Chapter 76 He remembered the beginning of his heartbeat that year

Pei Jian stood there for some time with his hands behind his back, looking at the endless night sky. His back looked solemn.

During the day in the palace, he had clearly thought of a plan to gradually cause Jiang Yuan and Princess Xinchang to turn against each other, causing the two to fight each other and making the situation out of control, resulting in both of them being ruined.

What he wants is definitely not such a mild result as the current one.

How could he let go easily of those who wanted to harm Nianxi?

But after Gu resigned, he backed off almost subconsciously.

In his life, retreat is the most useless and cowardly thing. Once a person has the idea of ​​retreating, there is no chance of winning.

For Pei Jian, it was very difficult to retreat and give up.

He has always been a person who never gives up, and the only time he compromised in his life was with Nian Xi.

It's just a little late.

He realized it too late.

The night wind was a little chilly, and I could hear the rustling sound of the wind blowing through the curtains, but the big tent was peaceful and quiet. Suddenly, a light burst, and then the world returned to darkness.

Pei Jian did not look back, silently experiencing the loneliness, as if ever since Nian Xi left him, being alone in silence was his normal state.

Although he didn't want to admit it, he was not as considerate and thoughtful as Gu Ci in terms of feelings. They had been married for so many years, and he didn't even know her better than Gu Ci. So after his rebirth, every time he met her, she was always happy and cheerful, becoming more lively and charming day by day.

That's why he retreated from the palace today.

A solitary moon hangs in the sky.

The wine he drank at night turned into a mixture of emotions that churned and burned in his chest and abdomen. Pei Jian stubbornly recalled his past with Nianxi over and over again.

He finally remembered the beginning of his love.

Not long after they met at Chongming Building, Wen Qingheng often invited him to her house as a guest, and whenever he came, she would always show up unexpectedly.

Father Wen loved books, and there was an entire room in his house used as a study, which was filled with bookshelves and piles of books. Whenever he went there, he could not help but linger.

That time, he was looking for an ancient book in the back of the study room when he heard her asking Wen Qingheng outside, "Where is Pei Langjun?"

Wen Qingheng should have pointed her in the direction.

Then, he heard her footsteps entering the study. He didn't know when it started, but he could always hear the sound of her light steps.

He listened to her searching the shelves.

At first, the footsteps were slow, like the shy thoughts of a young girl. Gradually, the footsteps quickened, with an eager expectation, and then faster and faster.

Until it came to a sudden stop.

Because he took a step forward and stood at the corner of the last row. She would see him at first sight as soon as she turned the corner.

But the girl was a little reckless that day and actually ran into his arms.

She blushed with shame and quickly took two steps back. When she looked up, her slender neck curved gracefully as she murmured, "Mr. Pei..."

She said, "I didn't know you were here."

Then, Wen Qingheng's voice came from outside, "Nian'er, have you seen Shi Zhang?"

The girl was exposed on the spot and her neck turned red with shame.

The bright spring sunlight shines through the gauze window, illuminating her fair and rosy face. Birds are chirping in front of the window, fine dust is floating in the air, and there is a faint fragrance amidst the scent of ink on the books.

They all forgot to answer Wen Qingheng's questions.

Pei Jian only remembered those lively and charming eyes like a deer, wearing a pink dress, smiling at him in the romantic spring day.

It was as if the flowers in his heart blossomed along with her smile. Pei Jian found it difficult to describe his feelings at that moment.

I just think the world is beautiful, that's all.

After that, they became closer day by day.

Yes, he also had times when he was excited and happy like before. He was always in a good mood, and apart from his studies and her, there was nothing else tying him up in his heart.

Maybe there is a little difference.

He did not hesitate to worry about gains and losses, because Nian Xi loved him, he always knew it and was deeply intoxicated by it.

So he became more and more motivated, as if he was urged by something, his spirit was tense all the time, and he was extremely eager to stand out and gain glory.

It is obvious that Nian Xi does not value those things. She obviously prefers "company". His father-in-law and mother-in-law are also very good to him, but he is just anxious, chasing power and profit, and eventually loses his original intention.

I still remember that when they were newly married, they attended a banquet together. It was a colleague's wife who was conferred an imperial title, and the scene was very grand.

On the way back, she leaned on his arm, half-closed her eyes, and said to the darkening night, "Mrs. Li was very proud today. Everyone at the banquet praised her husband for his progress and praised Mrs. Li for her good fortune. She was only in her twenties, and she was already granted an imperial title."

She was innocent and lovely at that time, "but the imperial robe was very heavy. In the hot weather, I saw that Mrs. Li's neck was full of sweat."

He was amused and pinched her delicate nose. "Why do I feel that you are more fortunate than Madam Li?"

She sat up after hearing that, held his chin with her hand, thought seriously for a moment, nodded and smiled, "Of course, my husband is much more handsome than his husband!"

Pei Jian laughed and held the naughty girl in his arms. He bit her earlobe and whispered, "I mean, you don't have to wait until you are twenty years old, or in the hottest weather, to receive the imperial decree."

She smiled foolishly, not because of the imperial decree, but because he was licking her earlobes, and she was most afraid of tickling.

Later, Nian Xi really became a noblewoman envied by everyone in the capital. As he rose to prominence, her imperial robes and clothes became more and more grand and gorgeous.

But, but...

Pei Jian looked solemnly as he gazed into the dark night.

In the lonely days that followed, Nianxi smiled less and less. She would never believe what he said about her good fortune.

In fact, she has regretted it a long time ago, right?

Only when you regret it will you leave without looking back and choose to live a life without him.

Pei Jian was almost greedily searching through his memories, all the happy moments with Nianxi. Those moments when they smiled like flowers, those beautiful times. But the more he thought about it, the more lonely he felt.

If he had never seen the sun, he could have endured the darkness. But now, the sun made his loneliness even more desolate.

The swelling and burning pain in his eyes almost made him unable to control himself. In the midnight when memories were overflowing, he let his own fragility run rampant in the middle of nowhere.

"My dear, it's late at night."

Pei Jian responded lightly to the careful reminder from the servant behind him.

After a moment, he turned around, his face was cold, calm and noble. He became the thoughtful and promising young official again.

All the lonely thoughts have been firmly suppressed in my heart.

He promised Nianxi that he would no longer force her, but would continue to love her in the way she liked.

This time, he will never forget it.