Chapter 164: The best way to make amends is to leave each other alone.
Chapter 164: The best way to make amends is to leave each other alone.
Such a gentle breeze could actually trigger a flash flood.
Fu Yanjing felt like he was about to suffocate; the pain, like his heart had stopped, was pulling at his trachea as if it were being pricked by needles.
"How exactly did you get through it? What exactly did you go through?"
Fu Yanjing's voice trembled as he desperately wanted to learn about the past that was unknown to him.
Perhaps that's why she always avoids him after their reunion.
I'm always afraid.
But he was ignorant and arrogant, loving her without realizing it, and hurting her again and again.
How can he make amends?
Perhaps Wen Jin no longer needed his compensation. She said casually, "It's pointless for you to ask these questions now. I can't remember many of the details anymore. People have a self-preservation instinct. Painful memories will fade in the mind, and I don't want to think about them again."
Why didn't you tell me?
"Why should I tell you?" Wen Jin retorted. "We had already broken up back then. I was the one who initiated the breakup. You also told me not to regret it and not to come to you for help in the future. Have you forgotten all that?"
Fu Yanjing felt as if his heart was being tightly gripped, and his blood was about to freeze.
The boomerang returned accurately, and he finally experienced the agony of having his heart torn apart.
“But—” his voice tightened, “I caused your depression. During the three years we were together, Wen Jinye, were you unhappy at all?”
After all, he was a bastard who objectified the love she had from beginning to end.
"Don't talk nonsense. My depression isn't entirely because of you."
Wen Jinye said calmly, "I'm not that fragile. There are many straws weighing me down in life, and the failure of a relationship is just one of them."
Being with Fu Yanjing was like the last barrier; once it shattered, all her emotions surged forth like an out-of-control torrent.
The wind made her voice sound somewhat ethereal, and there was no resentment in her tone; she was as calm as a bystander.
"But after breaking up with you, I did doubt myself, wondering if I was really not worthy of being loved, which is why you disregarded my pursuit and affection."
She shouldn't have had the greed to stay by his side and the uncontrollable desire to be with him forever.
That's why she fell so hard after the breakup.
"But then I realized that we are from different worlds. You get whatever you want and there is no shortage of people trying to please you. Why would you look at someone more because they like you? You shouldn't have forced it in the first place."
Fu Yanjing's emotions collapsed instantly, and even his breathing trembled. "No, I care about you."
But anything I say at this moment is meaningless.
He held Wen Jinye's hand in his burning palm. "You can resent me, hate me, it's all fine. Jinye, do I no longer have a chance to make it up to you? Can I still make it up to you?"
Wen Jin slowly withdrew her hand, leaving Fu Yanjing's palm empty.
"I have resented it."
This sentence is like saying "I've loved you."
It's all in the past.
"Fu Yanjing, please let me go," she said softly. "Don't make things any more awkward for us, okay?"
"Right now, all I want is to live a quiet life without you."
"Actually, staying by your side is really nerve-wracking, like walking on gorgeous clouds, it feels unreal, yet I feel fortunate. But I'm also very cautious. Because I don't know which step will lead to a sweet life, or which step will lead to an abyss."
In every moment of great joy, she was prepared to be pushed away by Fu Yanjing at any time.
It's so heartbreaking.
How did Wen Jinye get through that time?
It turns out that love really can give people the courage to go all in and not turn back until they hit a wall.
A warm, moist feeling welled up deep in her eyes. Wen Jin looked up at the night sky filled with tall buildings, and tears slowly welled up, wetting her eyelashes.
But it did not fall.
"Fu Yanjing, not disturbing each other is the best compensation for me."
Whether it was resentment or genuine affection, it made no difference to Wen Jinye.
It was quiet all around.
The night breeze carried a chill, with a dampness that seemed to foreshadow rain.
Wen Jin didn't look at Fu Yanjing's face, but simply lowered her eyelids quietly, waiting for his answer.
After a long silence, Fu Yanjing's voice was so hoarse that it seemed as if every word he uttered was extremely difficult to say:
"If this is truly what you want, I will give you a peaceful life."
Her voice remained clear and gentle. "Thank you."
A sense of powerlessness almost overwhelmed Fu Yanjing, and he felt very cold.
"Give me another hug."
"There's no need for that."
It turns out that the person who had his heart and soul completely devoted to him could also show him a cold indifference that kept him at arm's length.
It was all his own fault.
Fu Yanjing thought that this was their true farewell.
He should do everything he can to personally send her away from his world, only then can it be considered a proper parting.
Perhaps years from now, when she occasionally thinks of herself, she won't feel so resentful.
"I'll have the driver take you, and I'll also pay for your ticket back to Jiangbei..."
"No need, I can manage on my own."
Only at this moment did Wen Jin meet Fu Yanjing's gaze.
For a fleeting moment, she realized that she could see a bitter, surging emotion in the eyes of the man who was like the bright moon on a high platform, a proud son of heaven.
"I don't need you to see me off." She repeated, "Let's end it here."
"Fu Yanjing, this is the last time we will meet."
After Wen Jin finished speaking, he turned and left.
The wind tossed her long hair, brushing against Fu Yanjing's profile.
His hands, hanging by his sides, were clenched into fists, his knuckles white.
Wen Jin has gone further and further away.
I took the college entrance exam and came to this city without hesitation, just so I could see him again.
Even if everything ends in a mess.
Wen Jin still feels that she was brave and resilient back then.
Fu Yanjing did not chase after him; he remained frozen in place, but Wen Jin heard the man's choked sobs, "I missed you."
Wen Jin did not turn around.
"Actually, we've been missing out all along, in ways you don't even know."
"It was wrong from the very beginning."
*
Fu Yanjing's eyes suddenly trembled.
I keep missing out...
If we trace back to the past, when did that "always" begin?
The first time I saw her, she was scratched by her own car and lay on the ground, but she didn't even look up.
Ignoring his injured ankle, he was preoccupied with the work materials.
She lowered her head and said she didn't need it, showing that she had no intention of getting close to him.
Until their eyes met.
The moment her gaze focused on her own face, everything changed.
What exactly is drawing you to that inexplicable, intense gaze?
That's what made her willing to stay by his side, even though she was completely out of place in that circle, without seeking fame or fortune.
Many details that he had overlooked came rushing in like flying sand and stones, and Fu Yanjing could hardly ignore them.
She will always admire smiling eyes.
She said to him more than once, "Fu Yanjing, I am really happy to be by your side."
Furthermore, after their reunion, she deliberately concealed her background at Jiangbei No. 1 Middle School.
She misled everyone about the person she had a crush on in high school.
How much was it that he was unaware of?
Does he still have a chance? Is he aware of it?
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From which chapter did everyone start catching up?
I'm going to be a bridesmaid in a couple of days, so I'll add an extra chapter for everyone once I've collected all the content from the past two days.
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