You scared people away.
Having a core desire will lead to loss of control. This extreme uncontrollability is the root cause of being rejected by the real plane.
“Based on this premise, the biggest problem is core desire.”
Ji Yunding frowned. He began to feel uncomfortable at the mere thought of satisfying his core desire, as if he was forcing himself to breathe underwater.
If you can't solve it, then try to find a way to control it.
Ji Yunding forced himself to recall the whole thing, and finally lowered his eyes.
She knew clearly that using the oath would trigger the formation, and she knew clearly that it was inappropriate to take action under the circumstances, but she still did it.
Her mind went completely blank, leaving only the urge to kill him even if she had to die and abandon everything. She had never felt such a strong power when she used the oath before.
If, if the one who came to stop her was not Ji Liuxing who was capable of solving this matter, but Zheng Nuo, or Ah Qing...
This imagination made Ji Yunding feel desperate because she felt clearly what she would do.
Unable to control.
At this point, Ji Yunding began to think about another thing - why her core desire had never been triggered in the past ten years.
Because she was too used to having nothing but herself, she didn't really want to "own" anything in the past. She just wanted to move forward and get away from the past.
If we can keep going like this...
“Don’t think about owning anything other than yourself.”
This way, she wouldn't hurt anyone, and no one would know she was weird.
Ji Yunding hugged his knees, lowered his head, and listened to the sound of the clock hands turning in the room.
She was obviously used to it, and she had never felt any discomfort or bad before. She had been living like this for a long time, and she was just returning to her old state.
So lonely...
In the tidy but lifeless room, the only mess on the floor was the shoes thrown aside.
Ji Yunding rubbed his eyes and stared at his hands for a while.
I can't cry.
“I feel like crying.”
After Ji Yunding said this, of course, he did not get any response. The voice fell to the ground and disappeared.
When she was a baby, her cries also fell to the ground and shattered. From then on, Ji Yunding seemed to be unable to cry anymore.
No one will care anyway.
Suffocating silence lingered in the air, growing wildly in the small single room.
Time in the real plane proceeds in an orderly manner. After afternoon comes dusk, and after dusk comes night.
Ji Yunding just sat on the bed, quietly watching the light in front of him disappear bit by bit, and darkness seeped in through the window, bringing with it a few rays of disgusting moonlight.
I am too lazy to draw the curtains. Because even if I draw them, the moon will still be in the sky. It is just a case of covering one's ears and stealing the bell.
In the pitch-black room, a low, whispering voice slowly fell to the ground.
“I feel like crying…”
………………
A week later, on Monday, the weather was sunny and cloudless.
It has been a week since Ji Yunding moved out of the student dormitory. He has been keeping to himself and seems to have gradually gotten used to this kind of life.
It's just that compared to before, more people want to interrupt her peaceful life.
"Yunding, do you want to have dinner together?"
Zheng Nuo stopped Ji Yunding who was about to go to the training ground, and walked forward with her.
Ji Yunding was slightly slow for a moment, as if thinking for a while, and then he smiled and responded: "I have something to do tonight, sorry."
"What about tomorrow?"
"You have a full class tomorrow, I remember."
In any case, Ji Yunding was not someone who would let others change his mind. Zheng Nuo sighed, tried to chat for a few more words, and finally said goodbye at the training ground and went to different training areas.
Tang Yun felt a headache when he saw Ji Yunding training silently.
Ji Yunding has become even more silent since he came back, even more silent than when they first met.
It used to be a small octopus with its tentacles extended to mimic humans, but now it is like a stone without emotions.
Even after listening to Ji Liuxing's narration, Tang Yun still felt he had no idea where to start - they didn't know what Ji Yunding had said to that man, and why he became like this.
After discussing the training situation with Ji Yunding, Tang Yun took the initiative to ask: "Ji Yunding, is there anything you want to learn in the next stage?"
Before, Ji Yun would come to her from time to time with some immature ideas to ask about their feasibility, and Tang Yun was responsible as a training officer to help her analyze what kind of training these ideas needed.
Ji Yunding shook his head: "Thank you, Sister Tang, but I don't have any special ideas, just train according to the plan."
Just after she said this, Ji Yunding suddenly felt her feet hanging in the air. She turned around and saw Lin Shu lifting her up with a smile.
"I got you, newbie. You've been so arrogant lately. You didn't even go out to play when your seniors asked you to."
Wei Qianqiu stood aside, a hint of worry flashing under his cold expression.
"Sorry, senior, I still need training."
Ji Yunding's expression remained unchanged, he simply refused earnestly,
"Seniors, you guys aren't taking a day off today, right? Why are you here?"
"You remember all this? Sister Qianqiu and I... occasionally want to take a day off! Is that not possible? It's too boring, so I came to catch you. I'll call Xiaonuo later, it will be more lively with more people."
Tang Yun looked at him, thought for a moment, and then spoke again: "By the way, I didn't have time to tell you just now. I have a meeting this afternoon, so the training is suspended."
Ji Yunding was silent for a few seconds, then said: "Sorry, I'm a little tired and want to go back to rest. Seniors, just have fun, don't worry about me."
Ji Yunding had just walked out of the training ground and caught his breath, and was walking towards the dormitory when he saw Yang Yefeng walking towards him.
"Ji Yunding, long time no see."
"Sister Xiaofeng?" Ji Yunding was a little surprised. She thought Yang Yefeng should have submitted his resignation.
"Thanks to you, I think I can hold on a little longer." Yang Yefeng sighed, but hesitated to speak. "If you encounter difficulties, try to discuss it with others."
Ji Yunding responded casually. Yang Yefeng sighed, not knowing what to say.
After chatting for a few words and saying goodbye, Ji Yunding walked a few steps forward and saw an even more difficult person.
"Ah Qing?"
"Ji Yunding, what are you doing away from home every day? You haven't shown up for a week, and you don't care if the store closes?"
Li Fengqing walked over quickly and tapped Ji Yunding's forehead hard, as if he was complaining, but his tone was anxious and could not be concealed.
"Ah Qing, how did you get in here... It's illegal to climb over the wall here."
After all, this university is not an ordinary university, and the entry and exit control of outsiders is extremely strict.
"I walked in through the front door. Don't worry about it. I'm asking you, what's the matter you don't want to tell me?"
"I……"
Ji Yunding paused, then changed the subject.
"Ah Qing, are you having any trouble at the dessert shop?"
"Don't be stupid, answer me."
"Ah Qing, I don't want to talk about it."
Ji Yunding looked at Li Fengqing and spoke directly,
"I'm sorry. I can't tell you."
Ah Qing said that it was hard for her to sympathize with weird people. What Ah Qing hated most was people who couldn't control themselves.
The two of them sat in silence for a while. Li Fengqing sighed and had to give in. In fact, in their friendship, Ji Yunding always went along with Li Fengqing in most cases.
But Li Fengqing also understood Ji Yunding. Even if she said she didn't want to, there was really no one who could make her say it.
"Then you have to visit the store once in a while. You don't try new products, and you don't come to inspect the work. Are you still qualified to be the boss?"
Ji Yunding tentatively agreed and walked around the school with Li Fengqing, and he gave her some introductions like a tour guide.
Li Fengqing had said before that he wanted to come and take a look, but the procedures were complicated and the dessert shop was busy, so he kept putting it off.
On the way, Ji Yunding also met his senior sister Wang Le who was previously involved in Anle Tomb and two seniors who were involved in the Blood Rain Incident.
But after all, we were not very familiar with each other, so we just chatted for a few minutes and got by.
Ji Yunding finally sent Li Fengqing to the school gate, waved goodbye, and prepared to go back to the dormitory, but she saw someone who seemed to have nothing to do with her.
Xie Yian walked over, looked at Ji Yunding and sighed: "Xiao Ming asked you if you want to come for dinner tomorrow, she said she promised you before."
Ji Yunding wanted to refuse, but after hesitating for a moment, he nodded.
If we are of the same kind... let's chat for a while.
As soon as Ji Yunding left, Xie Yian shook his head, turned and walked towards the office, turned a few corners, and finally knocked on the door. He looked at the groups of people inside and sighed.
"She said yes."
"I see. That's good." Ji Liuxing nodded and glanced at the other group of members who looked surprised and dissatisfied.
"I really didn't expect you to come to me... Never mind, let's just settle the matter of your group speaking up for us last time."
If one group hadn’t come forward to guarantee the strange injury last time, their group would have been in big trouble.
After Xie Yian left, the office exploded with noise.
"No way? How can he convince Ji Yunding?"
"I don't know. I can't say I really know her. Anyway, it's good at least."
"Boss, why don't you go and try to persuade them? Logically, you are the one who knows the matter best."
Ji Liuxing sighed, a little frustrated: "I seem to be hated."
"Boss, haven't you almost recovered from this problem? Why is it happening again? I told you not to worry about being disliked all the time."
"No, it's really this time..." Ji Liuxing said halfway, and seeing that the people around him didn't quite believe him, he simply gave up explaining.
Zheng Nuo sat next to him and thought for a while, then asked, "Team Leader, why do you feel that Yun Ding hates you?"
Ji Liuxing was silent for a moment - this whole matter involved too many things, and if he told them all, it might have a bad impact on Ji Yunding - so he could only shake his head.
It is better to avoid associating Ji Yunding with the "Blacksworn Warlock" as much as possible.
"Yun Ding wouldn't hate someone for no reason. If you feel like she rejects you, maybe that's where the problem lies."
"Don't worry about the boss for now. He used to be afraid that his teammates would hate him for no reason, but he has gotten better in recent years. If that guy doesn't work, we can use plan B when the new guy comes back after the mission."
………………
The next day, Ji Yunding sat among a bunch of weirdos in Group 15, looked at the three dishes and one soup, ate a few bites casually, and then tried to ask.
"Sister Ming, what do you think of me?"
Yang Ming'an raised his head and looked at Ji Yunding carefully: "They look very similar to the same species. They really look very similar. If Xie Yi'an hadn't said it was impossible, we really wouldn't be able to tell them apart."
"Why did Team Leader Xie Yian say it's impossible?"
"The leader of your group..." Yang Ming'an hesitated and said half of his words, but Ji Yunding understood immediately.
"Weird, can you really not control your core desires?"
"I don't know. I haven't seen it, but there are always exceptions in this world."
Yang Mingan didn't know why Ji Yunding asked this, so he answered carefully.
"You see, even if I have become like this, Xie Yian still insists that I am still a human being. There are always various exceptions."
Ji Yunding nodded absentmindedly, lowered his head and stopped talking.
How could one become such a lucky exception? Ji Yunding never thought that he was lucky, nor did he have such confidence.
"By the way, I heard that you have started taking missions now? Do you feel a lot of pressure?"
Seeing that Ji Yunding had quieted down, Yang Mingan took the initiative to bring up the topic.
"Not bad. I might have to go on an assignment tomorrow and stay out for three or four days."
Ji Yunding really couldn't stand the recent influx of saturation attention - the more attention he received, the more uncomfortable he felt.
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