Su Luyang's brain was congested, his eyes were hot, and he was about to say "Do it!"
As a result, the sudden ringing of the cell phone rang faster than him.
Xiang Ling: “…”
Su Luyang: “…”
Xiang Ling took a step back and took out his cell phone: "It's my mom, wait."
Su Luyang's breath was stuck in his throat and his face turned red, but he had no choice but to nod and let Xiang Ling pass.
The two walked towards the bedroom. Xiang Ling put down his schoolbag and connected the video.
"Sister Qingqing." Xiang Ling waved at the camera, "Merry Christmas!"
Cheng Qing nodded, but before he could say anything, a little mushroom suddenly jumped into the camera: "Brother, Merry Christmas, thank you for the gift!"
"Do you like it, Qiqi?" Xiang Ling lay on the bed in a very good mood.
"I like it, but you can't decorate the Christmas tree with us this year." Xiang Qi said secretly, "Dad is not tall enough, so he has to climb a ladder to put the little star on the top of the tree. If you were here, there would be no need for a ladder."
"What are you saying, little brat!" A man's voice came over, "I can hear you."
Xiang Ling laughed and called out "Dad" from a distance.
Xiang Qi, who was not afraid of his father's fake power at all, asked Xiang Ling: "Brother, where is Brother Xiao Su? Why can't I see him?"
Su Luyang hid in the blind spot of the camera and pricked up his ears to listen to what Xiang Ling would say.
Xiang Ling said, "Your brother Xiao Su went to take a shower."
Su Luyang lay down opposite Xiang Ling and winked at him through his cell phone.
Xiang Ling remained calm, stretched his hand out of the camera and raised his middle finger.
Su Luyang smiled, got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.
At this time, Xiang Ling's father Xiang Zheyan came over and asked, "Did you really go to take a shower?"
Xiang Ling nodded.
Xiang Zheyan said, "Are you sure this is it?"
Xiang Ling thought that if you hadn't called them, they would have already rolled into bed by now, and if it was any later, they might even have the baby.
But Xiang Qi was there, so he couldn't say that. Xiang Ling had no choice but to say, "Yes, it's him."
"So when do you plan to bring him home?" Xiang Zheyan asked, "During the Chinese New Year this year?"
"He's going back to the United States," Xiang Ling said. "It seems like he's having some trouble at home."
"You two haven't seen each other for over a month?" Cheng Qing frowned. "Xiang Ling, you're really generous."
Xiang Ling, who was forced to be bold: "..."
Xiang Ling said, "I don't want to either, but his family matters...it's not easy for me to go to the United States to find him, and he didn't mention it. I don't know what he's thinking."
"Xiang Ling," Cheng Qing said, "you've only been dating for two or three months. The test of time and distance will be much more severe than you imagine. And don't you usually communicate and make plans for the future? Or does he just not tell you anything? This makes me hesitate about this child. I'll doubt whether he really likes you."
Xiang Ling wanted to say, of course he likes me, you haven't seen how seriously he looks at me! But the moment he said it, Xiang Ling suddenly hesitated.
Does Su Luyang really like him? Then why doesn't he want to tell me anything?
Xiang Ling knew he was being too picky, and he understood why Su Luyang didn't want to talk about it. But that's just how people are. Once they get a little, they want more, and Xiang Ling was no exception.
Intellectually, Xiang Ling knew Su Lvyang had his own reasons for hiding the past, and he was tormented. But emotionally, as his boyfriend, Xiang Ling couldn't gain Su Lvyang's trust after they had agreed to face the ups and downs together. It was hard not to overthink and feel hurt.
But Xiang Ling also understood that this kind of thing could not be rushed.
"Mom, I think he likes me. If you see him in the future, you'll understand why I said that. I think he's probably feeling the same way I did back then." Xiang Ling said, "I'm really scared. I'm afraid that after I say that, he won't like me anymore."
"So this is indeed his problem, but it's not just his problem, it's also my problem." Xiang Ling said, "He is a very insecure person. I failed to give him enough sense of security, so he couldn't tell me those things. But there is a long way to go, and I will slowly let him know that no matter what, I will not leave him."
"One day, he will be willing to believe me, he will be willing to tell me."
Cheng Qing had wanted to say that a sense of security is something you give yourself. If you can't get over it yourself, don't expect anyone else to give you that sense of security. Even if Xiang Ling temporarily makes Su Luyang feel safe, as long as he himself feels insecure, it will eventually become ineffective for various reasons.
But she looked at her son through the camera with gentle eyes, a sweet smile, and a resilience and longing that had never been seen before.
She suddenly didn't want to attack Xiang Ling anymore.
Moreover, maybe Su Luyang can really open up his heart because of Xiang Ling.
Cheng Qing and Xiang Zheyan didn't say anything, only Xiang Qi said seriously: "Brother, you are so handsome!"
Xiang Ling blew Xiang Qi a kiss, then said that he still had things to do. The family said a few more words and hung up the video.
The room became quiet. Xiang Ling heard the sound of water coming from the bathroom. He had not spoken loudly just now, so Su Luyang probably didn't hear it.
Xiang Ling turned over and put his arms over his eyes.
He sighed somewhat uncomfortably.
I didn't expect that he would say these words.
In fact, Xiang Ling had long noticed Su Luyang's uneasiness, but he was never willing to admit it because he did not give Su Luyang enough sense of security.
He knew what Su Luyang wanted. He could certainly see it after spending some time with him. Every time he introduced their relationship to others, Su Luyang would be happy for a long time.
He must have been through something before, which is why he has such a strong need for a completely open relationship.
Su Luyang wants everyone to know that they are in love.
Xiang Ling had privately thought many times about what caused Su Luyang to want to make it public so much.
What he thought about the most was that Su Lvyang once had a lover, but the other party was unwilling to make it public. Then Su Lvyang discovered that the reason why this lover was unwilling to make it public was because in addition to Su Lvyang, the lover also had a white moonlight, and Su Lvyang was just a substitute...
Bah, bah, bah, what nonsense! Su Luyang said he was his first love!
Xiang Ling scratched his hair in annoyance and stared at the ceiling in a daze.
Su Luyang walked out of the bathroom. Xiang Ling looked at him with squinted eyes and gasped in fright.
Su Luyang is not wearing any clothes and appears completely naked!
Xiang Ling sat up and looked straight at Su Luyang. Su Luyang walked towards Xiang Ling step by step and stood beside the bed.
"Go take a shower." Su Luyang said, "Don't look at me like that. If you keep looking at me, I won't be able to hold it back."
Xiang Ling got up, quickly touched Su Luyang's abdominal muscles, took something out of his schoolbag, and rushed into the bathroom.
Xiang Ling turned on the water, but unexpectedly turned it in the wrong direction, and a stream of cold water gushed out, freezing him to the bone.
Xiang Ling originally wanted to take a quick three-minute shower, but when he was hit by the cold water, he suddenly hesitated.
Do they really want to go to the last step in this state?
Ji Qiulin and Jiang Yuanhai got in a taxi and headed in the opposite direction of Xiang Ling and the others.
Xiang Ling and his friends stayed at a hotel on the outskirts of the city. It wasn't crowded, but the environment was nice and quiet. Ji Qiulin and his friends went to the downtown area, planning to party with the crowds in the central square.
Every Christmas in this city, there are very lively activities in the central square.
The gorgeous stage, countless small vendors, the huge Christmas tree, and the crowded crowds make up a popular festival.
After they arrived at the square, they did not join the carnival immediately, but went to the hotel first.
Ji Qiulin did not tell Xiang Ling how she felt that day when Xiang Ling put on the skirt and stood on the podium, and how profound an impact it had on her.
In fact, this was not the only time. Xiang Ling had shown her countless times what courage was.
To her, Xiang Ling is more like a teacher than a friend or a brother.
Teach her to face herself, accept herself, and become a better self.
On that day, she secretly made up her mind that she would be brave this Christmas and accomplish what she had wanted to do for many years -
Wear the dress you want to wear on Christmas Day, walk hand in hand with Gang Won Hae on the streets of the country.
Although she had worn a skirt and played in Disneyland with Jiang Yuanhai before, it was in Singapore, which has a different meaning from that in China.
He hopes to have the freedom to be himself in his own country.
He also hopes that one day, no matter what time it is, he will have enough courage to wear what he wants to wear, say what he wants to say, and be his true self, regardless of other people's opinions.
During Double Eleven, Jiang Yuanhai was inspired by Su Luyang to buy a set of couple's winter clothes.
They changed their clothes in the hotel. Ji Qiulin put on a wig and put on beautiful makeup before walking out with Jiang Yuanhai's hand.
Ji Qiulin was a little nervous. On the one hand, she was afraid that someone would notice that her body was not that of a woman, but on the other hand... she subtly hoped that someone would notice it.
The streets were crowded with people, most of them in groups. After walking for a while, Ji Qiulin relaxed.
In fact, no one noticed the two of them.
Everyone is busy pursuing their own happiness, and it is not easy to occasionally give a glance or two to passers-by.
Even Ji Qiulin was the same. After relaxing, Jiang Yuanhai was the only one in his mind. How could he care about other strangers, what they wore, or whether they were men or women?
Jiang Yuanhai took Ji Qiulin to eat her favorite grilled squid and octopus balls, and walked all the way to the central amusement area, where there were many small games to play.
"There's a ring toss!" Ji Qiulin said, "Help me win a Pink Panther, Brother Hai."
Jiang Yuanhai nodded and bought ten circles.
The life-size pink panther that Ji Qiulin has his eyes on requires 8 of them.
Ji Qiulin was not worried at all. She stood calmly beside him and ate the squid. Her Jiang Yuanhai was very good at shooting.
Sure enough, three minutes later, Ji Qiulin finished eating the squid, and Jiang Yuanhai also won the Pink Panther from Ji Qiulin.
Ji Qiulin excitedly hugged the doll in her arms. She was not tall, and the leopard was tall and thin, almost pressing her whole body under it.
But this also made her more eye-catching.
Ji Qiulin found that because of the pink panther, more and more people around her were looking at her, especially children.
This made her a little nervous.
Jiang Yuanhai looked down and saw Ji Qiulin's tense face. He gently put his arm around Ji Qiulin's shoulders and held her in his arms.
Now Qiulin is well protected with leopards in front and the sea behind.
She tilted her head and leaned lightly on Jiang Yuanhai, and her mood improved.
The two men walked forward with the crowd, exchanging a few words in low voices from time to time, and did not notice that there were five people following them stealthily not far away.
Among these five people, one of them was a child who was rushing forward relentlessly, shouting something, but the four adults around him had very bad expressions. They just held him tightly to prevent him from running around, and no one tried to comfort him at all.
Ji Qiulin and the other two stopped in front of a shop again. The five people followed and hid under a big tree to peek, chatting from time to time.
During this time, the woman in the brown down jacket became increasingly agitated and began to have a violent argument with the man of the same age next to her.
The fighting children were frightened by the two of them's harsh words, and they hugged the thighs of the people next to them and cried incessantly.
Most people walked past them with frowns on their faces, but gradually some people began to stop and watch.
After Ji Qiulin finished shopping, she faintly heard a child crying. She grabbed the hem of Jiang Yuanhai's clothes with one hand and looked in that direction.
I was stunned when I saw it.
Jiang Yuanhai also looked over, and an expression of surprise suddenly appeared on his calm face.
"Brother Hai..." Ji Qiulin trembled reflexively. She grabbed Jiang Yuanhai's clothes tightly and tried her best to keep breathing.
"Shall we go?" Jiang Yuanhai asked.
Ji Qiulin bit her lower lip, her expression very painful, and said in a self-torturing manner: "No, I want to see them."
Jiang Yuanhai frowned: "Are you sure?"
Ji Qiulin let go of Jiang Yuanhai's clothes and grabbed his hand the next second. Ji Qiulin looked up at Jiang Yuanhai, tears welling up in her eyes, but she said with great determination: "You stay with me."
Jiang Yuanhai nodded silently.
The two of them approached slowly. The place was already surrounded by a crowd of onlookers. If it weren't for the shouting and cursing that could be heard under the deafening background music, passers-by might have thought that some kind of street performance was going on here.
Jiang Yuanhai stopped outside the crowd, turned to look at Ji Qiulin, and asked one last time, "Do you really want to go in?"
Ji Qiulin nodded with red eyes. She said, "I'm afraid if I miss this opportunity, it will be hard to find the next one."
Jiang Yuanhai nodded, without asking any more questions, and silently protected Ji Qiulin behind him. He walked in front to clear the way, and led Ji Qiulin through the crowd little by little and walked to the innermost part.
The woman in the brown down jacket was arguing with the bearded man with her back to them. She was so excited that veins on her forehead were visible. She didn't notice the people behind her at all. It could even be said that she was so out of control that she didn't even notice that there were so many people watching around her.
But the bearded man noticed Ji Qiulin. He stopped cursing in surprise and looked at Ji Qiulin with a distorted face.
Several other people also looked at Ji Qiulin with different expressions.
The woman in brown seemed to sense something and gradually stopped roaring.
Ji Qiulin looked at the woman in brown. She took a deep breath, stood behind her, and called out in a voice neither too loud nor too soft, "Mom..."
The woman in brown shuddered. She didn't move at first, but after a while, she turned around stiffly and slowly.
Until the moment she saw Ji Qiulin, or perhaps it was the moment she saw Ji Qiulin's clothes clearly.
His expression changed drastically.
Ji Qiulin looked at the woman in brown with red eyes. She obviously had a lot to say, but for a moment she seemed to be speechless and couldn't open her mouth.
Instead, the woman took a step forward.
Ji Qiulin looked at the other person expectantly. It had been almost three years. She hadn't seen her mother for almost three years. She missed them every day and wondered if she felt the same way.
She finally made a sound again and shouted to the woman who came in front of her: "Mom——"
“Bang!”
No one expected that the next second Ji Qiulin would be greeted with a ruthless slap in the face.
Ji Qiulin was slapped hard by his mother, whose eyes were red, and fell to the ground.
"Qiulin!"
"mom!"
The crowd was noisy.
Music sounded in the distance, and the singer, wearing a red Christmas costume, went on stage and sang passionately.
Next to the Christmas tree, a tall Santa Claus was carrying a large cloth bag and scattering candies everywhere. Countless children laughed and screamed, scrambling to grab the candies that were scattered from the sky.
In the distance, the drum tower rang the Christmas bells. Countless people gathered under the Christmas tree, shouting "Merry Christmas!" to those around them.
Each loud shout seemed to convey the best wishes one could think of to the one they loved most.
At the same time, Xiang Ling, who had been taking a bath for half an hour, finally turned off the water.
He turned his head to look at the closed door of the bathroom and made a silent decision in his heart.
Su Luyang, who was standing across the door, had already put on a bathrobe, with his hands on the railing, a flickering firework pinched between his fingertips, and he looked silently into the distance.
There was an ashtray on the glass table with four or five crushed cigarette butts in it.
The muted phone next to him lit up, and the big word "Mother" appeared on it, carrying the chill of winter.
But disappeared again.
It seems that the connection between flesh and blood is like this extinguished screen, which can never be grasped again.
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