Chapter 149
Song Peifeng looked at the cunning in Jiang Ning's eyes and couldn't help but laugh happily.
He knew she said that on purpose, and he was indeed surprised that she still had the energy to write despite such a heavy workload.
He didn't know what she was writing, but since she was able to find time to go to the Internet cafe to write during the competition training, he thought that she must be very good at writing, otherwise she wouldn't have to submit her manuscripts on time like this.
Only when the situation is extremely urgent and the other party urgently needs her manuscript, will she go to the Internet cafe at night to write the manuscript, just to submit it on time.
He suddenly became curious about what she was writing, and he wanted to know more about her.
But his behavior and gaze were still polite and restrained.
As Jiang Ning looked at her with a smile, she suddenly raised her head and asked him with a smile: "Do you like me?"
Song Peifeng had never expected that she would ask such a question so directly at this time, which caught him off guard.
First his ears, then his neck, and then his face quickly turned red.
But he did not avoid her gaze. While she seemed to be smiling but had actually regained her composure, he nodded and said affirmatively, "Yes." Those few words seemed to burn his lips, and he blinked shyly.
At this moment, Jiang Ning just thought he was cute, but it made her dare not respond.
She still smiled, and said objectively and seriously, as if it was not her business: "I am a non-marriage advocate."
She leaned back in her chair and rested her hand holding the spoon on the edge of the table.
This is actually a distancing posture.
She didn't know whether there was a perfect life without regrets in this world. No matter in this life or in the previous life, she felt that she was a very lucky person who was loved and favored by God. If the central person in this world was the son of the world and a person with great luck, then although she was not the kind of person with great luck, she must have also shared a bit of luck.
Although she was born in a remote rural area, she was lucky that her father was willing to support her studies.
Although she was born in a family that favors boys over girls, she was favored by her grandfather, which made her feel the best family love.
She is not very smart, but she is not stupid either, and her IQ is enough to get into college.
She has experienced hardships, but she always meets noble people who help her.
Not to mention her career. To use the words of others to describe her, she has chosen the right person and her life is full of luck.
But she still has regrets, such as her parents' relationship, her feelings, and her marriage.
Maybe it was because of her experience in high school and the repressive education she received since childhood, she has always felt inferior and unworthy. If others are a little nice to her, she will be grateful and want to repay them.
It is also for this reason that others see her as a cold and beautiful woman, but in fact she has always been a single person, guarding her heart tightly, and she cannot and dare not love anyone.
On the one hand, he acted as calm as a rock and didn't care at all; on the other hand, he was very scared.
Until she reached the age when others thought it was time to fall in love and get married, Jiang's parents began to urge her to get married, just like completing a task, which was like a tight ring around her neck. At that time, her understanding of the world was still very superficial. She was single, and happened to meet a man on a blind date who wanted to marry her. She said let's look around, and by this time next year, if the two of them still felt good, they could consider getting married. The other party said that he had already sent out all the invitations.
At that time, she didn't realize there was anything wrong with the other party's behavior. Instead, she tried to convince herself that since they were both aiming for marriage, they might as well get married. So, they got married after knowing each other for eleven days.
Jiang's father was actually against it, but she didn't listen.
She was blinded by the gentlemanly and accommodating attitude he showed during the brief time he was with her.
Or maybe, she was just lacking love, and after so long, someone finally showed her that he was willing to start a family with her, and she completely lost her mind and made such a stupid decision.
Jiang's mother is also amazing. If others see their daughter marrying a person they have only known for eleven days, they will definitely try to stop her or persuade her not to do so. But Jiang's mother is not like that. She is happy to urge her daughter to get married, as if as long as she gets married, her mission of bringing her into this world will be accomplished.
She didn't blame Jiang's mother. In fact, she should blame herself for being stupid and irresponsible towards her own life when she was young.
Sometimes when she thought of her mother, she felt that her mother was magical and seemed different from other people's mothers.
Because they had known each other for a short time, nothing happened on their wedding night.
This was exactly what she wanted.
Ten years later, nothing happened to them.
The other party is not at home all year round and says he is doing business in another place.
They often didn't contact each other for several months. Occasionally when he came back, he would chat with men until three or four in the morning.
She was in the bedroom and he was in the living room or study.
Until this moment, she had never doubted anything.
Her female shyness also made her ashamed to talk about matters between husband and wife. Later, she didn't want to have anything to do with this man at all. The other party's evasive attitude was exactly what she wanted, so it went on like this for several years.
She was busy with her work, and she was actually a stranger to the other person, so she didn't care about it because there was no love.
Later she realized something, but because of her marriage, it was actually like living a single life without being able to fall in love again. It just so happened that the other party did not interfere with her, and her career also required her to have a stable marriage status.
Before this, she also knew that there was a group called "gay wives" in the world, but she had never thought of herself in this context.
It was not until ten years later, when she recalled every detail of this man's appearance, that she suddenly realized that, oh, she seemed to have been treated as a homosexual.
In fact, many details have been exposed, but before she thought about it, she didn't realize it. She herself has no habit of sharing her private life with others.
The other party probably didn't expect that he, a good-tempered and well-behaved little civil servant with a respectable career, would have such a successful career and rise so quickly in the past ten years. So he began to use her name to solicit favors for his business and stir up trouble.
Fortunately, she has not committed any crime or abused her position for so many years, and she does not have anything that others can use to accuse her.
So they got married so hastily and irresponsibly, and ended up getting divorced so inexplicably.
In the first few years of her marriage, she actually did not regret it, because she was the same as she was before marriage. Apart from the added identity of being married, her life had basically not changed except for some complicated interpersonal relationships brought about by marriage.
Until he gradually brought her troubles due to her promotion in position, and all the negative emotions in her life were caused by this man and even this family, she gradually realized how irresponsible she had been to her own life. She so easily handed over half of the important rights in her life to a stranger whose background and character she didn't know.
After the divorce, she completely focused on her work and gave up the idea of remarrying.
After making this decision, she found herself reconciled with the world.
It turns out that many problems in this world are caused by "marriage". As long as this relationship is gone, there will be fewer problems and less internal friction in your life.
She doesn't even have the desire to fall in love.
Being single, she feels her life is peaceful and her spirit is calm.
So at this moment, after noticing Song Peifeng's gaze, she told him so directly and honestly that she was a non-marriageist and had no intention of handing over an important part of her life to another person again in her lifetime, and naturally would not waste her time on a young and passionate boy.
Song Peifeng was a little surprised by her frankness and straightforwardness, but he still looked at her with a red face: "I don't care."
Jiang Ning leaned back in his chair and just looked at him indifferently.
She can be very rational and hardworking at work, but when it comes to relationships, she is actually very clumsy.
Either you pour out all your barren emotions over the years like an old house on fire, or you seal your heart and lock away your love, and just be as calm as water and want nothing.
When she first got married, she had expectations and really treated the other party as family, until she found out that this was just her one-sided opinion.
The other person just needs a marriage.
She was deceived into marriage and just happened to need a marriage.
Sometimes she wondered if she had bipolar II disorder.
When she is alone facing the loneliness of the world, she sometimes feels depressed, loses her sense of happiness, is unwilling to talk, and feels emotionally exhausted.
But when she is working normally, she feels that everything is normal.
She didn't know whether her condition was normal or not.
She knew very well that she was not willing to please anyone now, and anyone who maintained an emotional relationship with her was trying to please her.
Such a relationship is unhealthy and abnormal. If she keeps demanding emotional needs from the other party, she may drain the other party's enthusiasm at any time. A normal emotional relationship is a two-way relationship.
For example, she and her leader, she and her grandfather.
Why doesn't she want to go home to see Jiang Ma during the New Year? Because from childhood to adulthood, her relationship with Jiang's mother has been unhealthy. Jiang's mother is in the position of a taker, while she has always been providing emotional value, labor value, and all the value that the other party thinks she can provide.
After a long time, she had been demanded so much that she could no longer express any enthusiasm.
Because you have seen the other person's true nature.
She also saw her own true nature.
She is cold and selfish, and has no intention of giving anything to the world. However, the education she received since childhood and the kindness she has received since childhood make her unconsciously give back the kindness to the world.
Even though she sometimes felt that she really couldn't give anymore.
She is taking care of her grandfather, helping her brother, and helping He Xiaofang. Isn't she also taking care of herself whose spiritual world has dried up, helping herself who was once powerless, and helping herself who needs a helping hand?
"Thank you." She looked into his eyes and smiled sincerely to thank him.
But that's all.
She lowered her long feathery eyelashes and lowered her head to eat the food in her bowl, as if she had covered herself with a layer of isolation shield, isolating herself firmly inside. She could not go out, and people outside could not get in.
The next morning, when she went for a run, he showed up on time as usual. In the dim morning light, he smiled and said to her, "Good morning."
She nodded politely and went jogging with light steps.
There is a saying on the Internet in later generations, "If there is no man in your heart, you will become a god when you draw your sword."
Jiang Ning might be in such a state at this moment. In the training team's exams again and again, she inexplicably performed better and more stable each time. Many students whom she thought were very talented, or at least more talented than her, were eliminated by her.
The training team, which originally had more than 200 people, had fewer and fewer people. After every monthly exam, some people left. Even her original roommate was swept away by Jiang Ning before they had even become familiar with each other, as she ran to the computer classroom after school every day and did nothing else except study and write.
Originally, most of the white dormitory buildings were double dormitories, but later on, they became sparsely populated with single dormitories.
Until finally only fifty people were left.
And she and Song Peifeng are still there.
Sometimes, she felt that someone like Song Peifeng, who did not cross the line and did not disturb her, but just looked at her with a silent smile, as if he always had her in his eyes, was in good condition, and she seemed to be healed by him little by little. But she also felt like a snail shrinking in its shell, not even daring to extend its tentacles, afraid of hurting herself and others, so she kept shrinking.
I don't know if it was the words she suddenly asked Song Peifeng that day that made Jiang Ning realize that her mental health was still not very good, and she suddenly fell into the symptoms of bipolar II disorder. She was calm and uneventful, lost her sense of pleasure, had less verbal activity, and didn't want to talk. During this period, apart from calling Grandpa Jiang regularly and telling him to eat on time every day and take care of himself, she only called Jiang Bai once, asking him to take a vacation and take Grandpa Jiang to Shanghai to ask him whether the community and storefronts behind his school had been built. If they had been built, Manager Qian would be commissioned to renovate them. After the renovation and ventilation for half a year, Grandpa Jiang could move in. He could also take a rest and cook something to eat after studying. The apartment was still a bit far from his school.
Sometimes, she felt that she was terribly cold and indifferent, and was not a qualified friend. For example, He Xiaofang and Xu Xiuli treated her sincerely, but she had no desire to call them or chat with them. She just wanted to be alone.
As for Wang Yong, apart from emailing her new manuscript "My Years as the Commander of the Embroidered Uniform Guard", I didn't say a single extra word. I sent it as soon as I finished writing it.
As for "Wuxia", no one expected Ning Meng to be so easy to persuade. When they said they hoped she would change the plot into the ancient officialdom, they really changed it into the ancient officialdom. Unlike "The Song Dynasty" and "White Snake", which were serialized for a long time before the film and television copyright was signed, "The Commander of the Imperial Guards" was serialized in "Wuxia" for less than three months, and the TV series copyright and movie copyright were all signed. The price signed this time was no less than 100,000, and the project was quickly established.
After several months of polishing and casting, the script of "White Snake's Cultivation of Immortality" was finally scheduled to start filming at the end of May.
During this period, the big director also contacted Jiang Bai, wanting to contact Jiang Ning and let Jiang Ning audition for the heroine of "White Snake". Unfortunately, Jiang Ning refused on the grounds that she was training in the training team and competing for the country. The big director knew that it was such a competition. Although he regretted that Jiang Ning could not become the heroine of this movie, he could understand it and asked Jiang Bai to play a small role.
Jiang Bai, who had already brought Grandpa Jiang to the store and had to go to the store to sell clothes every day, was not interested at first. But when he heard about the money, he thought that there would be no one in school during the summer vacation, and the business of the store would definitely be bad. It would be enough to have Grandpa Jiang alone in the store. He thought that if he earned more money, his sister would have more money to pay the mortgage, so he went to the audition with Tong Jingang.
Tong Jingang and Jiang Bai respectively got two senior disciples who had been following Fahai. While the White Snake was saving people from the flood, Fahai wanted to capture the monster. The two disciples, who had completely different temperaments and personalities, helped Fahai to do evil, but were moved by the White Snake's act of saving people. They doubted whether their master's behavior was right or not. They helped their master to capture the monster while doing nothing, and followed the White Snake to save people. At the critical moment, they helped the White Snake block the fatal blow.
In short, they are just two minor supporting roles with few parts.
Tong Jingang was having a lot of fun, and Jiang Bai was serious about his money-making job.
Jiang Ning and Jiang Bai have been used to being independent since they were young. Jiang Ning would call Jiang Bai and Jiang's father and mother unless there was anything wrong, and Jiang Bai would not contact Jiang Ning, Jiang's father and mother, including his hometown unless there was anything wrong.
The two of them, one was writing and studying, the other was busy making money, and neither of them remembered to call Jiang's father and mother occasionally.
Dad Jiang has been paying close attention to the construction of the house in his hometown. Every week, he would call the brigade headquarters in his hometown to inquire about the progress of the construction of the house.
The brigade office, which originally did not allow Jiang's father to call anyone, became very enthusiastic towards Jiang's father after Jiang Ning was admitted to Peking University. Although the brigade secretary was still lukewarm towards Jiang's father, he did not stop other people in the brigade office from asking people to help Jiang's father answer the phone after receiving the call.
Every time Dad Jiang heard Uncle Jiang talk about the progress of the house construction and how many bricks, cement, wood, floor tiles and wall tiles were needed, he wanted to call his three children to share it.
The eldest son and the youngest daughter seemed to have disappeared and they could not contact either of them. They did not call him, but called Jiang Bai to share the good news with him.
Jiang Bai is a man of few words and a stingy nature. Every time he answers the phone, his eyes are fixed on the countdown screen of the phone. When he hears what Jiang's father says, he says, "Yeah, yeah, I got it. Anything else? Fifty seconds, I'm hanging up." And every time, he hangs up the phone precisely at the fifty-ninth second.
For such long-distance calls, an additional dollar will be charged if more than sixty seconds pass.
Every time, Jiang's father is frustrated to death by Jiang Bo and Jiang's mother's identical stinginess.
Unable to share with the younger son, he called No. 1 Middle School to share with Grandpa Jiang. Unfortunately, Grandpa Jiang was the same. He would listen with a smile on his face when hearing any good news, but actually he would not give any feedback at all. He could lie in a rocking chair with a smile on his face and listen to you talk until you hang up the phone.
There is a gap between what Grandpa Jiang and the people in Shenzhen where Jiang's father lives. The owner of the convenience store landline in Shenzhen that Jiang's father left couldn't understand him, and Grandpa Jiang couldn't understand what the convenience store owner said either. Plus, the Jiang family, including Grandpa Jiang, had been used to being alone for so many years, so when Jiang Bai took him to Shanghai, he didn't even think of calling Jiang's father.
Jiang Bai did call there, but his father was not there. Jiang Bai had to make money and study, so he forgot about the matter.
When Jiang's father called No. 1 Middle School again, he found out that Grandpa Jiang's shop had been closed and sublet to someone else.
The shop was originally signed for three years. Jiang Ning thought the business was not good, but in the last six months after renting it, the business was so good that the landlord wanted to increase the rent. Jiang Ning finally mustered up the courage to say so, but the landlord simply said he wanted to cancel the lease and would not rent it anymore.
The landlord would be happy not to rent the shop. It's such a prosperous shop. Even if he sublets it to someone else, the price will not be just like the original price. With such a good business, the price will at least be the same as that of the shop next door at No. 2 Middle School or No. 4 Middle School.
Without the address of Grandpa Jiang's shop, he couldn't contact Grandpa Jiang, and he didn't have Jiang Ning's contact information. Jiang Ning didn't call him either, so he had to call the number that Jiang Bai had called him before. This number was the number of the convenience store downstairs from his dormitory. During the summer vacation, all the students in the dormitory had gone home. There was no one in the dormitory, and the person who ran the convenience store had also gone home.
The phone kept ringing for a long time and no one answered.
Although he knew that his daughter had been admitted to Beijing University in advance, when the college entrance examination season came, Jiang's father still had the illusion that Jiang Ning would take the college entrance examination this year. He had been paying attention to this year's college entrance examination. During the college entrance examination season, he was very anxious and kept talking to Jiang's mother from time to time: "I don't know how Ning Ning is doing now."
"Didn't she get accepted into Kyoto University? I don't know if she's even gone to school yet."
"She's in the training camp, why didn't she even call us?"
"I don't know if her training camp is over yet."
They work outside, and Jiang's mother is very frugal. In addition, they are busy going out early and coming back late every day. So far, there is no TV in the rental house they live in. The only channel for them to contact the outside world every day is to listen to the radio at the entrance of the train station and occasionally glance at the TV in the nearby shop. Through these channels, they get news from the outside world.
The time lasts until July.
On July 1st, Hong Kong returned; on July 2nd, the Asian financial crisis hit Thailand; on July 3rd, the training team selected the six people who would eventually participate in the IMO competition and six alternates.
Jiang Ning became one of the six people representing the country to officially participate in the competition.
Song Peifeng became one of the six candidates.
On July 10, a group of twelve people, led by the two head coaches and team leaders from the Department of Mathematics of Kyoto University, deputy team leaders, observers, and officials from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, set off for Argentina.
The next time Jiang's father heard about Jiang Ning was on the "News Broadcast" being broadcast on the TV in the back shop. He accidentally heard Jiang Ning's name in a very brief report of several dozen seconds: "In this year's IMO competition, our team members ended their trip to Argentina with a good result of all gold medals and one full score. Jiang Ning, Zhou Jin, Sun Xiaoqing, Jin Feipeng, Li Yiming, and Xu Zhengyi all won gold medals in this Olympic Mathematics Competition. Among them, Jiang Ning won the gold medal with a full score."
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