Chapter 54 Chapter 54 She finally saw me in her eyes.
The next morning, Zong Lu and Zong He returned to Bitian Villa to pay their respects to Mu Xi and Feng Han.
Mu Xi casually asked if everything went smoothly for the mother and son's return. After receiving a positive answer, she smiled and said, "Then I'm relieved."
"Thanks to my wife and husband, this journey has been so smooth."
As soon as Zong Lu finished complimenting him, Feng Han frowned, tilted his head and retched, looking very uncomfortable.
Everyone else's attention was drawn to him. Feng Han patted his chest and took a deep breath.
This occasional feeling of discomfort started last night.
Mu Xi was sleeping soundly when she felt the person next to her get up and go out, and didn't come back for a long time.
She got up in a daze and went out to see that Mingyu and Yingzhang had already surrounded Fenghan.
Feng Han's face looked very bad at that time, and Mu Xi immediately woke up.
Bai Yi arrived soon after. After the diagnosis, he said that there seemed to be nothing abnormal in the pulse, but Feng Han had been having such a big reaction for more than a month, which could only be explained as being due to the Heart Refining Worm and the Impermanence Tribulation.
The trouble is, he is pregnant now and can't take any medicine randomly.
Mu Xi asked Bai Yi at the time: "What if I only care about your health? Can you take medicine to relieve the pain?"
Fenghan's face turned as pale as a piece of paper, but he still spoke softly, wanting to fight for his child.
"It's nothing. I can handle it. I don't need to take medicine."
In fact, in addition to feeling dizzy and nauseous, his internal organs were in pain.
But Bai Yi's pulse diagnosis said it was normal. He was worried that if he told Mu Xi all these symptoms, she would be determined to abandon the child.
There is no true empathy in the world.
Mu Xi only saw that Feng Han was in great pain, but after all, it was not him, so she didn't know how uncomfortable he was.
Being pregnant is already a very difficult thing, and compared to other pregnant women, he has two more things in his belly.
Mu Xi felt that it was really not easy just thinking about it.
In fact, Bai Yi did not recommend Fenghan to take any other medicine at this time.
It's not just because of the children. What they want to solve most is the impermanence calamity. Now it may be in a critical period of integration. Other drugs cannot be used to intervene, otherwise it may backfire and ruin the situation.
After all, the only solution left is for Fenghan to persevere with willpower.
Mu Xi looked at Feng Han. He didn't sleep, and she almost didn't sleep all night either.
At daybreak, Fenghan's discomfort had improved, according to him.
Then it came to this time.
Zong Lu naturally asked with concern: "My dear, what's wrong? You don't look well. Are you sick or feeling unwell? Is Doctor Bai still at the villa? Do you want Zong He to ask her to come and see me?"
Before Mu Xi could speak, Feng Han gave her the answer. He glanced at Mu Xi shyly. Mu Xi's eyelids twitched when she heard Feng Han say, "I'm not sick, I'm pregnant."
Zong Lu and Zong He both widened their eyes. Zong Lu was the first to react and quickly pulled Zong He to congratulate Mu Xi.
Mu Xi couldn't understand for a moment why Feng Han wanted to tell them, mother and son. After all, this matter was quite important.
In their yard, apart from the two parties involved, the only ones who knew about it were Mingyu, Yingzhang, and Bai Yi, who could not and would not hide it.
Mu Xi smiled but said nothing. Feng Han continued, "Doctor Bai just diagnosed a pregnancy, but the pulse is still unstable, so we haven't informed anyone in the villa. Only a few close friends know about it. Please help us keep it a secret, Sect Leader."
"Of course, of course." Zong Lu smiled until his eyes narrowed. "Don't worry, my lady, don't worry, my lord. From now on, I will pay close attention to your food, clothing, and other expenses. And Zong He, who helps out in the small kitchen in the inner courtyard, will also help keep an eye on you. We will definitely take good care of you."
Mu Xi nodded slightly and looked at Feng Han.
Feng Han spoke softly, "There's a servant in the outer courtyard named... Lan Zhi. A few days ago, Madam discovered that she was a spy sent in by her business rival. Madam and I have discussed this. If we kick her out directly, new ones will come in, and we'll be hard to guard against. It would be better to keep this one under close watch. Zong Guan, please pay more attention to her words and actions. If you find anything wrong, come and tell Madam and me."
Zong Lu wrote down the name and nodded, saying, "Yes, my lady and my husband, don't worry, I will definitely take good care of her."
Mu Xi heard from Feng Han that Lan Zhi was the insider sent in by Ji Lian.
Feng Han told her to pay special attention to it. Mu Xi didn't take it seriously at first, but soon thought of the second princess and felt that it would be better to pay attention to it.
Who knows how loyal Lan Zhi is to Ji Lian? What if she's even more loyal to the Second Princess? Just like Feng Han said, you can't be too defensive.
The further he walked, the more Mu Xi missed his small courtyard in Luan County. At that time, the room was simple and the income was meager, but he didn't have to face so many intrigues every day.
In addition to the troubles that are in the open, there are also spies hidden in the dark.
He might run out and stab her when she isn't paying attention.
Fenghan experienced this indescribable high-intensity discomfort for a full half month, and then the condition suddenly improved.
No more sleepless nights, no more vomiting everything I eat, no more feeling so uncomfortable that I can hardly get out of bed.
Fenghan suddenly felt like she was back to normal, as if... she wasn't pregnant.
He was shocked by his own thoughts and quickly asked Bai Yi to take his pulse.
Bai Yi diagnosed the condition repeatedly several times with a look of joy on her face. She excitedly told Feng Han and Mu Xi that she could no longer feel the presence of the Impermanence Tribulation in Feng Han's body.
Mu Xi breathed a long sigh of relief.
Feng Han was confused at first, but when he came to his senses, he immediately asked Bai Yi: "What about my child?"
Mu Xi looked at Feng Han. He had never concealed his concern for the baby in his belly. Everyone could see that he really wanted to keep the child.
Because they were together almost every day, Mu Xi saw more than others.
For example, he refused to take medicine and did not think of using other methods to relieve his discomfort. In fact, the most fundamental reason was that he did not want to hurt the child.
After Feng Han noticed Mu Xi's gaze on him, his expression became restrained and he looked a little guilty.
Bai Yi said, "He's a little weak, perhaps because of the impermanence calamity, but don't worry, my dear. The Heart Refining Bug is here, and it's still protecting the child. He'll be fine."
Feng Han breathed a sigh of relief. Mu Xi had been looking at him the whole time, and Feng Han didn't dare to look at her at all.
Even when Feng Han was in the most uncomfortable situation, he did not give up completely. He was always in charge of the affairs of Beiqu Pavilion and gave precise instructions to his subordinates.
Feng Han had never avoided Mu Xi, but Mu Xi didn't know anyone and didn't understand many things.
Now Feng Han seemed to be revived and back to his previous state of being in charge of strategies.
He was busy for two consecutive days. That night, he heard Ying Zhang say that Zong He had privately asked him about his situation.
Feng Han's mind was filled with alarm, and he asked Ying Zhang and Zong He what they had asked him.
"Nothing. My husband was so miserable for the past two weeks, and he was worried too, worried about the baby...worried about what might happen to the baby. Now that my husband is suddenly fine, he's still worried about the baby, so he asked me a few questions."
Ying Zhang sighed and said, "That guy is clueless. He thinks my husband is just like an ordinary man who is uncomfortable with pregnancy, so he has a wrong idea. But his intentions are good."
Feng Han snorted coldly, and thinking of the child in her belly, she suppressed some harsh thoughts.
When Zong He came back this time, Mu Xi didn't have much contact with him. Zong He spoke to her more times and met her more times than he did with Mu Xi.
Fenghan gradually let down his guard against him.
Especially after hearing Ying Zhang say that Zong He was also concerned about the baby in his belly, his prejudice against him was reduced a little.
Although he looks ugly and scary, if he can continue to care about the child like this, he can help take care of him in the future.
after……
When Feng Han thought of this word, he suddenly felt a sense of loss. He didn't know whether his child would have any future.
For three consecutive days, Bai Yi's pulse diagnosis results showed that the impermanence calamity no longer existed.
At the beginning, Bai Yi told them that they could be happy, but they still had to remain vigilant. The Impermanence Tribulation was very cunning and difficult to resolve completely.
But even if that thing is as intelligent as the Heart Refining Bug and hides itself, can it hide for three whole days?
Bai Yi said that it was very difficult, so it could be basically concluded that the Heart Refining Bug had solved the Impermanence Tribulation.
There is no longer anything that can threaten Feng Han and the baby in his belly.
Feng Han had instructed Bai Yi to tell the truth to Mu Xi.
So Bai Yi did not hide any information from Mu Xi.
At noon today, Bai Yi had a talk with Mu Xi and Feng Han, telling them that they could start considering, discussing, and deciding whether to keep the child.
At the same time, she also gave some of her own guesses, saying that from her point of view it would be better to keep the child, and she did not completely agree with Fenghan's wishes. She said it very bluntly.
Even if the possibility is very small, they must be mentally prepared that the calamity of impermanence may not have been completely resolved.
But the Heart Refining Bug is still there, but now it is with the child, so keeping the child will most likely avoid this possibility that none of them want to face.
Also because of the Heart Refining Worm, if they ultimately choose not to have the child.
The Heart Refining Bug will have two outcomes: either it will continue to stay in Feng Han's body, or it will leave Feng Han's body along with the child.
Because of its individual characteristics, the Heart Refining Bug should not die.
The first possibility is that the Heart Refining Bug recognized Feng Han as its master, and Mu Xi had no choice but to agree.
And if it is the second possibility, that the Heart Refining Bug regains its freedom, there are only a few people in the Bitian Villa who know about it. The only real member of the Mu family should have known how to control the bug, but Mu Xi doesn't remember anything.
Bai Yi was really not sure whether the Heart Refining Bug would recognize Mu Xi as its master after leaving the body, and he didn't know how to control and feed it.
Mu Xi remained silent at the time. After a while, she said that she would think about it carefully and asked Feng Han to think about it carefully as well. They would meet again in the evening to exchange their ideas.
The successful resolution of the Impermanence Tribulation is certainly something to be happy about, no doubt about it.
Feng Han said to Mu Xi at the time, "It may not be completely resolved. My wife is so optimistic. When she finds out that this is not the case, she will be very disappointed."
Mu Xi said, "I'm not 100% optimistic. I'm probably 70% optimistic and 30% rational." She said, "How can I live if I'm always unhappy? Even if the result isn't what I want, at least I can be happy for a while before the ending is revealed."
Fenghan looked at her and smiled.
Mu Xi's expression became serious at this time, and she asked him to think carefully about the child, and they would exchange their thoughts in the evening.
In fact, Feng Han had already made up his mind at that time. No matter how much he wanted to keep the child, as long as Mu Xi didn't want it, he would listen to Mu Xi.
However, just as he was about to say that he would listen to her, Mu Xi spoke up and said to him, "I want to hear your true thoughts. Please think about it carefully and speak after you have made up your mind."
Since then, Mu Xi has been staying in the study and has hardly come out. She hasn't even eaten dinner and no one knows what she is doing.
Usually in such situations, Fenghan would take the initiative to find her, either to chat or flirt with her.
But today was different. They had a crucial conversation in the evening, and Feng Han was a little hesitant to meet Mu Xi before that.
Why is he so reluctant to part with this child?
First of all, of course, this is Mu Xi and his child.
Secondly, this may be the only child he will have in his life.
Finally, from the first time he met Mu Xi to today, up to now, at this moment, Mu Xi had never expressed the idea of wanting to stay with him.
Mu Xi was so determined to leave that Feng Han knew very well that even if he knelt down and cried and begged her to stay with him, she would not agree.
Feng Han really wanted to keep this child. Whether it was a girl or a boy, they were both made up of his and Mu Xi's blood. When Mu Xi was not by his side, he at least still had this child that he created with her.
Many times, Feng Han couldn't help but imagine the appearance and personality of this child. Would he be more like himself or more like Mu Xi?
Of course, he hoped that the child would be more like Mu Xi, so that when Mu Xi was not around, he would still have someone to think of.
I don’t know what Mu Xi will say to me.
Feng Han returned to the room with a nervous mood. Mu Xi had just finished taking a shower, her hair was still wet, and her cheeks were white with a hint of pink, which was very beautiful. Feng Han had seen her many times, and every time he was still fascinated by her.
"Are you done?" Mu Xi asked Feng Han, successfully bringing his soul back.
"Yeah." Feng Han nodded gently, then thought of something and said, "Did my wife not have dinner?"
"I ate a little." Mu Xi said casually while wiping her hair, "I don't have much appetite, I don't feel hungry."
Feng Han was already standing beside her, helping her wipe her hair. When he heard this, he paused.
Why did I lose my appetite? Was it because I was thinking about having to discuss the child's fate that I couldn't eat? Was it because I knew too well how much he wanted to keep the child, while I didn't want to keep him at all, that I lost my appetite?
Feng Han took a deep breath slowly, and Mu Xi tilted her head to look at him.
His eyes were bright and calm, just like when we first met.
Fenghan's heart skipped a beat.
Mu Xi took his hand and asked him to sit down next to her. "Have you thought about what I asked you to think about?"
Feng Han's eyelids twitched, he lowered his head and was silent for a moment, then nodded slightly.
Mu Xi hummed and asked him, "What do you think? Let me hear it."
Feng Han took another deep breath, slowly raised his head to look at Mu Xi, and looked into her eyes.
In fact, it is different from when we first met.
Feng Han thought about their first meeting five years ago. Mu Xi's eyes were a little cold at that time. When they first met five years later, there was some warmth in Mu Xi's eyes, but they were still indifferent.
At this moment, Mu Xi looked at him, her long eyelashes moving slightly. Being so close, Feng Han realized that he was trapped in Mu Xi's pupil.
She finally saw herself in her eyes.
"I……"
Fenghan kept practicing this sentence over and over on the way back, such a simple sentence.
But looking at these eyes that finally contained his own shadow, Feng Han couldn't say anything.
Fenghan is very aware of how selfish he is.
He knew clearly how much Mu Xi longed for freedom, and clearly understood what kind of life Mu Xi wanted to have, but he always said that he understood her and was willing to help her. However, in his heart, he still wanted to keep her by his side, and used all kinds of reasons to tie her down and not let her go.
Before it was his own life, now it’s this child.
No matter what, I just don't want her to leave.
Mu Xi waited for Feng Han for a long time and found that he fell into silence and seemed not to intend to speak, so she chuckled.
Sure enough, Fenghan immediately looked up at her.
Mu Xi spoke softly and asked him, "You want to keep this child, right?"
She helped Fenghan say what he couldn't say.
As soon as he finished speaking, Feng Han's pupils suddenly dilated, as if he was in an extremely nervous mood, and he took two deep breaths in succession.
Mu Xi pursed her lips and asked him, "Is that so? Nod or shake your head."
After a while, Feng Han finally calmed down, looked into Mu Xi's eyes and nodded.
Mu Xi is much calmer than Feng Han.
She nodded, stood up, took two books from not far away, and handed them to Fenghan.
"Doctor Bai asked us to make this decision mainly out of consideration for your health. The baby isn't even that old yet. Of course, if you've made up your mind, the sooner the better. But there's no rush in the next one or two days. Don't be so nervous. We still have time."
Mu Xi thought that Feng Han probably didn't know that his lips were trembling slightly.
She didn't intend to remind him, after all, he was a pregnant man.
Mu Xi said, "Of course I have to confirm your thoughts in advance. Needless to say, your thoughts should not have changed. Then I will tell you my opinion and we can communicate with each other."
Feng Han was speechless, his throat seemed to be blocked by something, and he could only nod stiffly.
Mu Xi said: "You can take a look at these two books. I've read them. They contain a lot of knowledge about pregnant men, which is similar to what I think. Whether it's the present..."
She paused, then changed her tune and began again, "Pregnancy is always complicated, no matter where you are. I know you've always wanted to keep the child, but it might not be your own subjective idea, but rather the influence of hormones... well, let's put it this way. It's also possible that the child herself wanted to keep the child, so she influenced the father, you. All these factors combined made you think it was you who wanted to keep the child, but it was actually the child's idea."
After Mu Xi finished speaking, she gave Feng Han time to react and think. After a while, she asked, "Do you understand what I'm saying?"
Feng Han nodded, lowered his head and casually flipped through the book in his hand.
He felt disappointed and discouraged. No matter what Mu Xi said, there was only one message conveyed in these words -
Mu Xi still didn't want to keep the child.
So I tried to find all kinds of reasonable reasons to persuade him, and even wanted to make him wake up and realize that it was not he who wanted to keep the child, but the child himself who wanted to keep the child.
Feng Han thought aggrievedly, even if it was what she said, if the child wanted to stay, then as a mother and father, they should let the child stay. There is nothing wrong with that.
It’s not like he can’t afford it.
He will be very good to this child.
I don’t know how many times I have to tell Mu Xi that I can believe it. Because of the mistakes I made before, my credibility with Mu Xi has always been zero.
Mu Xi looked at his expression and sighed softly. She felt that Feng Han might not have heard much of what she said.
She looked for so many books, but only found two such useful ones.
"Okay, actually, after knowing this, you can reconsider it slowly. Once you've made up your mind... and you're sure you still want to keep the child after knowing all this, then we can..."
"No need to talk about it later." Feng Han put the book in his hand aside, looked at Mu Xi and said softly: "I know very well what I am doing. I know that my wife doesn't want to keep this child, but you also told me that you want to hear the truth from me, so I will tell you the truth, I..."
Feng Han was silent for a moment, then looked at Mu Xi and said in a resounding voice, "I want to keep this child."
His eyes immediately turned red after he said this.
"Regardless of whether this child has influenced my thoughts or not, she is yours and mine. I will agree to whatever she wants to do. I might..." Feng Han choked up, "I might spoil her unconditionally. So if she wants to come to us, why can't she?"
Mu Xi looked at him quietly until Feng Han's tears fell. She took a handkerchief and raised her hand to wipe them away for him.
"My lady wants to hear the truth, and this is the truth I want to tell you."
Fenghan sobbed and couldn't stop crying, but she still remained rational.
After a long while, he spoke again with difficulty: "But if my lady really doesn't want her... then I... I won't go against my lady's wishes, I will... I can..."
"alright."
Mu Xi smiled bitterly, but Feng Han couldn't wipe away all his tears.
Is it because of the pregnancy? Or is it because of the pregnancy hormones?
However, this word could not even be communicated to Bai Yi in ancient times. Bai Yi was already a top-tier medical talent. When faced with such a situation, he would only say that pregnant men would be more sentimental during pregnancy.
"Cry if you want to." Mu Xi changed the handkerchief and continued to wipe his tears.
It can be seen that Fenghan is trying his best to suppress it, but it's no use.
"Child, if you want to stay, then stay." Mu Xi said, "Since it's an exchange, this is my idea."
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