I want you to help me fulfill my dream
This time, Wen Yu told Ji Wenshu everything he wanted to say, because he didn't know what tomorrow would be like. Maybe he didn't want to come, or maybe he couldn't come. So he simply said everything while he could still move. From now on, he could only tell his mother in heaven in his heart.
Before this, Wen Yu never knew that he could talk so much. Even if he was talking to himself and no one responded to him, he felt relieved after he finished speaking.
Wen Yu paused for a moment, then smiled again and looked at Ji Wenshu on the tombstone.
"Mom, there is one more happy thing I want to share with you."
Wen Yu seemed to see Chen Xing in front of him. As long as he wanted, she would always appear in front of him, but she would disappear as soon as the wind blew.
"I'm in love with a girl. If you were still around, you would definitely laugh at me and ask me how I could possibly know what love is at such a young age."
"But I just love her. I've loved her for a long time, as long as ten years, and it will be even longer. Until the moment my life stops, I will still be unwilling to give up and want to love her indefinitely."
"I don't know what you think love is. In my opinion, I love her and want to give her the best in the world. It's not that she walks towards me, but I step into her world step by step and feel everything about her."
"You might think I'm still young and immature, mistaking liking for love, but I'm very clear-headed and absolutely certain that I just love her and want... to make her happy."
As Wen Yu spoke of this, his tone gradually became lighter, mixed with helplessness, as if he was about to cry.
"Now I am no longer qualified to be the one who can bring her happiness. I will eventually fail."
Suddenly a cold wind blew by. Wen Yu wanted to reach out and touch the blurry figure in front of him, but the wind blew it away, and his tears flew away to who knows where.
In the end, Wen Yu caught nothing. There was only a ball of air in his hand. He put it against his chest, and even the last bit of warmth slowly dissipated.
The girl he liked for ten years, the girl he kept in his heart but didn't dare to get close to, finally stood by her in September 2018.
But I didn't expect that it was not the beginning, but the countdown to the end.
At the beginning of 2019, Wen Yu could no longer express his affection and unspeakable love to Chen Xing.
After all, he was the one who broke his promise first, and he was the one who had to withdraw. Although he would never stop loving her, he could no longer tell her.
Wen Yu finally lay sadly on the tombstone, his silent and sorrowful tears soaking the corners of his mother's clothes.
No one comforted him, and no one wiped his tears. After crying so hard this time, he wanted to become stronger and decided to hide all the pain in his heart and bear it alone.
No matter how much time remains, he must start planning how to turn these ten years into twenty, thirty or even longer.
Wen Yu came out of Fushou Garden. He was so fragile and needed comfort just now, but now he changed into another set of armor. An indestructible and extremely hard shell wrapped him up.
Wen Yu took a taxi to another place he wanted to go. He could have waited until tomorrow, but he didn't want to waste time.
There were many things he wanted to do in the past, and he always thought that there would be plenty of time and opportunities to complete them in the future. But now he doesn't want to wait any longer, he has to do it as soon as possible, for he is afraid that he will not see the day he is looking forward to.
Wen Yu arrived downstairs at Shen Xuyang's house. He knew which floor Shen Xuyang's house was on, but he didn't want to go up to find him. The cold air outside would cheer him up better.
Wen Yu took out his phone and sent a message to Shen Xuyang, telling him that he was waiting for him at the basketball court near his house.
Wen Yu put away his phone without waiting to see Shen Xuyang's reply, because he knew that Shen Xuyang would definitely come.
Wen Yu waited at the basketball court for less than ten minutes before Shen Xuyang appeared.
Shen Xuyang went downstairs without a coat, wearing only a thin sweatshirt, with his hands in his sweatshirt pockets, deliberately pulling them as he walked.
When Shen Xuyang saw Wen Yu turn around, he raised his face towards him, raised his eyebrows, and said arrogantly: "What? Are you here to make peace and take me back?"
"I'm telling you, Wen Yu, I, Shen Xuyang, have suffered a lot from you since I was a child. If it were someone else, I would have punched them back long ago. There's no way I'd give you the chance to chase me away."
Shen Xuyang still remembers that day when he was sleeping soundly and was suddenly awakened by Wen Yu. Before he was still confused, Wen Yu drove him back to his home. Shen Xuyang will remember this humiliation for the rest of his life.
Wen Yu smiled faintly and said, "That's the best. You should be thankful that I don't have many chances to control you."
"From now on... you should stop being so childish. You're already a year older, but why don't you seem to have grown up?"
Wen Yu stood in front of Shen Xuyang, his eyes looking at him as if he was looking at a child. He gently patted Shen Xuyang's shoulder and said something to him earnestly.
Shen Xuyang was frightened by Wen Yu's appearance, goose bumps appeared all over his body, and he took a step back unconsciously.
Shen Xuyang looked at Wen Yu's gentle eyes towards him, which was a bit creepy.
Shen Xuyang said, "Wen Yu, don't look at me the same way you look at Chen Xing. It's too cheesy. I can't stand it."
When Wen Yu heard what Shen Xuyang said, he almost forgot that he couldn't be too gentle to Shen Xuyang. Threats and intimidation were more suitable for him.
Wen Yu put away his gentle expression, his eyes became serious and solemn, and said, "Xu Yang, promise me one thing."
Shen Xuyang felt that Wen Yu's tone was right, but the content was not right.
Wen Yu seldom called him "Xu Yang", and every time he did, it was when he was extremely serious.
Shen Xuyang listened to Wen Yu's words, which were not a request but an affirmation. He couldn't figure out what Wen Yu would ask him to agree to. Could he ask him what was wrong with his brain?
Shen Xuyang denied it himself. If he really asked, he would face a beating. He couldn't beat Wen Yu at the moment.
After thinking about it, Shen Xuyang touched his chin and said, "What do you want me to promise you?"
Wen Yu's eyes were extremely determined. He should have wanted to do this a long time ago, but he never had the chance to say it. Now he finally found the opportunity, but he had to complete what he couldn't do for him.
Wen Yu said: "I want you to help me realize my dream."
Wen Yu originally wanted to motivate Shen Xuyang to make progress, but he didn't have time to influence his heart knot bit by bit, so he could only force him to face the reality, so that he could have a future that was not black.
Even if that is not the life he ultimately wants to choose, it can allow Shen Xuyang to grow in a short period of time. Wen Yu does not want to put shackles on Shen Xuyang, but just wants him to understand that life is only once and don't give up easily.
When Shen Xuyang heard Wen Yu's calm and serious words to him, he looked at Wen Yu again and felt that he seemed a little different at the moment. Why did he inexplicably feel a kind of sadness, as if there was no future.
Shen Xuyang stretched out his hand and placed it on Wen Yu's forehead, wondering if his brain was fried.
Shen Xuyang raised his eyebrows and said, "Wen Yu, did I hear wrong, or are you stupid?"
"You asked me to help you realize your dream. How would I know what your dream is? Besides, I'm just a lazy guy. What else can I do besides fighting without losing? It's really funny."
Wen Yu listened to Shen Xuyang's tone of not taking it seriously and looked at his self-destructive look. He knew that it was not that he couldn't do it, but that he just didn't want to do it.
Wen Yu suddenly said to Shen Xuyang's nonchalant smile: "If I tell you that I will leave soon, will you still think I am joking with you?"
When Shen Xuyang heard Wen Yu's words, his smiling face instantly disappeared. Looking at Wen Yu's expression which couldn't be more serious, Shen Xuyang felt his heart tremble, as if being pulled by something.
Shen Xuyang asked in a serious tone: "Wen Yu, what exactly do you want to say by calling me out at this time?"
"What do you mean by leaving or not? Do you want to study abroad in the future, or move? Is it necessary for you to come all the way here to tell me all this?"
Wen Yu knew clearly that Shen Xuyang had understood some of the meaning of his words. They had such a tacit understanding, but this tacit understanding always occurred in some bad events.
Wen Yu looked into Shen Xuyang's evasive eyes and told him clearly.
"I know you've guessed it. Don't make any more excuses. I didn't lie to you. You know I wouldn't joke about life and death."
After Wen Yu finished speaking, he kept watching to see how Shen Xuyang would react. He knew it would be difficult for him to accept it.
Shen Xuyang suddenly burst into laughter, his laughter was ugly, but he didn't want to stop, as if as long as he laughed loud enough, he could pretend that he heard nothing and knew nothing.
When Shen Xuyang looked at Wen Yu again, there was a hint of coldness and even anger in his eyes.
Shen Xuyang pointed at Wen Yu and yelled, "Wen Yu! Are you fucking sick? If your brain is broken, then go see a doctor. Why are you looking for me? I won't fix it for you. I'll just unscrew it and kick it a few times."
Shen Xuyang himself didn't know that he had once cursed people so harshly that he even scolded Shen Changzhou so much that he picked up a stick and chased him around the street.
But after spending a long time with Shi Nannan, I seemed to no longer know how to curse, and I didn’t know how to scold someone who was pretending to be stupid.
This was the first time in Wen Yu's life that someone pointed at him and scolded him. He knew that Shen Xuyang was too excited and he would not bother with him, but at this moment he actually felt like laughing.
Wen Yu had to admit: "Chen Xuyang! You are right, I am sick."
When Shen Xuyang heard Wen Yu's words, he couldn't hold back his anger and his raised hand suddenly dropped.
Shen Xuyang was still deceiving himself in his mind: Is Wen Yu stupid? I scolded him, but not only did he not hit me, he actually laughed?
Wen Yu walked to Shen Xuyang's side, tilted his head slightly, and repeated in his ear: "I am really sick."
Wen Yu had told him more than once that he wanted to leave, whether it was explicit or implicit, Shen Xuyang should have understood.
It's just that he didn't want to face it, didn't want to believe it, so he kept testing, testing whether Wen Yu would eventually be unable to stand him, beat him up, and then tell him that he was lying to him.
But the facts are facts after all. No matter how they are said, how can the truth be false? Unless Shen Xuyang spends his whole life being the fool who doesn't want to wake up.
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