Chapter 87 Pulling up his pants and not recognizing anyone "I miss you so much that I'm almost dying. ...
"I miss you so much that I'm almost dying." Gu Xingjue said in a hoarse voice, his heart beating violently.
During the year or so of abstinence, he missed Chen Song all the time, missed every inch of his skin. He could only rely on the warmth he once had to get through those difficult days and nights.
Chen Song's trembling eyelashes, his lustful eyes, his cheeks as red as blooming roses, his delicate and tender neck, his smooth skin under his light blue shirt, his thin frame, his slender jade-like fingers, his ankles as white as porcelain... Every part of Chen Song aroused his endless imagination.
The air was filled with a strong and seductive smell of alcohol, blending with the hot breath.
Gu Xingjue took a deep breath and smelled a faint fragrance hidden in it. It was a mixture of Chen Song's unique body fragrance and the shower gel he usually used.
This is the smell that Gu Xingjue longs for day and night, which can bring him a sense of security that he is not abandoned by the world.
Every cell in Gu Xingjue's body was clamoring, hungry, thirsty, arrogant, and wanting to lick and bite fiercely.
He had been relying on reason to suppress this impulse. He hadn't drunk a drop of alcohol today, but he was a little drunk.
The string that was tightly holding his rationality together was completely broken after Chen Song said, "Do you want to kiss me?" The strong desire was like a violent tide, ready to burst out, awakening the most primitive animality and desire from deep within his body.
"Boss—" Ye Wenzhou's voice came from outside the toilet door, "I'm here to bring you some pants~"
The string that Gu Xingjue had broken was pulled up again by him. He tilted his head and took a deep, calm breath for a moment, then turned around and was about to talk to Chen Song, but Chen Song pulled his wrist.
Chen Song pulled him into a toilet, closed the toilet lid, threw him on it, turned around and closed the door, isolating Ye Wenzhou's shouting outside.
"Boss? Eh? Where's he? He's not here? Strange... where did he go?"
Gu Xingjue sat on the toilet and looked up at Chen Song. His heart had never been beating so fast and his breathing became heavier.
The lights inside were dim, and Chen Song's breathing quickened as he lowered his eyes to look at Gu Xingjue. Their auras filled the narrow space, testing and colliding with each other, as if fireworks were about to explode in the next moment.
But at this moment, there was an incomparable silence. They looked at each other in silence, with only the chaotic breathing and loud heartbeats in their ears. They said nothing, but they could read the desire in each other's eyes.
Gu Xingjue felt like his heart was about to explode. Chen Song could still have such feelings towards him.
"Thump, thump, thump."
Ye Wenzhou knocked on the door and asked, "Boss? Are you in there?"
Gu Xingjue averted his gaze from Chen Song and looked at the wooden door, but the next second Chen Song sat across his thighs, blocking his view.
Gu Xingjue's breathing hitched, and it felt like a needle was pricking his flesh. He looked into Chen Song's eyes, and their breathing became even more disordered.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Ye Wenzhou didn't wait for the person inside to respond, so he had to apologize and turned away.
As Ye Wenzhou's footsteps grew farther and farther away, Chen Song hooked Gu Xingjue's neck and kissed him, softly and tenderly biting his plump lips. His small tongue slowly probed in, touching his hard teeth, and then slipped in with a slight pry.
Just when he thought he could easily capture the city, the enemy suddenly launched an offensive.
Gu Xingjue hugged Chen Song's back with both hands, and could feel the clear outline of bones under his thin skin through the thin fabric.
Gu Xingjue tilted his head slightly to kiss him, tracing the outline of his lips over and over again, and imitated Chen Song's cautious and tentative manner, licking his lips softly. With their breathing disordered, the two kissed deeper and deeper. A brief taste was no longer enough, and Gu Xingjue greedily sucked the tempting sweetness and fragrance between his lips and teeth.
The unique fragrance of Chen Song was ignited by the strong fruit wine, blooming like fireworks in the air, making Gu Xingjue intoxicated, obsessed and selfless. He deepened this kiss as hot as the summer sun step by step, making Chen Song slowly melt.
Just when Chen Song couldn't bear the intense kiss anymore, Gu Xingjue let him go.
Gu Xingjue's chest was heaving violently, and Chen Song could even feel his violently beating heart.
Gu Xingjue was still not satisfied and gently kissed the corners of Chen Song's mouth, eyes, eyelashes and cheeks.
Chen Song calmed down a bit and then stood up and looked at him: "Gu Xingjue..."
Gu Xingjue lowered his voice, his eyes red: "You are drunk Chen Song."
The broken string of Gu Xingjue was still hanging in his mind, trying to regain the last bit of clarity.
"You feel very uncomfortable." Chen Song coaxed him gently, touching Gu Xingjue's neck and pulling out the silver necklace. The ring on the necklace also slid out. Chen Song paused, hooked the ring and pulled it.
Gu Xingjue couldn't stand Chen Song's teasing and turned his head to look at the ground: "It's okay, I've been feeling bad for so long. You'll be angry, I can't do this."
"But now I think." Chen Song hooked the necklace and pulled Gu Xingjue's head back, forcing him to look at him, "I will be angry now."
The string that Gu Xingjue was hanging on was completely broken and torn. When he wanted to kiss Chen Song, Chen Song stretched out his index finger and pressed it against Gu Xingjue's lips: "Not here."
"Go back to your place?" Gu Xingjue looked at Chen Song with surging desire in his eyes. His breathing was rough and hot, burning Chen Song's hand like steam.
"Hmm..." Chen Song dragged his voice and shook his head, "That bed is too small. It will break."
Chen Song knew the destructive power of Gu Xingjue.
Gu Xing was determined and kept talking: "Let's go upstairs and get a room. How about it? The biggest one."
Chen Song thought for a while and nodded.
Gu Xingjue immediately pulled them out of the hall. At that moment, many people were walking around in the hall, and no one noticed them in the corner. Gu Xingjue pulled Chen Song along the wall, turned into a corridor, got on the elevator, and called someone to book a room.
After Gu Xingjue brought Chen Song in, he pressed Chen Song against the door and kissed him. After kissing him for a long time, he let him go: "I'm going to take a shower first, you rest here for a while?"
Chen Song hooked his neck and kissed him again: "No need to wash, I want it now."
Gu Xingjue slowly melted his kiss: "If you don't wash it, it will get dirty."
"You're not dirty. No matter what you do, you're not dirty."
Gu Xingjue had no choice but to obey Chen Song, and the two kissed all the way to the master bedroom.
"Don't turn on the light." Chen Song turned off the light in the master bedroom again.
Gu Xingjue chuckled softly, "Is our little Songbao shy again?"
Chen Song snorted softly: "I, I didn't."
Gu Xingjue carried him to the bed, leaned over and gently touched his lips, his tone full of pampering: "Okay, I get it. I'm just shy, okay?"
Chen Song curled the corners of his lips and tilted his head slightly to continue the light kiss. The two gradually deepened the kiss.
"Don't..." Chen Song grabbed Gu Xingjue's hair.
They turned on a small lamp on the bedside, and Gu Xingjue's hair was messed up by his pulling.
"You don't like kissing like this?"
"Like, like it." Chen Song said softly.
Gu Xingjue kissed him again: "Do you like me or not?"
Gu Xingjue's moment of relaxation allowed Chen Song's mind to clear. He stared at Gu Xingjue blankly, thinking about this problem.
But his mind was a mess, and he couldn't think straight. He didn't like many things, and he was even more afraid of liking people. Liking someone brought him deep pain, and even when drunk, he still subconsciously felt the fear.
But he couldn't refuse Gu Xingjue's kiss now. So contradictory... Why is it so contradictory...
"Do you like it, huh?"
Chen Song couldn't answer, so Gu Xingjue kept asking him in his ear.
Chen Song accidentally touched the jagged wound on Gu Xingjue's back and suddenly stopped. He looked up at Gu Xingjue blankly, his gray eyes, which had been shimmering with light, suddenly dimmed, leaving only an endless confusion, as unfathomable as the thick fog at night.
"What's wrong?" Gu Xingjue stroked his cheek gently.
"It's not too late to regret now." Gu Xingjue also looked at him, his deep eyes as depressing as the thick and dull night.
"Does the wound still hurt?" Chen Song's voice was very soft and his breathing was a little unstable.
"It doesn't hurt." Gu Xingjue kissed the corner of his mouth and breathed in the pleasant smell of Chen Song with fascination.
"You're lying." Chen Song looked at him persistently, "You always lie. It actually hurts."
"It really doesn't hurt anymore, baby." Gu Xingjue smiled and pinched his ear, coaxing him patiently, "It did hurt a lot at the time."
"But I can't bear to see you hurt. If you get hurt, it will hurt twice as much in my heart."
Every time Chen Song touched the scar on Gu Xingjue's back and thought of the scene where he blocked sulfuric acid for him, his heart ached and tears welled up in his eyes.
He couldn't imagine what kind of pain it was.
"Gu Xingjue, you are a fool who doesn't care about your life. Do you know that this is very dangerous? You will die, you know. I am really scared..."
Chen Song couldn't imagine Gu Xingjue's death. The thought of it would cause him to feel a suffocating pain.
"I won't die. I'm standing right here right now." Gu Xingjue patiently comforted him, "You're still here. How could I bear to leave first? I'll come back to see you no matter how hard I try."
"I'm not stupid, I just love you too much. Idiot."
Gu Xingjue's words had a kind of magic that always wiped away the uneasiness in Chen Song's heart, and his uneasy heart finally began to calm down.
"Thank you." Chen Song said.
"Then how do you want to thank me?" Gu Xingjue curled his lips.
Chen Song looked at him and thought for a while, his eyelashes trembling: "Kiss you."
......
"Ding-ling-ling... Ding-ling-ling..."
At this moment, the cell phone on the ground suddenly rang.
"Hand, mobile phone," Chen Song said intermittently.
"in spite of."
After the phone was hung up, it rang again. Gu Xingjue stood up. Chen Song looked at him blankly as he took a few tissues and wiped it casually, then turned around and walked to the ground to pick up the phone in his pants.
It was Su Guangshan who called.
"Hello, Mr. Gu. They said you were out for something. Have you taken care of it now? The wedding is about to start. Come over quickly."
Just as Gu Xingjue was about to speak, he suddenly felt hot and his eyes darkened as he lowered them...
"Dirty. Don't."
"Ah? What's dirty?" Su Guangshan asked on the other end of the phone.
Chen Song's eyes, soaked in water, curved slightly.
Gu Xingjue understood that Chen Song was trying to play a trick on him, so he had no choice but to let him go.
"Boss Gu?" Su Guangshan called again, "Did something happen?"
"It's okay. Um... my wife is sick, so I have to go back first. Sorry, I'll give you a big gift later. I'm really... hiss, I'm really sorry."
"Oh, I see. Then take good care of it, it's okay."
"Well, then I'll just hang up like that."
"Okay, okay."
Gu Xingjue had just hung up the phone and was about to deal with the kitten when Chen Song's phone rang again.
Gu Xingjue stepped out, walked around the little man with red eyes, turned around and answered Chen Song's call again.
"Doctor Chen, where are you? Did something happen?" Dong Jingming asked. "The ceremony is about to begin. Do you want me to come find you?"
Gu Xingjue said, "He's drunk and not feeling well. I'm taking him home first. Sorry."
There was no sound from the other side for a long time. When Dong Jingming recognized Gu Xingjue's voice, he didn't expect that the two of them had gone to the bathroom and hadn't come back for so long and were still together. After realizing what was happening, he said blankly, "Okay, okay, that's fine."
"Hang up."
"good."
After Gu Xingjue hung up the phone, he picked up the still-breathing man on the ground, pinched his ear, and kissed him: "Chen Song, you've become bad. You've also learned to play, right?"
Chen Song had always been very shy, especially in this regard, and Gu Xingjue had always been the one taking the lead. If Chen Song hadn't gone along with him, Gu Xingjue would have suspected he was asexual.
Even the only time he took the initiative happened when Chen Song was extremely reluctant.
Gu Xingjue's heart ached when he thought of this. Chen Song had been so reluctant at that time, but he was still forced to do it in order to keep him. Gu Xingjue's eyes were red. He picked Chen Song up from the bed and hugged him, burying his head in Chen Song's shoulder.
Chen Song felt a hot tear sliding down his shoulder and burning his way down his back.
Chen Song stretched out his hand and paused, and finally placed it on Gu Xingjue's back, slowly stroking all of Gu Xingjue's wounds. His big dog started crying again.
"What's wrong?" Chen Song asked him in a gentle voice in a rare good mood, touching his head and wanting to stroke the fur of this wronged big dog.
Gu Xingjue shook his head: "Actually, your favorite intimate behavior is hugging, right? I'm sorry, I shouldn't have forced you at that time."
Gu Xingjue should have discovered long ago that Chen Song preferred hugs to kissing and sleeping. It seemed to give Chen Song a sense of security and support. After each encounter, Chen Song always pestered him for a hug. Gu Xingjue didn't understand at first and would often ignore him.
That was a signal that Chen Song was uneasy.
"When you're sad, you say you want to be alone, but you really want someone to be with you. Nothing to do, just a hug is enough, right? You always say it hard but are soft at heart. You want to see if I will still choose you unwaveringly even if you push me away again and again."
"I'm sorry. I was wrong before. I was really wrong. I won't let you be sad alone anymore."
Chen Song's hand paused, his whole body stiffened, and he sobered up a lot. He put his hand on the wound left by the strong acid again and stroked it gently: "I heard it."
"What did you hear?"
"Your apology."
"Okay." Gu Xingjue held Chen Song for a long time, and neither of them said anything.
Until Gu Xingjue realized that Chen Song was still energetic, he let go of him and asked, "Do you still want to do it?"
Chen Song was stunned for a moment, then kissed Gu Xingjue on the lips.
It's already wrong, so just have fun.
However, Chen Song regretted it in the second half of the night. Gu Xingjue was really too energetic. It was not something that ordinary people could bear.
Chen Song wasn't much better. Many times, Chen Song had gone, but before long, Gu Xingjue was able to stir up his desire again. He actually wanted it too. Physiological needs were normal, but he just didn't have enough physical strength.
The two of them worked from morning till night. Chen Song was so tired that he fell asleep. After Gu Xingjue cleaned him up, he carried him to another clean bedroom for him to have a good rest.
Gu Xingjue called for food to be delivered, all of which were Chen Song's favorite dishes. After he finished taking a shower, the food was also delivered. He brought the food to the bedroom, stroked Chen Song's hair and whispered, "Little Songbao, get up and eat. Eat and then go back to sleep."
Chen Song snorted and turned his back to him.
Gu Xingjue smiled. Every time Chen Song had sex with him, he would be as soft as a kitten.
Gu Xingjue picked him up and straightened his hair: "How about some milk? You'll feel bad in your stomach if you drink so much."
Gu Xingjue handed the milk to Chen Song's mouth with a glass straw in it. Chen Song bit it lazily and took a few sips.
"Why did you drink so much today? Are you unhappy? Tell me why you are unhappy." Gu Xingjue helped him hold the straw so that he could drink.
After drinking some milk, Chen Song felt warm in his stomach and felt much more comfortable.
"Are you unhappy because you think that woman is my wife?"
Chen Song didn't say anything, but Gu Xingjue knew it was true.
"Alright, alright," Gu Xingjue patted his head and coaxed him, "Then let me explain it to you. If you're unhappy in the future, just tell me directly and I'll explain everything to you. The one I like, the one I love, the one who will always stand by my side is you. Didn't I tell you before that if you have any doubts or are unsure, you can come to me and confirm it again and again?"
Gu Xingjue put down the milk, scooped a spoonful of preserved egg and lean meat porridge, blew on it, and brought it to Chen Song's mouth: "Then have a few more mouthfuls of porridge and then go to bed, okay?"
Chen Song didn't say anything. After a moment of silence, he looked up at him and said, "There's someone who likes you. She's very beautiful. She has a nice personality, too. She's the girl sitting next to me."
"So do you like me?" Gu Xingjue asked him, "Whether others like me or not has nothing to do with me. What I want to know, what I only care about, is whether you like me or not."
Chen Song paused, lowered his eyes, looked at the porridge and took a bite quietly.
Chen Song's nerves were still numb from the alcohol, and he was now completely exhausted, not having the energy to think about these issues. Or rather, he didn't know whether he should still like Gu Xingjue.
Is it right that you like Gu Xingjue?
Will I be hurt again?
What if I get hurt again? Will I die?
There were too many problems for Chen Song to consider.
"It doesn't matter if you still don't know. I'm always here. I'll wait for you until the day you figure it out."
Gu Xingjue coaxed Chen Song to drink a few mouthfuls of porridge before letting him go to sleep. He went outside to eat a few more mouthfuls, then climbed back into bed and hugged Chen Song and kissed him.
I hope he won’t be blackout-stricken or angry when he wakes up tomorrow morning.
Gu Xingjue was reluctant to go to sleep. He kept looking at Chen Song by the bedside lamp, feeling very satisfied and happy.
Chen Song woke up at noon the next day, feeling sore and weak all over, as if he had been run over by a car.
After seeing Gu Xingjue in front of him, his brain instantly crashed and then reloaded. Last night's crazy night instantly made him clear his mind.
A blush of embarrassment slowly crept up on his snow-white skin.
... Uh... Uh... Uh...
Well, it's over.
Really...did it...with Gu Xingjue.
Chen Song emerged from Gu Xingjue's embrace, struggled to his feet, and rubbed his head vigorously, feeling extremely regretful. Yesterday, Chen Song was conscious, but the alcohol had magnified his desire infinitely.
Chen Song rubbed his hair and wiped his face. He felt really ashamed. How could he let the alcohol take over his brain? He was so impulsive and couldn't control his lower body and just did it.
Chen Song took a few deep breaths to calm down. He was ready to give up. It was okay. We were all men. It was no big deal to sleep for a night to satisfy our physical needs. No one would lose out. Last night, the two of them had a good time. They had satisfied the desires that had been there for so long.
Yeah. It's okay. It's okay. Calm down. We're all adults, we all make mistakes. It's just that I really can't drink any more of this wine.
"Are you awake?" Gu Xingjue rubbed his eyes and sat up. "How are you? Are you feeling unwell?"
Chen Song looked at him and felt uncomfortable all over.
"You did it last night, don't you know?"
"You still remember," Gu Xingjue was a little happy, but when he heard Chen Song's tone was wrong, he woke up instantly, feeling a little anxious and a little helpless, "I was wrong."
Gu Xingjue grabbed the corner of Chen Song's clothes and said, "Is it inflamed again? Let me take a look."
Chen Song pushed his hand away, gritted his teeth and got out of bed. His whole body was in pain and he was too weak to stand up, so he fell directly to the ground.
Gu Xingjue quickly turned over and picked him up, put him back on the bed, and checked his ankle: "Did you fall anywhere?"
Last night, Gu Xingjue had someone bring clean pajamas for Chen Song to change into. Under his shorts, Chen Song's calves were white and smooth, like flawless pieces of porcelain, and each toe was plump and round. Gu Xingjue's Adam's apple moved slightly, and the thought of how those beautiful legs had wrapped around him yesterday made his blood boil again.
Chen Song took a deep breath, pondered for a moment, and then said seriously, "Gu Xingjue. Let's just pretend what happened last night never happened. We're all men, and it's normal to satisfy our physical needs. I was impulsive, and I was wrong. Let's not do this again in the future. I'm really, really sorry."
Gu Xingjue froze, and looked up at him with red eyes:
"Chen Song, you really don't recognize me anymore after you put on your pants."
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