It turns out that I was really abandoned
Chen Xing had been holding these words in her heart for a long time. When she didn't know so many things, she had lived a carefree life like a normal child.
But once people understand more, they think more. Chen Xing is not a cold-blooded person. He is unwilling to fight because he knows that he is a burden to his family.
Every time Chen Xing fell ill, she hoped that she would not wake up again this time. She did not want to see Chen Hai and Gao Yamei’s worried faces because of her. She was the one who was more sad than them.
Chen Xing couldn't understand why they still needed her since they already had Chen Yue. In fact, they probably didn't want her either.
Chen Xing said so much in one breath, and for the first time in so many years he felt relieved.
When Gao Yamei heard Chen Xing's heart-wrenching words, she never thought that her adopted daughter actually thought of them this way.
"Chen Xing, I've raised you for so many years without expecting anything in return, nor do I expect you to achieve anything great. Is this also harming you?"
"You are different from Chen Yue, but did I ask you to be like her? From childhood to adulthood, have I ever asked you to do a job or wronged you once? As long as Chen Yue's share is there, you, Chen Xing, will not be left out."
"What exactly are you dissatisfied with?"
Chen Xing faced Gao Yamei and her father Chen Hai, whom she never had a say in at home. She knew that Chen Hai was also feeling bad because the family was supported by Gao Yamei, and he himself felt indebted, but he could not empathize with Chen Xing.
Chen Xing's tears dried up, and she was left with only stubbornness. She was unwilling to admit her mistakes again. She never felt that she was wrong.
Chen Xing said in a cold and hard tone, "Unsatisfied? How could I dare to be? Many people say that I was born to collect debts. It's not that you owe me, but I owe you my life, a favor that I will never be able to repay in several lifetimes."
"I really should die!"
With a "slap", Gao Yamei slapped Chen Xing in the face. It was so hard that Chen Xing's head tilted to the side and he almost fell down.
When Gao Yamei heard Chen Xing's self-deprecating words, she couldn't help but feel emotional. Since she had decided to raise Chen Xing, she had never thought of giving up her life.
Gao Yamei touched her heart: "Chen Xing, do you think I haven't thought about strangling you to death? I am a mother, I... I really hope that my child will be a healthy life, but you really disappoint me."
Chen Xing could no longer feel the pain on her face. Hearing Gao Yamei's words, her heart was bleeding. In the past, it was only other relatives in the family who always kept telling Chen Xing how difficult her parents' lives were.
After listening to it more, Chen Xing began to sympathize with her parents, but as time went on, she didn't want to be a burden to them. However, despite this, Chen Xing never thought of giving up her life.
Because every time she went to the hospital and heard the doctor bring good news, she saw how happy her parents were, and she seemed to feel a little relieved.
Chen Xing also longs for his parents to love him more and hopes that he can be their pride.
But Chen Xing couldn't do it. No matter what he did, he could never become the pride in their eyes.
It was the first time that Chen Xing heard Gao Yamei say this. She thought her mother wanted her very much, but she didn't expect that she had been unloved since she was born.
Chen Xing felt that her world was so noisy. The cold words of her relatives in the countryside since she was a child made her feel cold. Now even her mother said so. Was she abandoned?
Chen Hai remained silent for a long time until Gao Yamei slapped Chen Xing in the face and he lost his composure.
Chen Xing could hear Chen Hai and Gao Yamei arguing again. In her impression, her parents had never quarreled because Chen Hai always gave in to Gao Yamei, but now they were quarreling over her.
Chen Xing felt that she was a jinx, a burden since birth, and would only bring misfortune to others. She was an unlucky person, so why should she stay here?
Chen Xing left while they were arguing fiercely, leaving quietly.
Chen Hai and Gao Yamei were arguing so loudly that neither of them noticed that Chen Xing had left.
Chen Hai: "How could you hit your daughter? Do you know that there are some things you can't say carelessly? How sad Chen Xing must be to hear that."
Gao Yamei couldn't stand other people telling her what to do. No matter whether they were right or wrong, she would just stick to her own opinion. What's more, she was angry now and didn't think she had said or done anything wrong.
Gao Yamei pointed at Chen Hai and said, "Chen Hai, didn't you hear what Chen Xing just said? Has she ever respected our efforts? I work so hard every day to earn money to support her, but what about her? Now she dares to yell at me."
Chen Hai also heard what Chen Xing said, but his thoughts were completely different from Gao Yamei's.
He is a teacher. Although he is good at disciplining his students, he has never had any serious communication with his daughter.
Every time Gao Yamei scolded Chen Xing, Chen Hai couldn't get a word in. He felt incompetent. He didn't expect that in Chen Xing's heart, the hurt they had caused her was so deep.
Chen Hai waved his hands helplessly and said, "Meimei, maybe we are controlling too much. Chen Xing may not need the life we arrange for her at all. It's a good thing for a child to have her own opinions when she grows up."
"She has always been the one compromising and following our instructions. Why can't we just listen to what she has to say?"
When Gao Yamei heard Chen Hai's sudden calm attitude and persuasion in a calm tone, her anger subsided a lot. She was not really unreasonable, but she could not calm down when she was impulsive.
Gao Yamei was about to say something when she heard Chen Yue ask, "Where's Xingxing?"
Every time Chen Xing was scolded, Gao Yamei would always drive Chen Yue into the room. Chen Yue was also afraid of Gao Yamei's temper and did not dare to speak up for Chen Xing.
Even though it had nothing to do with her, every time Chen Yue listened to Gao Yamei scolding Chen Xing, she felt tormented, but she never stood up.
Sometimes Chen Yue hated herself for being so timid. As an older sister, she should protect her younger sister, but she ignored her again and again, leaving Chen Xing alone to face it.
Chen Yue heard what Chen Xing and Gao Yamei said in the room, which eventually turned into an argument between Chen Hai and Gao Yamei. Chen Yue thought about standing up, but when she came out, Chen Xing was gone.
Chen Hai and Gao Yamei saw Chen Yue, looked at the empty room, and were shocked at the same time.
Gao Yamei seemed calm, but in fact she was very panicked. "See if there is any room? Where can such a big person go?"
Chen Yue went to Chen Xing's room and said, "She has never been here before."
Chen Hai saw Chen Xing's shoes at the entrance, but the slippers she wore at home were missing.
Chen Hai exclaimed, "Chen Xing ran away from home!"
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