Chapter 329 Overwhelming Guilt
“Sang Ruo, this matter has little to do with you, so you don’t need to blame yourself too much.”
Bo Jinzhou's voice came to my ears again.
Sang Ruo kept sobbing, her entire shoulder trembling slightly.
"You can go out now! I want to be alone for a while."
After saying this, she quickly lay down and covered herself with the blankets.
Bo Jinzhou had no choice but to get up from his chair: "I'll wait outside. Call me if you need anything."
Sang Ruo heard the footsteps gradually fade away, and finally heard the soft sound of the door closing.
She only burst into tears after everyone else had left the room.
At this moment, images from the past kept flashing through her mind.
Images of her, her senior, and her grandfather together flashed through her mind like a slideshow.
The last line of defense in my heart has completely collapsed.
All these years, she never knew that her senior brother had always loved her, and that his love had become completely uncontrollable. In the end, he even developed such a serious mental illness because of her, right in front of her...
She simply couldn't accept this fact.
Sang Ruo didn't know how long she cried in the ward, as if she wanted to cry out all the tears she would ever have in her life.
The sky outside gradually darkened.
I came in to change her medicine, and then went out again.
The nurse said she could be discharged tomorrow.
But she only glanced at the nurse and didn't respond at all.
When Bo Jinyan arrived at the ward door, the nurse happened to come out from inside.
Bo Jinyan asked, "How is she now?"
In the afternoon, Bo Jinzhou called him, saying that Sang Ruo had woken up.
After he finished his business, he rushed back in a great hurry.
"Her physical condition is fine now, but her mental state doesn't seem to be very good. You still need to keep a close eye on her and make sure she doesn't get too emotional, lest she faint again."
Bo Jinyan nodded slightly: "Okay, thank you."
After he pushed open the door and went in, he saw Sang Ru lying alone on the bed, staring blankly at the night sky outside the window.
After returning from the funeral home, Bo Jinyan went to his hotel, took a shower, changed into clean clothes, and then came to see her.
Upon hearing the noise, Sang Ruo instinctively turned her head to look in the man's direction.
The moment she saw it was Bo Jinyan, she couldn't hold back anymore, and tears welled up in her eyes again.
After Bo Jinyan came to the bedside, he quickly pulled her into his arms.
He placed his hand on the back of her head, gently soothing her: "Don't be afraid, I'm here."
Sang Ruo cried for a while before she calmed down.
When she saw this man, she truly felt that she was still alive.
Because her senior brother was also a relatively important person in her life.
She never imagined that he would die because of her...
After Bo Jinyan saw that her emotions had calmed down, he asked, "Are you feeling better?"
Sang Ruo nodded subconsciously, but did not say anything.
"I heard that something very important happened at the Bo Group, so Bo Jinzhou just flew back. After your senior brother's funeral tomorrow, I'll take you back to Beijing immediately, okay?"
The man's tone was extremely gentle.
Sang Ruo said softly, "These things should have been handled by me, but you've done so much for me. I don't know how to thank you enough..."
"Fool, your senior brother is also my senior brother. To put it another way, we're all family. Don't think too much. After you finish these IV drips, have a good meal."
"good."
Perhaps because he was by her side, Sang Ruo felt that her mood had improved a lot.
The next day, early morning.
Sang Ruo completed the discharge procedures early and, together with Bo Jinyan, buried Fang Gan's ashes.
My senior brother was an orphan. Although he had no relatives, he had many friends, especially doctors in Jiangzhou. Almost all of them came to see him off, so his funeral was relatively grand.
It started raining when the burial took place.
This is the first rain since the beginning of spring.
After the funeral, Sang Ruo sat at the entrance of the cemetery for a very long time...
Bo Jinyan stayed by her side and didn't go anywhere else.
It wasn't until nightfall that Bo Jinyan pulled her up from the stone bench: "Let's go! We should leave."
Sang Ruo glanced back at the cemetery one last time. A certain part of her heart felt as if it had been gripped tightly by a pair of large hands, the pain making it hard for her to breathe.
Several days have passed since the incident.
Even now, she still cannot accept the fact that her senior brother has left this world.
And she was the one who indirectly caused her senior brother's death...
Bo Jinyan put his arm around her waist, pulled her into the car, and drove away.
“We’ll stay at the hotel for one night and head back tomorrow.” Bo Jinyan placed his hands on the steering wheel, his gaze fixed on the road ahead. “I’ve already had that house cleaned up. Most of his belongings have been burned. The keys have been given to Shi Qin. If you want to come over later…”
“I won’t come back.” Sang Ruo’s voice was choked with emotion. “Even if I do come back, I won’t go to that house again.”
She looked out the window, her hands clenched tightly on her lap, and her eyes reddened again.
Bo Jinyan gripped the steering wheel tighter.
Let alone Sang Ruo, even now, he still can't believe that Fang Gan is dead.
Although he didn't know this man very well, he knew that Fang Gan held a very important place in Sang Ruo's heart.
After arriving at the hotel, Bo Jinyan personally drew water for her so she could have a good bath.
Sang Ruo lay in the bathtub, her thoughts drifting far away.
I lay there for more than an hour.
Bo Jinyan knocked on the door from the outside, but she didn't hear him.
She only gradually came to her senses after the door opened.
"You've been washing for so long, be careful not to catch a cold."
Bo Jinyan walked to the edge of the bathtub, squatted down, and reached out to brush away the strands of hair from her forehead.
Sang Ruo raised her eyes, her voice choked with sobs: "Bo Jinyan, am I... the murderer who killed my senior brother?"
As soon as she said this, a large tear slid down her cheek again.
Bo Jinyan quickly reached out and wiped away her tears: "His love for you and his illness are two completely different things. Don't put them together. It's just that he was too obsessed, which is why he ended up in this situation."
“So…” Sang Ruo couldn’t help but sob, “It’s still my fault. I killed a person.”
Bo Jinyan naturally understood her pain at that moment.
As doctors, they were all people with great love in their hearts, especially since the deceased was their senior fellow apprentice.
I doubt she'll be able to get over it anytime soon...
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