to survive and wanted to prevent unsuitable people from entering this industry. Ji Yunding could sense this from the beginning.
It was different from other harsh treatments Ji Yunding had experienced in her life—it was necessary, justified, and had a gentle purpose—so she cherished Tang Yun's harshness towards her very much.
Because only similar feelings can cover each other, at least Tang Yun covered a considerable part of her bad memories, which made Ji Yunding more proactive about this job.
Everyone in the group appeared one after another. Lin Shu took the lead and stood there. Wei Qianqiu also had a smile on his face - it looked very inappropriate.
There are living seniors, seniors who should have died, seniors that Ji Yunding knows and doesn’t know, seniors that he has only met once, and even seniors that he has only seen photos of from Ji Liuxing.
Everyone stood there obediently like puppets, and there was no sign of the chaos and noise that occurred when Ji Yunding was kidnapped to celebrate his birthday.
Barbecues on the rooftop, setting off fireworks, chatting together in the lounge, visiting the cemetery to pay respects to other seniors...it seemed like these things were as numerous as stars, but now they have twinkled in the sky and their light can no longer be seen.
The staff of the orphanage run by Ji Yunding, other colleagues in the research group, the logistics team she often dealt with... By the way, when she went to the logistics team to submit a report, this person would always take out a handful of snacks from the drawer for her.
Important and unimportant people, important and unimportant things, are all fake.
Ji Liuxing walked out of the crowd, holding the gorgeous treasure chest full of gold coins and gems that he had tried to hand to Ji Yunding when he was sitting in the corner of the rooftop when he was half-transformed, and smiled and said the same lines as before.
"Congratulations on passing the level."
How far would he go to insult and trample upon the feelings she had worked so hard to develop towards others?
Ji Yunding slowly turned his head to look at Zero, pointed at the people surrounding her, and spoke word by word.
"You're telling me that I'm going to come back to life now and go to the so-called 'real world' to save the murderers who killed them."
"Yes, this is the final reasonableness filter, and I am an observational program born for this."
Zero nodded, and the feathers covering his eyes trembled slightly.
"If you choose to leave here, you will be qualified to redefine humanity - as a perfect human being in a conceptual sense. Rational enough and emotional, infinitely close to the thinking of 'God'."
And if you cannot choose to leave here, then you will still be an ordinary human being and a failure of the experiment.
Ji Yunding was silent for a long time, and when he spoke again, his tone was still very calm. But beneath the silence, there was magma surging.
"I need to confirm, you said I was in the last group, right?"
"Yes, you are the last sample to be tested, and also the last possibility in your parallel group. From a probability perspective, this is just an ordinary coincidence."
"That is to say, as long as I die, the so-called 'real world' will be over."
"Yes, just as you said. After the experiment, all humans with emotions died, and all creatures without emotions lost their human will forever."
Ji Yunding pulled out a dagger from her bag, and with the greatest love and hatred that an ordinary human being could have, she immediately decided to die with the dead person who actually kept her alive, and at the same time sentenced another world to death.
She no longer had the energy to kill him herself, she just wanted to make sure the murderer would not be saved.
Zero just stood there quietly, witnessing the end of humanity. It detected Ji Yunding's emotional fluctuations from the data level, looking at the dark color.
Even someone like Ji Yunding can have such strong love, hatred and despair that it cannot be dissolved.
Suddenly, there was a harsh sound of metal falling to the ground in the quiet space. Ji Yunding was stunned for a moment, and looked in the direction of the sound. He saw the treasure chest that was the reward for clearing the level fell to the ground.
Gold coins, pearls, and gems printed with fancy patterns were scattered all over the floor. One of the gold coins rolled to Ji Yunding's feet, spun around, and then fell over, facing up.
"This happens occasionally." Zero sighed as he looked at Ji Liuxing who had let go of his hand. "Brain waves can sometimes cause some interference, so we had to kill the last subject. This person died not too long ago. According to the procedure, it should have been six seconds ago in the real world."
Ji Yunding turned her head back and looked at the dagger in her hand, and suddenly remembered something. She walked in front of Ji Liuxing and looked up at this empty shell.
She knew that Ji Liuxing was not inside, but she just remembered a strange thing - what was the purpose of removing half of the body's internal organs?
"'I removed half of the body's internal organs, so there's a lot of space left'... So this sentence is not a joke."
The sharp dagger cut open the skin. Ji Yunding looked at the bright red throbbing blood vessels, internal organs and white jade bones. She didn't know whether her weird aesthetic sense suddenly came into play, or whether Ji Liuxing looked good even when cut open because of his blood.
A bottle, a glass bottle, with a letter stuffed inside.
[I'm sorry for disappearing without saying the last word to you, but this is the only way I can think of.
What's more regrettable is that this letter probably won't be of any objective help. Just think of it as my last chat with you, hoping it will make you feel better.
Just like when you suddenly asked me about blueberries when you thought I was going to jump off the building. It is indeed painful to be immersed in emotions, and maybe it will be better to change your focus a little.
It's normal to collapse after knowing this. I collapsed too, but I can't hold you back like you pulled me to jump off the building. As you said, there's really nothing you can do once a person is dead.
Maybe people only want to die when they are in pain, and they don't want to die when they are no longer in pain. I was so scared when I wrote this letter that my hands were shaking. It's very useless, right? I think so too.
But does this mean that I really had a very happy time before I died? Sorry, I have been living in a daze. As you said, I am often not clear-headed when thinking about my own affairs.
Living is supposed to be complicated and painful, but when I'm with you, everything seems to become simple and happy. It's simply a miracle.
There is no doubt that you have the ability to make people happy, and many people have become happy because of you, but I feel that you are very resistant to trusting others.
You said that other people will always change and that feelings are unreliable. You said that if you can't have it completely, you should always be prepared to lose it.
You're stressing this to yourself more than to me. You're like, you're afraid. I rarely feel this way, which may mean that you really value all the feelings you have. You think they have the power to hurt you, so you're afraid.
So from another perspective, all of us have died a long time ago, but as long as you still remember us, you will never lose us. All the memories and feelings you have will not change.
Whether we are fake or not, you must be real. As long as you are real, these memories and feelings are real, and we are real to you. Can I say that?
I know I can't change anything, but I don't want you to fall into despair. It breaks my heart just thinking about what you'll be facing.
Until now, I still don't know what my feelings for you are. I have secretly read a lot of information and consulted many people, but I am getting more and more confused.
I didn’t think so much about wanting to be together, wanting to have you, wanting to confirm the relationship, etc. But if you said it was just a love between friends or seniors, I would feel so happy when you responded.
To be honest, I didn't care about the result at all, but I felt lucky that you responded so seriously. I thought I was fine as long as I could let you choose a relationship that you felt comfortable with.
Now that I think about it, I just always wanted to give you as many options as possible.
I hope you can make choices for your own happiness, choose the path that will make you happier, instead of thinking in despair that you have been forced into a corner.
You understand, it's definitely not just me, everyone you cherish will think so, it's just that I can help them convey it to you. Is it considered... a privilege for monsters? I never thought that one day I would be grateful for my bloodline.
If you are willing to live, you will definitely be happy. You can create humans, define humans, and then there will be others to accompany you.
But it doesn’t matter what you choose, as long as it is the choice that you think will make you happier, then whatever you choose is not wrong.
By the way, regarding the promise, I love you until the moment I lose consciousness. This way, you can trust and enjoy other people's feelings more confidently, no matter what kind of feelings they are.
There will be many, many real people who fall in love with you. I am not completely unwilling to accept this... To be honest, I am very envious. But it would be nice if it was someone who could do better than me.
The last thing I can do is pray for you, but I don’t believe in God and I don’t know how to pray, so I will just wish you happiness on my own behalf.
I wish you stay away from despair and pain, and I wish you to firmly choose your own happiness.
Everything will be fine, it will be. 】
Ji Yunding was silent for a while, then looked up at Ji Liuxing and found that his wound had healed and he was tilting his head and smiling at her. But it was obviously just a beautiful empty shell with no one inside.
“…What is this?”
Throwing a lot of words at me and not listening to my reply is too much.
Even though it didn't solve the problem, it really made me feel a lot better. How did you do it?
Thinking of this, Ji Yunding sighed. At this point, no matter what he said, it would not be conveyed, and no matter how he expressed it, it would be meaningless.
She was about to turn around, but hesitated for a moment, looked at the still beautiful but lifeless face, raised her hand and pressed the back of Ji Liuxing's head, making him lower his head slightly.
I knew this guy had long eyelashes. The light golden eyelashes gently swept across Ji Yunding's face, which was a little itchy. Ji Yunding didn't have any other thoughts. If he had to say something, his lips were very soft.
Soon, Ji Yunding let go and shook his head.
What are you thinking about? This is not a fairy tale world. Only a broken brain would do such a useless thing.
"It's time to go."
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