Chapter 34: Defeated by Gender
When Gu Cunxi heard Xiao Peiyin say she liked him with a smile in her eyes, his heart skipped a beat. The impulse that he had finally suppressed suddenly surged out again, and his throat became dry.
I still need to be more restrained... Besides, Pei Yin is still Chen Feng's wife. Although they express their feelings for each other, this kind of relationship...
Thinking of this, Gu Cunxi's heart sank. This was probably the most shameful thing she had ever done in her life. Reason told her that she shouldn't do this, but when facing Xiao Peiyin, she forgot everything...
In fact, Gu Cunxi didn't dare to think about it. If Xiao Peiyin couldn't get rid of Chen Feng in a short time, then the matter would be exposed. What would they face? How would he protect her from being hurt? When he thought about this, Gu Cunxi felt more depressed.
No matter what, even if one day she would be attacked by everyone, as long as Xiao Peiyin was by her side, it would be fine! Gu Cunxi was only afraid that he would not be able to protect her!
"What are you thinking about? Why are your brows all furrowed together..." Xiao Peiyin reached out and stroked Gu Cunxi's brows, his movements gentle.
"Pei Yin, have you ever thought about what kind of life you want?" Gu Cunxi lowered his head and asked calmly.
Xiao Peiyin was slightly startled. She had never really thought about this question before, or rather, she couldn't think about it! Xiao Peiyin only knew what kind of life she didn't want to live, but after falling in love with Gu Cunxi, she had too many extravagant hopes.
"Yeah! I've been thinking about life with you. We'll have a place to call home, not too big, but cozy enough. We'll never be separated from each other again, and we won't have to say goodbye. We can see each other every day forever!!"
When she said this, Xiao Peiyin's eyes became bright, full of longing, her tone was as gentle as water, the corners of her mouth slightly raised, looking at Gu Cunxi and smiling.
She has always been introverted in relationships and not good at saying sweet words. She is always shy to say those sweet words with strong love. Perhaps she is already past the age of listening to love. Instead of constantly expressing love, it is better to prove the sincerity of love in every little detail of life.
Gu Cunxi's heart pounded like thunder after hearing these words. She spoke in a calm tone, but every word hit her heart, stirring up waves like a huge rock dropped into water...
At this moment, many images emerged in Gu Cunxi's mind, just like what Pei Yin said, a warm little home, a lover lying beside her, three meals a day, going out and coming back together, this is what she wants!
"Pei Yin, I will give you a home!" Gu Cunxi said firmly, looking at her with firm and bright eyes.
Gu Cunxi sat up and reached out to pull her over, letting her sit closer to him... leaned over and kissed her, roaming over her thin lips, gently exploring, savoring the softness that belonged to Xiao Peiyin. Her restless hands rubbed Xiao Peiyin's back lightly through her clothes, her fingers tracing the lines of her slender back. She leaned her body back slightly, tightening her hands
The body is getting softer...
The sudden force made Xiao Peiyin lose her balance and she fell on top of Gu Cunxi...
"Pei Yin! What should I do? I seem to be gradually becoming addicted to you!" Gu Cunxi whispered in her ear with a hoarse voice.
A warm breath fell on Xiao Peiyin's ears, and Gu Cunxi's words made her imagine things. Her face turned red in an instant, and she called out to her in embarrassment: "Gu Cunxi!!"
As soon as she said that, Xiao Peiyin realized that her voice was so low and hoarse, and her throat felt hot as if it was on fire. She didn't know how tempting such a voice would be when it fell into Gu Cunxi's ears.
"I think I do have a talent, only for you!"
Gu Cunxi's warm breath continued to fall on her neck. Pei Yin felt her body getting hotter and hotter. She hurriedly stood up and said, "Cunxi! You... should be more restrained."
Seeing Xiao Peiyin standing in front of her with a blushing face and lowered head in embarrassment, Gu Cunxi chuckled softly. Just as she was about to speak, she heard the door open hastily. She turned around in surprise and saw Chen Jiamao walking in with a large bouquet of roses in his hand.
“…”
When Chen Jiamao saw the wound on Gu Cunxi's face, he frowned immediately, walked over quickly, put the flowers on the bedside and said, "How did you get hurt like this? What happened? Who hit you?" Chen Jiamao said anxiously, reaching out his hand to touch Gu Cunxi's cheek.
Seeing this, Gu Cunxi immediately turned his head away and saw Xiao Peiyin standing beside him, his eyes were unhappy and with a hint of forbearance.
"Does the wound hurt? What happened? Who hit you?"
"The problem has been solved. It's just a superficial wound. It will be fine in two days!" Gu Cunxi said in a light tone, avoiding Chen Jiamao's gaze.
Chen Jiamao looked at her, a trace of pity flashed in his eyes, but Gu Cunxi deliberately avoided his concern and looked very distant, which made Chen Jiamao helpless. He liked the coldness of Gu Cunxi and was attracted by it, but at the same time, this coldness often hurt his heart.
"Do you have to be so cold to me?" Chen Jiamao retracted his hand, sat on the edge of the bed, sighed, and said, "I just want to help you as a friend. I know you have someone you like, and I won't force it. I just hope you can give me a fair chance and try to accept my kindness. Okay?"
Gu Cunxi was worried about Xiao Peiyin's mood. The more Chen Jiamao said this, the more worried she became. Gu Cunxi turned her head and looked at Peiyin standing there expressionlessly, twisting the corner of her clothes with her fingers, feeling more depressed.
I don't know what she is thinking at this moment...
Xiao Peiyin has been in a very low mood since Chen Jiamao came in. Although she trusts Gu Cunxi's feelings for her, she still feels a pang of pain in her heart when she sees someone boldly expressing his love for the person she likes in front of her.
The man in front of her was of outstanding temperament, wearing a well-tailored suit, with a refined look between his eyebrows. He sat next to Gu Cunxi, and the two of them looked very well matched. However, as a woman, facing such a moment, she didn't even have the qualifications to step forward and declare her identity...
"I think I've made it very clear. I have someone I love in my heart, and I won't try to accept other people's kindness. Love is not fair. I will never accept your kindness. It's unfair to the person I love. Mr. Chen, please leave these thoughts to others!" Gu Cunxi refused bluntly.
"The one you love?" Chen Jiamao was stunned for a moment, frowning and asking, "You insisted so much for him, and rejected me so much for him. I really want to know, does he love you? Where is he now that you are hurt like this?"
Gu Cunxi was speechless after being asked by Chen Jiamao. She didn't know how to answer for a moment. It wasn't that she didn't dare to admit it, but her relationship with Pei Yin was already full of obstacles. If she confessed everything in front of Chen Jiamao at this moment, she was not sure whether Chen Jiamao would become another obstacle between her and Pei Yin in the future...
But what would Pei Yin think if she didn't say anything? How could Chen Jiamao give up so easily? Sooner or later, everyone would know that she loved Pei Yin. The hardships and obstacles that were coming would come sooner or later. She could endure them all, but she couldn't let Xiao Peiyin be sad!
Seeing Gu Cunxi's long silence, Xiao Peiyin felt a sense of loss in her heart, her eyes were swollen, and her tear glands seemed to be about to lose control.
I can’t let Gu Cunxi see me like this, she will worry about me, Xiao Peiyin thought secretly in her heart, turned around and walked out the door...
“!”
Gu Cunxi panicked when he saw her lost figure. His heart seemed to be cut by a sharp knife and it was filled with pain.
"The one I love! He has always been by my side, but Mr. Chen just didn't notice!" Gu Cunxi responded before Xiao Peiyin left.
“!!”
Chen Jiamao was shocked when he heard what Gu Cunxi said, and for a moment he didn't understand what she meant...
The one you love is right beside you?
But there were only three of them in the ward, not him... so the only one left was this woman standing there with her head lowered...
Chen Jiamao didn't dare to think about it any further. He was really shocked by his own thoughts. Could it be that there were other people in the ward before he arrived, and he just missed them because he was a little late? The person Gu Cunxi loved... couldn't be the woman in the ward!
There was a strange silence in the ward. Xiao Peiyin stopped when she heard the sound. The hand that opened the door slowly dropped down. She stood there without looking back. She wanted to escape from the ward, but at the moment of leaving, she heard Gu Cunxi hint to Chen Jiamao that he was the one she loved!
Gu Cunxi looked at her back and asked softly, "Pei Yin! Where are you going? It's very cold outside. You'll catch a cold if you don't wear a coat!"
"I..." Xiao Peiyin opened her mouth, unable to speak, feeling both nervous and satisfied.
This was the first time Chen Jiamao saw Gu Cunxi have such a gentle side, and his words were full of concern for the woman in front of him!
What is this??
Did he lose to a woman? Chen Jiamao was in a state of confusion. After calming down, he asked in a low voice: "Um! Gu Cunxi! You...you want to tell me that the person you love is actually..."
"Yes!" Gu Cunxi interrupted Chen Jiamao before he finished speaking and replied
“…”
When Chen Jiamao heard Gu Cunxi's answer, his body felt as if all his strength had been drained away, and he slumped to the side...
This was the most shocking thing he had ever heard in his life...
Chen Jiamao turned to look at the woman standing in front of him, his expression complicated as he chuckled...
Over the years, he worked hard to make himself better. He was confident that he was a good match for Gu Cunxi. Although they had only met a few times, he had loved her for several years. In the end, he was defeated by a woman!
"I'm sorry! I don't mean to hurt you. Being lovable or not is a very decisive matter. If I don't make it clear, my conscience will be uneasy, and it will also be unfair to you!" Gu Cunxi felt sorry and his tone softened.
Chen Jiamao sat aside in silence for a long time, his head buzzing and deafening. He could not hear clearly what Gu Cunxi said.
After a long time, Chen Jiamao slowly stood up and walked in front of Xiao Peiyin. She wanted to see the woman who had Gu Cunxi.
The moment he saw Chen Jiamao approach Xiao Peiyin, Gu Cunxi's heart skipped a beat. He quickly got up and walked off the bed, standing beside Xiao Peiyin and reaching out to pull her behind him to block him: "Chen Jiamao! What are you doing?"
“…”
Seeing Gu Cunxi so nervously protecting the woman behind him, Chen Jiamao was helpless! Although he was unwilling, he couldn't do anything...
Having lived abroad for many years, he had no contempt or prejudice towards such emotions. In fact, whether it was heterosexual love or homosexual love, it was all love, and there was no difference between normal and abnormal. Even many of his friends around him were like Gu Cunxi...
However, in this country, in such a secular world, the love between two women is really difficult. Chen Jiamao couldn't help but worry about Gu Cunxi. She chose such a difficult path for herself. I don't know if she has really thought clearly about the problems she will face in the future.
I really didn't expect him to fall in love with a woman who doesn't even like men!! Completely defeated...
That's all...
Chen Jiamao shook his head and chuckled. Seeing Gu Cunxi so nervous and frowning, he suddenly felt that he was being seen as the villain who came to break them up...
"Cunxi!" Chen Jiamao smiled bitterly, lowered his head, took a half step back, and distanced himself from her. "I just wanted to see what kind of woman could make you like this! Look at you, just me standing in front of your girlfriend makes you so nervous. I really doubt that my image in your heart is really a bit bad."
“…”
"It seems I have to give up... I won't be so ungraceful. I respect your previous feelings. Since there is no possibility for us to be together, I wish you happiness..."
"But you still have to pay me back for the meal you owe me. If you don't want to be alone, you can bring your girlfriend with you. I'm leaving Jiang Huai in a few days. Can you have this meal before I leave?"
Gu Cunxi was a little surprised by Chen Jiamao's attitude. He didn't know whether what he said just now was sincere or he was just pretending to be magnanimous so as not to embarrass himself?
Anyway, the stone in her heart fell to the ground a little. She saw the sincerity in Chen Jiamao's eyes just now. Gu Cunxi felt that she shouldn't be too suspicious and speculate about him. After thinking for a while, she nodded and said, "I owe you a meal and I don't intend to default on it. I will make it up before you leave!"
Compared with his previous attitude, Gu Cunxi was much gentler towards him at this moment, and Chen Jiamao's loss was also relieved.
Since we can't be lovers, being friends is fine...
"Forget it! Just take good care of your injuries!"
"Gu Cunxi, don't worry. I'm a person who can let go easily and won't get entangled. If you like, you can treat me as a friend. I will keep your affairs confidential. However... as a friend, I want to remind you that this road will be difficult. I believe you are not acting impulsively. If you encounter any difficulties in the future, I am always willing to help you. I'm leaving now, you can rest!"
After saying that, Chen Jiamao took one last look at Gu Cunxi, turned around and walked to the bed, picked up the roses he had just intended to give to Gu Cunxi, and smiled self-deprecatingly.
"I won't give you flowers...I'll take them back and display them for myself!"
Chen Jiamao's figure disappeared outside the door. Gu Cunxi breathed a sigh of relief and turned around to hug Xiao Peiyin tightly...
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