Live a dull life as a passerby.
He had never imagined such a happy life for the protagonist of a novel.
He was not worthy of them at all and wanted to escape.
"But if you really choose to run away, it would be very irresponsible to press the pause button on the painful feelings. You can't make such an irresponsible choice. You have to take on the responsibility of making the story have an ending, whether it is a happy ending or a regrettable ending, right?" Gong Ya looked at Lin An with gentle eyes.
Lin An nodded. If he really chose to run away, Jian Shuier, Fang Qingying and the others would have to be stuck in this painful love for the rest of their lives. Even if he rejected them all, it would be better than running away irresponsibly.
"So, we have to give the story an ending. As for what kind of ending it will be, Lin An, you must be thinking of a happy ending, but in the current situation, a happy ending seems impossible to achieve. We can only have a regrettable ending where a short pain is worse than a long pain." Gong Ya said again with a bit of sadness on her face.
"Yes." Lin An nodded again. Just as Xu Yaoji said, a happy ending where no one gets hurt does not exist at all. This idea is similar to wanting world peace, which is a naive delusion of a teenager and cannot be realized at all.
"There are 20 people. When it comes to choosing the last one, can you give up the others and focus on the last one?" Gong Ya asked again.
Lin An was silent.
Tell him rationally that in the girlfriend competition agreement, 20 people compete with each other, and in the end only one person remains and becomes his only girlfriend, and the other girls can only give up their love for him.
This is the most suitable solution for them, as a short pain is worse than a long pain.
If he really has the responsibility of a man, he must give up everyone and focus on the last person.
But Jian Shuier and the others were such good girls who had given up and sacrificed so much for him. His twisted good-guy character made it difficult for him to give up on them.
But not giving up on them is painful for them.
"I can do it." Lin An felt a pain in his heart, knowing that under the dilemma, he could only choose the path that would bring less pain, focusing on one person and giving up the others. At least one of them would get happiness, right?
"You're deceiving yourself again. This isn't the answer in your heart." Gong Ya gently stroked Lin An's cheek with her right hand, her voice powerful: "Believe in me, trust me, leave it to me, listen to me. You don't need to hide yourself in front of me. Tell me the real answer in your heart."
Sister Gong Ya was so gentle, her whole body seemed to be radiating a kind and holy light. Lin An was deeply moved, and his eyes gradually became moist. "I don't know, Ye Ju and the others are all very beautiful, but I have a deep fear of beautiful girls. I don't like to get along with them. I long for a very ordinary life. But I have been in too deep contact with them, and they have given too much for me. I can't give them up, but the result of not being able to give them up is to make them suffer."
"Ye Ju, Jian Shui'er, and Xu Yaoji are all very outstanding girls who deserve happiness, but no matter what I do, I can't make them happy. I feel like everything I do is wrong. I feel like a person is about to drown, my mouth and throat are full of water, and there is no one around me to hold on to. I am about to be swallowed by the feeling of powerlessness."
"In other words, Lin An, you are very confused now and don't have the accurate answer in your heart." Gong Ya summarized.
Lin An nodded. He was confused now. He was in such a complicated emotional state that he, who was only 18 years old, could not handle it.
"Lin An, you're still too kind." Gong Ya's eyes were full of pity. "Because of your kindness, the better the girls around you treat you, the more guilty you'll feel towards them, and the more you'll want to stay away from them. If the current situation continues, even if you choose one person in the end, you'll never be happy for the rest of your life because of the guilt you feel towards the other girls."
Lin An knew what Gong Ya meant, it was indeed the case.
If he chose Gong Ya now, married her and had children, he would live a happy life.
But Jian Shuier and the others had given too much for him. In the second half of his life after marrying Gong Ya, he must have been sad and alone when he saw the scene.
For example, if there is a sculpture with an internal space, he always wants to crawl in to see if there is a starry sky.
And whether there is or not, it will be full of regret and sadness.
"Lin An." Gong Ya's voice was gentle as she continued, "I participated in this girlfriend competition not because I really wanted to compete to the end, but because I wanted to do something for you as your sister. I know the pain you're feeling, and I feel for you. I've been thinking about what I can do for you."
"Having participated in this for so long, I know what I should do for you. That is." Gong Ya's eyes were gentle and firm, and her voice was full of concern: "When you are confused, as your sister, I can give you guidance in life and solve your confusion. This is what I can do for you."
"Lin An, I've thought about this for a long time. I think there are two ways to resolve your confusion. One is to accept your ordinariness as a sign of growing into an adult, and to accept that life is full of regrets as a sign of maturity. You are a mortal, and mortals are always full of regrets. Life is not perfect, but if you make your choices in the end, at least there will be someone who loves you deeply and is right for you, staying by your side. This is enough happiness for your life. The other is..."
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