[2nd, 6786th year of the Kunlun Mountains]
They've always been curious about what my nightmares are.
They said that there was no pattern to it at all, and that they hadn't understood it for all these years.
How should I put it?
It's like I can't get what I want, I can't do what I want to do, I can only ever settle for second best, and I can only ever be manipulated by the devil's game.
I often question my reflection in the mirror: Do you still belong to yourself?
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[Mid-20th, 6787]
Ah, so gods and demons really do exist outside of the Devil Game.
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[January 7, 6788]
Among the demons are the Oak Owl, the Fragrant Branch, and the Elf.
How do they perceive our suffering?
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[November 19, 6789]
Frost Deer guessed my nightmare and asked me why I was always so calm.
I said that any form of suffering is a reward for the observer.
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[May 16, 6790]
I haven't gained any divine skills from suffering in a long time.
I've heard that other apostles of God are the same.
But I think it's good enough that everyone can still maintain their rationality, why would they need divine skills?
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[April 20, 6792]
So long, so boring, so painful
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[10th, 6793]
Can't we try something new?
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[Junshan 6794, June 21]
During the Winter Veil Festival, Mistblade brought over a set of tiles called Mahjong.
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[January 20, 6795]
It's all Fogblade's fault! After playing mahjong for almost 21 days, Frostdere, Moki, and I almost missed the Demon Game!
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[11th, 6795]
Mahjong is a million times more fun than the Devil Game!
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[Junshan 6795, June 14]
It seems like you can only survive another day in the tranquil mountains by playing mahjong.
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[February 11, 6796]
Fogblade knows nothing about mahjong
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[March 14, 6796]
I heard that a new apostle of God has arrived in the Demon Game.
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[March 16, 6796]
Frost Deer, Moji, and I taught her how to play mahjong, and she actually cried and said we were so kind.
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[May 3, 6796]
They've all discovered my secret.
Why am I no longer feeling pain, yet the devil game hasn't increased the difficulty to force a different kind of confrontation?
I made a rule: whoever gets 100 points in a row at the mahjong table that allow them to win, I'll tell them this secret.
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[June 20, 6796]
I'm tired of playing.
I told them that I could store all the pain I perceived mentally into my owl feathers, transforming it into physical pain. This would not only stimulate and modify my body daily, increasing my strength and physique, but these owl feathers could also unleash tremendous damage when I needed them.
The devil's game may not care whether we suffer or not; all it wants is for us to keep getting stronger.
But in the eyes of the Devil Game, pain is the source of power?
Therefore, it cannot gain strength from pain, and for it, it is garbage that needs to lose its growth potential.
Neuropathy.
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[July 9, 6796]
Searching for songs in the mountains.
That's strange.
Although every time I undertake a non-mandatory quest or something I want to accomplish is unexpectedly interrupted by other divine apostles or simulated players, ever since she appeared, whenever we both enter the game at the same time...
She was the key factor that led to my failure.
If we play the game together, I will most likely receive a forced mission to betray her.
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[August 21, 6796]
Should I praise her for being perceptive, or for paying too much attention to me?
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