Chapter 19 Out of Control
Gu Cunxi returned to her workstation, feeling depressed. She was a little angry that Pei Yin had lied to her, but she was even more worried about the real reason why Pei Yin had lied to her. It wasn't because he was allergic to dust, but he had to wear a mask. Was he trying to cover something up?
Could it be a skin allergy? But even if that was the case, he wouldn't have lied to her. Pei Yin hadn't sent her a message in nearly two hours since they parted yesterday. Even if An An was clamoring for food, she wouldn't be so busy that she didn't have time to send a message. Unless she really forgot, or had a fight with Chen Feng.
When Gu Cunxi was half asleep yesterday, he heard her talking on the phone. Although he didn't hear it clearly, he could tell that Pei Yin was in a bad mood. Could it be that they had a quarrel because he came home late?
Could it be that she was wearing a mask to cover up the marks that Chen Feng might have hit her?
But it wasn't too late for her to get home... Gu Cunxi felt herself getting more and more confused. She was worried about Xiao Peiyin, but she didn't want to force her. She thought of Chen Feng, a man she had only met once. He looked gentle and peaceful, not like an extreme person...
She recalled Cheng Sheng's evaluation of Chen Feng that day: "meticulous"
Pick her up, send her lunch, and arrange for him to work at a friend's company
Protection and control are two sides of the same coin! Gu Cunxi suddenly thought of this sentence. Cheng Sheng's meticulous care might also mean a strong desire for control. If so! Would he always control Xiao Peiyin's life? When she went back at that time yesterday, perhaps Chen Feng had some suspicions!
Thinking of this, Gu Cunxi could no longer sit still. She stood up and walked towards the office, pushing open the door. Xiao Peiyin was a little surprised to see Gu Cunxi. She thought Gu Cunxi would ignore her today...
Gu Cunxi closed the door, walked in, sat across from her, and said with a smile, "Would you like to have lunch together?"
"You go with Cheng Sheng. I brought some food from home," Xiao Peiyin replied softly, not daring to look up at her.
"Is that so? Okay then, what do I need to bring?" Gu Cunxi asked again
"No!"
"Would you like some milk tea or yogurt?"
"I don't want to drink anymore!"
"Does your face still hurt?"
"A little bit"
"!!" Xiao Peiyin answered subconsciously, and as soon as she finished speaking, she realized that she had let the cat out of the bag. She suddenly panicked.
As expected! As smart as she is, I can't fool her!
She stared at Gu Cunxi blankly, without the smile she had when she entered the door. She had a cold face and looked at herself sharply.
Gu Cunxi stood up and walked in front of Xiao Peiyin. She bent down and raised her hand to remove the covering on her face. Xiao Peiyin turned her head away, held her hand and said softly, "Don't look!"
Seeing Xiao Peiyin's sad look, Gu Cunxi felt a dull pain in her heart. She frowned, broke away from Xiao Peiyin's hand, and carefully took off the mask that covered half of her face. Her movements were gentle for fear of hurting her. The redness and swelling on her cheeks were instantly reflected in her eyes, and the corners of her mouth were also slightly red.
Gu Cunxi lost her mind a little. She clenched her hands tightly, letting her nails dig into the flesh, causing a little pain.
She turned her head away, unable to bear to look any longer, and turned her back to Xiao Peiyin, her breathing becoming increasingly rapid. Peiyin looked at Gu Cunxi's back and didn't know how to tell her that she wasn't in that much pain anymore, so don't worry!
In the small office, the two of them were silent for a long time, and no one spoke. Pei Yin just looked at Gu Cunxi standing in front of her quietly, motionless. After a long time, she turned around, walked to Xiao Peiyin, squatted down, and asked with a choked and trembling voice: "Does it hurt?"
"It doesn't hurt anymore! It was a little painful last night, but I applied an ice pack. Don't worry!" Xiao Peiyin chuckled and shook her head.
Gu Cunxi could hardly contain the sadness in her heart. She stood up and hugged Pei Yin tightly in her arms. She lowered her head and kissed her hair, and said gently: "Did...he hit you?"
Xiao Peiyin leaned in Gu Cunxi's arms and nodded silently
"Have you been happy these years?" Gu Cunxi asked again. The person in her arms still didn't speak. She shook her head silently...
"If you are not happy... why do you insist? Because of the child?" Gu Cunxi asked in a hoarse voice, his throat was as sore and dry as when he had a high fever yesterday.
Xiao Peiyin wanted to tell Gu Cunxi that it was not her insistence but Chen Feng's unwillingness to let her go. There were too many things behind this marriage that she had no control over, including the past of her parents and her family.
Without waiting for Xiao Peiyin's answer, Gu Cunxi did not ask any more questions. She thought that she probably did not want to talk about it.
In the small office, the two of them hugged each other. Gu Cunxi's movements were gentle, and he kept patting her shoulders. The person in his arms moved slightly, and a pair of warm and strong hands were wrapped around Gu Cunxi's waist.
After a long silence, Xiao Peiyin finally spoke, but she didn't give a clear answer to Gu Cunxi's question. She only said, "I'm not a child anymore!!"
Gu Cunxi heard a thousand words in a short sentence. She understood the sadness and inexplicable helplessness hidden by Xiao Peiyin. If only... if only there was a chance! Gu Cunxi really wanted to leave a harbor for her to return to her childhood!
"Pei Yin!" Gu Cunxi raised his hand and rubbed her long hair. He paused and said, "Do you believe it? There will always be someone who loves you and will let you be a child again!"
Xiao Peiyin's hands around her waist trembled. She believed it, but she didn't think such luck would come to her. No one... could let her be a child again!
Gu Cunxi felt the person in his arms trembling slightly, she was crying...
She lowered her head and wanted to look at her, but Xiao Peiyin hurriedly dodged away. She raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face. Gu Cunxi didn't know how to comfort her. It seemed that all words had become pale at this moment...
For the first time, Gu Cunxi felt the urge to protect someone, this person she held in her arms. She wanted to stand in front of her and shield her from all the harm and suffering that was coming her way. Her once-dead heart seemed to come alive again, and she had renewed hope for life and love. She seemed to have the urge to become stronger again. She had done it for herself and her parents before, and now she was actually thinking about trying again for Xiao Peiyin! She wanted to give her back the paradise she had lost in her past life!
"Xiao Peiyin!" Gu Cunxi tightened his arms, holding her in his embrace and said softly, "Believe me! Someone will definitely take you back to your childhood paradise!"
Perhaps life ultimately hinges on wealth and power! Gu Cunxi could no longer hide from her own heart. No matter how much she hated to admit it, she had to admit it! She truly had fallen in love with Xiao Peiyin! She couldn't bear to see her tears, couldn't bear to see her in distress. Seeing her hurt made her feel guilty and heartbroken. Hearing her cry made her heart ache. Seeing her helpless, she wanted to give her the strength to fight the world. With such feelings, Gu Cunxi could no longer find an excuse to deceive herself that it was just a friendship between friends!
"Cunxi! Thank you!" Xiao Peiyin smiled and nodded.
Gu Cunxi lowered his head and met Xiao Peiyin's gentle gaze. Her red and swollen cheeks and the wound on her lip were deeply engraved in Gu Cunxi's heart through his eyes. She felt sorry for her and had the urge to kiss her. Thinking of her facing Chen Feng's hurt alone last night, she must have felt scared and helpless inside...
Thinking of this, Gu Cunxi's defenses collapsed. All those morals, bottom lines, and principles were no longer important!
She looked at her, her breathing gradually quickened. The next second, regardless of morality and right and wrong, she leaned over and kissed Xiao Peiyin's lips, licked the wound at the corner of her mouth, and held her tightly in her arms with both hands.
“!!”
The sudden kiss made Xiao Peiyin tense up instantly, even forgetting to breathe. Her mind went blank, surprised that Gu Cunxi would actually kiss her! !
The warmth and soft touch from his lips softened her body. Gu Cunxi's movements were very gentle. Xiao Peiyin smelled the faint mint scent on her body and felt a little intoxicated...
Gu Cunxi did not kiss her further, but just licked her wound gently, fearing that he would hurt her. After a long time, he withdrew his body with satisfaction, looking at her with eyes full of tenderness.
"When you look at the wound at the corner of your mouth again, will the person you think of be me?"
Xiao Peiyin was stunned by Gu Cunxi's sudden kiss. Her heart was pounding like thunder and she was at a loss for words...
What were they doing just now! Isn't this something that only happens between men and women? How could Gu Cunxi do that?
But he actually didn't hate it, he even thought that kind of intimacy was beautiful, and he was still greedy! Xiao Peiyin was shocked by his true inner thoughts.
The heart-pounding feeling I had yesterday became even more pronounced because of Gu Cunxi's kiss!! But...
No! She's already married! How could I be worthy of Gu Cunxi like this! Thinking of this, Xiao Peiyin felt depressed and wanted to cry...
Or... forget it! I can't give her anything. Even if she doesn't dislike it, even if she likes it a little bit, no! Not just a little bit, but really, obsessed with Gu Cunxi's intimacy with me just now, that kiss... It's like a long-suppressed heart suddenly has an outlet, a kind of release! But even if she likes it, what can I do... There is no possibility between her and Gu Cunxi! !
After thinking this through, Xiao Peiyin bit her lip tightly, feeling as if a piece of flesh had been cut out of her heart by a knife. She spoke with difficulty, her voice low and deep: "Gu Cunxi! We are women, how can we..."
"I'm married, and An'an is five years old! Gu Cunxi!" Xiao Peiyin said softly, with a hint of sadness in her tone.
Relatively speechless...
After hearing Xiao Peiyin's words, Gu Cunxi gradually regained her sanity. She then realized how out of control her behavior had been!
It turns out that when you love someone, the emotions in your heart are really out of control! When the two of them looked at each other just now, there was only one thought in her mind.
Just kiss her!
Those inexplicable complex emotions at first, turned out to be because he fell in love with her. Although she had never loved a man, Gu Cunxi had never thought that one day she would love a woman!
From the first day she arrived at the company and the first time she saw her, her heart was already on the verge of losing control!
He didn't know how to explain his behavior to Xiao Peiyin. She was a married woman with children. How would she think of him? How would she view him? Would she think he was a bit abnormal?
Gu Cunxi felt that things were getting a bit out of hand. The temperature in the office made her feel hot. When she kissed her just now, she felt for the first time that kissing could be so wonderful! It was a feeling that only came with the person she loved!
It's better not to tell her about your feelings for the time being. After all, she has a family and she can't be so immoral. But how can she have the nerve to talk about morality after doing something like that...
"I'm sorry! I just... I just don't want you to think of his hurt when you see his wound. Isn't it okay... between friends?"
"Just now, I'm so sorry! I... didn't mean any harm!"
This explanation was too pale. Gu Cunxi could no longer find any better excuse. She said it in one breath and turned to flee the office. She didn't dare to stay there any longer...
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