Chapter 27 You Are Not Qualified
Xiao Peiyin had been busy with household matters all night. Finally finishing her chores and having some free time, she closed the bedroom door tightly, walked to the window, and looked out at the lights of the countless homes. She thought of Gu Cunxi and wondered how her meeting with that man was going...
She took out her phone and opened the WeChat chat interface. The top chat was Gu Cunxi's. Since adding each other as friends, the two of them had rarely chatted...
Xiao Peiyin clicked on Gu Cunxi's profile picture, a gentle smile on her lips. She stared at it for a long time. The picture showed a sunset at the seaside. Gu Cunxi was standing in the distance with her back to the camera. The sunset glow was a faint orange-red. Her back was straight and slender, standing quietly by the sea, looking a little lonely...
She wanted to send a message to Gu Cunxi, asking her if she enjoyed dinner, whether she would consider the man she met, and...if she could stay! Don't leave!
Xiao Peiyin deleted and typed the content in the chat box, typed and deleted it again, and finally only four words were left.
【Have you returned home?】
Her finger lingered on the send button. She hesitated for a long time before deleting the message. She locked the screen and tossed the phone aside.
If she holds on a little longer, she will give up soon! This is good for both of us... Don't bother her! Xiao Peiyin thought so painfully, and a wave of bitterness rose in her heart.
Even if they love each other, Gu Cunxi will get married one day!
Love between two women has no future in this world! Moreover, the relationship between them is full of taboos. She is not as brave as Gu Cunxi...
If An An knew that her mother fell in love with a woman, what would she think? How would her parents look down on her with strange eyes? What words would they use to humiliate Gu Cunxi and Chen Feng... If he knew, it would definitely hurt Gu Cunxi.
Xiao Peiyin increasingly hated her cowardly self. She was always afraid, always worried and hesitant. Only in the dead of night did she have the courage to face her inner feelings and dare to say, "I like you!"
Tonight, there are many bright stars in the sky, and the moon is high in the sky. Xiao Peiyin looks at the night sky. At this moment, she really wants to say to Gu Cunxi: "The moonlight tonight is so beautiful!"
On the other side, Gu Cunxi drove very fast after leaving the hotel. Love songs were playing in the car. Every word seemed to be written for her. Every word described the absolute impossibility between her and Pei Yin...
When Gu Cunxi thought of Xu Shengnan's evaluation of Chen Feng, her heart was in a mess. She would rather live with someone like Chen Feng than accept herself, just because she was a woman like her. It seems that some things are destined to be unchangeable and there is no possibility at all!
Thinking of this, Gu Cunxi laughed uncontrollably in the car, his eyes swollen and sore, and the smile became moist...
She parked the car downstairs and sat in it for a long time, playing Pan Yueyun's song over and over again.
Am I the Person You Love Most?
The lyrics are so catchy, the more I listen to them the sadder I feel...
It was really despicable to say that she loved someone else's wife, but if you put it another way, the person she loved was with someone else, eating and sleeping with him...
It seems that saying it this way is not so despicable, but rather a bit lonely...
Gu Cunxi picked up her phone and wanted to send a message to Pei Yin. She was worried that Chen Feng would be upset because she sent her home. She looked at the screen and carefully considered her words, but ultimately did not send the message...
How could I care about her? A colleague or a friend? I had no right to care about her. I didn't even have the right to care about her...
Gu Cunxi smiled helplessly, she pressed the lock screen button and threw her phone on the seat...
Looking up at the quiet street outside, she opened the skylight and reclined in her chair. The dark night sky made her fall into deep thought. Moonlight shone in through the window, revealing a hint of coolness. Gu Cunxi thought of tomorrow's annual meeting and felt a tinge of anticipation. During that song, she would probably be looking at herself intently...
Thinking of this, Gu Cunxi stood up, adjusted the back of the chair, closed the sunroof, turned off the engine and got out of the car.
She looked forward to tomorrow and walked back home quickly.
She needed to familiarize herself with the music sheet for tomorrow's song. She didn't want to make any mistakes in front of Xiao Peiyin. After returning home, Gu Cunxi took out the Martin OM42 she had bought when she first started working.
At that time, her salary was not much, but because of her hobby, she was willing to spend money. She saved and saved for a long time before buying this folk guitar worth 47,000...
During her working period, she also had a part-time job as a resident singer in a bar, not for money, but just because she loved music. Seeing others listening to her songs, Gu Cunxi was satisfied.
However, as she received a promotion and a raise, her work became increasingly busy, and she rarely went to the bar to sing anymore. After buying this guitar, she only used it on important occasions and during resident performances. After leaving North City, Gu Cunxi never played this guitar again. Every string seemed to bear the traces of the past, making her afraid to pluck it lightly...
She carefully wiped the strings and fingerboard. The retro-colored glossy paint gleamed in the dark night. Gu Cunxi found the music score and read it over and over again.
She has a strong ability to read music and can play it easily at a glance. The whole piece is not difficult at all. The prelude only has a short section of string hammering and glissando...
Gu Cunxi glanced at the time. It was a little late. If she played the piano at this time, she would be scolded. She thought to herself, "I'd better get up and practice tomorrow!"
After putting the guitar into the guitar case, Gu Cunxi got up and walked into the bathroom, washing up in a hurry. Perhaps because he had been driving for a long time, the moment he lay on the bed, he felt sleepy and fell asleep in a daze.
On the same night, Xiao Peiyin stayed awake all night because of Gu Cunxi!
The next morning, Gu Cunxi made herself breakfast. After eating, she picked up the guitar and familiarized herself with the music. Because she hadn't played for a long time, her hands were a little unfamiliar. When she played the chords blindly, she couldn't press the frets correctly.
This won't do. I must practice this set of music thoroughly before noon. Gu Cunxi thought to himself
She wants to dedicate this song to Xiao Peiyin, and there can't be any mistakes!
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Xiao Peiyin couldn't sleep until the dawn, and then she slowly fell asleep. As a result, she heard An An complaining about being hungry early in the morning...
Helplessly got up and hurried into the kitchen
Sometimes Xiao Peiyin would think that if it weren't for An An, she wouldn't have been so exhausted all these years. Without Chen Feng, she would be free from all worries. But An An did bring her a lot of joy and happiness. She was her only spiritual support in this broken marriage...
Chen Feng arrived at the kitchen at some point. He stood by the door, looking at Pei Yin, and said coldly, "I'll take you to the hotel this afternoon!"
"Also! From now on...you should ride less in Gu Cunxi's car. Don't you think it's dirty?" Chen Feng said with contempt.
“!”
As soon as she finished speaking, Xiao Peiyin's movements suddenly stopped, and her hand holding the knife trembled a little. She turned her head to look at Chen Feng and said sternly: "What do you mean by that?"
"Don't you understand what I mean? That car was bought for her by the old man sitting in the passenger seat yesterday, right? She was riding the bus a while ago, but now she's driving a Mercedes. A woman who just came here with no roots and no one to rely on can only sell her beauty for material comfort. Stay away from a woman like that!"
There was a fire burning in her heart! Xiao Peiyin was immediately furious, and she felt that the man in front of her had a dirty mind that made her sick! She could tolerate Chen Feng's harm to her, but she could never tolerate Chen Feng's verbal attacks on Gu Cunxi.
"Chen Feng, don't you think you're disgusting? It's only now, seven years later, that I realize how filthy your thoughts are! Don't slander Gu Cunxi in front of me! She bought the car herself! Do you think a woman is useless without a man? You think too highly of yourself. When it comes to being filthy, I can't find anyone who can compare to you!"
Chen Feng didn't expect that his remarks about Gu Cunxi would cause such a big reaction from Xiao Peiyin.
She actually called him dirty! Is this still his usually good-tempered wife? Chen Feng thought to himself, anger rising in his heart. His eyes gradually darkened, and he pointed at Xiao Peiyin and said, "Say it again!"
"I'm dirty? You've had enough of the good life, and now you're attacking me here because of an outsider? Which of you didn't give me? Without me, you're nothing! Is Gu Cunxi good in every way in your eyes? You seem to care about her a lot? Do you like her?"
Chen Feng's question hit the secret in Xiao Peiyin's heart, making her stunned on the spot, with an imperceptible bitter smile on her face.
I like her! Xiao Peiyin secretly admitted it in her heart, but she didn't dare to say it out loud. She shook her head helplessly, her tone cold and emotionless, and said: "Have I asked you for anything in all these years? I have never asked you for those brand-name bags. Do you think that's all I want? I don't care! That's right, Gu Cunxi is good in everything in my eyes. I care about her very much. Is that okay? "
"Oh! You care about her? You like her? It's a pity that she's not a man and can't satisfy you in bed, but I can!!"
After saying that, Chen Feng grabbed Xiao Peiyin's arm and pulled her towards the bedroom.
Thinking back to the last time, Xiao Peiyin was instantly filled with fear. All she could think about was Gu Cunxi. She couldn't let Chen Feng touch her again! Absolutely not!
Her arm, being tightly grasped, felt a slight pain, as if her bones were about to be crushed. Xiao Peiyin struggled hard to break free from Chen Feng's restraints...
She walked quickly to the kitchen and picked up a fruit knife.
“!!”
"What are you doing?" Chen Feng had never seen Xiao Peiyin like this before. The knife in her hand shone with a cold light, which frightened him.
Over the years, he knew that Xiao Peiyin was gentle and had always been obedient to him since they got married. He didn't expect that she would have such a big change today because of Gu Cunxi!
"Xiao Peiyin, what do you mean by pointing a knife at me? Why, because of Gu Cunxi, you are so extremely resisting me? Who is she to you, and who am I to you? Are you out of your mind?" Chen Feng growled angrily
"Chen Feng, stop pushing me! I've endured so much from you over the years. You've exploited my weaknesses and exploited my vulnerability to force me to compromise. I've had enough! I won't tolerate it anymore! You have no right to comment on the kind of person Gu Cunxi is. You don't deserve to! Don't insult her in front of me. Put away your disgusting, dirty thoughts!"
After saying that, Xiao Peiyin put away the knife and walked into the bedroom. She quickly changed her clothes and fled from home in a hurry...
Walking down the street, her frail figure swayed in the cold wind. Chen Feng's touch had just made her feel extremely sick. At that moment, she missed Gu Cunxi immensely, missed her embrace and her kiss...
The cold in Jianghuai City in February was biting. Xiao Peiyin wrapped herself in her coat and unknowingly walked to the downstairs of Gu Cunxi's building. Her car was quietly parked at the door. Xiao Peiyin walked over and stood beside the car, gently stroking the driver's door handle. Imagining that Gu Cunxi had touched this place before, she felt a sense of happiness as if she were holding her hand...
At this moment, she really wanted to walk up and knock on Gu Cunxi's door, to hug her tightly, and to indulge in the warmth and comfort of her arms one last time...
But...looking at the stairs in front of me, I don't even have the courage to lift my feet.
Not disturbing her is the only way to love her!
She stood downstairs and looked up, counting the floors one by one, and found the floor where Gu Cunxi was. After looking for a while, she looked away, lowered her head, and turned to leave...
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