Chapter 50: Hyperventilation "I've already called your family...
"I've already had your house cleaned." Gu Xingjue looked at Chen Song with comfort and calmness in his eyes. "No one has been here in the past few days. Go there and rest first. You must be very tired from sitting in the car for so long right after being discharged from the hospital. Your body won't be able to handle it."
Chen Song stared at him for a moment, then looked away. When he was about to refuse, Lu Yuan replied, "I went back with him yesterday and checked it out. It was very clean."
"Yes, Songsong. Let's go home first." Tang Shihe said gently.
Chen Song felt strange. The house had been mortgaged to the creditor, so how could they clean it up? But since Lu Yuan had said so, Chen Song had no choice but to agree.
After arriving home, everything was just as Gu Xingjue had said. Even the broken plates were replaced with new ones.
Tang Shihe prepared a sumptuous dinner, and afterward, the Lu family's driver arrived. Chen Song's house only had two bedrooms on the second floor. The staircase connecting the second floor to the third floor was made entirely of wooden planks, making it a very shabby place, uninhabitable. It was only used to store groceries.
Tang Shihe originally wanted to stay and take care of Chen Song for a few more days, but had to give up. Lu Yuan took the initiative to stay and said he would take care of him, so that he could feel more at ease after Tang Shihe left.
Tang Shihe stood at the door and gave Chen Song instructions for a long time before getting into the driver's car and going home.
Without Tang Shihe, the atmosphere among the three of them suddenly became heavy.
Chen Song looked at Gu Xingjue and was about to chase him away when his cell phone rang. It was an unfamiliar number. Chen Song's heart began to beat wildly and he hung up in fear.
However, the ringing sounded again not long after. Chen Song's fingertips trembled and he got goose bumps all over his body.
"Who's calling?" Lu Yuan asked, "Aren't you going to answer it?"
Chen Song's hands were shaking. He opened his mouth and stammered, "Uh... maybe... maybe it was a harassing call."
After saying that, Chen Song hung up the phone again. Soon, the life-threatening ringtone rang again. Chen Song's heart beat to his throat, and he was shaking while holding the phone.
When his trembling fingers were about to hang up again, Gu Xingjue took the phone away, picked up the call and put it to his ear: "Hello."
"...Hello," the woman on the other side was obviously startled. The voice made her shudder. "Are you... Mr. Gu? I was just about to..."
A gloomy look flashed across Gu Xingjue's eyes, and he said calmly, "I'm not Chen Song. Okay. I'll give him the phone."
Gu Xingjue handed the phone to Chen Song: "Your mother is looking for you."
Lu Yuan stared at Chen Song with wide eyes and whispered, "Your mother actually came to find you!?"
Chen Song pursed his lips, tightened his jaw, and reached out hesitantly to answer the phone.
Gu Xingjue caressed Chen Song's face tenderly and soothed him, "It's okay, Chen Song. I'm here no matter what happens."
Lu Yuan felt very awkward and unhappy watching this scene, but he felt obligated to do something for the favor, and thinking that this was the last time Gu Xingjue and Chen Song would be together, he had no choice but to not stop them.
Gu Xingjue's voice was sonorous and powerful, giving Chen Song an inexplicable sense of security and courage.
Chen Song took the phone and turned to walk out the back door.
There is a row of one-story houses in the backyard that are rented out to migrant workers. They are all working the night shift in the factory and their doors are closed.
Chen Song walked to the long stone steps, took a deep breath and said, "Hello, it's me."
"Xiao Song." Yu Li suppressed her fear and called him as affectionately as possible, "Mom called you to tell you some good news."
Chen Song remained silent. After a moment of silence, Yu Li gave an awkward smile. "That 30 million, An Deming's relatives helped pay it back. Your home and land have also been returned to you. No one will come after you for debts from now on. And An Deming...don't worry, he won't have the chance to frame you again."
Chen Song's mind went blank, but his nerves remained tense. From the moment he learned about the incident, to the moment he lost consciousness and swallowed the sleeping pills, to the moment he was rescued, his nerves had been in an overloaded state, working frantically.
Yu Li's words at this moment made Chen Song feel like everything was a dream. He couldn't tell what was real and what was fake. Everything changed so fast, so fast that he couldn't digest it or bear it. He even suspected that all this was Yu Li's trick.
"What did you say?"
Yu Li said, "Really, Xiao Song. You don't have to be afraid anymore. I...I won't appear in front of you again. I just want to tell you that everything has been resolved. It has nothing to do with you anymore."
"It's Mom who's wronged you. It's caused you..." Yu Li choked up, "If you still want to see me in the future, you can give me a call. Okay?"
Chen Song's lips moved slightly, and all his tense nerves suddenly relaxed. The pent-up pain in his heart instantly turned into tears and welled up in his eyes. He held his forehead and raised his head, sighing softly. After a long while, he said, "I know. I'm hanging up."
After saying this, Chen Song hung up the phone without waiting for Yu Li's reply.
Shining white snow fluttered under the dim street lights. Vancouver, which had not seen snow for more than ten years, suddenly began to snow.
Chen Song stood in the wind and snow, forcing a smile with difficulty, tears streaming down his cheeks.
Chen Song gasped for breath, and the white mist he exhaled mixed with the snow the size of salt grains and was blown away by the wind.
There were light footsteps behind him, and a blanket was covered on Chen Song, and strong arms embraced him.
"I'm here. Tell me what's going on. I'm always here." Gu Xingjue buried his head in his shoulder, whispering softly, as if whispering to someone in his ear, "I'm always here."
"Whether it's the snow in Jing City in the north or Wen City in the south, I'll watch it with you from now on. Let me stay with you forever."
Chen Song didn't say anything, nor did he struggle to break free from his embrace. Gu Xingjue just held him quietly, as if everything had returned to the way it was before.
Gu Xingjue remembered that one of the things Chen Song liked was watching the snow.
Chen Song was always the first to tell him about the first snow in Beijing. Sometimes when it snowed in the middle of the night, Chen Song would get up to look out the window.
"It's snowing, Gu Mo." Chen Song excitedly shook Gu Xingjue, who was about to fall asleep, and forced him to wake up to watch the snow together.
Chen Song's smile was beautiful, his eyes bright as the stars. Gu Xingjue's displeasure at having his sleep interrupted also dissipated. He climbed up, wrapped Chen Song in the quilt, and kissed him lovingly: "Didn't you say you had no strength? I don't think you're tired enough. It's just snowing, what's there to see? You might as well look at me."
Gu Xingjue lifted up half of his face and gently stroked it, the thick calluses rubbing against the delicate skin, igniting a slight warmth. Chen Song blushed slightly, a little shy. He said, "I like watching the snow, just like I like watching you."
Gu Xing was determined and kissed her soft lips, and they stayed together until dawn.
"Stop hugging me, and come inside!" Lu Yuan shouted, awakening Gu Xingjue's memories, "Fuck! It's snowing?!"
For Chen Song's health, Gu Xingjue reluctantly sent Chen Song back to the house.
Chen Song had calmed down after returning to the house. Lu Yuan was outside the door, patting the snow. With Gu Xingjue and him alone, the atmosphere was somewhat tense.
Gu Xingjue imitated Chen Song's past behavior and made a cup of honey water for Chen Song. After adjusting the temperature, he handed it to Chen Song: "Drink some to warm yourself up."
Chen Song took it and drank a few sips. The two were silent for a moment, and then Chen Song spoke: "I've troubled you these past few days. Thank you."
Gu Xingjue's heart suddenly felt colder than the snow outside. Chen Song's unfamiliar thanks shattered the illusion of reconciliation between the two. Gu Xingjue's Adam's apple moved slightly, remembering the agreement he had made with Chen Song.
Tonight is the last night.
Gu Xingjue hesitated for a moment and said, "Then I'll stop here. I'll leave first. You...you don't have to see me off. I can leave on my own."
Chen Song tapped the glass with his fingertips: "Yeah. Have a safe trip."
Gu Xingjue nodded, without looking at it any more, he turned around and left with a hard heart.
Chen Song lowered his eyes, not looking. He only heard the footsteps gradually receding, and finally disappeared with the sound of the door closing. The room was so quiet that he could hear the sound of the wind outside.
Lu Yuan ran in happily from the backyard: "What does your mother want to see you for?"
"nothing……"
Seeing that Chen Song didn't want to talk much, Lu Yuan stopped asking and decided to ask later. After all, Chen Song's family affairs had caused him a lot of pain, and he had just been discharged from the hospital. Lu Yuan didn't want to make the atmosphere so heavy.
"Where is he?" Lu Yuan looked around and found that there was no sign of Gu Xingjue.
Chen Song put the glass on the table, hugged the blanket tightly, and went upstairs in his slippers: "Let's go home."
"Where to go back?" Lu Yuan was stunned. The car keys were all with him. Where could he go back?
Chen Song continued walking upstairs without saying a word.
Lu Yuan sent a WeChat message to Gu Xingjue: Are you really gone?
After a while, the other party replied to WeChat:
【Scumbag】: At the door
Lu Yuan: “…”
Lu Yuan put away his phone, walked to the door and opened it. Gu Xingjue was squatting at the door smoking.
"Are you really going back to Beijing?"
Gu Xingjue lit the ash from his cigarette: "No reply."
Lu Yuan walked over to him and squatted down: "Didn't you say you wouldn't appear in front of him?"
"Well," Gu Xingjue took a puff of his cigarette, "two different things."
"Don't you have anything to do? Is the richest man in North City so idle? Don't your family members care about you?" Lu Yuan considered himself a leisurely rich second generation, but he was not so idle and didn't care about Xing Jue's wealth. It was impossible for him not to go home for the New Year, otherwise he would be beaten to death.
Gu Xingjue said indifferently, "I have no home. Wherever Chen Song is, that's my home."
Lu Yuan thought he was pretending: "Then you don't know how to cherish it."
"Isn't this my retribution?" Gu Xingjue smiled bitterly.
"You're staying here tonight? Here are the car keys... go back to the hotel. But you have to bring them back to me tomorrow. I'm going home tomorrow." Lu Yuan paused to think for a moment and added, "Just send me a message when you get there. Don't come in."
Gu Xingjue said, "You take it, I'll talk later. I don't want to leave yet."
Lu Yuan put the key back into his pocket and pursed his lips: "Then remember to leave, don't stay here. Although you look quite pitiful, some things are missed and missed, and I don't want to make Chen Song unhappy."
Gu Xingjue put out his cigarette: "Got it, you can go in."
After taking a shower, Chen Song returned to the room. The curtains were open. Chen Song hesitated for a moment, walked to the bed, quickly closed the curtains, turned off the lights and lay down on the bed.
He tossed and turned in the dark night, unable to fall asleep. The image of Gu Xingjue smoking at the end of the long stone steps kept flashing through his mind. After an unknown amount of time, Chen Song still couldn't fall asleep. He glanced at his phone and saw it was already past four in the morning.
Chen Song's eyes fell on the curtains. He looked at them for about ten minutes. He lifted the quilt and stood up. The air outside the quilt was very cold. Chen Song wrapped himself in a blanket and walked to the window. He pinched the curtains and paused for a moment. He felt a little nervous. He lifted the curtains a little and looked through the gap at the street light outside the window.
It was snowing heavily. Under the streetlights, the long stone steps were empty, with no human figure in sight.
Chen Song breathed a sigh of relief and opened the curtains.
The person was truly gone. This three-year relationship ended in the snow in Vancouver. After all the emotions were gone, my body felt empty.
Maybe Gu Xingjue really loves him, otherwise how could such a proud person cry like that in front of him.
Loss and missing teach people to grow, to cherish, and to love.
He couldn't let it go. Some of the thorns stuck in his heart had become fused with his flesh and blood. The more he tried to pull them out, the more painful it became.
Chen Song looked at the snow for a while and was about to draw the curtains when a man walked out of his door.
Chen Song's breathing stagnated slightly. He wanted to turn around and leave, but his feet seemed to be stuck in place, unable to move.
Gu Xingjue walked in the snow, following the long stone steps until he stopped at the end. The falling snow fell on him, as if to bury him.
He stopped there, not knowing what he was thinking. After an unknown amount of time, he finally walked away, his back gradually disappearing in the alley ahead.
Chen Song's heart settled down again. When he was about to close the curtains again, another person walked out of the gloomy alley.
Gu Xingjue strode back, paused when he raised his eyes, and stopped where he was. His gaze, as dark as the night, penetrated the snow and stared at Chen Song.
Chen Song pulled the curtains, remained silent for a moment in the dark, put on his clothes, went downstairs, opened the door, and saw Gu Xingjue still standing there looking up at the direction of the second floor.
When he heard the sound of Chen Song opening the door, his eyes lit up with joy and he walked over. Chen Song walked down the stairs into the wind and snow and also walked towards him.
Gu Xingjue pulled him up and said, "It's cold outside, let's go in."
Chen Song stood still, looking at him and said, "We agreed that you will go back when I am discharged from the hospital."
Gu Xingjue's happily beating heart suddenly stopped. He turned sideways and stood face to face with him. The white snow fell on Chen Song's eyelashes and slowly turned into water, as cold as the emotion in Chen Song's lowered eyes.
Gu Xingjue was having trouble breathing, his chest rising and falling more and more violently. The wind and snow pierced his heart and lungs like ice needles. He trembled and held Chen Song's arms, tears slowly welling up in his eyes. "I can't do this, Chen Song. I really can't do this. I tried. It's so hard to breathe without you. I can't sleep, I can't eat. What should I do? Teach me what to do?"
"Seeing you do that, I'm really scared. I also want to listen to you and not provoke you, but I really can't do it."
Chen Song looked at him coldly. The wind and snow behind him made him look like the god that brought the wind and snow. His heart was as hard as a rock. "I've been through everything you said. It will pass. Nothing is impossible. Time will heal everything."
Gu Xingjue shook his head and hugged him, trying to grab the charming warmth from his body: "Can you please not chase me away, Chen Song, my dear Chen Song, where is my dear Chen Song? Please give him back to me, please, give him back to me..."
Gu Xingjue let go of Chen Song and held his hands. Tears streamed down his crimson eyes, and a sob escaped from his trembling lips. "Can you give me another chance... I can't live without you."
Chen Song looked at him resolutely and pulled his hand away: "No one in this world can't live without anyone else. You said it."
"Chen Song, I was wrong." Gu Xingjue rolled his Adam's apple with difficulty, and the words he spoke seemed to be spitting out the ice needles he had swallowed, one by one, scratching the wound again. "I... I won't disturb you and that Yun guy. Please let me accompany you sometimes. I'm very good. I beg you... please don't leave me."
Gu Xingjue hurriedly hugged Chen Song in his arms, as if he was holding a pile of broken porcelain. He was stabbed and bleeding, but he was happy to do so.
Hot tears kept dripping onto Chen Song's neck, but they couldn't shake Chen Song's cold heart: "Not good."
Chen Song couldn't believe that the arrogant Gu Xingjue could actually say such a thing. Chen Song pushed him away fiercely: "Do you know what you are saying? Where is your dignity? Where is your pride?"
"No, no, I only want you, I only want Chen Song, I don't want anything else." Gu Xingjue's breathing was disordered and difficult, and his whole body was shivering. The snow made him so cold, and the wind made him so painful.
Chen Song felt sour in his heart. Gu Xingjue was so pitiful, but his heart was still cold and untouchable.
Snow piled up more and more on his broad shoulders. It was so strange that it had snowed in Wen City after so many years. The snow fell on Gu Xingjue, making him look extremely lonely. It was as if he had returned to the year when Chen Song found Gu Xingjue in Beijing City.
There was also such a person who was alone and pitiful, crying out: "Don't leave me."
Gu Xingjue knelt helplessly on the ground, his head bowed and he sobbed, his hands tightly clutching Chen Song's pants: "How could it become like this? Why did it become like this?"
Chen Song looked down at him, his heart aching. He didn't know why it had become like this.
If Chen Song had met Gu Xingjue in the beginning, would their outcome have been different? Unfortunately, there is no if. Unfortunately, there is no if.
"You love me," Gu Xingjue took off the ring on his finger and looked up to show Chen Song, "You love me! You made this for me. As long as it's here, it means you love me. Möbius strip, endless love, eternal love!"
Chen Song stared at the ring in silence, his eyes dark and unclear. The silver reflected a brilliant light, and a snowflake landed on it. Chen Song reached out and picked up the ring, then turned and walked into the house.
Gu Xingjue was stunned for a moment, then he wiped away his tears with joy and followed in.
"Have you forgiven me?" Gu Xingjue couldn't hide his joy on his face.
Chen Song ignored him and bent down to look for something in the storage box under the table. Gu Xingjue felt something was wrong and the smile on his face turned cold.
Chen Song took out an iron hammer, placed the ring on the ground and hit it hard with the hammer. The thunder-like sound also hit Gu Xingjue.
Gu Xingjue's heart shattered as he begged, "Don't...don't Chen Song...please, don't do this."
Chen Song ignored it, and under the powerful impact, the exquisite ring gradually twisted and deformed.
Gu Xingjue went to pull him: "Don't do this, don't hurt yourself, please."
Chen Song shook off his hand with a muffled sound and continued smashing. Lu Yuan, who heard the noise upstairs, ran to the stairs and asked, "What are you doing? Are you tearing down a house? Why are you still here?"
Gu Xingjue didn't dare to act rashly, fearing that Chen Song would do something bad again. He could only watch the ring twist into a piece of scrap metal. After Chen Song had knocked it enough, he picked up the ring and walked out.
"What the hell are you doing!" Lu Yuan ran downstairs and chased after them. "What the hell did you do to him again, idiot?"
Chen Song threw the ring out, and a thick pile of snow accumulated on the ground. The tiny ring fell into the vast white snow. There was only one street lamp in the dark night, and no trace of it could be found at all.
Gu Xingjue rushed into the wind and snow and looked around. He could no longer tell whether the snow falling on his face was melted snow or tears. He put his hands into the cold snow and groped around, but he was frozen unconscious in seconds.
"Where is it, my ring, my ring, why can't I find it? Why can't I find it?" he muttered.
Lu Yuan wiped his eyes, still not fully awake: "What did you throw away?"
Chen Song had a gloomy face and said nothing.
Lu Yuan tutted, "Is he an idiot? How could he possibly find it in such heavy snow? We'll know tomorrow when the snow melts. Usually, the snow in Vancouver is just a little bit, gone in a few minutes, but this time it's so heavy."
"He's crazy," Lu Yuan whispered. He felt a little sympathetic and shouted at Gu Xingjue, "Wait until the snow melts before looking for him! Are you an idiot?"
Gu Xingjue continued searching as if he didn't hear anything.
"Why can't I find it!" Gu Xingjue became impatient. The space in his body seemed to be completely squeezed. He couldn't breathe, his whole body was tense, and his limbs were paralyzed.
His breathing became faster and faster, his head began to feel dizzy, and a dark shadow flashed before his eyes. He shook his head and continued to search.
"Brother!!" A group of people suddenly ran out of the alley, led by a young man.
The young man in a beige coat ran to Gu Xingjue, followed by a group of bodyguards in black suits.
"Holy crap!" Lu Yuan was completely awake. "Where did this person come from? We're filming a movie at this stage."
"Brother!" Gu Yiming grabbed Gu Xingjue and said, "Come home with us. Dad knows."
"Get out of here!" Gu Xingjue pushed him to the ground and continued searching for the ring in the snow. He breathed painfully, "Ring, my ring, my ring."
The bodyguards stepped forward to help Gu Yiming up. The others wanted to grab Gu Xingjue but were stopped by Gu Yiming: "Don't do that yet."
"Brother, what are you looking for?" Gu Yiming asked as he got closer.
"Ring, ring, my ring."
"Go, help him find it!" said Gu Yiming.
"Yes, young master."
"Ring..." Gu Xingjue could no longer breathe and could not hold on any longer. Suddenly, everything in front of his eyes went dark and he fell to his knees on the ground.
"Brother!" Gu Yiming pulled him up, "Brother, what's wrong with you?"
"Drive the car here!"
Chen Song stood there in a daze. He didn't expect that Gu Xingjue would be like this and also suffer from respiratory alkali poisoning.
"Oh my god! He won't kill anyone, will he?" Lu Yuan asked Chen Song, "Aren't you a medical student? Do you know what happened to him?"
Chen Song did not reply. He walked up to Gu Xingjue and looked down at Gu Xingjue, who was lying in Gu Yiming's arms with disordered breathing and trembling all over. It seemed as if he saw himself fainting on the street on Christmas Eve.
Chen Song slowly squatted down and covered Gu Xingjue's mouth with the back of his hand.
Gu Yiming said angrily: "What are you going to do!"
He was about to push Chen Song away when he heard Chen Song's calm voice: "This is a symptom of respiratory alkali poisoning, also known as hyperpnea. Do you have a brown paper bag? That would be most effective."
Gu Yiming and Gu Xingjue had similar features. Their sharp eyes swept over Chen Song, assessing him with deliberate judgment, as if they didn't believe him. The surrounding bodyguards stepped forward and surrounded him, preparing to drag Chen Song away.
Lu Yuan stepped forward and blocked their way: "He's a doctor. If you don't want your young master to die, then listen to him."
Chen Song frowned slightly, lowering his eyes to look at Gu Xingjue struggling and in pain: "Don't gather around, disperse."
Gu Yiming gave the bodyguards a look and asked them to disperse.
Gu Xingjue's breathing gradually stabilized.
"Go find the bag he mentioned." Gu Yiming said to the bodyguard. As soon as he finished speaking, a large black SUV drove in.
Gu Yiming had Gu Xingjue carried into the car, and before closing the door, he looked deeply at Chen Song.
There was anger, resentment, viciousness and a complex fear in the boy's eyes. In the end, he closed the car door and drove away without saying anything.
In the early morning when the sky was full of snow, Chen Song stood in the snow, his body covered with snowflakes. His gray eyes pierced through the drifting white snow and watched the black car disappear into the alley, never to return.
For a long time afterwards, just as Chen Song had wished, Gu Xingjue never appeared again, and his name was never heard of again...
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