sorry!
After Wen Yu finished speaking, he helped Chen Xing to a place where there were no glass fragments. Chen Xing watched Wen Yu pick up the glass fragments on the ground.
Chen Xing asked again: "How long will you be gone? What are you going to do in America? Will you... come back?"
Chen Xing asked these three questions tremblingly, each one of them piercing her heart like a sharp arrow. She thought that when she came to find Wen Yu, he would comfort her wounded heart, but she saw half-packed luggage in his room and a plane ticket with her birthday date on the table.
No matter how strong Chen Xing's heart was, it was suddenly stabbed at this moment. She had never been so panicked and scared in front of Gao Yamei and Chen Hai, but now her whole body was trembling.
Wen Yu ignored the wound on his hand caused by the glass and seemed to be picking up glass fragments, but in fact he just wanted to find something to do to avoid facing Chen Xing. He didn't dare to look into her eyes, let alone tell her the truth.
Since the college entrance examination, his symptoms have become more and more obvious, and taking medicine can no longer delay the disease. Sometimes the muscles in his limbs atrophy and even eating and walking are difficult for him. He dare not appear in front of Chen Xing again, but he wants to wait until he celebrates her last birthday before leaving.
Wen Yu went to the United States to receive better treatment there. Regardless of whether it was useful or not, he wanted to give it a try because he wanted to live longer.
Wen Yu threw the glass fragments in his hand into the trash can, then stood up and put his cut hand behind his back.
Wen Yu raised his head but didn't look at Chen Xing. He said, "Chen Xing, I'm sorry. I have to break the appointment."
"I can't do what I promised you."
When Chen Xing heard Wen Yu's words, she raised her hands and then put them down again, forcing herself not to be impulsive or excited, and trying hard to restrain the emotions that were about to explode.
Chen Xing looked up at Wen Yu. The smile on her face was ugly and bitter. She asked, "What do you mean? I don't understand."
Wen Yu moved his head but didn't face Chen Xing. His frantic blinking eyes were forcing tears into his heart, but the area around his eye sockets was already red.
Wen Yu had no choice but to confess: "There is something I have been hiding from you. Now I should tell you."
Chen Xing heard Wen Yu's words that seemed to be relaxed, and saw him lowering his head without even looking at her. She felt the pressure in her heart getting heavier and heavier, and even breathing was a suffocating pain.
Chen Xing clenched her fists, and the blue veins on the back of her hands reflected her suppressed emotions.
"I don't want to hear it. Stop talking. I'm leaving now. Just pretend I was never here."
Chen Xing turned around and walked towards the door, but Wen Yu's urgent, rising and falling cold voice sounded behind him.
"Chen Xing! I won't be by your side anymore. You have to take good care of yourself. Everything I said to you before, except for that promise, is true. I really do... I really hope you can be happy forever."
Wen Yu finished his final instructions in one breath. He originally wanted to tell Chen Xing all this on her birthday, but it seemed that fate gave him another choice, and he couldn't escape it.
Chen Xing stopped walking, her eyes were dazed, her body was motionless, tears kept falling, and there was a sharp pain in her heart. She felt that her vision was becoming more and more blurred, and she could not even see any light.
Wen Yu didn't say it directly, but Chen Xing understood it all. This time it was a real farewell, meaning they would never see each other again.
Chen Xing carried Wen Yu on her back, her hands on her chest, grabbing the heart under her skin tightly. She had never felt such pain before. That heart was clearly the continuation of her life, but it always brought her pain.
Chen Xing said with a heavy nasal tone: "Wen Yu, why didn't you keep it a secret from me? Why did you have to let me know at...now?"
Wen Yu looked up and saw Chen Xing's back. Only when she had her back to him did he have the courage to face her.
Wen Yu raised his hand, wanting to touch her, wanting to hug her, wanting to comfort her, but his hand could no longer hold her hand, and he no longer had the strength to hold her.
Wen Yu looked at his hand and saw that it was powerless and even looked ugly. He held this hand tightly with his other hand, not wanting Chen Xing to see his ugly side.
Wen Yu's low voice made it impossible to tell his emotions, "I'm sorry, I..."
Wen Yu didn't know what else to say. He could only say sorry to Chen Xing. He knew that Chen Xing was blaming him, and the reason he couldn't tell her was because he was protecting her.
Chen Xing wiped away her tears. She didn't want to hear him say sorry. She still had a lot to tell him. Although she should have kept it until the day she turned eighteen, if she didn't say it now, she would never have the chance again.
"Wen Yu, whether you want to listen or not, I want to tell you."
Chen Xing paused for a moment. When she didn't hear Wen Yu's response, she took it as her consent and gave her this opportunity.
Chen Xing continued, "I did it. I've already fulfilled half of the promise I made to you. The moment I saw my college entrance exam results, the first thing I wanted to do was share them with you."
"568 points, this is a score I never dared to imagine. I know that without your help, I might... not be able to do it at all. So you are the first person I want to thank for getting to this point. Without you, without the promise we made, I... I don't know if I still have the courage to break up with them."
Chen Xing covered her chest as her breathing became increasingly heavy. There were too many emotions mixed in her heart, most of which was sadness.
"Chen Xing..." Wen Yu called her softly.
"Please listen to me first." This should be what Chen Xing wanted to say most when he came to Wen Yu, but it was just the beginning.
"Wen Yu, I don't know how many lies you've told me, and I don't want to know which ones. In my heart, I take every word you say as true."
"Because every word I said to you was true, every smile I gave you was true, and my desire to be with you forever was true. That promise was just an excuse I made… because I didn't want to be separated from you after graduation. Actually, I…"
"Chen Xing...don't say anything!" Wen Yu suddenly interrupted Chen Xing loudly.
Although Chen Xing always had her back to him, Wen Yu could feel her emotions from every heartfelt word she said, but he stopped her, stopped this confession that should not have started in the first place.
Wen Yu's heart was broken at the moment. He should have realized that Chen Xing's feelings for him had changed. He didn't have time to think about when it started.
Sure enough, everything Shen Xuyang said came true. Chen Xing had feelings of reluctance to let go of him. How could Wen Yu let her go? How could he cruelly push away her, whose heart and eyes were filled with him, a dying man with no future?
Wen Yu suddenly felt weak all over, and the feeling in his feet and legs gradually disappeared. He could only use his arms to hold on to the table to prevent himself from falling. He even didn't want Chen Xing to hear the sound of his endurance.
Chen Xing did not express the love hidden in his heart to Wen Yu face to face because he was afraid that he would reject him.
If she hadn't come to see Wen Yu tonight, hadn't seen the half-packed luggage, and hadn't had the one-way ticket with an unknown return date, perhaps on her eighteenth birthday, she would have happily told him that she had liked him for a long time, so much so that she didn't want to be separated from him in this life.
But how would the result be different? Chen Xing thought about it and suddenly smiled, with tears falling at the corner of his mouth.
She thought that no matter when she told him, the result would be the same, because he didn't have the patience to listen to her and directly and decisively rejected her love.
Perhaps someone like her shouldn't be liked by Wen Yu. After all, they were from two different worlds from the very beginning.
Chen Xing clutched the increasingly uncomfortable spot in her chest. She seemed to understand everything. Perhaps what Gao Yamei said was absolutely right. She was not a normal person. No matter how she ignored her physical defects, she could not be a normal person, let alone have a normal relationship, get married, and have children. She didn't even deserve a response to her love.
No one spoke in the room for a long time. The tears in Chen Xing's eyes had almost dried up, leaving only a bitter smile.
Wen Yu realized that his symptoms had worsened again, but he held on tightly, determined not to let Chen Xing know.
Wen Yu grabbed the corner of the table. The smaller wound on the palm of his hand got deeper the harder he gripped it. Bright red blood dripped from the edge of the table onto the ground like agate.
Wen Yu didn't want Chen Xing to see him in such a state, so he could only use hurtful words to make her stay away, and at the same time, he would feel a thousand times more pain.
"Chen Xing, I never thought about being with you for a long time, let alone a future without separation."
Wen Yu, with tears in his eyes, endured the immense pain in his heart and told Chen Xing not to love him anymore. They had no future and nothing more to do. This was the end of it...
He couldn't tell her how much he wanted to hear her say that she liked him. He couldn't give her any response. If he couldn't bear to refuse her, then he shouldn't let the words slip out of her mouth.
Because once those words were spoken, it would be even harder to take them back. He knew too well that liking someone was impossible to control, but he had to make Chen Xing give up on his own initiative.
Chen Xing finally wiped his face with wet clothes, but there were still traces of tears.
She didn't dare look back at his resolute eyes, and he didn't dare face her eyes and tell her that it was all against his will.
They both have their own difficulties and don't want the other to discover their sadness and sorrow.
Chen Xing didn't say another word, nor did she stay for another second. After hearing Wen Yu's words, her determined and dejected back moved further and further away from him.
Chen Xing pushed open the door and saw Wen Songnian in the living room. She left without saying a word, covering her chest with her hands and lowering her head.
The moment Chen Xing walked out of the room, Wen Yu fell to the ground with his legs weak. The glass fragments hiding under the desk pierced deeply into Wen Yu's legs. He only felt a sharp pain in his body, but it was nothing compared to the pain in his heart.
Wen Songnian heard the sound and walked into the room, seeing Wen Yu sitting on the ground, and the floor was a mess.
Wen Songnian went to help Wen Yu, saying, "Xiao Yu, what happened between you and Chen Xing? It's raining so hard outside, and it looks like she got slapped in the face. It's so late, can she go home alone?"
When Wen Songnian saw Chen Xing running out in the living room, he was attracted by the sound of Wen Yu falling to the ground before he could even say anything to call her.
When Wen Yu heard Wen Songnian's words, his eyes and ears were suddenly stung by something.
Wen Yu grabbed Wen Songnian's arm, his face full of worry, and said, "Dad, go find Chen Xing quickly. Don't leave her alone. Go quickly! Please..."
Wen Songnian didn't quite understand what Wen Yu said, but seeing the anxiety and worry on his face, he couldn't care less and said quickly, "I'll go right away!"
Wen Songnian took an umbrella and chased after him.
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