At that time, Gong Ya participated in the whole process through a video call. He could not see the changes in Gong Ya's expression, but there was no doubt that Gong Ya was sad in her heart, and maybe even had a complicated resentment, resentment for his fickleness.
"I'm sorry." In this regard, all Lin An could do was apologize.
"I think you must have misunderstood my inner thoughts. I was unwilling to give up!" Tears shone in Gong Ya's eyes. "Like Shui'er, I can't hold too many people in my heart. I wanted to have only one love in my life. I decided that you are my sweetheart, and I will not marry anyone but you. After knowing that you have several girls who like you, I decided to compete with them even if it would hurt them. I also decided to go against my usual style and compete for you, just because I like you. What was the result?"
"Shui'er is one of those girls. I can't compete with her anymore. I have no choice but to give up my own happiness and help you and Shui'er. I thought that even if you get married, I can live in your house as your sister. As long as I can hear your voice and see you every day, my life will be happy."
"I know I'm sacrificing my future, but I owe it to Shui'er, so I have to do this."
"What's the result?"
Gong Ya's eyes were filled with resentment. "It turns out that the girl who likes you is not just Shui'er, but many other girls. Even if I let go of my love for you and decide to sacrifice my future happiness, there is a high probability that my sister will not be able to be with you. If you marry Ye Ju or someone else in the future, and Shui'er is heartbroken, wouldn't my sacrifice seem ridiculous? When I think of this, I am filled with resentment!"
It is because of this kind of emotion that I feel unwilling.
Lin An understood Gong Ya's reluctance from Gong Ya's perspective.
My sister and I like the same person, and I made great sacrifices to help my sister and her lover be together. However, her lover married someone else. After the breakup, my sister gradually fell in love with someone else, and I didn't get any love in return. My sacrifice seemed meaningless and ridiculous.
If he encounters such an experience, his mentality will explode and he will be full of resentment!
"So, I will marry you, Gong Ya, and we will flee abroad. I will give up everyone else for you." After understanding, Lin An felt a strong impulse in his heart again. He held Gong Ya's shoulders tightly and said.
Hearing these words again, Gong Ya's eyes were filled with the happiest smile in the world, and she rested her head on Lin An's reliable chest: "With your words, all my previous resentment and grievances have dissipated. Lin An, you are indeed the one I chose for my love. I was not wrong in my judgment."
"So, Sister Gong Ya, you promised me that we will flee abroad now. We will go to Argentina in South America, near Antarctica. No one will be able to find us." Lin An said with a high level of awareness.
"Lin An~" Gong Ya reached out and gently stroked Lin An's hard chest, a deep sigh in her eyes: "My mother is a gentle and kind person. My father seems frivolous, but he is very responsible when facing difficulties. My mother and my father's love was full of ups and downs. But my mother didn't regret falling in love with my father before she died. Their love is touching."
"But I reviewed my parents' relationship history. My grandfather told my mother the benefits of my father marrying my stepmother. He said that if my father married my mother, he would only be an ordinary wealthy family in one province, but if he married my stepmother, he would become the helm of a pharmaceutical company in Country Z, making him a wealthy family that was half of Country Z. My mother was very kind and considered my father's future. She chose to leave my father and also concealed the fact that she was pregnant."
"I think if my mother had been a little less gentle and kind at that time, and a little more selfish, and told my grandfather and my father about her pregnancy, my father would have chosen my mother regardless of the consequences. My grandfather wasn't such an unreasonable man, and he might have agreed to my parents' marriage. In the end, my mother's gentleness and kindness ruined her future happiness."
"If Mom had been a little more selfish, I would have been the only daughter of the Jian family, enjoying the complete love of both parents. With the Jian family's medical technology, my mother wouldn't have died early, and there wouldn't have been the marital discord between Dad and stepmother because of me, and the unfortunate sisterly rivalry between Jian Shui'er and me wouldn't have happened."
Lin An nodded silently, knowing that Gong Ya was right. If Gong Ya's mother had just announced her pregnancy, the tragedy would have been avoided.
Kindness is a noble virtue that is admired by the world. Whether it is movies, television or fictional works, it always praises the beauty and greatness of kindness. However, in reality, kind people often do not receive the rewards for their kindness.
"My mother and I have a lot in common." The sigh in Gong Ya's eyes became more obvious, and her voice became deeper. "We're both beautiful, gentle and kind. Even though I know that gentle and kind people are more likely to suffer losses, deep down I also think that a little loss is okay, as long as one's heart is open. But after encountering your situation, I became mean and dark."
"I think if I were a little more selfish, like now, and didn't care about my sister's feelings and ran away abroad with you, I can be sure that I would hurt Shui'er and the others severely, but I like your relationship, and I will be happy."
"If I were just selfish for a moment, all my difficulties and pain would be solved, and the life of Gong Ya would be completely new, instead of being filled with regrets and helplessness like it is now. I, Gong Ya, should have selfishly run away with you."
"But~" Gong Ya's voice was choked with sobs. "I can't be so selfish. Even if I ran away with you abroad on impulse and gained a brief period of happiness, I would live the rest of my life filled with guilt towards Shui'er and the others. I might even die young like my mother. I can't selfishly hurt others. I just can't do it."
"Why did this happen? I think it's a curse, a curse of kindness."
Lin An was about to say something when Gong Ya quickly interrupted him, "Lin An, you want to say that you will take on all the sins and let me be with you without guilt. But Lin An, from the first time I saw you, I felt the urge to hug you. At that time, I thought it was love at first sight. But as I get to know you better, I realize it's the mutual attraction between people of the same kind. You, like me, have been cursed with kindness. You can't hurt them like this. If you run away with me to a foreign country, you will, like me, live with guilt for the rest of your life and never be happy."
"We have no choice but to stay in Haicheng and achieve a happy ending for everyone. I don't want to follow in my mother's unfortunate footsteps, and I don't want you, Lin An, to continue living in pain."
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