Chapter 96 I Kissed You "Ding...Ding...
“Beep…beep…”
The sounds of machinery grew clearer, and the hazy sound of rain tapping against the glass was faint. The dim ceiling was no longer pure white, but layered with shadows.
Chen Song took a deep breath, as if he wanted to break through the rain waterfall that had been washing over him in his dream and demand free air.
A faint scent of gardenia lingered in the dry disinfectant, slowly reaching his lungs and clearing his mind. Then he felt a sudden surge of damp heat in his lower body.
Chen Song's breathing stagnated and he was stunned for a moment. Then he tried to get up, but he could not feel his limbs and could not move his whole body. He was stunned again.
"Chen Song..."
There was a soft call from the door. Chen Song heard it because the room was too quiet. The call was followed by the sound of glass falling and shattering, which was particularly harsh in the dead silent ward.
Chen Song blinked slowly and looked sideways. There stood a tall man at the door.
Chen Song's eyes were dazed for a moment, and in the dim light, he gradually recognized the man. He heard the heart that had been silent for who knows how long, so long that he thought it was dead, suddenly start beating again, beating again and again, slowly speeding up, and the cold blood also slowly began to flow.
Gu Xingjue's hair was cropped short, highlighting his features, which looked both tougher and more haggard. Tears gradually welled up in his eyes, which were filled with disbelief, twinkling like stars in the darkness. His body stood stiffly still, and beneath a thin gray sweater, he looked much thinner than before, so thin that Chen Song was almost stunned for a moment before he recognized him as Gu Xingjue.
Pure white gardenias are hidden in the broken glass on the ground, and the gardenias are a little damaged by the debris and water.
As they looked at each other, Chen Song's eyes also became wet for some reason. He quickly looked away, and the tears flowed back into his eyes.
The next moment, Gu Xingjue's hurried footsteps were heard, and he soon stood beside him.
Chen Song saw Gu Xingjue slowly raise his hands, wanting to touch him but feeling helpless. Gu Xingjue's breathing was also disordered.
No one spoke, no one could say a word, but the silence was deafening. Only the sound of Gu Xingjue's choked and suppressed tears kept echoing. The sobbing sound was like a brick that kept hitting Chen Song's heart.
Chen Song wanted to reach out and pinch his aching heart, but his dead muscles could not be controlled by his brain, and he couldn't even make the simplest facial movement like frowning.
Chen Song felt a little irritated and angry, and his chest felt as if it was filled with thick fog.
"He's awakee here quickly." Gu Xingjue's voice was filled with complex emotions as he pressed the pager.
Gu Xingjue remained silent until the doctor arrived. Chen Song listened quietly to his sobs and the emotions he dared not express. When the medical staff arrived, they were all shocked and kept congratulating Gu Xingjue.
Chen Song glanced sideways out the window. It was raining and foggy, and he felt more and more upset. He couldn't describe the feeling, nor did he know why.
Until the medical staff lifted his quilt, his heart, which had just revived, died again. He closed his eyes in shame, anger and despair, and didn't even have the ability to open his mouth to refuse.
He didn't know how long he had slept, so long that all his muscles atrophied, his cells died, and he couldn't even speak.
He is a dead tree.
He had died once, and when he came back to this world again, he still felt that there was nothing beautiful, only pain.
The tide of pain ran through his life, sweeping away his expectations and courage for happiness, leaving only a dry land.
"Wait." Gu Xingjue stopped them and asked them to go out first so that he could help Chen Song deal with it.
The medical staff retreated, and Chen Song still did not open his eyes, but Gu Xingjue knew that Chen Song was still awake.
Gu Xingjue suppressed his emotions and stopped crying, but he couldn't stop crying. Chen Song could hear his occasional sobs, and then he walked around the ward holding something.
Finally, he stood quietly beside the bed. After an unknown amount of silence, he finally spoke the first words to Chen Song.
He said with a smile, there was crying in his laughter, and sadness in his joy, a complex emotion.
"I'm sorry." This was the first thing Gu Xingjue said to him, "I didn't think about it. Don't be afraid. Don't be angry. This is only temporary, and it will heal in the future. I'll help you sort it out, okay?"
Gu Xingjue spoke in a very careful and gentle tone, but this did not relieve Chen Song's annoyance, but made him even more annoyed. He did not know where this nameless anger in his heart came from, but he could not control his emotions.
He was enveloped by a feeling of humiliation and dejection, but he could not struggle to escape and could only close his eyes resigned to his fate.
Gu Xingjue could sense Chen Song's resistance and despair. Over a year of coma had left him unable to care for himself, even unable to speak. Gu Xingjue had been understanding these symptoms since the day he accepted Chen Song's vegetative state, and had been preparing for the day Chen Song would awaken.
But when this day came without any symptoms, he was panic-stricken and at a loss.
He felt sorry for Chen Song, but didn't know how to comfort him.
"Then I'll start. Just bear with it." Gu Xingjue gently lifted the quilt. The smell was not so bad. Chen Song pulled the muscles between his eyebrows with difficulty.
Chen Song's excretion was minimal. As a vegetative state, he couldn't ingest anything, so he could only take in nutrients, mostly liquid. He could feel Gu Xingjue's hands on his body, but he couldn't feel Gu Xingjue's body temperature, or even the thick calluses and scars from his early years.
Gu Xingjue handled the situation quickly, much faster than Chen Song had imagined. He then called the medical staff back for an examination. After a brief examination, Chen Song was wheeled into the scanning room for a full-body CT scan. After the CT scan, various indicators were checked.
The medical staff examined Chen Song based on his physical condition, resting for a while and then examining him for a while. Gu Xingjue accompanied him throughout the whole process. Chen Song didn't look at him, but he could hear his occasional sobs.
Chen Songke was annoyed by Gu Xingjue's crying, but at the same time, he understood one thing. The crying that kept disturbing him in his dreams while he was unconscious was caused by Gu Xingjue, so the person who often told him stories and listened to music should also be Gu Xingjue.
Gu Xingjue was the one who had always been by his side, but he didn't know how long.
After all the inspections were completed, it was already late and the rain still did not stop. The dripping sound gradually calmed Chen Song's irritable mood, and the water returned to a calm and still state.
Gu Xingjue brought another bunch of new gardenias, trimmed them neatly and put them back in the vase on the table.
It was still very cold in early spring in Country Y. The room was a bit stuffy with the heater on, which intensified the fragrance of the gardenia.
Gu Xingjue opened and closed his lips several times, not knowing how to comfort Chen Song.
He was still in shock about Chen Song waking up, which seemed a bit unrealistic as there was no sign that Chen Song would wake up before.
More than a year, 528 days, no matter what Gu Xingjue said or did beside Chen Song, Chen Song didn't even move his eyelashes, and there was no reaction from his whole body, no different from a corpse. If Gu Xingjue hadn't lowered his head and could still hear his weak heartbeat, he really didn't know how he would have held on.
Everything happened so suddenly. Gu Xingjue stared at Chen Song without blinking, afraid that he would wake up from the dream if he was not paying attention.
Chen Song didn't even look at him, just staring at the rain outside the window.
Country Y often rains year-round, with summer being the only good time. Chen Song dislikes the weather the most, but he keeps staring at it. Gu Xingjue can sense that his mood remains low.
Gu Xingjue didn't know why Chen Song, who had been resisting waking up, was willing to wake up. He didn't dare to ask. But he was very fortunate and grateful that he did so.
"I've checked the weather forecast," Gu Xingjue said abruptly, "It's going to rain for three more days. Today is Monday, so it won't rain on Friday."
Chen Song didn't reply. Gu Xingjue remained silent for a while.
"We're in Country Y now. Once you're better, we'll go back to Vancouver. It'll take three months at the earliest, or six months at the slowest. I'll help you recover slowly. You're a doctor, so you should know more than I do."
Chen Song still didn't speak. Gu Xingjue knew he couldn't speak, but the more he did, the more uncomfortable he felt. He would rather Chen Song didn't want to talk to him. Gu Xingjue began to blame himself for not protecting him in the first place, for always annoying him, and for meddling in his affairs, which led to him becoming like this.
Gu Xingjue quickly wiped the tears from his face and said, "I beg you, please drink some water."
Chen Song had been refusing to eat since waking up, which frightened Gu Xingjue. Doctors said that vegetative patients tend to be very depressed after waking up. Chen Song had already been resisting awakening and had psychological problems, and now this situation clearly made his psychological problems even more serious.
Gu Xingjue handed the cup of water to Chen Song's mouth and put the straw in Chen Song's mouth. Chen Song didn't even look at him and kept looking at the rain outside the window.
Transparent raindrops stuck to the glass window, blurring the black night. He could see Gu Xingjue's reflection.
Gu Xingjue gently turned Chen Song's head over, and Chen Song slowly raised his eyes to look at him. His half-closed gray eyes still retained the traces of the rain just now, and were filled with sorrow and silence.
Gu Xingjue's smile was uglier than crying: "If you don't drink it yourself, then I'll kiss you and feed you with my mouth."
Chen Song blinked, lowered his eyes to look at the straw, and began to suck gently.
Gu Xingjue: “…”
Although. Um. Okay.
Chen Song really disliked him, and Gu Xingjue was in tears.
"If you want to go to the bathroom, blink three times at me. If you want to drink water, blink twice. If you're hungry, close your eyes for a while and then look at me. Okay? If you agree, look up and down. If you don't agree, look left and right."
Chen Song: “…” He imagined himself in that state in his mind and felt stupid.
"If you don't react, I'll kiss you."
Chen Song paused while drinking water and continued drinking. He didn't think that Gu Xingjue would really kiss him. Gu Xingjue didn't dare to do that. He was just trying to scare him.
Who knew that the next moment a shadow would fall, blocking the light. The straw in her mouth was taken away, and the water from the straw mouth overflowed around her lips, and was quickly sucked and wiped away by her warm and soft lips. The tip of her tongue slowly licked over her, causing a numb feeling all over her body.
Chen Song's eyes slowly widened, his long eyelashes trembled slightly like the wings of a frightened butterfly, his heart began to beat rapidly, and his breathing stagnated.
This was the first time he felt temperature since waking up, and his sense of touch gradually returned.
Gu Xingjue kissed his lips affectionately, kissing away all the overflowing water. He did not go deep, but just licked his lips lightly, as if comforting a frightened rabbit, carefully kissing away the rainwater on the rabbit's fur.
His kiss had a bitter fragrance, more melancholy than the continuous rain in Country Y, and was filled with deep longing and attachment. It was as soft and gentle as moonlight, but it made Chen Song feel as hot as the scorching heat of midsummer, dull and suffocating.
Chen Song wanted to escape, but he couldn't, and his little finger moved slightly.
"Chen Song, thank you for coming back."
In the warm and intertwined breath, Chen Song felt hot tears falling on his neck.
Gu Xingjue trembled and sobbed, as if he was sincerely thanking the gods for all their kindness.
"Thank you...really, thank you..."
Chen Song was stunned, and the endless power in his body gathered into tears, which slid out of his eyes in a daze.
It's so strange... He clearly doesn't want to cry, so why is he crying...
So strange... He clearly didn't want to come back, so why did he come back...
How strange... There is still someone in this world who welcomes him back...
Chen Song slowly closed his eyes. He felt so sleepy that he wanted to sleep again.
He didn't know if he would wake up again next time, but what he knew was -
Someone else is waiting for him.
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