"I was both happy and worried. I had never seen the prince like this before. I walked over and saw a teapot on the table, so I poured him a cup. But before I could hand it to him, the prince came over and hugged me. I didn't panic like the first time. I could sense that he was in a bad mood, and I patted his back with heartache. I couldn't do anything to help him.
"But I didn't expect that in just a moment, the prince would carry me to the bed, press me down, kiss me madly, and pull at my clothes. I was terrified. I wanted to stop him, wanted to scream, but when I looked up at his bloodshot eyes and the tears in the corners, I was so heartbroken that I couldn't say or do anything."
Seeing Meng Qi's surprised expression, Li chuckled, "You didn't expect it, did you? My first man turned out to be the Crown Prince. That's right, the Crown Prince is my first man. I was heartbroken, yet I felt incredibly happy. I only found out later that it was the late Queen's birthday, but no one remembered it. The Crown Prince had drunk some wine, but he didn't dare let anyone see him, fearing that it would get to the ears of the Emperor or the princes and cause a fuss.
"After that incident, his chief eunuch came to see me and brought me a lot of tonics. He said the prince knew what he had done and asked me to wait, he would find a way to get me to his side. I was very happy and took the contraceptive pills at the eunuch's instruction.
"However, I didn't wait to serve the Crown Prince in the Eastern Palace, but was asked by the Crown Prince to serve the Prince, the Sixth Prince back then."
Meng Qi sat up straight. From here on, the prince began to make targeted arrangements for Song Chengze.
"That day, I was taken to a palace I had never been to before. It was immaculately tidy, fragrant with incense, and covered with soft curtains. The prince poured me some wine with a gentle smile, and said he felt guilty for having me stay in a thatched hut like that for the first time. So, he specially cleaned the place to give me an unforgettable memory."
Li lowered her head, as if recalling something, a smile still on her lips. "That day was my happiest day. I felt like I had truly become the Crown Prince's woman. He was so gentle. He personally bathed me, carried me to bed, undressed me, and even anointed me with scented oil... I never thought I would be cherished like this by a Crown Prince. I swore I would do anything for him."
"So, when I knew he wanted me to serve the prince, that he would create opportunities for the prince to trust me, that he would take me with him when he opened his palace, and that he would give me a good status. Then, after I had established myself in the Rui Palace, I would help him gather all the information about the Rui Palace and do things for him. Although I found it unbelievable, after considering it for two days, I still agreed to his plan.
"And he did it. I gained the prince's trust and appreciation, and when I became his woman, he didn't even have a single doubt."
"How many times have you met in the temple?" Meng Qi asked.
Li suddenly looked up. "Did you know we met in the temple?" She chuckled after asking, "Yes, you're so smart, you must have done thorough research and preparation." Then she seemed to be reminiscing, "Five times in total. Three times before the birth of the child, and once after the birth. After all, since the child is gone, the prince set up a small Buddhist temple in the mansion for me, so it's hard to find a reason to go out again. The most recent time was a month ago."
"Why did you kill your own child?"
Li was no longer surprised to hear Meng Qi ask this. She smiled coldly, "This Jin, she keeps saying she won't betray me. Haha, it seems the most difficult thing to guess is the human heart."
"Indeed, the most difficult thing to predict is the human heart. Just like you and the Crown Prince, at first it might have just been a chance encounter, a coincidence, and you were a comfort to the Crown Prince in his loneliness. But later, you became his tool, a sharp weapon for him to deal with his brothers. Who knows if Ms. Xu from Prince Jing's mansion had the same experience as you."
When Li heard Meng Qi say this, her brows, which had just been slightly reluctant, furrowed. "This last question is what you want to know most today, right?"
Before Meng Qi could speak, Li continued, "Why didn't the prince join you? Did he guess something and was afraid of hearing the truth, which would be too much for a man like him to bear?"
Li sneered at first, then her voice suddenly dropped. "The prince is very good, he is really very good. How wonderful it would have been if I had met him first. Everything today would be different, our ending would be different. If I ever have that day, no, I will definitely have that day, the person I feel most sorry for is the prince. But I have no choice. Since I chose it in the first place, since I betrayed him from the beginning, I can no longer control myself."
Looking at Li who was covering her eyes, Meng Qi believed that she also had feelings for Song Chengze. People like Song Chengze, after being together for a long time, even if the feelings they developed were not romantic, would be hard to forget and let go.
Li picked up the tea on the table and drank it in one gulp, then looked up at Meng Qi. "I did kill my child myself. I had no choice because the child belonged to the crown prince. And the child looks exactly like the crown prince, especially the small mole behind his ear. I'm afraid of what he will look like when he grows up. Maybe he won't have to grow up, just a few years. I don't dare to think of such an outcome."
Meng Qi stood up and said, "What did you say? The child belongs to the prince?"
Li nodded. "I got pregnant after my second meeting with the Crown Prince at the temple. During that meeting, the Crown Prince asked me to find a way to prevent Lin's pregnancy. Even if she could be born, the child would be unhealthy or Lin would suffer a difficult labor. In short, I wanted to prevent the prince's eldest son from getting well. After I dealt with Princess Lin's affairs, I discovered that I hadn't had my period for two months. I was terrified. Not to mention that the prince hadn't summoned me for several months because of Princess Lin's affairs. Even since the prince took me in, we had only had very few sexual intercourses."
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