Chapter 42 Chapter 42 Child?
When Mu Xi woke up, Feng Han was still asleep.
Bai Yi was not at home, and Ying Zhang was taking a nap beside Feng Han's bed.
Mu Xi gently woke Ying Zhang up, "You go to sleep, I'll look after him."
Ying Zhang rubbed his eyes and said no.
Mu Xi blinked, sat aside and asked him where Bai Yi had gone.
"I went to boil the medicine. Doctor Bai said he was unsure about leaving it to others."
Mu Xi nodded and said to him, "We'll just take turns guarding here. You'd better rest and conserve your energy while you have the chance."
Ying Zhang looked hesitantly at Feng Han, who was still unconscious, and asked Mu Xi in a low voice, "Why are the lady and the master arguing?"
Mu Xi was still a little dizzy. She looked at Feng Han's sleeping face, pursed her lips, and felt that she shouldn't worry about anything else at this time.
"It's my fault. I made him angry."
Ying Zhang sighed softly, "Young Master... just has a bad temper. Madam, please bear with me."
Mu Xi glanced at him in surprise, "Feng Han has a bad temper?"
Ying Zhang said, "When he was young, the young master always wanted the former Pavilion Master's approval and praise, but he never received any. He was depressed and gradually developed the habit of keeping everything to himself, never even sharing it with us. I don't know when it started, but he became so moody, but that wasn't his intention."
"My lady." Ying Zhang waited for Mu Xi to respond before continuing, "Mingyu, Doctor Bai, and I can all see that the young master treats you differently. He would rather risk his own life than hurt you. You are truly important to him."
Mu Xi nodded, "Go and rest."
After Ying Zhang left, Mu Xi became the one who stayed by Feng Han's bedside.
She was so absorbed in looking at that face that the more she looked at it, the more unfamiliar it seemed.
The crow's eyelashes trembled slightly, and a pair of beautiful eyes opened. Mu Xi was stunned for a moment before realizing that they were looking at each other.
"My wife..."
"Do you feel uncomfortable?"
Feng Han supported himself with his hands and tried to get up. Mu Xi helped him and put something under his back.
He still looked very weak, but he said, "I'm fine. What's wrong with me?"
"You vomited blood. Are you angry with me?"
Feng Han seemed to recall something, his brows slightly furrowed. "No...no." He said, "It must be because of the impermanence calamity."
Mu Xi nodded, but didn't expose him. She said, "Doctor Bai said that the method originally planned for last resort should be put on the agenda earlier."
Feng Han's eyes were full of smiles. "But my lady is not unwilling..."
"I don't want to deceive you."
Mu Xi looked into his eyes and said, "I have my own priorities for everyone and everything. Right now, nothing is more important than keeping you alive."
"My lady doesn't want me to die?"
Mu Xi nodded in agreement.
Feng Han's smile was a little bitter, "But I once wanted to kill you."
"If you want it now, you can still take it away easily. This way, the person lying there will not be you no matter what."
Bai Yi brought a bowl of bitter medicine. Feng Han drank it without blinking. When he saw Mu Xi looking at him, he frowned and said, "It's so bitter..."
Mu Xi: “…”
She didn't know whether she should give the candied fruit she had brought in advance to him. It was not until Feng Han asked her for it that Mu Xi handed it to him.
Feng Han held it in his mouth and smiled at Mu Xi, "Thank you, my lady, that's much better."
Bai Yi breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Feng Han's expression, but he didn't dare to relax completely. He once again mentioned to them the critical choice between the two of them, implying that they couldn't delay any longer.
Mu Xi sighed inwardly.
Feng Han's condition was originally very stable, but suddenly took a turn for the worse. Although Bai Yi did not have a 100% analysis and confirmation, Mu Xi had a hunch that the trigger might be the quarrel between them.
Everything was fine before...
After listening to Bai Yi, Feng Han's cheeks flushed and he looked at Mu Xi. Mu Xi noticed their gazes, nodded, and said, "I understand."
Mu Xi looked at Bai Yi and said, "Doctor Bai, you know Feng Han's physical condition best. The specific time is up to you."
Bai Yi nodded, and the smile on Feng Han's lips never faded.
Seeing that Fenghan was basically fine, Bai Yi took his pulse again. After confirming, he said goodbye and left, giving the two of them a chance to be alone together.
Mu Xi stood up and sent Bai Yi out. She leaned closer and asked her in a low voice, "Did Zong He come to see you? He was injured. I asked him to get medicine from you."
Bai Yi shook his head and said he hadn't seen him.
Mu Xi naturally guessed what was going on.
Feng Han, who was in the room, heard what Mu Xi said outside, and his originally happy mood fell sharply again.
This time she actually knew to avoid him when talking, but... Mu Xi had no idea that with Feng Han's hearing ability, this distance was nothing at all, he could hear it very clearly.
That ugly guy... Feng Han really couldn't understand why Mu Xi valued him so much.
We must find a way to drive him away...
But not now.
On the one hand, even if Zong and Zong Lu were driven away, they couldn't leave them behind. There was no one more suitable to take over. On the other hand, Mu Xi had finally agreed to that matter. If he couldn't control himself and something went wrong...
Feng Han wasn't sure whether Mu Xi would suddenly regret what she had promised because of that ugly guy.
At least wait until the matter is settled before letting him go.
At this critical moment, we must stabilize Mu Xi first no matter what.
When Mu Xi returned to the room, she saw Feng Han looking thoughtful.
"Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something?"
Feng Han shook his head gently and looked at Mu Xi cautiously: "My lady, are you really willing?"
Mu Xi looked at him for a while before she said, "When you confirmed it again and again, did you hope that I would change my mind?"
"Of course not." Feng Han said anxiously.
Mu Xi chuckled softly, "Since you don't want me to change my mind, shouldn't you never mention it again and not give me a second chance to change it? Why do you keep asking?"
Feng Han pursed his lips and said, "I don't want my wife to sacrifice herself for anyone, including me."
"This is a matter between you and me. We decided it together, so there's no question of who's wronged and who's not." Mu Xi said, "There's no need to overthink it."
According to their background and usual customs, the one who suffers the loss is naturally the man.
But Mu Xi does not agree with or like this statement, whether in modern times or in ancient times where the background is quite different from what he knows.
Intimate relationships, physical contact, and negative distance behavior, if they occur with the consent of both parties, or even their desire for them, then there is no question of who is at a disadvantage and who is taking advantage.
Although Mu Xi and Feng Han's situations are slightly different and they are not in the strict sense of being in love with each other, they are both independent individuals who can make decisions for their own lives and bear the consequences. Once they have made a decision, there is no need to be shy.
Mu Xi needs to think over and over again and be extremely cautious before making a decision.
But once she has made a decision, she won't dwell on whether she should do it, whether she can do it, or whether she should think about it again. She is not that kind of person.
Feng Han observed that Mu Xi didn't seem to be very opposed to this matter, which meant that although she didn't like him very much, she didn't hate him either. His mood turned from gloomy to cheerful.
Ying Zhang usually looks heartless, but when something happens, he will be so worried that he can't sleep, like tonight.
After a while, Ying Zhang cooked porridge and brought it over. He originally wanted to give it to Mu Xi, but when he saw Feng Han woke up, he was very surprised and asked him how he felt.
Feng Han didn't want to pay attention to Ying Zhang, but Mu Xi was next to him, and he wanted Mu Xi to see his gentle and docile side, so he answered Ying Zhang's question in a soft tone.
After dawn, the entire villa resumed its normal daily operations.
Apart from Bai Yi, Mu Xi, Ying Zhang, and Feng Han, the person involved, no one knew what happened to the nominal husband of Bitian Villa last night.
After a routine pulse diagnosis, Bai Yi suggested that the plan could be implemented within the next two or three days.
Mu Xi asked casually, "He just vomited blood last night, just like he was rescued with great difficulty. Can he bear it?"
Both men present blushed. Bai Yi was a doctor and had the most basic professional ethics, so his expression remained relatively calm.
Mu Xi realized later that she seemed to have been driving in public. She really didn't mean that, otherwise she would have asked secretly.
Isn't this basic pre-operative Q&A?
Mu Xi thought, if she explained at this time that she had no other intentions and that she just blurted out what she thought of in a hurry, would the situation be less awkward?
Bai Yi cleared his throat and said softly, "Young Master's condition has clearly improved compared to last night. He has been practicing martial arts since he was young. If it weren't for the Impermanence Tribulation in his body, his physique would be much better than that of an ordinary man. Madam, there's no need to worry about this."
Mu Xi nodded her chin. She actually had more questions in her mind, but because she had previously thought they were nothing, but her behavior had shocked others, she swallowed them back.
As usual, when sending Bai Yi out, Mu Xi asked her, "Is there anything I need to pay attention to?"
Bai Yi was silent for a moment, then asked quietly, "Is this your first time, Madam?"
Mu Xi shrugged and said, "It turns out that you can't tell the pulse by taking it."
Bai Yi laughed for a moment and said, "I didn't notice this before. If you want to know, you can find out."
Seeing that Mu Xi didn't say anything but looked willing to learn, Bai Yi said he would find her some picture books so she could learn from them.
Mu Xi understood that Bai Yi had misunderstood. "I know how to proceed, but I'm not sure if there's anything else I should be aware of given Feng Han's special circumstances."
Bai Yi finally understood and said, "No need." She smiled, "My lady, there's no need to be nervous. Just let it happen naturally, and it will be done."
Feng Han also heard it clearly in the room, and felt both anxious and embarrassed.
He suddenly thought of Qin Li, who was far away in Luan County and had no fate with Mu Xi anymore.
Qin Li once longed to be Mu Xi's bedside companion and tried so hard for a long time, but in the end he failed.
Feng Han thought, no matter how many men passed by Mu Xi, he was the only one who could be with her naturally.
Only he is special.
Apart from him, who else could make Mu Xi willingly be with him even though they were not in love with each other...?
Of all the people in this world, only he can do it.
Thinking this way, Feng Han was certain that he was special in Mu Xi's heart. No matter what the deeper meaning of the word "special" was, it was always special.
Mu Xi returned to Feng Han and asked him to choose the date for the final implementation of the plan.
Feng Han asked her to choose, but Mu Xi refused.
"If the plan goes smoothly, the impermanence in your body will be completely resolved. That will be the day of your rebirth. I am just a supporting role. Of course, it is up to you to decide what is appropriate."
Feng Han actually had a desired date in mind, but he was too embarrassed to say it. Since Mu Xi asked him to choose, he chose two days later.
Mu Xi didn't notice anything different that day, thinking Feng Han had chosen it blindly. It wasn't until Bai Yi heard about it that he smiled and joked, "That day was the Qiqiao Festival."
Qiqiao Festival, Qixi Festival.
Mu Xi was stunned for a moment and thought to herself, I didn't expect that Feng Han would just randomly pick a date and it would be such a coincidence, inexplicably adding a sense of ritual that was not necessary.
Bai Yi continued, "It's a good day. It brings happiness to my lady and my master." After a moment's thought, she added, "From now on, you can't call me Master anymore. You have to call me Langjun instead. I just can't change it..."
Mu Xi wanted to say that she didn't need to change her words. After Feng Han's impermanence was resolved, she would still leave. They would go their separate ways, and they would change their words again when the time came.
But after the words went around in his mind, Mu Xi felt that it was unnecessary to say such things at this time.
Why bother with these details?
It is important to focus on the real thing.
"There is one more important thing..."
Bai Yi looked at Mu Xi in confusion.
"Children." Mu Xi said, "We must avoid having children."
Mu Xi had no experience in this area in modern times, let alone here at this time.
She knew nothing about it.
Bai Yi told her that usually the head of the family would let the man take medicine regularly if he didn't want his husband, concubine, or maid to get pregnant, but the medicine to prevent pregnancy was very harmful to the man's health.
Mu Xi thought of Feng Han's special situation and said to Bai Yi, "He just vomited blood and has been suffering from the impermanence. Let me take over. Do you have any pills or soups for women?"
"Yes, I do, but... it might be useful to other women, but it definitely won't work for you, my lady."
Mu Xi reacted, "Because of the Heart Refining Bug..."
"Yes." Bai Yi explained, "It will avoid and eliminate all things that are harmful to my lady's body. Reproduction is a natural human nature, but medicine is three-quarters poison."
There was no need to explain further, Mu Xi already understood.
"What should I do?" She asked Bai Yi for help.
The original intention was to help Fenghan overcome the current difficulties and let him survive smoothly, so as not to accidentally create a new life.
She has never thought about being a mother. She herself has not figured out what life is like.
Bai Yi thought for a moment and said, "I'll take care of it. However, this anti-infant soup can only be taken by you, my lady. It will definitely not be effective if I take it."
Mu Xi felt relieved that she had taken on the responsibility.
She thought that the extent of the damage that the anti-infant soup would cause to a man's body should not be considered in detail, but Bai Yi attached great importance to Feng Han's physical condition, and of course he would try his best to avoid all bad aspects for him.
Mu Xi has nothing to worry about as long as professional and technical personnel are doing the job.
After she returned, she shared this information with Fenghan.
Feng Han was writing something, but no one knew who it was for. Mu Xi had never peeked at it, nor had he asked about it.
After hearing what Mu Xi said, Feng Han stopped the brush in his hand and asked, "Child?"
Mu Xi nodded. "Fortunately, I remembered this important point. When I mentioned it to Doctor Bai, she acted as if she had never thought about it. She must have been too busy recently to forget such an important point."
I was so busy that I accidentally neglected a key point in the plan.
Feng Han put down the brush in his hand and looked at Mu Xi. His eyes changed subtly. "Madam, don't you like children?"
Mu Xi felt that the other party was doing serious work. Although she did not avoid her deliberately, she had to know what was good for her and take the initiative to avoid her. So she sat at a distance from the desk.
After hearing what Feng Han said, she looked up and pondered the question he threw at her. Mu Xi didn't know what his intention behind this question was, but -
"I don't like it." Mu Xi answered honestly: "Children are noisy and noisy. I don't think about being a mother to any child."
Feng Han didn't say anything, so Mu Xi asked him, "Do you like it?"
"Also... normal."
When Mu Xi heard the first word, she thought he would say "I don't like it either", but who would have thought that the word following it would be "average", as if it was a temporary change.
Seeing his silence, Mu Xi suspected that he was worried that the birth control soup would cause some bad chain reaction.
So he began to comfort her, "Don't worry, with Doctor Bai here. Although the anti-infant soup used by men is generally harmful to the body, you certainly know Doctor Bai's medical skills better than I do. She won't harm you. To ensure that she can resolve the impermanence calamity, she must want to make sure everything is foolproof."
"I'm not worried about that." Feng Han looked at her.
Mu Xi didn't listen. He wasn't worried about that, so why did he have that expression?
I was definitely worried, but I was too embarrassed to admit it.
Feng Han asked Mu Xi, "Women don't have to endure the pain of childbirth. Just because you don't like children, haven't you ever thought about having your own child?"
Mu Xi pondered his question.
She now lives in a world where men give birth to children.
In comparison, no matter where or under what circumstances, the one who does not have to endure the pain of pregnancy always feels relaxed and comfortable having a child.
When the upper lip touches the lower lip, all the pain in between is borne by someone else. After waiting for ten months, another new life closely related to you comes so easily.
"I haven't thought about it." Mu Xi said, "Children are not anyone's appendages. I can't even take care of myself, so I can't take care of others, let alone teach them carefully."
Mu Xi didn't think she was a good person in the strict sense, and she suddenly thought of Zong He.
What’s amazing is that although Zong Lu and Zong He are not related by blood, Zong Lu and her husband taught Zong He very well.
This is the right teacher, who can teach another soul to be almost perfect and kind without blood ties.
But Mu Xi can't.
Although Fenghan did not invite her to evaluate himself, she felt that Fenghan would not be a qualified teacher.
Mother and father are not just titles and identities, but should be qualified teachers.
In fact, many people who have become mothers and fathers have not done this.
Mu Xi didn't think she could do well. She knew her own limitations, so she didn't think of persecuting the soul of another newborn.
Feng Han remained silent from beginning to end.
Not long after, Mu Xi thought the matter was over, but Feng Han suddenly brought it up.
He said that he actually hopes to have a child, either a daughter or a son.
"My wife knows my life story well. I don't want to meet another Feng Xin, so I thought that if I could have a child of my own, I could hand over Beiqu Pavilion to her/him in the future."
Mu Xi thought he just suddenly thought of something new to chat with her, but as she listened, she realized something was wrong.
Her eyes widened slightly, and she gave a wry smile. "Sure," she said, "you can let the mother go and keep the daughter. If you can properly handle the aftermath with the woman, you can give this idea a try."
After Mu Xi finished speaking, she just picked up a random topic, but perhaps the change of subject seemed too abrupt. Feng Han saw her deliberateness and did not choose to let it go, but continued to return to the topic he had brought up before.
Ask her: "My wife is the only one I am willing to commit myself to. If possible, I hope that the child I conceive will be mine and... yours."
Mu Xi froze.
“…”
Sure enough, if you decide to get down to business, you can't avoid it.
"don't want."
Mu Xi didn't bother beating around the bush with him and directly refused, even explaining...
"I'm not saying I don't want to have children with you. I just don't want to have children, whether it's you or someone else. Don't get me wrong."
Mu Xi recently discovered that Feng Han actually thinks too much easily, and sometimes he has to explain himself.
Feng Han looked a little disappointed, but still nodded to show that he respected her idea.
"I see."
On the day of Chinese Valentine's Day, Mu Xi and Feng Han did not go out, but many girls in the villa took leave and went out. When they came back, they said that the streets were very lively.
Mu Xi thought, it’s lively, right? She just doesn’t like lively places, so she can avoid it by not going out.
Ying Zhang felt that this day was no different from the wedding day of his master. He wanted to add some sense of ceremony, but it was just an idea. He didn't dare tell anyone and was rejected by himself.
In the Bitian Villa, except for him and Doctor Bai, everyone else thought that Mu Xi and Feng Han were a real wife and husband.
Ying Zhang had no one to talk to about his inner thoughts. As he thought about it, he missed Mingyu a little. They used to be able to talk together, but now he didn't know where he was or what he was doing.
When Mu Xi was having dinner, she found that Feng Han had put down his chopsticks early, so she casually asked him if he had a poor appetite or if he felt unwell anywhere else.
"No, I'm full. Please enjoy your meal."
Mu Xi guessed it after he left the table. He might be... nervous.
They are not married and do not have a solid emotional foundation. It is normal for them to be nervous when jumping into such an intimate relationship all of a sudden.
Mu Xi thought, Feng Han was always worried about whether she felt wronged and whether she was really willing. What about him?
In order to survive, he had to complete this task. Is this what he longed for?
Not necessarily.
Mu Xi decided to be patient and gentle.
The one who guides...
Ah, she remembered that she had no experience, so she decided to let the other party guide her.
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