Chapter 169 What Am I?

After staring at the messages for a moment, Chu Shuang's eyes darkened and her finger clicked on his number and then paused.

A few seconds before the screen was about to turn off automatically, as if by telepathy, a call popped up on the phone.

After watching for a few seconds, she stood up and went to a quiet place to answer it.

"Bubbles."

The man's voice came through the microphone, right next to my ear as if he was right in front of me.

Chu Shuang looked into the distance. After the sunset disappeared into the horizon, there was still a little bit of red on the horizon. The evening breeze blew a few strands of hair on her cheeks. She slowly moved her lips, "Are you still awake?"

At this time, it is already late at night in other parts of the country.

"I couldn't sleep. I just went to the backyard to walk the dog for a while."

It looks like he's home.

"Is the hamster still behaving?"

Sheng Ting: "Not very well behaved."

"It's been a little restless all day, maybe because it didn't see you."

There was silence on the other end of the line.

Sheng Ting said, "Do you want to turn on the video to see it and Bubble?"

Hatsushimo: "It's too late today."

The man paused for a moment, then spoke again: "Where did you play today?"

"No, I was on the plane the whole time."

"Are we there yet?"

"arrive."

"Where are you?"

Hatsushimo: "Korla, let's go to the Taklamakan Desert to watch the sunset tomorrow."

She went so far.

Sheng Ting stared at the photo of the two of them in the bedroom frame. In the photo, she was as bright as the moon, with a gentle smile, but he felt that it was a scene from a long time ago.

It was all his fault that they had ended up in this situation.

She had just begun to learn to face life calmly and had just gotten rid of the painful shackles of the past and was about to start over, but he made her panic again.

All the efforts have been wasted.

Whenever Sheng Ting thought of the dazed look he saw on the beach that day, his heart felt as if it were being cut by a sharp knife.

In the end, he was the one who hurt her the most.

"How long do you plan to stay?"

"I have a friend here, let's see what happens."

Someone called Chu Shuang from the other end of the line, and she said into the receiver, "My friend called me. It's getting late, you should go to bed."

After hanging up the phone, Sheng Ting stood alone in the garden for a long time.

The sky is full of bright stars, which weave into a huge net with no visible edges, and darkness silently swallows the world.

In the past, when I saw such a beautiful starry sky, I would definitely sigh at the magnificent scenery, but now I only feel depressed.

It has been too long since I felt such loneliness, even to the point of being unbearable. Staring into the abyss, Sheng Ting's eyes were dark, and his fingertips caressed unconsciously.

The moment he took out the cigarette box, his knuckles paused, then put the item back and opened his phone to check the air tickets.

…

After work, the director of the crew invited everyone to eat roasted whole lamb. Lin Su didn't want to eat it, but got a small plate for Chu Shuang.

"You must have traveled a long way. Eat more meat. If you don't have enough, I'll get you more."

Under Lin Su's bright and expectant eyes, Chu Shuang took the first bite wearing disposable gloves.

"How is it?"

Chu Shuang nodded repeatedly, "It smells so good. This is the most delicious roasted whole lamb I have ever eaten."

"Haha, it's very authentic, right? I was also amazed when I ate it last time."

Chu Shuang lifted the meat and placed it in front of Lin Su, "Would you like to eat some?"

Lin Su pursed her red lips tightly and said, "I will never eat at this time. This is my habit as an actor."

The lighting from the production crew shone some light over, and when Chu Shuang lowered her eyes to eat meat, her eyelashes cast a shadow on her eyelids. She looked very quiet, yet overly vivid.

Lin Su frowned.

“Does traveling make people happy?”

Hearing this, Chushuang tilted his head.

Lin Su has the simplicity and wisdom of a science and engineering girl, and she looks extremely beautiful when she smiles. She raised her chin slightly and looked towards the crowd.

"Did you see the guy who was roasting the whole lamb?"

Looking over there, Chu Shuang saw a man in his 50s or 60s turning over the second lamb on the grill.

There was nothing special at first glance, but when I looked again I realized that he only had one hand.

"When he was 12, his right hand was cut off by a sand blaster. His family didn't have the money to send him to a big hospital, so they just found a local doctor who treated him with herbal medicine."

Lin Su recounted slowly: "You can imagine what the conditions were like. Without anesthesia, his wound became inflamed and painful, and he had a high fever. He finally managed to save his life, but his brain tissue was partially damaged, and he had some speech disorders and could not speak fluently. When he was 14, his family thought he could support himself, so they kicked him out of the house to be self-reliant."

Chu Shuang listened and frowned slightly.

"Why?"

"Life was tough back then. There were many people to feed in the family, and if there was no labor, the adults might think he was a burden."

"But he is only 14 years old. He is my biological child after all."

Lin Su smiled faintly, "Aren't there many cases of family members fighting against each other? Moreover, he has many sisters in his family, and his parents don't expect much from him. People often rely on interests to maintain their relationships, and family members are no exception."

Even though there were many such things, Hatsushimo still couldn't put herself in the shoes of those parents.

She looked at the hunched and thin uncle's back. His skin was dark from years of sun exposure, but his clothes and hair looked well-groomed, giving the impression that even if life was hard, he could not lose his dignity.

"He must have suffered a lot in these years." Chu Shuang said in a light voice.

"Is he alone?"

Lin Su: "He was alone, and no one looked down upon him in the first half of his life. He finally got married at the age of 35, and had a daughter the following year. Life seemed to be getting better, but the child was bitten by a big crazy dog ​​in the village when she was three years old, and died before she could be taken to the hospital."

Chu Shuang was speechless for a long time.

"What happened next?"

"His wife couldn't take the blow and committed suicide, leaving him alone. He has nothing left in his middle age."

"He has tried very hard to live, but life doesn't seem to let him go."

The sound of the first frost blends into the night.

"What am I?"

With so many suffering people in the world, what does she count for?

Sheng Ting received a message from Chu Shuang before falling asleep.

He set up a special alert tone for her. When he knew that she had sent him a message, his heart rate was unbalanced for a moment. After clicking on it, the man paused for a long while.

[I want to go out and have a look around by myself. You don't have to worry about me, and don't buy a plane ticket to follow me. Give me some private space and time, okay? ]

After a long silence, Sheng Ting pursed his lips and typed.

【good.】

She was so sensitive that not long after he booked the flight ticket, she bluntly told him not to go with her.

He could sense her seriousness and persistence in just one simple sentence; she really wanted to be alone and quiet.

So, she really doesn't want to see him now.

There was no light on in the dark bedroom. Sheng Ting was distracted for a moment, then suddenly seemed to remember something and picked up his phone to call An Jingyu.

After learning the whole story, there was silence for a long time.

"Objectively speaking, you were right and she was right, but she was hurt by it."

Sheng Ting said in a hoarse voice, "I was wrong to let her get hurt. After all, it is irrational to save someone without caring about your own safety and the feelings of your family."