☆, Day 45
Before leaving, Aunt Huang looked at Xia An'an meaningfully, and then said meaningfully: "An'an, make a decision quickly, otherwise you will regret it later."
Before Xia Anan could react, Aunt Huang left.
Because Nan Jinnian is back.
Nan Jinnian smelled of alcohol today, and Xia Anan couldn't help but frown when she smelled it.
Nan Jinnian hadn't spoken since he entered the room. He went straight into the bathroom and took a quick shower to wash off the smell of alcohol. He then looked at Xia Anan calmly, "Why?"
"What?" Xia Anan was stunned.
"Why did you tell Yang Linxin the news without telling me!" Nan Jinnian's tone did not reveal any emotion, but Xia Anan could feel that he was in a bad mood.
Xia Anan said calmly, "I'm afraid she'll worry."
"I understand." Nan Jinnian ignored Xia Anan and returned to the study alone.
But when Nan Jinnian returned to the study, he leaned weakly on the chair.
He didn't know what was wrong with him. He felt very tired after he found out that Xia Anan had secretly used his cell phone to inform Yang Linxin.
His An An still had to leave her... Even though he knew that his actions were selfish and even hurtful, he really tried hard to ease the relationship between him and Xia An An. Apart from letting her leave, he could let her do anything!
But... he didn't know what kind of vicious circle he was trapped in. He didn't want to let Xia Anan go, but he didn't want Xia Anan to alienate him. He hoped that Xia Anan would be like she was seven years ago, with only him in her eyes and heart, and only use him!
Xia Anan looked at the study door... She didn't understand... She really didn't understand. Her past was so dirty, and she was the indirect murderer of his partner, so why did he keep her by his side?
Why do you still say you love her...
"Jinnian." Xia Anan knocked on the door.
But the person in the study did not respond.
Today is Xia Anan's birthday, and it's also the day they're truly together. He's been waiting for this day with great anticipation, but the person he loves keeps wanting to leave him... and wants to break up with him completely...
"Can we have a good talk?" Xia Anan said softly.
"I know I shouldn't have contacted Lin Xin without telling you, but Lin Xin and the others have done a lot for me in the past two years, and I don't want them to worry about me..."
"Jinnian, I know you don't want me to leave, but I'm a person, a living person. I can't stay here, in this 200-square-meter house, for the rest of my life... I need to work, I need to live... I'm not a pet imprisoned by you..."
Suddenly, the door opened from the inside, and Nan Jinnian looked at Xia Anan: "If I let you go...will you come back?"
Xia Anan fell silent upon hearing this...
Will he come back? She doesn't know.
But Xia Anan's silence made Nan Jinnian's face turn cold: "You won't... You will try every possible way to cut off contact with me, or even never show up in front of me again!"
"Is that right?" Nan Jinnian smiled bitterly.
"Xia Anan, even if I have to imprison you for life, don't even think about leaving me!" Nan Jinnian's voice was so cold that even Xia Anan felt chilled to the bone.
He pinched Xia Anan's chin: "Since you don't love me, I might as well make you hate me!"
"Jinnian!" Xia Anan wanted to retreat, but her body was restrained tightly.
"Get pregnant with my child! Then you won't run away?" Nan Jinnian's eyes darkened a little.
But after hearing the word "child", Xia Anan found the strength to push Nan Jinnian away. She looked at Nan Jinnian and said, "Child?"
"Our child is dead!" Xia Anan sneered...
Yes...dead! Their children.
He pushed it away with his own hands...
If she had to blame someone, Xia Anan didn't blame Nan Jinnian for anything he did to her! Because she owed him that, but the child... that child... The only thing she resented about Nan Jinnian was that child... the child who pushed her away for a certain woman and caused her to lose that child...
Nan Jinnian came back to his senses instantly...
"I……"
Xia Anan closed her eyes and suppressed all her emotions: "Nan Jinnian, do you think it's fun for us to torture each other like this?"
"I said, there's no love between us anymore. Even if there was, it's all worn away by all the old grudges! Do you love me? Do you really love me? Are you sure it's not because of your possessiveness? Your obsession?"
"Nan Jinnian, maybe our time together was truly wonderful, but nine years! Nine whole years! How much of these nine years were we actually together? One and a half years! Only one and a half years!"
"How deep can a relationship last for a year and a half?"
"You once hated me, hated me for five years! And I stayed with you to atone for my sins. That wasn't love... Now you don't hate me, but you feel you owe me! You feel sorry for me because I jumped into the sea! That's not love either!"
"Nan Jinnian, our love disappeared when Uncle Nan died! Why are you still so stubborn?"
Xia Anan almost shouted!
She was trembling all over and tears were pouring out.
Love? Love is the most untrustworthy thing these days! It can make people lose their minds! It can make people lose themselves! It can make people torture each other under the guise of love.
Their love was just a marriage from the beginning, and she was just greedy for that relationship and his family...
Maybe for Nan Jinnian, those two years were love, but for her, it was just a harbor where she could seek refuge!
"Don't cry." Nan Jinnian gently wiped away Xia Anan's tears, but she couldn't wipe them away. Even if she wiped them away, new tears would appear...
Finally, he leaned over and kissed the corner of her eye: "An An...you still love me, right?"
"Nan Jinnian! Did you understand what I said?" Xia Anan took advantage of Nan Jinnian's shoulder.
"I don't care! I don't care whether you think there is any affection between us or whether we still love each other. I only care about you... I only care about whether you are by my side. I only care about you." Nan Jin said in a young voice.
"Xia Anan, if you think there is no love between us, are you willing to bet with me?" Nan Jinnian looked at the stubborn woman in front of him, and he was just a stubborn man.
Trapped in a cage called love.
"I don't want to gamble!" Xia Anan refused directly.
"Okay, then I bet..." Nan Jinnian seemed to have made up his mind. He said firmly: "You, Xia Anan, will definitely become my wife and will definitely fall in love with me again!"
"Why do you..." Xia Anan wanted to refute, but Nan Jinnian covered her mouth: "I believe that if we can be entangled for nine years, then we will definitely not let each other go easily!"
That's right! Even though Xia Anan unilaterally wanted to stop this dispute, the person in front of him still stayed quietly by his side for more than half a month.
Nan Jinnian brought Xia Anan back to the Nan residence.
Originally, he was going to take Xia Anan back to Nanzhai to celebrate her birthday today, but he didn't expect that he would find out that Xia Anan had secretly contacted Yang Linxin without telling him.
It was almost twelve o'clock when they returned to Nanzhai.
Nan Jinnian turned on the light in the living room and saw that Aunt Huang was already asleep in the living room.
In front of Aunt Huang was an eight-inch cake.
On the dining table was the meal prepared by Aunt Huang.
Xia Anan looked at the layout of the living room... Everything here was arranged by Nan Jinnian himself. He temporarily handed over the company's affairs to Lin Cheng, and he took a day off just to celebrate Xia Anan's birthday.
only……
Plans can’t keep up with changes. “Oh! You’re finally back!” Aunt Huang was awakened by the glaring light.
Looking at the two people in front of him, he vaguely felt something strange: "Xiao An...what's wrong? Did you cry?"
"No...no." Xia Anan shook her head.
"Hurry! It's not twelve o'clock yet, I'll light the candles for you..." Aunt Huang hurriedly opened the cake.
The cake was made very delicately, with two little figures on it, who looked somewhat similar to Xia Anan and Nan Jinnian, standing on the cake hugging each other.
But Xia Anan shook her head: "Aunt Huang...put it there."
However, Nan Jinnian walked straight to the cake, put candles on it, and then took out a lighter to light the candles: "Even if today is not your birthday, let's just treat it as your birthday today..."
Nan Jinnian walked up to Xia Anan with the cake.
Xia Anan didn't move, and neither did he. Aunt Huang beside him finally realized what seemed to be happening between the two of them...
The two looked at each other, neither understood, and neither spoke.
Aunt Huang had to say: "This candle is almost burned out..."
Seeing this, Xia Anan sighed in her heart, and then gently blew out the candle that was about to burn out.
After seeing Xia Anan blow out the candles, Aunt Huang couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, and Nan Jinnian slightly raised the corners of his mouth: "Happy birthday."
"Yes, yes! Happy birthday! Xiao An!" Aunt Huang said with a smile.
"Auntie Huang, it's getting late. Let's stay here tonight and go back tomorrow." Nan Jinnian said.
However, Aunt Huang said, "Then you don't have to take care of Xiao An anymore?"
"No need... I will pay your salary for this month to your card as usual. You can go and have a rest first." Nan Jinnian said.
"You..." Aunt Huang looked at the two of them: "Alas! I can't say much, but if there is any misunderstanding, it must be resolved! You two are both good children... It's not easy for you... Auntie doesn't want to see you like this..."
Aunt Huang shook her head and went upstairs.
She had lived in the South House before, so there was a room that belonged to her, after Aunt Huang left.
"Nan Jinnian, what are you going to do?" Xia Anan looked at the man in front of her. She tried to read something from the man's expression, but she could see nothing.
"Nine years ago today... I confessed my love to you, and you agreed to be my girlfriend. Two years ago today, I accidentally pushed you away, killing our child and you... And now... I want to do something, whether you agree or not, I want to give it a try..."
Xia Anan looked at him doubtfully. This day had both good and bad things for her, but she would not waver again...
No more...
Nan Jinnian suddenly knelt down on one knee: "An An, I used to be selfish and self-righteous, pushing you away step by step, but I am willing to change. I am willing to do anything for you. We have been entangled for nine years, but we have not been together for even half of that time."
"I know that the hurt I caused you is hard for you to let go. I know I have been doing wrong all along, but even though I know that, I still made you fall into deeper hurt..."
"Tomorrow... I will let you go, but I will not give up on you. I will win the bet."
"So Xia Anan, if I proposed to you now, would you agree?" Nan Jinnian looked up at her. He knew Xia Anan's decision, but he still wanted to ask her, because at that time he was thinking that he would propose to her on Xia Anan's next birthday!
But they didn't have the chance to celebrate their next birthday...
This was a regret in his heart, and also a knot in his heart. Now he knew that Xia Anan would not agree to him, but he still did it...
She looked down at him, her heart suddenly bursting with emotion.
"I..." Xia Anan didn't look at her, but turned away: "Sorry."
Even though he knew her answer, Nan Jinnian's heart still ached.
He looked at the cake beside him and said, "I see." He reached out and took out the ring from the cake.
These days have been nothing but his self-deception...
"Someone will come to pick you up tomorrow." Nan Jinnian turned and walked up the stairs.
For a moment, the living room was filled with cold food and broken cakes.
And there is Xia Anan who is alone.
She squatted down and bit her lip.
What is she sad about?
Nan Jinnian clearly let her go!
Her goal was achieved.
As long as she avoids him from now on, they will never have any intersection again...
But she still felt uncomfortable, her heart felt like it was sick, and the pain made it difficult for her to breathe.
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