The best proof that he loves me
On weekends, Shen Xuyang took a break from work and accompanied Shi Nannan to the nursing home to see Chen Xing.
So many years have passed, and Shen Xuyang has become a cardiac surgeon with Wen Yu's dream, working at the First People's Hospital of Xinghai City.
Shi Nannan is also working hard for her dream. Her first novel has been delayed for many years due to various reasons and has not been completed. It still lacks the final ending, but she has not been able to start writing to put a perfect end to the book.
However, this was the first story she had ever written in her life, and she wanted to give it a happy ending, so she kept postponing it. Several books had been published before, but none of them were as good as her first serialized one.
Because the protagonists are the people around me, and they are not perfect in reality, so I want to polish them more.
Shi Nannan and Shen Xuyang came to Chen Xing's ward with flowers and fruits, but didn't see her.
They asked the people here and found out that Chen Xing was in the next ward.
Shi Nannan walked to the door of the next ward. The door was not closed tightly. She saw through the glass above that Chen Xing was telling a story to the person lying on the bed inside. She immediately put down her hand that was about to knock on the door.
Shi Nannan and Shen Xuyang both saw the scene just now. Chen Xing's face was filled with a cheerfulness and optimism that he had not seen for a long time. Holding a storybook in his hand, he patiently told one touching story after another to the patient who was lying on the hospital bed with tubes inserted all over his body and could not move.
The most attractive thing is the many sunflowers on the table that have withered at different times.
Shi Nannan covered her face and cried, and Shen Xuyang held her in his arms to comfort her. They both knew that the patient in the next ward was in the late stage of ALS.
When Chen Xing returned to her ward, she saw Shen Xuyang and Shi Nannan there. She smiled and seemed to be in a good mood.
"Why are you all here?"
Shi Nannan said: "He didn't have work today, so he came over."
Chen Xing vaguely remembered what Shen Xuyang did for a living. Shi Nannan always repeated it to her many times before she remembered it.
Chen Xing said, "Why didn't Wen Yu come with you? He hasn't come to see me for many days."
When Shen Xuyang and Shi Nannan heard Chen Xing's words, they knew that she had it, and they followed her guidance.
Shen Xuyang said: "He is on duty today. The hospital has been busy recently. He should come to see you in a few days."
Chen Xing took the fruit that Shi Nannan handed her and said, "Well, you doctors are really busy and I may not see him for several days. But tell him not to worry too much about me. I will take good care of myself."
Shen Xuyang responded softly. Every time he came to see Chen Xing, she would always mention Wen Yu who worked with him. He knew it was fake, but he also hoped that it would be true.
Chen Xing picked up the drawing board and paintbrush, sat by the window and began to depict the him in his memory on a blank piece of paper.
Seeing that the weather was good, Shi Nannan opened the window, and the sunlight outside poured into the room, making it warm.
But Chen Xing suddenly felt cold all over, and the cold air seeped in from the inside out. Suddenly, tears fell silently, and the warm tears fell on the palm of his hand and gradually lost their temperature.
Shi Nannan turned around and was about to say something to Chen Xing, but saw her crying and was momentarily panicked.
Shi Nannan asked, "Xingxing, what's wrong with you?"
Chen Xing looked at the facial outline that had already taken shape on the drawing paper. She suddenly forgot what he looked like when he smiled. She spread out the hand holding the paintbrush, and the paintbrush fell to the ground. She stared at the palm of her hand in a daze.
Chen Xing said in a low voice: "He's dead, right?"
When Shi Nannan and Shen Xuyang heard this, they both stopped in their tracks, not knowing what to say.
During this period of time, Chen Xing learned that Wen Yu had a relapse of heart disease and was rushed to the hospital and then moved into a nursing home. She never mentioned this matter again, as if she had forced herself to forget it, but she still remembered it subconsciously.
Not only did Chen Xing's heart disease worsen, requiring long-term treatment, but he also developed severe schizophrenia and even suffered from mental and emotional disorders such as tear incontinence.
They took good care of Chen Xing and did not disrupt her fantasy life. Even if Chen Xing lived in their imagination forever, as long as she was happy, they were willing to act with her for the rest of their lives.
Shen Xuyang studied medicine after all. Although he is not a psychiatrist, he still has professional knowledge.
Shen Xuyang asked: "Chen Xing, did you remember something? Can you tell me?"
Chen Xing had the half-finished expressionless portrait painting on her lap. She lowered her head, her eyes fixed on her palm. The palm with the obvious scar was covered with tears, but the scar was still there.
She seemed to remember that she had promised two people who were very important to her that they would never hurt her again, but there were scars on the palms of both her hands, which were hideous, ugly and extremely annoying.
Chen Xing didn't speak for a long time. Suddenly, she raised her hand and touched her heart. Through the thin fabric of her clothes, she felt the heavier and deeper scar.
Chen Xing's hand on his chest was getting tighter and tighter, and Shi Nannan quickly stepped forward to hold Chen Xing's hand.
"Chen Xing, relax! It will hurt."
Chen Xing had just had a heart stent surgery last month, and the incision at that location has just healed.
Chen Xing's hands naturally fell down weakly, and the drawing paper on his legs fell to the ground and was blown away by the breeze outside the window.
Chen Xing's eyes were dull and lifeless, filled with pain and sorrow. She said softly, "Wen Yu... He gave me his heart. I will never see him again..."
Chen Xing pointed at the scar on her chest with tears in her eyes and said, "This scar is the best proof of his love for me. He rejected me that day and didn't hear my confession. It's not that he doesn't love me, he just can't say it, can't tell me..."
"Why? Why do they all want me to survive without telling me... I'm in pain, Nan Nan, I'm in pain..."
"But I can't... I... his heart is in my body... ah!"
Chen Xing became more and more agitated, pointing to his heart and speaking with heartache.
They helped Chen Xing to lie on the bed and gave her some sedatives. They watched her gradually calm down and the tears in the corners of her eyes dried up, but it was only temporary.
Chen Xing stared at something with dull eyes, and suddenly said, "Is he the person who lives in the ward next to mine in Jing City?"
When Shi Nannan and Shen Xuyang heard Chen Xing asking about what happened back then, they were stunned.
Shen Xuyang knew more about that matter than Shi Nannan. He was with Wen Yu during that time and watched him dying and falling into a deep sleep with his eyes closed forever.
Shen Xuyang said: "Yes, that's right."
Shen Xuyang paused and continued, "The last time he appeared in front of you that year, he was almost in his late stages. He realized that he was about to become paralyzed and wanted to see you one last time."
"Not long after that day, he could no longer breathe or swallow on his own and could only rely on external forces to move around. Apart from sitting in a wheelchair, he had to lie in bed most of the time."
"This went on for about two years until the doctor said he was nearing his deadline, and then the hospital called you to arrange a heart transplant."
In the last two years of Wen Yu's life, he was paralyzed and could only rely on medical equipment to maintain his life. During that time, Shen Xuyang, Wen Songnian and Ji Wenyin were all by his side. Seeing Wen Yu, who was so handsome and bright in the past, gradually become emaciated and looked like a nobody, it was heartbreaking for any of them.
Fortunately, Wen Yu passed away peacefully. Perhaps he had been waiting for the day when he would leave completely, because he knew that the moment his life ended would be the beginning of Chen Xing's rebirth. He would continue to accompany her in another way, so he would have no regrets.
Chen Xing listened to Shen Xuyang's words, she clenched her hands tightly, her nails almost digging into the flesh. No matter how painful it was, it could not compare to the pain Wen Yu had experienced.
Chen Xing's eyes were red as he leaned against the bed, tilted his head to look at the blue sky outside the window, and said to the air in front of him, "If I had known earlier that you loved me so much, I would rather accompany you to leave this world than live with your heart until now."
After Chen Xing finished speaking, two lines of hot tears wet the corners of his eyes, flowing down his cheeks and nowhere to go.
Suddenly a butterfly flew in the sky, and the three people in the room were attracted by the blue butterfly that landed by the window at the same time. They couldn't come back to their senses for a long time, as if their memories had returned to the past.
Two years after Chen Xing graduated from university, before she was about to go abroad to study, her attending physician, who had been in contact with her, called her and told her that a suitable heart doctor had been found in the hospital.
Chen Xing burst into tears of joy. She had not held much hope in the first place. She thought she would live as long as she could and die wherever she died. But she received such good news.
Her congenital heart disease worsened during those two years, and only a heart transplant could allow her to live longer, and perhaps even die of old age like a normal person.
Chen Xing checked into the hospital a month in advance to wait for the surgery. She kept asking the doctor who donated her heart, but the doctor always refused on the grounds that it was confidential.
Chen Xing didn't think too much about it at the time. He just thought that he was lucky and could always save his life when on the verge of life and death.
Little did she know that this was her fate that Wen Yu had already arranged for her. All her luck was snatched from God by Wen Yu and Chen Tian, but he did not leave any for himself.
Chen Xing stayed in the hospital for nearly a month. She received a flower almost every day, and the flower was different every day. It seemed that she had received all the flowers that could be named in the world.
Those flowers accompanied Chen Xing for a month, and she maintained a good mood before the operation. Until one night, there was lightning, thunder, wind and rain outside the window. She was awakened by the sound of rain. She curled up in bed out of fear and did not dare to look outside.
She still remembered the sound of thunder and rain that night, mixed with the sound of mourning. She realized that the patient in the next ward seemed to have passed away, and there were constant footsteps outside the door...
Chen Xing is a very brave person, but that night, she was so scared that she hid under the quilt and didn't dare to stick her head out, her whole body trembling.
She didn't know it at that time, but later she found out it was him. Her heart, which had long been broken and had been temporarily patched up, could no longer be put back together. She just wanted to not wake up again, but she didn't get her wish.
Was it because she had a long life, or was it because the heart he gave her was strong enough that it allowed her to live for nearly ten more years?
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