Chapter 223 Men Can’t Have Shame

Nian Xi knew that she had softened her heart.

Even if she kicked Pei Jian out of the car, even if she was indifferent to his pleas, she could deceive others but not herself.

Maybe she didn't even lie to Pei Jian.

She married him at the age of seventeen, she had known him for thirteen years, and she had been entangled with this man for most of her life.

It would be nice if relationships had a valve. When you want to close it, you tighten it and leave no room for either of you.

Nian Xi just cried.

She didn't know why she was crying? Was she crying for the grievances she had suffered over the years, or for the relationship between them that could never return.

She asked Pei Jian, "You will never lose. You can get whatever you want. You succeeded. Are you proud?"

As decisively as she left at the beginning, she is as cruelly cruel now.

"But you still won't forgive me. You still don't want me. From the moment you gave up on me, I lost."

At this point, Pei Jian was silent for a few breaths, his eyes red, and he pressed against her chest again, "Once your heart is hurt, no matter what you do, there will be cracks, right? I broke your heart that loved me, and also your favorite Pei Jian. I can't succeed."

Pei Jian laughed at himself, "I have nothing to be proud of."

Lost in the expansion of power, drenched in arrogance and conceit, he destroyed their home with his own hands.

So when she was disappointed enough, she wanted to stay away from him.

Nianxi's tears at this moment are the evidence that they once loved each other.

All the feelings and sorrows she had in the past were now placed on him one by one.

He was in a mess.

There is no powerful Prime Minister Pei here, only a humble, regretful Pei Jian who is begging his wife for forgiveness and turning back.

Nian Xi turned her head away, tears streaming down her eyes again.

"Nianxi, I will never win against you," Pei Jian's heart ached, he was almost unable to control himself, and he was filled with endless sorrow, "You thought I could control everything, but you were wrong, I can't do anything."

In this world, the one he likes the most and loves the most is only Nianxi.

Of all things in the world, the only thing he cannot give up is always the girl who smiles brightly at him and gives him the feeling of a home.

And when she turned and left, he was no longer himself.

At the end of a relationship, no one is a winner.

When Nianxi returned, her eyes were swollen, her hair was a little messy, and most importantly, her lips were a little red.

She was not like Pei Jian, who could get out of the car calmly even with wounds all over his face.

She has shame.

But it was already late and it was too late to go back to Peishan Villa. More importantly, if she didn't go back, her family would be worried.

Sure enough, when she returned and changed her clothes, Li was already waiting in the house.

There is no mother who doesn't love her daughter.

Li asked Nianxi, "Did he... bully you?"

Nian Xi shook her head and told the truth, "He doesn't want to divorce."

Even though Li had a lot on her mind at the moment, she still wanted to hear Nianxi's opinion first. She stroked her daughter's thin back and said, "You have always been a person of integrity since you were young. Once you make up your mind, no matter how much others persuade you, you will never change your mind."

"Mother used to think this was not good. Being too rigid will break easily. It is better for women to be gentle and graceful. But now I think it is nothing. We only live one life, so we should live as happily as we can."

Nian Xi understood what A Niang meant.

Perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, since Pei Jian could beg for peace in a humble manner, she should just go down the stairs.

After all, divorce is not a glorious thing.

But as a mother, she doesn't care about these things, as long as her daughter lives a good life.

"He came to me and begged me, and I softened my heart."

"In fact, I haven't really let him go in my heart."

Looking at Pei Jian's sad expression, at that moment, she could clearly feel his pain, along with her own pain.

Nian Xi gently leaned her head on her mother's shoulder, closed her eyes, and whispered, "But I don't want to go back. I finally made up my mind to break free, and I'm so afraid of falling into the stagnant quagmire again. I once trusted him with all my heart, but now I can't do it."

What happened cannot be treated as if it never happened.

When she was young, she was passionate and fearless, but now she is so timid that she dare not let herself get hurt again.

"But this is so selfish. What about my brother's future, the future of my two nephews, and if my sister-in-law gives birth to another daughter, what about our family's reputation?"

Just as marriage is a union of two families, divorce is not just a matter between her and Pei Jian.

Pei Jian was able to scare off the Marquis of Yong'an with just one sentence, which shows how powerful he is now.

I can't help but think about it.

"Why think about that?"

Li chuckled and patted her daughter's shoulder. "Your brother is a man. If he can't even protect the women at home, he should quit the court as soon as possible. He should retire early and we can go back to Nanjing."

"Speaking of which, we have been away from Nanjing for many years. At that time, I was wholeheartedly trying to help your father make progress, and I only wanted to return to Beijing. In the end, I got old and missed the warm mountains and soft waters of Nanjing. If you still want to go, take your mother with you, and we can go back together to take a look."

Nian Xi was stunned for a moment, her tears flowed into her hair and seeped into the clothes on her shoulders. She hummed in a low voice, and the confusion in her heart dissipated.

…

Pei Jian returned to the prime minister's residence with wounds all over his head and face.

He didn't mean to embarrass Nianxi, but he couldn't help but want to let others know that his divorce with Nianxi didn't count and they were still husband and wife.

Look, the fierce daughter-in-law at home has scratched his face.

Sadly, no one asked him.

Everyone was avoiding him, as if he was some kind of monster. No one dared to even look at him, let alone look him in the eye.

Even Butler Li didn't dare to ask.

Pei Jian applied medicine to himself while looking in the bronze mirror.

I thought to myself that although Qin Lang's words were a bit fragmented, they were actually quite useful.

Sometimes men really have no shame.

He clearly felt Nianxi's loosening.

Of course, those dreams were not an excuse. These past few days, whenever he went to sleep, he would dream about the past.

Just as I was thinking about how to make it even better, Gu San came in.

"What did you find out?"

Pei Jian asked.

In fact, Pei Jian has relaxed a lot in the past few days. He carefully observed the surroundings for a few days and found nothing unusual. Even the strange feeling of being out of control has become less and less. Maybe it's just his mind playing tricks, and he can't accept Nianxi's departure.

Gu San leaned forward and said, "I have checked carefully and there is nothing unusual around you, sir."

As expected.

Pei Jian responded, "Go down."

Gu San did not move. "My Lord, everything is fine, but Madam..."

Pei Jian raised his head at this time, his black eyes were cold and fierce, "What's wrong with Madam?"