Chapter 162 If you can't get love, then replace it with hatred

Even after Nianxi walked out of Panlou, Fang Hongxi was still staring at her back without moving.

The dandy who was traveling with him asked him, "What's wrong?"

Fang Hongxi turned around and said with a grin, "Let's go have a drink."

His marriage has been arranged, and it is the sixth daughter of the Lu family. Although the sixth daughter of Lu is beautiful, she is dull and boring.

I might as well just marry her home and use her as a decoration.

Originally, he had planned to return to Shaanxi, but his father sent him a letter ordering him to complete the "Naji" ceremony of three books and six ceremonies before returning home.

Fang Hongxi stayed in Beijing for some more time.

The capital was warm and sunny, with fragrant carriages, horses neighing, and apricot blossoms blooming. Fang Hongxi was drunk and obsessed with money every day, and had almost forgotten about the woman, but who knew that when he saw her today, he would be tempted again.

My heart is itching and I can't bear it.

But she was with Lu Wensheng.

Fang Hongxi was used to being lawless in Shaanxi, and usually only others were afraid of him. But for some reason, he was a little afraid of Lu Wensheng.

I always feel that behind that gentle smile, there are untold cruel means.

Before coming here, his father had warned him many times not to cause trouble in the capital.

Forget it, just a woman.

There are so many beauties in this capital, and he can't even favor one of them, so why bother causing trouble?

He did not forget that on the first day he arrived in Beijing, he was injured in the arm by the rude Princess Wenshu.

However, His Royal Highness Prince Jing said that he would help him vent his anger and told him to just wait for the result.

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Xu Wanxin has lost a lot of weight recently and is becoming increasingly frail.

She looked at the beauty in the mirror, her eyes full of charm and her delicate figure.

The swelling on her face had long since disappeared, and her appearance remained the same, except for her eyes, which were now red and filled with hatred and sorrow.

Her feelings for Pei Jian were filled with an almost destructive obsession.

He would never love her.

For Xu Wanxin, this was nothing short of a heart-wrenching disaster.

When people are in extreme pain, their bodies will start to protect themselves instinctively. For example, she would recall over and over again the time they spent together before Wen Nianxi, and her cousin's preference for her.

Pei Jian favors her.

She could have continued to live in self-deception, but Pei Jian refused to leave her even the slightest room for fantasy.

After that day, Xu Wanxin went to look for Pei Jian again.

She gambled all her self-esteem and pride and told Pei Jian what Wen Nianxi had done.

Everyone is pretending! She's not the only one.

What do you mean Wen Nianxi is genuine? She pretends to be noble and pure on weekdays, but she is actually a bitch in private.

But what did Pei Jian say?

He said, "Wen Nianxi's enemy is his enemy."

Cut nails and cut iron, with a clear attitude.

Xu Wanxin always believed that she definitely had a place in Pei Jian's heart.

If it weren't for fate, she would have already been her cousin's wife.

"What if Wen Nianxi kills me?"

Xu Wanxin stared at Pei Jian without blinking, her voice squeezing out from her chest, "Cousin, do you also think it's nothing?"

For a moment, her heart almost stopped.

"Yes," Pei Jian replied calmly, "I will also pass the knife. Or if she wants, I will do it for her."

He was so cold: "Don't imagine that I have any feelings for you."

"If you want revenge, just come at me. Because for everything you did to Nianxi, I will ask you to pay it back tenfold."

Every word he said, every sentence, even every pause, was like a sharp knife, stabbing into her heart.

Her beloved cousin, the man she had wanted to marry since she was a child, would rather she die for another woman.

A bitter feeling rose to the tip of Xu Wanxin's nose, and her eyes, which were already bloodshot, were once again filled with tears.

She lay dejectedly on the bed, thinking wildly, wishing Wen Nianxi would die, wishing Pei Jian would be alone forever.

She just couldn't stand having other people around him.

If she can't be Pei Jian's wife, then no one in this world can.

Thinking of Wen Nianxi and the look on that bastard's face when he beat her, Xu Wanxin was so angry that she was shaking all over.

But Pei Jian.

Pei Jian...

She clutched her heart in pain, but she couldn't even clench her fist.

This is the man she loves the most. What should she do to make him have room for her in his eyes?

She buried her head in the quilt and curled up tightly.

When Xun arrived, she saw a figure curled up like a shrimp on the bed. She hurried forward and slowly lifted the quilt, revealing a face covered with tears.

Xu Wanxin clenched her fists and shed tears silently, but there was no sound.

"Wan'er, what's wrong?"

Xun's face immediately changed, and she felt even more distressed. She took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears, and sat beside the bed to ask softly.

A few days ago, my daughter was wronged——

I don't know why I had a conflict with Wang Muyi, the wife of the Prince of Pingyang Marquis's Mansion, and my whole face was swollen when I came back.

Xun asked her, but Wan'er refused to say anything.

Xiao Qian couldn't explain what happened at the scene. He only said that even two imperial doctors had gone there, and Wang Muyi had a miscarriage, and things were quite a mess.

Afterwards, the wife of the Marquis of Pingyang came in person and brought up the quarrel and fight between the two children as a token of compensation and apology.

No matter how much Xun loved her daughter, she couldn't argue with him since she was pregnant and the elders had come in person.

As for the old master, I heard that both Fuguogong and Pei Jian personally mentioned this matter. Especially Pei Jian, I don't know what he said to the old master. After the old master came back, he clearly told him that this matter was over and he was not allowed to mention it again in the future.

"Wan'er, don't scare me, what's wrong?"

Xu Wanxin said nothing, but raised her upper body, hugged Xun's waist, buried her face in her arms, and cried until her whole body was shaking.

Xun held her for a moment before she realized something and asked, "Is it because of Pei Jian?"

Xu Wanxin hugged Xun tightly without saying a word, but one action said it all.

Xun frowned, her face showing her distress. She coaxed him softly, "Don't cry, did Pei Jian bully you again? If you have anything to say, tell your mother. Your father is here and will not let you suffer any injustice."

Xu Wanxin said nothing, but just cried silently. After a while, Xun's waist was wet.

No mother could bear to see her daughter in such grief and pain.

Xun's eyes also turned red.

Wan'er hasn't been so close to her mother for a long time, and the only one who can move Wan'er's emotions like this is Pei Jian.

"I'll go talk to your father and tell him to go find Pei Jian. There's no such thing as bullying."

Xu Wanxin spoke only then, shaking her head gently, "Don't go."

Xun lowered her head, hugged her daughter, and said angrily, "Your father is the Minister of War, and your mother is from the famous Xun family. They raised you with great respect since you were a child. Why did you let Pei Jian ruin you?"

"Mother can't bear to see you being wronged. Wan'er, listen to my advice. A forced melon is not sweet. There are many good men in this world. With your appearance and character, what kind of man do you want? You are already nineteen this year. You can't delay any longer."

Xu Wanxin felt a chill in her heart.

After all the talk, she still has to get married.

It's not for her good at all.

She closed her eyes, so I couldn't see her expression. She was silent for a while before she spoke:

"I feel that my life is as miserable as that of my cousin Xun."

Xun frowned, "What nonsense are you talking about? Shuling's marriage was arranged by His Majesty. But with Prince Jing... you are different. Mother will not force you. As long as the other party has a clean background and you like her, that's the most important thing."

Xu Wanxin no longer had tears in her eyes. Her voice was low, deep, and calm. "Then I have to carefully choose one that satisfies my taste."

Hearing her relaxed tone, Xun was immediately delighted. She gently stroked Xu Wanxin's long hair and said, "As long as it's what you like, I'll do whatever you want."

Your own daughter knows herself.

Wan'er is born delicate, but she is not really weak.

I have always been a very purposeful person.

When she was very young, she was learning to play the piano. While her cousins ​​took four or five days to memorize a piece of music, she would stay up all night to memorize it.

When she was a little older, she learned to write. As she was weaker than others, her handwriting was a little soft, but her handwriting was excellent. However, she was determined to achieve her goal, even hanging a sandbag on her wrist every day, until her handwriting became stronger.

There are countless examples like this. Over time, the family has become accustomed to it. As long as she wants something, no matter what it is, she will get it.

Only Pei Jian.

Originally this was hers, but the engagement was cancelled midway.

Xun couldn't bear to see her daughter suffer from love, so she advised, "When Pei Jian was just in high school, your father asked someone to go and talk about your marriage, but he was blocked by cold words, which was a great loss of face."

"There was also this incident. The Right Vice Minister of the Ministry of War and the Chief of Staff were both impeached by the historians. The Right Vice Minister was especially reprimanded by His Majesty and demoted two levels. If you say Pei Jian was not involved in this... he is now in charge of the Censorate."

The Right Vice Minister of the Ministry of War is the father of the man in yellow.

In fact, Xu Wanxin already understood it without Xun's explanation.

These two were the fathers of the young lady who had tea with her that day, and they were both impeached. The reason why his family was spared was not because Pei Jian was soft-hearted, but because his father was cautious and he had not yet caught any evidence against him.

Xu Wanxin felt that she was not lying on a bed, but on a raging fire. The flames burned her skin and flesh, and her blood was dripping.

She knew that this was Pei Jian's warning and also a threat.

Just because what those two people said in "Half a Cup of Floating Life" involved Wen Nianxi, he retaliated.

Just for such a small thing!

He actually did this for Wen Nianxi.

There are some things that I dare not think about, and cannot think about. If I think about them, it will be a heart-wrenching pain. Tears welled up from my dry eyes again, and I felt extremely dead, but it was actually a kind of calm sadness.

Xu Wanxin's voice was hoarse and choked. She closed her eyes and said, "I understand."

If you can't get love, then replace it with hate.

She always wanted to make sure that Pei Jian had her presence in his eyes and heart.