stars and moon
"Chen Xing!" Wen Yu ran over panting, only to see Chen Xing curled up in the remains of the ginkgo tree with his knees hugged.
Because the ginkgo tree had been cut down and there was no obstruction, Wen Yu could see Chen Xing's small body at a glance.
When Chen Xing heard someone calling her, her gloomy heart seemed to have found its own light, which would always illuminate her hope.
Chen Xing blinked her big watery eyes and looked back. At that moment, her heart skipped a beat. She couldn't describe the feeling, it was hazy and vague.
Chen Xing just looked at Wen Yu in silence. Wen Yu's anxious breathing slowly became steady. The two of them stared at each other for a long time, so long that they finally found each other after overcoming countless obstacles.
Wen Yu swallowed the last bit of bitterness and walked towards Chen Xing step by step. He stood opposite Chen Xing, suddenly bent down and squatted, putting the slippers he picked up on Chen Xing's feet.
Chen Xing blinked in confusion, but Wen Yu raised his head and looked at her.
"There are stars in your eyes, but I don't want to see them fall." Wen Yu smiled gently and gently wiped the tears on both sides of Chen Xing's cheeks with his fingertips.
When Chen Xing heard Wen Yu say this, most of the grievances in her heart disappeared, and she could no longer shed tears, because he said he didn't want to see her crying eyes.
Wen Yu's gentleness made her feel at a loss, but deep in her heart, something was quietly changing, little by little, becoming clearer and clearer.
Chen Xing turned around and said in a choked voice, "How did you know I was here?"
Wen Yu smiled brightly, although his voice was a little hoarse. I don’t know how many times he prayed on the way here.
The deep and somewhat rich voice is even more charming.
Wen Yu: "I'll know if I want to know."
Wen Yu's half-joking words were tinged with arrogance, as if he had superpowers, but he was just an ordinary person.
Chen Xing smiled inexplicably. She remembered that Wen Yu seemed to have said something like this to her, but at that time she was wary of him and just thought he was teasing her, but now it felt different.
Wen Yu sat next to Chen Xing naturally. The two of them looked at the starry sky side by side, and the distance between them was gradually shrinking.
Chen Xing didn't speak for a long time. She didn't know what to say, nor did she want to know why Wen Yu suddenly came to her. It was just that before he came, Chen Xing was like an abandoned kitten and no one was willing to take her in.
But after Wen Yu appeared, Chen Xing seemed not so lonely anymore. Even if everyone in the world gave up on her, as long as there was one person by her side, it would not be so scary for her to end the relationship.
Wen Yu was silent for a long time before finally asking. Although he didn't want to mention Chen Xing's sad story, he knew that Chen Xing cared about her family very much, and her parents and sister had not given up on her, so he should tell her.
Wen Yu: "Chen Xing, which do you think is brighter, the stars or the moon?"
Chen Xing didn't understand why Wen Yu asked such a question, and just answered subconsciously: "Of course it's the moon."
Wen Yu: "Then why is there only one moon, but many stars?"
Wen Yu's words directly touched Chen Xing's heart. She also didn't understand why there was only one moon, unique and most loved by people, while there were many stars, ordinary and dim in front of the moon.
Chen Xing is the star and Chen Yue is the moon. This is the best metaphor Chen Xing could think of.
Chen Xing couldn't answer because she had the same confusion in her heart.
Wen Yu continued, "It seems that the stars are protecting the moon, but isn't it the moon that is always illuminating the stars?"
"The moon is a lonely guardian, but the stars have countless companions. Your family will always protect you from the wind and rain."
Wen Yu's description made Chen Xing fall into deep thought. Did he mean that she should trust her family? Chen Xing seemed to have never found a sense of belonging in that family.
Because she has always been cautious for fear of making mistakes, afraid of becoming a burden to her parents, afraid of being abandoned by them, so she dare not tell them what she wants. Is it because of distrust?
Is it because she didn't regard them as her safe haven, didn't tell them about her difficulties, but still expected them to understand? Is she wrong?
Chen Xing was confused. She asked, "Have you met Chen Yue?"
Wen Yu said softly, "She is very worried about you, and your parents are also looking for you."
"Chen Yue accidentally injured her knee while trying to find you, but she still asked me to find you."
Chen Xing suddenly lowered his head and squeezed out a sentence, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't blame her, she is actually not wrong."
Chen Xing felt a little guilty. Every time she and Gao Yamei quarreled, although Chen Yue remained indifferent, what could she say to help Chen Xing?
Others always compare Chen Yue and Chen Xing, but Chen Yue only did what she should do. Just because she has to consider Chen Xing and because Chen Xing cannot stand other people's criticism, does she have to go against her own ideas and become a useless child?
If that's the case, Chen Xing should be the one who's more upset. She clearly said that she didn't want to implicate anyone, but she kept letting them be implicated by her. Isn't she a little contradictory?
Wen Yu comforted Chen Xing: "There is no absolute right or wrong. It depends on how you think."
"Chen Xing, do you know? You are not a burden to anyone, nor can you be easily abandoned. Besides your family, you also have friends, and you also have me."
After hearing Wen Yu's words, Chen Xing looked up at him again. Why could he always easily stir her heart and know what she was thinking? What kind of person was he?
"Everyone's life is precious, including yours. To me, your life is invaluable. I think your family feels the same way, so they hope you can live a peaceful and smooth life for the rest of your life, but they ignore your own wishes."
Wen Yu's words reminded Chen Xing that his parents had always been worried about her illness. They had never let her do any hard work since she was a child, and they would ask about her physical condition every day. Isn't this care?
Because they loved her and knew the hardships Chen Xing had suffered since childhood, they only hoped that Chen Xing's life would be safe and smooth. After all, this was a big problem for Chen Xing, so they ignored the life choices she wanted.
Chen Xing suddenly realized that she had hurt her parents' feelings. If she had told them what she wanted earlier, would they have considered it?
If she put aside her differences and truly regarded Chen Yue as her role model, would she not care about how others viewed her?
For so long, she has been longing for things that she cannot get, but she is getting further and further away from her family, even though they are the people who love her the most in the world.
Chen Xing suddenly realized that what she had been agonizing over were all useless and meaningless. She should have the courage to tell them that she didn't want to live her whole life in a muddle.
She doesn't want to live under their protection and be a useless person. Even if she only has one day left to live, she wants to live out her own value.
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