The Chariot, the Death, the Moon and the Tower
"But I can't tell you for nothing. Let me do the math."
Ruguilu narrowed his eyes and smiled, as if he had already guessed what Ji Yunding wanted to know. He turned around and took out a deck of cards from the drawer of the table behind him.
"Pick four using your intuition so I can get to know you better."
"Tarot cards?"
Ji Yunding was a little surprised. He always felt that fortune-telling and divination were more suitable for the current environment. Tarot cards... seemed a bit inappropriate.
"This is 'calculating the heavens', and that is 'prophesying'. The form is just a carrier, and they both lead to the same end."
"The civilized world calls it 'superstition'." Ji Yunding couldn't help but complain.
"If you think the future cannot be changed, that's called 'superstition.' Whether it's calculating the future or making predictions, it's all about fighting against the heavens, not accepting your fate."
Ji Yunding somewhat agreed with this statement. Now it seemed that if he didn't draw, the other party didn't seem to be ready to let the conversation continue, so Ji Yunding randomly clicked a few cards through the iron railing.
Ruguilu placed the cards on the table and moved the table in front of Ji Yunding so that she could see them clearly.
"First one, I want to know what role you play."
Turning over the card, we see a warrior holding a spear sitting on a chariot.
"The Chariot, a card that symbolizes victory, upright."
Ruguilu nodded and said to himself,
"Power, glory and success; strong will and ego...it seems like we would be a good match."
"Why?"
"There are different levels of strength and weakness. I admire the strong, especially those with strong and determined wills like you."
Ruguilu smiled. His attitude towards Ji Yunding was friendly.
"Survival of the fittest. As long as you are strong, I will get along with you."
"What about the team leader?"
Ji Yunding was a little confused - his attitude towards Ji Liuxing just now was not very good.
"It's just an empty shell, but its natural physique is so outstanding. It's a waste of nature's gift."
At this point, Ruguilu shook his head with a look of obvious regret.
"He can't be called an independent individual, but more like a tool in a good-looking shell. Unfortunately, I can't persuade him."
These words made Ji Yunding silent for a while - it was not until this moment that she fully understood where the vague sense of unnaturalness that she had always felt from Ji Liuxing came from.
It's like treating yourself as a tool.
"The second card, I want to know your past and present."
Turning over the card, the God of Death riding a white warhorse and holding a black flag is looking down at all living beings.
"Death, a card that symbolizes endings, reversed."
Ruguilu's voice slowed down a bit, and he looked up at Ji Yunding, his smile becoming almost gentle.
“It seems that the last stage of your life was hard and cruel, and it caused irreversible damage to your heart.
But death is also rebirth, an end is also a beginning, and it is this experience that creates your unique personality.
You like this kind of change that you lead, don’t you? ”
Ji Yunding frowned and looked at the person opposite him, feeling a little wary.
His attitude could even be said to be somewhat flattering, but Ji Yunding did not understand the reason.
"From the looks of it, you're not one to beat around the bush, so I'll make it clear."
Ruguilu was not surprised by Ji Yunding's resistance, and simply explained,
"You are more than capable of becoming the winner according to the 'survival of the fittest' standard. However, there is still one step left. There is one more thing you must know."
Ji Yunding stared at the person opposite him and noticed that there was some excitement and joy hidden in his expression, but it made Ji Yunding feel more uneasy.
So Ji Yunding stretched out his hand and gripped the handle of the dagger, and his whole body tensed up.
"Don't worry, I can only play cards for now." Ruguilu raised his hands to show his friendliness, "If you use the power of oath here, the formation will react."
He pronounced the second half of his sentence more clearly, as if he was afraid that Ji Yunding had not remembered it.
Seeing that Ji Yunding had no intention of letting down his guard, he sighed and simply continued talking to himself.
"The third card, I want to know what you fear most."
Turning over the card, the moon is hanging high in the sky, divided into two parts: the full moon and the crescent moon by a person's profile.
"The Moon, a card that symbolizes change..."
Ruguilu looked at the cards, thought for a while, and suddenly laughed.
"The waxing and waning of the moon is related to the ebb and flow of the tide. You probably don't get along with the current head of this family, after all, her identity is 'the moon'.
You are not afraid of change, but you are afraid of "change" that you cannot control.
Therefore, you are always prepared to abandon and be abandoned. Unexpected losses make you tend to be extremely cautious about "possession" and "desire", which is your only psychological weakness.
Have you ever lost something important? Or, have you ever been without something for too long...”
"It has nothing to do with you."
Ji Yunding simply interrupted him and stared at the cards in his hand.
"I appreciate your idea. It's easy to change the hearts of old friends, but it's easy to change the hearts of old friends. The only person you can rely on is yourself."
Ruguilu saw that Ji Yunding was in a bad mood, so he changed the topic.
"But I am extremely loyal to the strong. As long as you are stronger than me, I will never betray you. If there is a chance in the future, I hope you can consider it."
Regardless of what Ji Yunding thought of this person, just this sentence showed that his intention of recommending himself was very sincere.
According to Ji Liuxing, this man is over a hundred years old. He is indeed not an ordinary person as he can say these words to someone who is not even twenty years old without any hesitation.
Ji Yunding frowned and stared at him for a while: "Why don't you go check your brain?"
"You don't understand how special your existence is, but you will soon find out."
Riddler, annoying.
"Speaking of blood rain, first we need to make some things clear."
Fortunately, Ruguilu was also aware of the situation. He tilted his head slightly and showed Ji Yunding the strange black scales on the side of his neck that were filled with negative energy.
These black scales were like snakes, reflecting slightly under the dim candlelight.
“You should know the basic knowledge of bipolar energy. The body of a living person is supported by positive energy, also known as psychic energy, while the body of a monster is the opposite.
By using negative energy for appropriate erosion, as long as it is operated properly, it is possible to achieve partial transformation of the body and form an antagonistic balance with the body's spiritual energy.
If my body becomes completely weird, I won’t be able to use all the abilities that rely on psionic energy, including the oath ability. So, I can only stay in this state. "
Ji Yunding looked at the last tarot card. Although he was a little concerned, the matter at hand was more important, so he listened quietly to Ru Guilu continue.
"Next, we need to clarify a concept - what is weird. Do you think Ji Liuxing is weird now?"
Ji Yunding thought for a moment and answered seriously: "The team leader said that he is not a complete human being now, but I don't think he is weird."
After all, according to Ji Liuxing's oath, if he was a monster, he would inevitably break the oath - considering that he would kill all the monsters he touched.
"Yes, the fundamental reason is that he has no core desire. In fact, in addition to his own special physique, this is also the reason why he has been able to remain untransformed for so long.
At the moment when the weirdness is formed, the core desire replaces the body as the carrier of consciousness, and the core desire is bred from the body, and its formation depends on the reaction between the body and consciousness.
You know, psychic energy can repair the body. So conversely, negative energy can also nourish core desires - this should not be surprising.
Therefore, people whose bodies are in a highly transformed state for a long time will soon become weird. Conversely, the same is true for possessed monsters, which will quickly corrode the body into a weird form.
But Ji Liuxing is a beautiful empty shell, with a weak sense of self and a very slow generation of core desires. I have to say, it is a very interesting idea.
But there are more perfect individuals. To be honest, although I had expected it, I never thought it would be like this before today. "
Ruguilu closed his eyes, and after a while he slowly opened them. The whites of his eyes had turned completely black, while his pupils had turned golden.
"How on earth did they do that? It's a living weirdo."
"……What did you say?"
"Don't look like that. You don't know how much I envy you, a higher being."
Ruguilu's tone didn't sound fake, it was as if his admiration was about to overflow.
In an instant, a fragment of memory like a lightning strike flashed through Ji Yunding's mind.
She looked at the human figure formed by the blood rain in front of her and stretched out her hand towards it.
At first, he felt like drowning in a sea of blood, but when he opened his eyes again, Ji Yunding saw the sky hanging upside down above him.
The starry sky at night, the forest and stream in the clear sky, the flowers, birds, insects and fish, the mountains and rivers in the snow and rain.
In the bustling square, there were so many people coming and going that Ji Yunding felt a little dizzy.
There is a fountain in the center of the square, with water droplets creating a small rainbow. There are benches in front of the fountain, where people sit and rest from time to time.
What are they talking about? Ji Yunding didn't quite understand, but he always felt envious.
"We can only watch, but you can still have it," it said. "If you can remember, maybe you can give us a chance to have it, too."
The sound of the dripping rain gradually stopped. Ji Yunding had never felt that the storage room was so dark. It was so dark that he could not see anything.
have……
——"It has been raining blood for three days. She should be dead."
——"Tsk, he's still alive..."
The light in front of my eyes stayed for a moment and then disappeared.
"Yes, if one is exposed to a large amount of negative energy in a short period of time and one's own desires are strong enough, it is possible that the core desires will be conceived before the body is transformed."
Ruguilu continued to speak, closing his eyes and resting for a while.
"I saw your core desire. A Blacksworn Warlock who will never break his oath based on his core desire... How terrifying."
"I'm leaving." Ji Yunding interrupted the topic, turned around and was about to leave, but heard a voice behind him.
“Card 4, I want to know what you’ve been avoiding.
The tower symbolizes collapse and is in the right position.
Although your rationality is extremely cautious and pessimistic about 'possession', your emotions seem to fall into joy before you.
You have good friends and choose who you want to be close to, but you are always alert that this is not permanent and everything is conditional.
From the looks of the cards, you don't have confidence that your friends can accept that you are weird. Presumably, they have all expressed a certain degree of disgust towards weirdness in front of you. "
Ruguilu picked up the last card on the table - the tower was struck by lightning and burned fiercely. The people in the tower fell from the tower with terrified expressions.
"The most fundamental contradiction between weirdness and humans lies in the weirdness's uncontrollable core desire. You should understand this."
It is impossible for the weird to fight against their core desires. Once their core desires are threatened, they can do anything, break any bottom line, and sacrifice anyone.
“…”
"If everyone around you knew that you were weird, how much of what you have now would be left?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Ruguilu immediately felt a strong murderous intent as if his throat was strangled, and he knew that his goal had been achieved.
Weirdos can't stay calm when their core desires are triggered.
"My wish today is that he will never be able to tell this story again."
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