Do you regret meeting her and falling in love with her?
When Shen Xuyang was sitting alone in the infirmary sighing, Wen Yu suddenly came in.
Wen Yu asked, "What did you say to Shi Nannan? Did you make her cry again?"
When Wen Yu arrived, he happened to meet Shi Nannan, but when he saw her running away in a hurry, Wen Yu couldn't say a word.
Shen Xuyang breathed a sigh of relief. He didn't know what to do.
Wen Yu sat on the chair opposite Shen Xuyang and said earnestly, "Xuyang, find a chance to tell her what's in your heart. If you like someone, you should let her know that you like her."
Shen Xuyang chuckled and asked, "What about you? You like Chen Xing, but you didn't tell her, did you?"
Wen Yu moved the corners of his lips, lowered his eyes and said, "If I still have a long future, I will definitely tell her that I love her very much."
When Shen Xuyang heard Wen Yu's words, he shouldn't compare himself with Wen Yu.
Shen Xuyang said in a low voice: “But she doesn’t like me.”
Wen Yu smiled faintly, raised his eyes and looked at Shen Xuyang's unconfident expression and said, "Just because she doesn't like you, can you stop liking her?"
"If you like her just to get the same like in return, that's not called love."
Wen Yu suddenly stood up, walked to Shen Xuyang, put his hand on Shen Xuyang's shoulder, patted him twice, and encouraged him.
"Xuyang, if you like her, don't think too much. Don't ask her what she needs. Just give her everything you can."
"Some hurtful words are hard to erase from your heart once they're spoken. Don't do anything you'll regret."
Shen Xuyang still has time and energy to make amends, but he doesn't have that much time anymore. He just wants to do as much as possible for Chen Xing in the last limited time.
Shen Xuyang suddenly called out to Wen Yu who was walking to the door and asked, "Do you regret it?"
"I regret meeting Chen Xing, and I regret falling in love with her but not being able to be with her."
Wen Yu's heart was as calm as still water. He remained calm when he heard Shen Xuyang's question. He said, "No regrets, no regrets, no complaints."
When Shen Xuyang heard the six words Wen Yu answered him, he chuckled and looked at the place where Wen Yu disappeared. He felt that Wen Yu's love was the greatest love. He was afraid that it would be difficult to find another infatuated person like him in the world.
*
The last class on Friday of this week was a class meeting. When Dong Liang came out of the principal's office and walked into the classroom, he looked extremely upset, which made the class atmosphere quite depressing. All the students were afraid to breathe.
Since the fight between Chen Xing, Shi Nannan, Zhou Xiang, and Xia Meimei was discovered, Dong Liang, the class teacher, has been punished countless times for the bad behavior of the class.
Dong Liang stood in front of the desk, glanced at the class, and then said in a calm tone, "Your class is the worst I've ever taught. I've only ever said this to you."
"I just don't understand. Is it because I, your homeroom teacher, have been too indulgent towards you that you've become lawless and are doing whatever you want? Or is it because you simply don't take me, your homeroom teacher, seriously?"
In the past, when Dong Liang vented his dissatisfaction to the whole class, Shen Xuyang would always interject, causing the atmosphere in the class to change from oppressive to lively.
But now that Shen Xuyang is gone, there is no one to help them ease the atmosphere. They should have realized how much blame Shen Xuyang has invisibly blocked for them.
Shi Nannan came in from Dong Liang and kept looking out the window absent-mindedly. She didn't think about anything, but she couldn't help thinking a lot.
Chen Xing knew that this matter had become a big deal and even the principal knew about it. She didn't think about the consequences, nor did she care about what the consequences were. She just felt that she had done what she wanted to do.
Dong Liang paused and continued, "When Shen Xuyang was still in our class, he was the most difficult student. We were often reported by students from other classes for causing trouble. It was all Shen Xuyang's fault, and he took full responsibility. That's it."
"But now he's in another class. He's even in a key science class, and he's in the top ten in his grade. He's turned over a new leaf, so why are you still causing me trouble every day?"
"Now, when people hear the name Class 6 of Senior Three, they want to curse. Fighting, bullying, and infighting are common. Don't you feel ashamed when you go out?"
…
Dong Liang chattered for half the class, and his main point was about the fight, where one person was fighting another, which everyone else found funny.
"A class collective, a class collective, what is a collective? It takes unity to become one. But you guys are so good, arguing with your classmates all day long, and now you're fighting. What do you want to do next time?"
Dong Liang's throat was dry from talking. He looked at the useless students below and didn't know how much they could understand.
"Alright, no matter how much I say, you won't listen. There's only one month left until the college entrance exam. Whatever happens in the end will be your reward for these three years."
Chen Xing was touched when he heard this, and lamented that there was only one month left.
When she was in her first year of high school, she only hated high school and wanted to graduate and leave immediately.
But now, looking at the college entrance examination countdown on the blackboard that changes every day, there are only thirty days left out of a hundred days. She used to long for time to go faster, but now she feels the rapid passage of time, which makes her reluctant to say goodbye.
Recalling the youthful and energetic face of my freshman year of high school, I became unhappy due to the heavy academic workload and various pressures. I couldn't muster the energy to attend the uninteresting and boring courses every day, counting the time waiting to leave this school.
But when it’s time to say goodbye, I suddenly realize how much of the time that has passed has been wasted, and how much of it can be deeply remembered in my mind.
It turns out that graduation means a lot to every student. They always think that the end is far away, but in fact they have already reached the end.
Dong Liang continued, "Shi Nannan, Chen Xing, Zhou Xiang, and Xia Meimei, the four of you will bring your self-criticisms and read them aloud in public at the sprint meeting next Monday."
Shi Nannan had been in a daze the entire time. She hadn't listened to the previous words until the last sentence. She exclaimed in surprise, "What?"
Dong Liang said, "Why are you yelling? This punishment is considered good. You should have called your parents over. It's outrageous that a little girl has learned to fight!"
When Chen Xing heard this, she thought that she would not be able to have peace when she returned home at night.
*
In the evening, when Chen Xing came home from school, she reached the entrance and didn't even have time to change her shoes when she heard Gao Yamei's shouting coming from inside the house.
"Chen Xing! Come here!"
Chen Xing took off half of her shoes and put them on again, then walked into the living room with her schoolbag on her back, only to see Gao Yamei sitting in the middle waiting for her.
Chen Hai was still cooking in the kitchen. Chen Xing knew that Chen Hai must have been scolded by Gao Yamei before and could not help her.
Chen Xing didn't speak first, but just stood opposite Gao Yamei, waiting for her to start.
Gao Yamei crossed her legs, hugged her arms, leaned back on the sofa, and looked up at Chen Xing's expressionless face.
He said, "Chen Xing, how many times have I told you? No fighting, no fighting. Where did you remember all my words?"
"Don't you know you have a heart disease? If anything goes wrong, all the money your father and I spent on you will be wasted."
"We work so hard, we work so hard to earn money, we don't care about our dignity, we spend all our thoughts and energy on you, and we don't ask for much in return. Can't you just finish high school and stay home?"
Chen Xing listened to everything without saying a word.
"You've really grown up. You even dare to fight with others. Don't you know how embarrassing it is?"
Chen Xing listened to Gao Yamei's words. She had already prepared herself mentally and knew that they would not be very nice. They would just be about her considerations, such as not being able to do this or that.
Chen Xing said, "Why don't you ask me why I fought? You started scolding me as soon as I walked in. Are you angry because I embarrassed you by fighting, or because I did something I shouldn't have done and you're worried that all the effort you put into me will be wasted?"
When Gao Yamei heard what Chen Xing said, she was so angry that she couldn't sit still. She stood up and wanted to take action but couldn't bring herself to do it.
"Chen Xing, how can you talk to me like that? I'm just thinking about you. You know the condition of your body very well. Even though there hasn't been a relapse in the past few years, it doesn't mean you'll be fine forever."
"If something happens to you, what will your dad and I do?"
Chen Xing knew that no matter how much trouble she caused outside, Gao Yamei would never really hit her unless she was very angry.
Sometimes she was quite grateful that she had a heart disease. Gao Yamei was afraid that something might happen to her and didn't dare to hit her hard. Otherwise, with her temper, she would have been beaten countless times.
Chen Xing said calmly, "You don't need to remind me that I'm sick. I know I'm not a healthy person. I want to live more than you do, so your worries are unnecessary."
Gao Yamei looked at Chen Xing who was going against her. She didn't intend to get so angry, but Chen Xing's attitude made her unable to control her anger.
Gao Yamei had been under increasing pressure at work these days and was in a very bad mood. Suddenly, she received a call from Dong Liang. She heard that Chen Xing had a fight with someone, and she couldn't concentrate on her work. She took half a day off and came back to wait for Chen Xing to admit his mistake to her.
As a result, she said a few words to Chen Xing, but instead of giving in, Chen Xing retorted every word. Gao Yamei was becoming more and more unable to control Chen Xing. She always felt that she was rebellious, but she didn't think about who was wrong.
In the end, Chen Xing ignored Gao Yamei and went back to her room with her schoolbag. Gao Yamei's words kept repeating in her mind, even though she knew that Gao Yamei was worried about her health.
But she told her again and again that she shouldn't do this or that, which was just reminding her that she was not a normal person and could not do things that normal people could do.
Chen Xing sat at the desk, touching her beating heart in the left side of her chest. Her heart was obviously very active, and she was obviously no different from a normal person, so why did they have to remind her again and again?
She just wanted to be a normal person, a normal person who was not restricted or given special care.
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