Chapter 99 Chen Song doesn't like him. After the thunderstorm,...
After the thunderstorm, the sky was gray. The wind was strong, shaking the branches outside the window. Chen Song could only see the world through this narrow window.
A week of resistance band training finally paid off today; Chen Song finally regained feeling in his legs. The feeling of regaining control of his body was strange, yet strange, and filled with an indescribable sense of life.
Today's training should have ended here, but Chen Song used his eyes to indicate his persistence. He wanted to further practice walking directly using a walker.
Chen Song, having shaken off his previous days' negative attitude, was very active in training today. However, Gu Xingjue knew he wasn't being passive; he was just anxious. After what happened last night, Chen Song must have been feeling very upset, and he wanted to get better quickly.
Gu Xingjue felt distressed and worried. He held Chen Song and coaxed him for a long time, but Chen Song didn't give in and got angry instead. Gu Xingjue had to compromise and agreed, and repeatedly told Chen Song to stop and rest when he was tired.
Chen Song got the walker as he wished. When he put his hands on the stainless steel rods of the walker, he felt excited and nervous.
Gu Xingjue originally planned to let Chen Song walk around the ward, not as a formal training, but to familiarize himself with the walker in advance.
Chen Song was unhappy and just stared at him with his eyebrows slightly furrowed and a hint of resentment in his eyes.
Chen Song always had this expression when he was unhappy or displeased. Sometimes, when he was so angry, he wouldn't even look at him. Whenever Gu Xingjue appeared in his field of vision, he would roll his eyes and look away. Gu Xingjue had no choice but to lean over and bring his face close to Chen Song, filling his entire field of vision. But Chen Song simply closed his eyes. When Chen Song finally turned his head, Gu Xingjue had no choice but to give in to his every move.
This time was no exception, allowing Chen Song to practice in the corridor outside the ward. The ward was actually quite large, about fifty square meters, much more spacious than the narrow corridor. Without the distractions of the people coming and going, it was much more suitable for practice. Gu Xingjue probably understood why Chen Song wanted to practice outside: he desperately wanted to escape this place that trapped him.
It was three in the afternoon, and the hospital corridor wasn't crowded, save for the occasional nurse or two. Gu Xingjue, worried that Chen Song wouldn't be able to adjust at first, offered him a walker to help him along. Chen Song, however, gave him that same look again, and Gu Xingjue pursed his lips and, observing the signal, released his hand.
"Then take your time. Don't be anxious." Gu Xingjue said with a gentle smile, "I will always be by your side."
Gu Xingjue's smile was warm, like a rare ray of sunshine amidst the relentless rain in Country Y. It dispelled the haze from Chen Song's eyes, moving him somewhat. Chen Song withdrew his gaze and looked at the walker. He took a deep breath, straining his hands to maintain balance while attempting to lift his right leg.
The thigh muscles held the leg bones in their arms, and no matter how hard they tried, they couldn't budge.
"Take your time, there's no rush." Gu Xingjue carefully observed Chen Song's emotions, and stood beside him, encouraging and guiding him softly, "It's okay if you don't move."
Chen Song slowly relaxed all his muscles and breathed slowly. Just when Gu Xingjue thought he was going to stop the training, he suddenly tensed up all over, supported himself with the walker, and moved his toes forward a few millimeters with difficulty. His speed was slower than that of a crawling turtle, but it made both of them very excited.
"Amazing! So amazing! I just believe you can do it!"
Chen Song wasn't content with this small leap of joy. He tensed all his muscles to help the abandoned machine function again. The bulging veins on Chen Song's arms resembled long, thin green snakes, crawling along his white jade bones and winding their way up to his neck. His fair face flushed darkly, and his blood boiled.
Gradually, he mechanically took the first step, then the second, his steps were as difficult as an octogenarian with a cane, but his heart was beating harder than anyone else's. So he walked faster and faster, completely beyond his balance and strength. His whole body was shaking, but Chen Song completely ignored this unbalanced shaking, thinking that his body was also excited along with his heart.
Gu Xingjue was so panicked that his heart was about to jump out: "Slow down, Chen Song, slow down, don't rush, baby, it's very dangerous, you will fall like this."
Chen Song did not slow down until a little girl running passed by him, with two thick black braids flying behind her.
The little girl turned around and smiled: "Siny, you're too slow. Catch up with me!"
The little girl was about five years old, with dark skin and bright peach blossom eyes curved into two crescent moons. After she finished speaking, she laughed twice and turned back. At that moment, her eyes met Chen Song's, and Chen Song was stunned and stood there.
The back of the little girl in a bright yellow floral dress gradually distanced herself from him, and was immediately followed by a little boy with white skin and blue eyes.
"e on, Billy! You're older than me! When I grow up, I will surely surpass you!"
The little boy spoke in a baby voice and was smaller in stature, but he ran past Chen Song very quickly, chasing after the little girl's back.
Chen Song suddenly felt a little annoyed, and anxiously tried to catch up with them by using his walker. However, after a day of rehabilitation exercises, his whole body was sore and weak, especially since he had just used up all his strength. He could not maintain the balance of his limbs when he tried to exert force again. His arms that were supporting the walker were shaking violently, and his legs were dragging on the ground with one foot deep and one foot shallow.
Seeing Chen Song so anxious, Gu Xingjue broke out in a cold sweat, his heart beating fast with fear. He opened his arms to help him but didn't dare. He held him helplessly in the air: "You, you go slowly, don't worry about them. When you get better, you will definitely run faster than those two brats. Go slowly, okay, baby?"
Chen Song was so anxious and furious that he couldn't listen to Gu Xingjue's words. He only wanted to catch up with the two children. With a self-abusing obsession, he fought against the resentment he had suppressed for so long. He let all the misunderstanding, resentment, and resentment in his heart rise to the top, like a bomb about to explode.
When Gu Xingjue saw Chen Song about to fall and wanted to help him, he was glared back at by Chen Song with a cold look. He could only stand by and worry. He really wanted to catch the two little brats who had just run over and beat them up.
The children's laughter and the sounds of chasing each other still echoed in the corridor. Their innocent voices were like demons, constantly provoking Chen Song.
"Don't run in the corridor!" Gu Xingjue coldly told the little brat to stop. If he didn't have to guard Chen Song, he would have rushed forward to grab the two kids and throw them out.
He really hated such annoying creatures as children.
The two children were frightened by Gu Xingjue's shouting, and immediately fell silent, ran into the corner and disappeared.
"Okay, okay, they're gone. Let's take a break, okay? Today has been really tough, baby. Don't leave again." A drop of cold sweat rolled down Gu Xingjue's head, soaking his eyes, making them feel a little sour. He blinked but didn't bother to wipe them away.
Chen Song dragged his tired and stiff body forward, but his calves eventually slipped. At the moment he slipped, he thought he could keep his hands steady by supporting himself on the walker, but his hands were as weak as soft fish out of control, and they slid over the railing and fell to the ground.
The pain made him wake up again. This was the second slap in the face of reality.
Chen Song stubbornly tried to stand up, his legs struggling in a strange and twisted posture, climbing up again and again and falling back to the ground again and again.
“Chen Song!” Gu Xingjue hurriedly pushed the walker aside and went to hug him. Before his fingertips touched Chen Song, he heard Chen Song roar – “Get out!”
Chen Song beat his legs furiously, trying to revive the necrotic muscles and cells. Rage burned through his heart and lungs, and he roared out his rage like a madman: "Get out! Get out!!"
Chen Song's roar in the corridor was deafening, and Gu Xingjue was shocked in place. Chen Song's voice penetrated his skin and flesh and reached the depths of his soul. Gu Xingjue's soul trembled, his scalp numbed, his hair stood on end, and goose bumps covered his body.
"Get lost", just one word, three times in a row, was the first sentence Chen Song said to him in two months after he woke up.
A tear suddenly fell from Gu Xingjue's eyes. He was very happy that Chen Song could speak, but Chen Song told him... to get out.
Gu Xingjue watched Chen Song pounding his legs, his heart trembling. He felt so sore that he could squeeze lemon juice out of it. He said, "Don't, don't do this, Chen Song. I'm leaving. I'm leaving. Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, stop hitting yourself like this, okay?"
"Get out! Get out!" Chen Song lowered his head. Gu Xingjue's sobbing made him regain some sanity. He slowed down his hands and slapped his legs again and again.
He didn't know why he was so upset. He didn't want to be like that. He wanted to take it slow. He knew that this couldn't be rushed, but he just couldn't let go.
Why is it like this? Why has it become like this again? He doesn't want to be a trouble or a burden. He just wants to be an ordinary person, have an ordinary family, with parents who respect each other, father and mother who love each other, and a family of three who live a happy life like an ordinary family. Maybe in that case he will like girls, marry girls and have children. If he still likes boys, he will work hard with his future boyfriend to persuade his parents, and his parents will eventually accept it. If he can't have children, he will raise a puppy.
It's just like the happiness of ordinary people. Why is such a simple thing so difficult to achieve?
Why, why? Why! He always has to go through all the bad things. Did he do something wrong? Did he do something wrong? Was it a mistake to be born into this world? Then why does he have to come back, to die again?
Can someone tell him please? He really doesn't want to go on anymore. He's so tired...
Tears blurred his vision and rolled down the back of his hands. Chen Song didn't even have the strength to beat his legs.
Seeing Chen Song crying, Gu Xingjue felt like his heart was torn apart. He wanted to hug Chen Song and comfort him. Chen Song loved hugs the most because they made him feel safe.
But Chen Song didn't like him and hated him.
Chen Song and Yu Guangzhong saw Gu Xingjue get up and leave.
The person who had always been by his side was finally driven away by him.
He should be satisfied, right? But why does he feel so suffocated?
Does this mean she doesn't want him anymore? Doesn't this mean she won't care about him anymore? It's okay, it will all end like this sooner or later...
"Mr. Chen, let me help you up." A nurse with a thick foreign accent and unclear pronunciation squatted down and said to him, "Calm down. Take a deep breath."
Chen Song calmed down a little, then cooperated with two nurses to get on the wheelchair and return to the ward.
He was the only one in the ward. Chen Song watched the sky outside the window gradually darken. Until the sky was completely swallowed by darkness, he still didn't see Gu Xingjue.
Chen Song was so tired that he took a nap. It was a very light sleep. After some time, he heard the sound of a door opening. He opened his eyes and stood up to look towards the door...
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