Thoughts on the End
After half a year, the devil has finally finished writing it (yay!).
What follows is the author's ramblings (a bit long, you can skip it), as well as some future writing directions and personal thoughts.
This is my first time writing a Western fantasy novel, so please bear with me for any shortcomings.
My writing career probably started around 2020 when I went to university. On the one hand, I liked reading novels but couldn't find any that I liked. On the other hand, I was struggling financially, and the allowance my parents gave me was not enough to cover my expenses (laughs). I wrote fantasy and historical romance novels on other websites for a few years.
After graduating from university, I chose to work alone in another city, and that period was the happiest time of my life.
I was born in a small county in Hubei Province. I was the eldest daughter in my family. It seemed that from the moment I was born, I could not lose face and had to be successful.
I've always lived, studying, working, and living all by myself.
I grew up in a typical East Asian family, with a chauvinistic, irritable, and NPD-addicted father and a cowardly mother throughout my adolescence.
For the first twenty years of my life, I suffered because of my family of origin and had countless bad thoughts. Fortunately, I met a few good friends in my life who pulled me out of the abyss time and time again. I am very grateful to them, which is also the reason why I wrote this book about yuri.
All the wonderful qualities I've experienced in life come from girls.
After I start working, I don't plan to continue writing books. I'm a highly sensitive person, and negative feedback can keep me up all night.
I stopped writing for a whole year. Then, in May of this year, I went home and climbed a mountain near us with Teacher Orange. I had heard a long time ago that a temple had been built on the mountain. We climbed up early in the morning, and the moment I saw the temple, the story of Xiao Li and Xiao He came to mind.
I just realized that I have a strong urge to confide in others, and this is something I can't give up.
Gradually, during the writing process, inspiration for two other books emerged, ultimately leading to the trilogy. This is the eldest daughter in the trilogy.
I started writing about demons in June; the yuri theme has always been incredibly cool.
When I told this idea to Ms. Orange (a good friend from three life experiences, who is also an illustrator), she suggested that I write BL or BG, as it would have a wider audience. But for some reason, I felt that the seme and uke must be two girls, so I didn't take her advice, and she understood.
I'm thinking it would be great to write three trashy yuri novels (lol).
I chose Green River for my first debut, and applied for it three times in total. Each time, it was rejected because of the character design outline. At that time, my Dao heart was really broken, and I didn't really want to write anymore.
Not being able to sign a contract means no exposure, no rankings to climb, no income, and no readers, which is fatal for an author.
Later, on a whim, I submitted my application to Hongshizi (a Chinese online education platform), and it was selected by the editor of Fanzhou (another online education platform). I am still very grateful to her. She told me, "Keep it up."
The entire outline of this book was in my head, so writing it was very smooth. This book has a different meaning for me, so on the first day after I successfully signed the contract, I contacted Teacher Ju Zi to commission an OC (Original Content Author) and bought it out. Teacher Ju Zi even joked with me: "This time you have to finish the book, at least to earn back the money from the OC."
I smiled and said okay.
In August, I changed jobs and moved back home. Because I wasn't getting married, my relationship with my parents deteriorated.
I'll consider moving out once my finances improve.
So for the second half of the year, I basically updated 2000 words a day. Three trivial matters in my life and changes in my work environment made me feel overwhelmed, but I still managed to finish the book (I am very grateful ovo).
I'm not writing this to elicit sympathy, but to explain something, because some readers think I'm abusing women, that I've made the protagonist too tragic, unloved by her parents.
It's not that I abuse girls, but rather that my upbringing made it impossible for me to write about a happy and fulfilling child. My environment shaped my writing habits, which is why the protagonists I write about all have rather tragic upbringings (if you mind, you can avoid me).
My fantasy is to write a story about a protagonist who suffers a lot, and then another super good protagonist (loyal, 100% perfect in every way, clean, and with a love that's like wallpaper; I don't like rotten cucumbers (-_-)) saves her, loves her wholeheartedly, can feel a love that I've never felt before, sees through her many bad deeds, but still loves her, and always revolves around her.
Another thing I like is non-human characters (I absolutely love non-human characters, similar to mythical beast, mythological, or monster systems...).
But there's just too little food!! We've basically finished watching all the good-looking people (;_;), so we have to produce and consume our own food.
My writing style is very simple and straightforward; I can't write anything too profound. My goal is to write about all the characters I want to write about in my lifetime.
Speaking of which, I must once again lament how difficult the writing environment was for authors of yuri works.
When I was climbing the list of new authors, I saw many well-written books. One that impressed me was a girl who wrote "Martial Arts Hundred". She wrote very well and her writing style was smooth and flowing. I liked it very much. At that time, she had dozens of favorites for 20,000 words, while "Demon" only had single digits. Later, I signed with Red Persimmon and started writing until the book was completed.
One late night, I clicked on the book of hers that I had saved. The word count was stuck at just over 20,000 words, and it still only had a few dozen saves. The last update was in July. I felt a pang of regret.
It might be because of the era of big data. While browsing XHS, I came across a girl who said she hadn't been signed, her resolve was broken, and she was giving up writing. I felt a pang of heartache.
I also hope that editors on various platforms can be more lenient and diverse in their submissions (sigh... without a tag, you're destined not to get a contract).
Why can two men not wear accessories? Is it simply because they are born with them?
The total earnings from writing the book were in the hundreds (80% of which came from tips), which just covered the cost of the original manuscript, so the book broke even.
The income is the lowest among all the books I've written; I can't even make ends meet with perfect attendance (helpless).
I write part-time, and I can't imagine how much courage those teachers who write yuri full-time must have.
Let me talk about the idea behind this book. When I was writing it, I thought I would finish it with 180,000 words of main text and 20,000 to 30,000 words of side stories. But before I knew it, I had written more than 200,000 words. It's like the kids were pushing me along.
Personally, I think it's good enough to be able to tell a complete story. The ability to finish a work is more important than anything else. My original intention was to practice writing. You can't write a long novel without padding the plot.
When I started writing, my core idea was to write a story without any extras or accessories. I found it strange that I had to include extras or accessories, or that the other party had to have male characteristics. Wouldn't that turn it into a story with a mascot? It's still essentially a heterosexual romance story.
Because I have a friend whose relationship with her girlfriend was incredibly pure and innocent, and they both had long hair, I don't want to use P or T to describe the top and bottom; that's too stereotypical. It's just 1 and 0, beautiful 1 beautiful 0 cute 1 cute 0 cold-faced 1 cold-faced 0...
Both male leads can call each other "wife" and use terms like "fragrant and soft little cake," so why can't two female leads?
And it rejects female rivalry; loving someone doesn't necessarily require using a villainous female supporting character to drive the plot.
The book simply aims to highlight the bonds between women (all female-oriented). Having explored three storylines—romance (dragon and princess), family (mermaid and witch), and friendship (queen and admiral)—the story should have ended. I've planted many foreshadowing elements, so you'll find something new every time you read it.
Some people believe that Li Jia, as the strategist, does not take the mission seriously and only knows how to eat, drink, and have fun. She relies entirely on Hera to conquer the world, which does not conform to the original intention of this book.
Actually, when I wrote this book, I didn't intend to write a dramatic love story. The essence of this book is not love at all. This book carries too much of my pain.
I have many points to make, but you can only experience them for yourselves. Everyone's thoughts are different, and you will have different thoughts at different ages. You may have different views every year when you revisit this topic.
I hope Li Jia can be herself, with someone to support her, and be a happy, carefree person, not caught up in the pressures of competition, just healthy and happy.
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I know that many of my readers are students, and I hope that reading my writing can give you some strength, whether it's from your family background or your studies. I hope you can all keep going.
My writing style has always been rather humorous and funny; I hope it makes you laugh ovo
If you're feeling miserable and having negative thoughts right now, please persevere! Just keep going until you get into university, until you get a job, until you're financially independent! Live life to the fullest! You only have one life, so live it however makes you comfortable.
Let's focus on what happened next:
1. I will not be writing any more yuri stories after the trilogy is finished. I will start writing again during the winter break. I will be too busy with work at the end of the year, so I can only stockpile some manuscripts first. Please wait for me.
The audience for yuri (lesbian) fiction is too diverse. I am very grateful for the kindness shown to me, but many people criticize me and give me negative scores in the comments. This is a free story (bitter smile). Some people even went to Weibo and sent me a private message with hundreds of words of insults, thinking that I was smearing the male characters and calling the female lead stupid and weak (helpless...). It feels like whatever I do is wrong.
At first, I would get angry and delete the comments that criticized me, but not anymore. After finishing the book, I will no longer read any comments.
The child has already been born; whether it's good or bad is up to it, so let it be.
2. All character card drafts are purchased outright. Commercial use and substitution for other original content are prohibited. Personal use is free (but no more than ten cards). These are just my original content settings; these are Xiao Li and Xiao He! Please respect each other and me, thank you.
There will be no published books or illustrations for Cold Channel. When the story is announced to be over, it will only exist in people's minds and vanish like smoke.
Therefore, I gave Xiao Li and Xiao He a complete story and OC (original character design) illustrations. Perhaps many years later, when someone searches for the tag to view it, the relevant information will no longer be zero.
May Your Majesty the God of Marriage be forever happy.
Mom will always love you ovo
Thank you to each and every one of my readers, thank you for the spiritual strength you have given me, thank you!!!
Wishing you happiness every day and enjoy reading!
We'll meet again someday.
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