Chapter 124 Are you waiting for Gu Ci to come back?
"Nianxi, do you still want to get married?"
"And you?"
Pei Jian was silent for a few breaths before he said gently, "If we were not destined to be together in the previous life, we will meet again in the next life."
His voice was actually very pleasant to the ear, like the sound of cold jade chimes. When he spoke these words slowly at this moment, it inexplicably made people feel a little more sad.
People in this world will always have countless troubles.
He couldn't see her waiting for him foolishly, but when she let go and they parted ways, he picked up the fallen red thread again, wanting to rekindle their relationship.
Most of the foolish men and resentful women in the world are like this.
However, even though my longing for you is as deep as the sea, the past is as far away as the sky.
Once the years pass.
The two of them were sitting on the lintel of a bench under the porch, the warm winter sun shining on them, a kind of lazy leisure. There was a faint jasmine scent all over the body, which was the gentle breath of Nianxi.
Pei Jian restrained himself and pretended to be calm and indifferent, "You haven't answered me yet."
Nian Xi tilted her head to think for a moment, then said softly, "Yes."
Her eyes fell on a floating dot in the air, and she spoke softly, "I don't want to be alone. When I was dying, you didn't come back, so I told myself that in the next life, I would never live alone like this again."
"When I meet someone I like and he likes me, we will get married."
Pei Jian's heart suddenly trembled.
The originally calm expression almost broke in an instant.
Nian Xi didn't care about his strangeness, and continued in a gentle voice, "Pei Jian, I never regret being nice to anyone. Even if I'm let down, even if I hit a wall, because this is what I love and hate at the moment, because I'm good."
Pei Jian listened almost numbly.
Hearing her say she had no regrets, he should have been relieved, but his heart was weighed down by something even heavier, making it hard for him to breathe.
There is no getting around the fact that he neglected his wife.
He was too busy at that time.
Busy fighting for power, busy trying to defeat the enemy with one move, busy trying to be admired, busy being proud and high-spirited.
His heart was too full.
At that time, she had a frown on her face and her body was as thin and gaunt as a wisp of breeze, but he turned a blind eye to her withering.
Now Nian Xi has regained her radiance and sparkle, but it is not because of him.
"Are you...waiting for resignation?"
He said the word "resignation" very lightly.
This was something he was trying very hard to avoid and was unwilling to admit.
But at this moment, I really want an answer.
Nianxi didn't expect Pei Jian to mention Gu Ci.
Since he resigned and left Beijing, Pei Jian appeared in front of her more and more often. They would occasionally talk about the past and the people around them, even Qin Lang...
The only thing was resignation, which was like a taboo, and Pei Jian never mentioned it once.
She smiled and turned to look at him, her almond eyes bright as stars:
"I'm not waiting for your resignation."
Pei Jian was startled, his lips moved, and just as he was about to speak, he heard Nian Xi continue, "I have waited for a lifetime. In this life, I don't want to wait for anyone else."
"Jumping from one waiting to another, Pei Jian, I don't want to live like this anymore."
"Waiting is such a lonely thing."
"It's just that I miss him too."
Her voice was extremely gentle, and she looked back at the ancient tree in the courtyard.
"Gu Ci is a completely different person from you. You are a determined person. You will never give up when it comes to your goals. No one can shake your determination."
"It's not his fault. He is too soft-hearted and has too many concerns. He has a heavy responsibility on his shoulders."
When Gu Ci had just left Beijing, Nian Xi would subconsciously want to share with him whenever she heard something interesting, ate something delicious, or read an interesting book.
Just like when Gu Ci was in diplomacy, whenever he saw something fun or delicious, he would always bring it to her.
Habit is a terrible thing.
It will subtly erode people's will.
However, every time she looked up and found that person was not around, she would feel disappointed.
"I'm not waiting for him, nor will I wait for anyone. It's just that I still can't let him go in my heart."
Nian Xi was very frank and she told Pei Jian everything that was in her heart.
She has always been like this.
Gu Ci left Beijing for the war, and it was difficult for her to keep him because it was Gu Ci's responsibility.
But her love is always there.
Even though she had been hurt before, she took relationships more seriously than anyone else.
Wholeheartedly, without reservation.
Perhaps only when the love is gone will she let go without looking back.
Pei Jian had been loved by her, but also abandoned by her. He understood it better than anyone else.
Her purity.
Pei Jian's eyes suddenly felt sore, his throat felt dry, and he could hardly control himself.
He felt sad that he had let down such a good girl like Nianxi.
The yard was silent for a moment, and neither of them spoke.
After a long while, Pei Jian said softly, "I didn't expect you to be willing to tell me this."
Nianxi's eyes were slightly moist, "I don't want to worry my family. It won't hurt to talk to you about it."
Pei Jian poured her a cup of tea, and holding back his heartache, he said jokingly, "You always loved sharing your life in the past, but I never thought that one day you would share your feelings with me, and your feelings with others."
Nian Xi had not expected that she would say this to him, and was a little embarrassed for a moment, "You were the one who asked me first."
Pei Jian suddenly asked seriously, "Have you always been in a bad mood?"
“No.”
Nian Xi thought for a moment, "Compared to my previous life, I have digested it very well. I live a fulfilling life every day. Love is not everything in my life."
Pei Jian chuckled, "Having me as a negative example will be of great help to you."
Nian Xi responded, "Previous generations planted trees, and later generations enjoy the shade."
Pei Jian smiled helplessly, "It seems that my rebirth is really the result of experiencing tribulations."
To this day, he still believes that Nianxi's feelings for Gu Ci are no more than she felt for him back then. In fact, they haven't been together for long, but she still feels sad when she mentions Gu Ci.
What about the previous life?
How sad was she when she decided to let go of a relationship that had lasted for more than ten years?
Nian Xi put down the teacup, turned around and asked Pei Jian, "Do you know the cause of my death in my previous life?"
"Maybe it's because of me."
Nian Xi looked at him, and Pei Jian shook his head and said, "Your Majesty was seriously ill, and Prince Jing's party had been basically wiped out, leaving only the last remnants. These days I often wonder, maybe it's because you and I have never had a child, and I have never taken a concubine, so those people have evil intentions towards you."
Nian Xi could never imagine that the cause of her death would be such a ridiculous reason.
"Do they think you love me?"
Pei Jian's face was filled with embarrassment, and he gave a bitter smile, "Prime Minister Pei and his wife were indeed praised by everyone in the capital at that time."
"Yes, everyone envied me for my good fortune."
Pei Jian was speechless.
At this time, the best thing to do is to keep silent.
The more you talk, the more mistakes you make.
So he diligently changed the charcoal for Nianxi's stove.
Nian Xi was angry for a while, secretly cursing those people who harmed her for being blind and not even knowing who Pei Jian's sweetheart was. No wonder they failed in their attempt to become the heir!
"Who do you suspect?"
Pei Jian handed her the hand warmer and said in a deep voice, "Qi Chun, the commander of the imperial guards, Du Shen, the doctor of the Shaanxi East Road Daxingtai, and Lu Wensheng, the assistant minister of the Duke's Mansion."