Is it worth sacrificing so much for her?
Wen Yu was quite patient. He put down his chopsticks and said, "You and I are different. It's not that complicated. I just want to stay with Chen Xing for a while longer. Maybe after the college entrance examination is over, I should leave."
Wen Yu lowered his eyes to look at his hands. He had been trying to practice eating and writing with his left hand. Recently, the symptoms on his hands had been appearing more and more frequently. At this rate, his legs would become weak in a few months.
Shen Xuyang looked at Wen Yu's lonely eyes and didn't know what to say.
Shen Xuyang was stunned for a moment before saying, "You're switching from the science class to the liberal arts class. What about the college entrance exam in a few months?"
Wen Yu has been studying science from the beginning. If he rashly switches to the liberal arts class now, his college entrance examination results will be easily affected.
Wen Yu said casually: "I won't participate."
When Shen Xuyang heard this, he stood up excitedly, and the students next to him were startled by him.
Shen Xuyang said sorry embarrassedly and sat down again.
Shen Xuyang said, "Not participating? Wen Yu, you've sacrificed too much for Chen Xing, right? Is it worth it?"
Wen Yu picked up the chopsticks, looked at his hands and said, "It's not that I don't want to participate, it's that I can't."
Wen Yu raised his eyes and looked at Shen Xuyang's stunned expression and said, "My biggest and only regret in this life is that I can't tell her how much I love her."
"So, whatever I do for her, I think is worth it, and it's not even enough."
Shen Xuyang listened to Wen Yu's affectionate words. Although he didn't understand Wen Yu's state of mind, if he was like Wen Yu and suddenly saw that the road to death was getting closer and closer, he would be like him and give everything he could do in the last time to his beloved.
Shen Xuyang lowered his head to eat, and neither of them spoke again until Shen Xuyang finished the last bite of food, and then he asked casually.
"You're so close to Chen Xing, and you're with her every day. Aren't you afraid that she'll fall in love with you and be unable to extricate herself? What if she can't stand you when you leave?"
Shen Xuyang never thought about the future before, he just lived one day at a time, but now he would consider the consequences before doing anything.
When Wen Yu heard Shen Xuyang's question, he was stunned and the food in his chopsticks fell.
Wen Yu lowered his head, looking at the gradually blurry scene in front of him, and said, "Then let her hate me."
"She must learn to face every separation in life. Not all reunions will last forever. The only one who can always stay with her is herself. She must love herself more."
When Shen Xuyang heard Wen Yu's answer, he finally understood what it meant that God is jealous of talented people. People who are too perfect always have some flaws. Is this fair to Wen Yu?
Shen Xuyang knew that Wen Yu knew very well that he taught Chen Xing to love herself first by making her dislike him and even hate him. This was the most painful price for either of them.
Shen Xuyang sighed deeply and looked at Wen Yu, whose expression was no different from before, neither happy nor angry. He only felt endless sadness.
Shi Nannan and Chen Xing finished their meal and came out from the back door of the cafeteria.
Chen Xing asked, "Nannan, where are you going?"
Chen Xing knew that Shi Nannan was still angry with Shen Xuyang, so in order to avoid him, he deliberately went out the back door of the cafeteria.
Shi Nannan looked completely lifeless. She had been in a daze the entire morning. When she wasn't smiling, she really looked like a body without a soul.
Shi Nannan said: "Xingxing, I don't want to go back to the classroom. Please accompany me to the playground for a walk."
Chen Xing walked over and held Shi Nannan's hand. At this time, friends were definitely the most important thing, and Chen Xing didn't plan to go back to the classroom to review.
Shi Nannan took Chen Xing's arm and walked around the playground. Shi Nannan didn't say a word, and Chen Xing just accompanied her.
Shi Nannan suddenly stopped and said, "Xingxing, I'm tired. Let's go sit over there for a while."
Chen Xing nodded and said, "Oh, okay."
The two sat down in the stands. Shi Nannan still didn't speak. Chen Xing was afraid that she was feeling depressed.
Chen Xing took the initiative to speak, but Shi Nannan took the lead.
"Xingxing, do you think I'm noisy? Have you ever been so annoyed by me that you couldn't stand it?"
Chen Xing said, "Nannan, why do you ask that? I've never found you annoying. You've always been very nice."
"Are you affected by what Zhou Xiang and Xia Meimei said?"
Shi Nannan said: "I don't care what they say. They are nothing in my eyes."
Chen Xing said: "Then why? You never say such things."
Shi Nannan said: "I...I think Chen Xuyang stayed away from me because I always annoyed him."
When Chen Xing heard this, he finally understood what Shi Nannan had been worrying about all morning.
Chen Xing said: "How could that be? The Shen Xuyang I know likes you so much that he can't wait to find you annoying?"
Shi Nannan said in disbelief, "He likes me? Xingxing, stop joking. He and I are sworn enemies, natural enemies."
Chen Xing knew that Shi Nannan couldn't see it, but in her eyes as an outsider, Shen Xuyang treated Shi Nannan differently.
Maybe Chen Xing herself figured out her love for Wen Yu, so she could also see Shen Xuyang's special feelings for Shi Nannan.
Chen Xing said: "Those are what you said. Have you ever heard Shen Xuyang regard you as his mortal enemy?"
Shi Nannan thought about it carefully and realized that it was indeed her who said that. Although Shen Xuyang didn't get along with her, he never said such words.
Shi Nannan said: "Then he can't possibly like me."
Chen Xing smiled. "You're so sure he doesn't like you, so what about you? Do you like him?"
Shi Nannan suddenly stood up and denied loudly: "How could I possibly like him? I wouldn't like someone like him."
After Shi Nannan finished speaking to Chen Xing, she whispered to herself, "Yes, I don't like him, um, I don't like him..."
Chen Xing said, "I'm just asking casually, why are you so excited?"
Chen Xing could tell from Shi Nannan's subconscious reaction that she did like Shen Xuyang, but she was just pretending.
Shi Nannan sat down again, with a clear guilty look on her face. She should have noticed it herself, and she was particularly concerned about Shen Xuyang.
Shi Nannan said: "I'm not excited, I just... I just want to stand up and move around."
When Shi Nannan lies, she will stammer and look around.
Chen Xing said, "Okay, I won't ask anymore, but you'd better think clearly about how you feel about him."
Chen Xing didn't want to add to Shi Nannan's worries at this time. After all, the college entrance examination was coming soon, and it was not good to think too much.
Shi Nannan still refused to admit it. "What kind of feeling is that? What else could it be? It's like we're sworn enemies, the kind that we'll never have anything to do with each other again."
"Originally, I was going to break up with him after graduation, but now is the perfect time. We don't have to wait until graduation. We're not even classmates anymore. We'll just be strangers when we meet in the future. We can go our separate ways."
Chen Xing knew that Shi Nannan was speaking in anger, but some words can really hurt people.
Chen Xing said, "Nannan, Chen Xuyang didn't do anything excessive. Even if he changed classes, we are still in the same school. What are you angry about?"
Chen Xing never understood why Shi Nannan was angry. Shen Xuyang had made her angry many times before, but she would be fine after a little coaxing. But this time, Shi Nannan was angry for too long.
Shi Nannan said: "Who said I was angry? I won't let him affect my mood."
When Chen Xing heard what Shi Nannan said, she almost couldn't continue the conversation. No matter how much she said, it was useless if Shi Nannan didn't admit it.
Chen Xing said, "Okay, just be tough. You know in your heart whether you will be sad if you push him away."
When Shi Nannan heard Chen Xing's words, she could clearly say firmly that she was very sad, really very sad, but she insisted on pretending to be strong.
Shi Nannan was very angry that Shen Xuyang had changed classes without telling her this time, but what made her most angry was that he had something on his mind but didn't tell her, and his sudden change of attitude. These made Shi Nannan feel that he had changed. She couldn't find a reason for his change, and just thought that she was the one who made him dislike her. In fact, she blamed herself more.
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On Friday morning of the first week of school, Chen Xing practiced art until very late last night and did not get up in the morning.
Gao Yamei seems to be busier at work recently. She hasn't made breakfast these days. Chen Xing can only see her at dinner time, so she has no time to take care of Chen Xing.
Chen Hai gave Chen Xing and Chen Yue money to buy breakfast. Chen Xing went too late and didn't buy breakfast, so he came to school on an empty stomach.
When Chen Xing arrived at the classroom, Shi Nannan and Wen Yu had already arrived.
Shi Nannan said, "Xingxing, your dark circles are quite obvious. Did you stay up late painting again?"
Chen Xing nodded weakly, his eyes half open, put down his schoolbag and lay down on the table to catch up on his sleep.
Wen Yu saw that Chen Xing had been listless for several days because of the art exam, and he was worried that she might not be able to hold on.
Wen Yu said, "Chen Xing, you don't have to worry about the art exam. My aunt said that with your current level, you will definitely be able to get into the Academy of Fine Arts."
Chen Xing said: "But nothing is absolute. I not only have the art exam to prepare for, but also the college entrance exam."
Shi Nannan asked, "Isn't your art school exam next Saturday? You should focus on the school exam these days. It won't be too late to prepare for the college entrance exam after the school exam is over."
Chen Xing had thought about doing as Shi Nannan suggested and putting the academic subjects aside for now, but her academic performance was very unstable. If the score line was higher this year, all her previous efforts would be in vain.
Chen Xing said, "I can't do it anymore. I need to take a nap first. When the teacher comes, you can wake me up."
Shi Nannan and Wen Yu looked at Chen Xing like this, and neither of them could persuade him. When Chen Xing got ruthless, he would not show mercy to his men.
The bell rang for class, which was a politics class. Teacher Zhang, wearing a pair of square glasses, walked into the classroom holding a cup of water.
They have a love-hate relationship with their politics teacher's class, because politics class is either about doing tests or memorizing, which are the contents that students hate the most. But their politics teacher doesn't like to move around. He just sits at the desk and corrects tests for the whole class. They can do whatever they want in class as long as they don't make any noise.
However, the test paper still needs to be handed in when the bell rings, but the teacher is very easy to talk to and can extend it to before lunch.
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