Chapter 13 Break Up
After Gu Cunxi got on the car, she leaned against the window and fell asleep again. It was the evening rush hour and the traffic was very congested. After a while, she heard Xin Hai calling her softly.
"Cunxi! Wake up, we're home, go back to sleep!"
Gu Cunxi opened his eyes slightly, calmed down, picked up his bag, opened the door and got out of the car. Xin Hai immediately turned off the car and walked quickly to Gu Cunxi's side.
"Xin Hai! Didn't you say you were going to celebrate your birthday? Why…"
"You look so unhappy, let's do it another day. It's your birthday, but it's nothing. I'll take you upstairs."
As he said that, Xin Hai put his arm around Gu Cunxi's shoulders and planned to take her upstairs.
"Xin Hai! No need, I can go up by myself. I'm... a little tired and want to go back to sleep for a while. I'll make it up to you another day for your birthday, okay?"
Xin Hai looked at Gu Cunxi's tired face and said worriedly: "I'm not very worried about you, I'll take you upstairs, and I'll go out to buy you some porridge later, you can drink a little and then go to sleep." Without waiting for Gu Cunxi to refuse, he hugged her and went upstairs. Xin Hai took her to the door and said without intending to go in: "Cunxi, I'll go buy some food and come back. If you are tired, take a nap. Give me your key so that you don't have to get up to open the door for me later."
Without thinking too much, Gu Cunxi took out the key, handed it to Xin Hai, and turned to walk into the bedroom. She didn't want Xin Hai to disturb her, but compared to this, she didn't want to talk even more, so she just let him do it. Gu Cunxi walked into the bathroom exhausted. She turned on the shower with her clothes on, turned the switch to cold water, and squatted under the shower!
The cold water soaked her body, and the coolness gradually brought her back to consciousness. She thought about Xiao Peiyin over and over again. She couldn't remember how long it had been since she had become so impulsive because of someone. If only there was a bathtub here, Gu Cunxi thought...
She has a problem. Whenever she is in a bad mood, she will soak herself in the bathtub, but there is no...
The sound of water splashing in the bathroom made her squat for a long time, her legs bent and hugging herself, until her whole body was shaking. She rarely did things that hurt her body, but today, for some reason, the memories of the past and Xiao Peiyin's nervous and helpless face always occupied her entire mind.
I have a splitting headache...
She hoped that the cold water would help her regain her sanity, so that she would no longer have any inappropriate emotions for Xiao Peiyin, and would no longer recall the past.
This confusing, complex, and inexplicable feeling made Gu Cunxi inexplicably sad, as if her chest was blocked by thousands of broken stones, causing her heart to ache...
If this kind of strangeness happened between a man and a woman, she could easily understand and accept it, but... Xiao Peiyin was obviously a woman! This was totally unreasonable! Gu Cunxi didn't dare to think about it. Could she really love a woman? But if it wasn't love, how could she explain her thoughts and feelings...
Her body was getting colder and colder. Gu Cunxi stood up, turned off the shower, and walked out of the bathroom. Her wet clothes were sticking to her and felt cold...
At this time, Xin Hai came back from outside. He didn't knock but opened the door directly with the key. Gu Cunxi was a little surprised how Xin Hai came in directly... Then she thought about it and realized that she had given him the key in a daze...
Xin Hai walked in and saw Gu Cunxi coming out of the bathroom, all wet. He was stunned for a moment and asked, "Did you take a shower? Why are your clothes wet?"
Xin Hai looked straight at her. Her body was vaguely visible under the wet clothes. Xin Hai's eyes moved from her cheek to her neck and then down. He couldn't help but shudder a few times and stood there in a daze, unable to speak.
Gu Cunxi noticed Xin Hai's different look, she turned her head away in panic, without responding, and hurried into the bedroom and closed the door. She found a new set of clothes and changed her wet clothes. After changing, Gu Cunxi stood by the window for a long time, with a chaotic mind.
It wasn't until she heard Xin Hai's voice outside the bedroom that she came to her senses and walked out.
In the kitchen, Xin Hai was busy putting the food he bought into the refrigerator. Seeing Gu Cunxi coming over, he raised the corner of his mouth and said, "I bought a bowl of porridge and put it on the table. Drink it while it's hot!"
"Don't you want to eat?" Gu Cunxi asked casually after looking at the vegetable porridge on the table.
"You eat first, as long as you are full, I am not hungry yet!"
Gu Cunxi sat at the table and slowly began to eat, as if he had lost his sense of taste and could not taste the flavor...
Xin Hai walked out of the kitchen and sat next to Gu Cunxi, looking at her and said, "I haven't seen you for two days. You've lost a lot of weight. Eat more and finish this!"
After that, he smiled and reached out to touch Gu Cunxi's cheek. Gu Cunxi frowned and subconsciously dodged backwards. She didn't like Xin Hai's intimate touch on her, which made her very uncomfortable. So she hurriedly drank a few mouthfuls and stood up and said, "I'm full, thank you for the porridge!"
"I'm a little tired and want to rest. Please drive slowly on the way back. I'm sorry that I can't spend your birthday with you!" Gu Cunxi said with a hint of apology, but his tone was cold and distant.
Xin Hai frowned slightly. He could hear Gu Cunxi's words hinting at him trying to get rid of him, and he felt secretly unhappy. He looked at Gu Cunxi, his tall, thin body hidden under a loose white shirt, looking shaky. His mind gradually lost control...
For several years, he had always been her boyfriend in name only. They had rarely even held hands or hugged each other! Xin Hai couldn't remember how many times Gu Cunxi had pushed him away over the years! But he was like a dog without dignity. No matter how she rejected him, he never gave up! Even a piece of iron would have warmed up after so many years...
But Gu Cunxi's heart is harder than iron!
The more Xin Hai thought about it, the angrier he became. He didn't know what else to do... to truly get her!
"Xin Hai! What's wrong with you?" Gu Cunxi asked with a frown, looking at Xin Hai's somewhat pale face.
Xin Hai stood there and looked at her straight, without saying a word. A fierce thought came into his mind, growing wildly and becoming increasingly uncontrollable.
He walked forward, pulled Gu Cunxi over, and held her tightly in his arms.
“!”
"Xin Hai!" Feeling his strangeness, Gu Cunxi suddenly panicked and raised his hands to struggle and try to push him away, but he was no match for his strength.
"Let me go!" Gu Cunxi growled anxiously. Xin Hai remained indifferent. He tightened his grip on her lower back and said, "Marry me! I will protect and take care of you forever. I really don't want to wait any longer!"
The force in his hands tightened more and more. Gu Cunxi felt that her chest could not breathe and her arms were aching from being restrained. She calmed herself down and spoke with a slightly hoarse voice: "You...you let me go first, don't do this!!"
"I won't let you go! Never! Gu Cunxi, you can only be mine! Marry me and be my wife. I don't want anyone else to be by your side. Today is my birthday, please don't chase me away, okay?"
After saying that, Xin Hai looked at the person he had been dreaming of for a long time, lowered his head and pressed hard on him.
“!”
Gu Cunxi knew what was going to happen next when she saw this! She turned her head away in fear, not giving Xin Hai a chance.
However, this evasion further infuriated Xin Hai, and his remaining rationality was completely exhausted. He was anxious and angry, and his rationality was out of control...
"Why are you hiding from me?" Xin Hai roared angrily, his voice even hoarser than before.
"Xin Hai!! Calm down!" Gu Cunxi began to get scared, her voice trembling. For some reason... at this moment, she missed Xiao Peiyin so much! She missed him so much...
Seeing Gu Cunxi struggling to break free, Xin Hai pushed her back with both hands and held her firmly against the white wall behind him.
As she stepped back, Gu Cunxi's hand bumped into the sharp corner of the bookcase. A fiery pain instantly spread throughout her body, leaving her with no strength to groan...
Perhaps because she had just taken a cold shower, her body was becoming increasingly sore and weak, with no strength at all. She looked at the irrational Xin Hai in horror, feeling very unfamiliar...
Maybe it was because she was too frightened, but the gentle look of Xiao Peiyin suddenly appeared in front of her eyes... Gu Cunxi wanted to reach out and push the person away, but Xin Hai held her hands tightly and she couldn't use any strength.
"We are boyfriend and girlfriend, Gu Cunxi! Why are you hiding?" Xin Hai roared angrily in Gu Cunxi's ear.
As he spoke, he grabbed her jaw with one hand, lowered his head and pressed Gu Cunxi's lips, his movements were rough and rude...
“Hmm!”
Xin Hai's restless hands were slowly unbuttoning Gu Cunxi's shirt, unbuttoning them one by one from the collar. Gu Cunxi was extremely frightened and struggled hard to free her hands from his grasp, pushing him away...
"Xin Hai! You...don't make me hate you, let go! What are you doing!" Gu Cunxi couldn't tolerate his kiss and turned her head away to avoid him.
When a person completely loses their mind, they are no different from animals. Xin Hai was like this at the moment! He could not hear Gu Cunxi's roar, and ignored her struggle. He just reached out and pinched her jaw fiercely, biting the corner of Gu Cunxi's lips as if to vent his anger.
"hiss…"
The pain on his lips came instantly, and Gu Cunxi thought of Xiao Peiyin... He closed his eyes in pain, but tears still flowed out uncontrollably.
It wasn't until he tasted blood in his mouth that Xin Hai gradually regained his sanity...
He looked at Gu Cunxi leaning against the wall with no expression on her face, her shirt disheveled and her lips bloodshot. Xin Hai suddenly felt a flash of regret. He instantly loosened his grip on Gu Cunxi, stepped back, looked at her, and said tremblingly, "I'm sorry! Did I... hurt you?"
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry... I don't know what's wrong with me!"
Gu Cunxi leaned against the wall, feeling sore and exhausted. She looked at Xin Hai with an unprecedentedly cold tone: "From now on, we're breaking up! From now on, live your life and never bother me again. Leave here immediately!!"
Xin Hai looked at her, regretting what he had just done. He apologized again, hoping that Gu Cunxi would not be so decisive: "I'm really sorry! You can hit me or scold me, but just don't talk about breaking up! I don't ask you to forgive my rudeness just now, I won't do this again!"
"I really... like you very much. I carefully want to protect you and love you, but... I'm sorry, I just... hurt you. This really wasn't my intention!"
Gu Cunxi looked at him coldly without any response. He picked up his phone, walked to the door, opened it, and said, "Are you going to leave on your own? Or do you want me to call the police?"
The harsh tone pierced Xin Hai's heart. He knew Gu Cunxi could do it, and she would really call the police...
He felt increasingly regretful and guilty about his actions. He lowered his head and stood quietly for a long time. Then he picked up his coat and walked out. When he passed by Gu Cunxi, he whispered, "I won't break up with you!"
Watching Xin Hai leave, Gu Cunxi slammed the door shut, leaned against it, and slowly slid down. She felt a hint of warmth on the back of her hand. She looked down and realized that it was the hand that had just been injured that was bleeding...
Some pain...
This time, she finally understood her own heart! Without a trace of hesitation, the moment Xin Hai kissed her, she felt disgusted. If she loved him, even just a little bit, how could she feel disgusted...
After thinking this through, Gu Cunxi decided to draw a clear line with Xin Hai. She picked up her phone and deleted all his contact information, deciding not to get entangled with him anymore!
Gu Cunxi walked into the bedroom, took out a bandage and simply bandaged the wound. He found mouthwash in the bathroom and held it in his mouth for a long time before spitting it out...
I felt it was not enough, so I rinsed it a few more times, but it was still not enough...
She looked at herself in the mirror, haggard. The cuffs of her shirt were stained red from the blood dripping from her hands, and the corners of her mouth were a little red and swollen. At this moment, she wished Xiao Peiyin could be by her side...
The funny thing is that she didn't even have her contact information. When she faced Xin Hai's loss of control just now, the only person she thought of in fear was Xiao Peiyin!
A crazy thought even popped up in her mind! She actually hoped that the person who had just kissed her could be her!
Even if I don't want to admit it, but... it seems I have no choice but to admit it!
"Xiao Peiyin...I seem to have really fallen in love with you!" Gu Cunxi murmured, with a wry smile on his face.
In the corner of the living room, Gu Cunxi sat slumped aside, lost in thought for a long time, his heart empty...
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