"Of course it was born." Lao Lin's answer was very personal.
"No, I mean!" She paused at this point.
This is a question she has never asked Lao Lin since she was old enough to understand.
While other children were curious about where they came from, she seemed to never touch Lao Lin's pain points because she knew her family was incomplete.
"What do you mean?" Lao Lin stroked his chin, thinking, "The relationship between your mother and I, how did we give birth to you?"
"Hmm..." Lin Chaoxi pursed her lips, her heart beating fast. She was looking forward to getting an answer, but also afraid of hurting Lao Lin. "If it's inconvenient to say, you don't have to say it. I don't care anyway."
"Oh." Lao Lin said calmly.
There was silence in the air for a while, and Lin Chaoxi's heart, which had been beating in his throat, calmed down again.
Silence is the best answer.
The waiter brought two servings of braised chicken with rice. She moved the bowls in front of her. At this moment, she heard Lao Lin say, "Our times were very interesting."
Lin Chaoxi paused as she scooped the rice, but she didn't look up.
"Because everything is underdeveloped, it looks very isolated and no one has any entertainment activities."
"And all you can do is spend every day in the library doing homework?"
"I'm not a nerd like you." Lao Lin looked at her with disdain and said, "At that time, the dance hall near our university would light up some colorful lights and play some music at night, and everyone would dance to the slow three and slow four together."
Lin Chaoxi was shocked: "Are you talking about National Yongchuan University?"
"What's the problem?"
"No...no." She sat up straight. "So you go to a disco every night. What's that like?"
"Ahem." Lao Lin was drinking Coke and sipped. "Actually, I didn't go there very often. Only once."
Lao Lin's voice gradually became calmer. Lin Chaoxi looked into his eyes and suddenly understood what "only once" meant.
"And then you met Mom and you two got together?"
"No, we have known each other for a long time. Your mother and I were classmates. But as I said, we are not together."
Lin Chaoxi raised his head suddenly, feeling unbelievable.
She once thought that maybe her mother was a dancer, or perhaps her status was even lower, which was why Lao Lin never mentioned this past event.
But she was a female college student in the 1990s, a female college student studying mathematics at National Yongchuan University?
"And then?"
"Then in the dance hall, we drank some wine and slept together. Now we call it a one-night stand. Then, your mother got you." Lao Lin's voice did not contain any excessive emotions. He just stated a fact very calmly. "She is a very special girl. You should say she is unique. She wants to have her own independent life and does not want to be bound by children and family. Although I do not agree with her views, as a man, I cannot blame her for this matter."
Old Lin always maintained an aloof seriousness and calmness, and this attitude also forced Lin Chaoxi to swallow the question "Why did you have to give birth to me?"
She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand and said, "Well, I still have to thank her for giving birth to me."
"Yes, thank her." Lao Lin poured Coke into the cup in front of her, poured himself half a cup, and said, "You were born like this, a very simple accident, caused by a girl's stubbornness."
Lao Lin raised his cup, clinked it with hers, and said with a smile, "But this doesn't mean that you are not important."
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There are lines of code on the screen. When the cursor moves to the left, the code is erased and blank lines appear.
The finger that was pressing the erase key suddenly retracted, and Lin Chaoxi suddenly came back to his senses, realizing that he had deleted too much, and quickly added those lines back.
After having dinner with Lao Lin, she returned to the Internet cafe alone. After listening to the story of her birth, she felt that she should devote all her energy to saving Lao Lin.
She tried hard to put everything about her mother out of her mind, because as Lao Lin always said, this was an unimportant matter from beginning to end.
Her birth was a simple accident; her mother had not intended to have her, and she was not part of Lao Lin's life plan.
She may be the price paid for Lao Lin's youthful recklessness, but no matter which world Lao Lin is in, he has already paid a heavy price for his youthful recklessness.
The old Lin in the real world chose to give up everything and raised her alone for 22 years, while the old Lin in the parallel time and space even exiled himself because of losing her.
Even as a daughter, she didn't understand why Lao Lin had such deep love and sense of responsibility for her.
And all she could do seemed to be to devote everything to the present matter.
Lin Chaoxi rubbed his face heavily, opened the pull ring of the instant coffee next to him, and drank it in one gulp.
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On Tuesday, Lin Chaoxi got up at the same time as Lao Lin and sent him to Sanwei University.
On the bus, Comrade Lao Lin, probably because he talked too much about the past yesterday and was afraid that she might have some thoughts in her mind, was very nice in the morning and even asked her if she needed any love guidance.
Lin Chaoxi was holding the hanging ring, his mind full of countermeasures from the traffic police station, and he refused Lao Lin's help.
In winter, the campus has lost all its yellow leaves and looks bare.
Lin Chaoxi watched Lao Lin walk into the Sanwei University campus, squeezed his shoulder straps, and turned to walk towards the bus stop.
It was already the next day, and no one she had called back from anyone she had turned to.
In fact, she didn't hold out much hope for this, so she didn't feel that disappointed.
Anyway, in this situation, she can only tell herself that she must be self-reliant and work hard, and there is a solution to everything.
Early in the morning, Bao Xiaomeng was already waiting at the entrance of the traffic control office.
Lin Chaoxi handed over the breakfast rye he bought and said, "Good kids, don't skip classes. I can do it alone."
Bao Xiaomeng was originally very excited, but suddenly became depressed: "But you also took time to run around with me before?"
"It was because I accompanied you to so many places back then, and now you can't waste the fruits of my labor." Lin Zhaoxi rubbed her head, "Besides, there is no difference between one person and two people."
"No, two girls crying together is more lethal!" Bao Xiaomeng yelled, "and I've already taken sick leave."
The girl's eyes were firm, and Lin Chaoxi could only nod in the end.
The door of the Traffic Management Bureau was opened, and the hall, which had not been heated all night, was chilly. Lin Chaoxi shivered, and Bao Xiaomeng's warm hand grasped hers.
The information desk staff was sharing breakfast with his colleagues yesterday.
Lin Chaoxi and Bao Xiaomeng were the first to stand in front of her, and the staff had obvious surprise on their faces.
Just from this expression, Lin Chaoxi knew that although he promised to ask the leader, he didn't actually do it.
"Uncle, we are here again." Although his heart sank, Lin Chaoxi still smiled, "Did you ask for me?"
"I asked, and the leader said it's impossible. You students should just study hard."
"Uncle, can you let us meet the leader? I..."
She made a begging gesture, but was interrupted before she could finish her words.
"Don't you know how busy adults are at work? This is a government agency. There's no point in making trouble here!"
Lin Chaoxi had never been scolded so suddenly by a stranger since she was a child. Perhaps because she was very tired in the past two days, she felt a little stuffy in her chest. Emotionally, she felt wronged, and mentally, she was considering whether threatening the staff member with an administrative complaint would work.
At this moment, she suddenly saw Bao Xiaomeng's eyes reddened, and he looked up pitifully and said, "Uncle, can you help us?"
The girl's cheeks were red and her eyes were full of tears. I felt sorry for her. It was just the time for the traffic control bureau to open, and many people were rushing in. Seeing this, they all looked at them sideways.
The staff looked at Bao Xiaomeng awkwardly, waving their hands up and down, not knowing what to do: "Hey, don't cry, don't cry. Okay, okay, I'll take you there, I'll take you there."
If they were playing a level-breaking game, Bao Xiaomeng's tears only knocked open the guard's door, and there were many bosses behind.
Lin Chaoxi was full of fighting spirit and felt that he was fully prepared for the battle.
But in fact, she is just a 22-year-old college student at heart, and she walked into the Traffic Management Bureau with great difficulty. Many things were completely different from what she had imagined.
For example, she wants to fight, but it is very likely that the opponent will not give her a chance to fight at all.
The so-called leader of the inquiry office staff was only his superior. The other party was sitting in the office and was also confused by their request: "Which school are you two high school students from? What do you want?"
Lin Chaoxi explained it again.
After hearing this, the other party said directly: "Your problem is not under our jurisdiction. We are the office hall, which belongs to the Vehicle Management Office. You should go to the Technology Management Office to ask about this matter."
"Research Institute?"
"Yes, I am responsible for the informatization of our public security traffic management business, road traffic accident prevention and identification, urban and highway traffic control, and public security traffic management big data." The leader had a good attitude and gave them an address, and then began to busy answer the phone.
The research institute is in Cheng'an District, and it takes an hour to take a bus there, so she just took a taxi.
The street scenes on both sides are receding, a desolate winter scene.
Bao Xiaomeng sat beside her and chattered. Lin Chaoxi checked her phone to estimate the time. It would be 11 o'clock when she arrived at the research institute. She would definitely not be able to catch the lunch she had agreed to with Pei Zhi at 11:30.
She held the phone tightly and left a message for Pei Zhi through Huajuan to cancel the appointment.
Before pressing the send button, she went back to edit the text message again, and finally asked: Can you ask Pei Zhi to change the time to four or five in the afternoon?
Along the way, she stared at the screen of her mobile phone, but she didn't receive any messages.
Lin Chaoxi didn't know what Pei Zhi was going through.
Maybe it was her mother being rescued in the ICU, or maybe it was a new round of bedside torture. But she could only send him a text message here to tell him that she couldn't go at noon.
The cold winter wind blew in through the window gap, and a deep feeling of powerlessness surged up from the bottom of her heart.
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