☆、How beautiful Thirteen was in the past, how cruel it is now
After a period of sinking, Xia Anan felt that her body was about to fall apart, and the man next to her had already fallen into a deep sleep, but his sleeping posture was unexpectedly peaceful, which even made Xia Anan have the illusion that she saw Nan Jinnian five years ago.
She looked at the sleeping man quietly, outlining his handsome face bit by bit, from his forehead to his nose, and then to his lips, gently and preciously.
The man in front of her is her sun, the only thing that gives her the motivation to live in her life.
I remember when they first met, she didn't express any opinion on the marriage arranged by her father. Whether she opposed it or accepted it, the decision was not hers at all.
She just wanted to pray that her father would not give her to men of the same age as her father. She did not expect to receive any love because she was just a tool and her role was to bring greater benefits to the family.
When she was eighteen, she met that sunny boy at a party. He was twenty-two at that time and had just returned from studying abroad. He was very eye-catching in the crowd, wearing a black suit and a pair of straight long legs. His face was such that every woman had to take a few more glances at it, just like a prince.
She thought that she had never seen such a real prince appear before her, and this prince was her future fiancé.
When they first met, he seemed very interested in her. At that time, Xia Anan was like a cold beauty, always with an expressionless look on her face. Only after her father said something would she reveal a lady's smile, but Nan Jinnian could see how fake this smile was.
After that, Nan Jinnian always silently observed his nominal fiancée.
Then he came to a conclusion, which was - boring.
Yes, it's boring.
His so-called fiancée was like a robot, with no expression, no emotion, and she was cold and indifferent to everyone.
This gave Nan Jinnian a sense of challenge. He wasn't very interested in marriage, but his parents insisted that he marry into the so-called Xia family, and it had to be Xia Anan, so he had no way of refusing.
So from then on, Nan Jinnian had an additional hobby, which was to find every possible way to tease Xia Anan.
Yes, Nan Jinnian was like a primary school student, teasing Xia Anan, who had just been admitted to university, everywhere.
Xia Anan became more interested in this grown-up man who was like a child. Although his pranks were of no concern to her, she inexplicably enjoyed them because this man was the only one who truly paid attention to her and watched her.
This makes her feel that she is not a tool or a machine, and that someone cares about her.
Everything is so natural...
Half a year later, they were together. Although they had gotten engaged early on, they didn't actually start a romantic relationship until half a year later.
After being together with Nan Jinnian, Nan Jinnian completely doted on Xia Anan like his own daughter. Even though Xia Anan didn't like cute dolls and pink clothes like other little girls, he tried every way to be nice to Xia Anan. Xia Anan didn't know how to do housework, so he learned to clean and organize the wardrobe.
Xia Anan didn't know how to cook, so he took the recipe and started to study how to use a kitchen knife.
Xia Anan is a person with poor sense of direction, so he will always locate her to find the best route for her.
But Xia Anan became cautious. She obeyed her adoptive father's orders and had to deal with other men while being with Nan Jinnian.
Because if she didn't do so, her father would tell Nan Jinnian about her adopted daughter, and if that happened, the engagement between him and her would no longer exist...
So... she endured, waiting for the day when she would truly be together with Nan Jinnian.
But at the same time, she felt disgusted. She felt disgusted with herself for being like a prostitute, flirting with all kinds of men. She was more disgusted with herself than anyone else. But she didn't want to leave Nan Jinnian. He was her light, the source of all the good things in this world. She didn't want this man to know how unbearable she was, she didn't want him to know how filthy she really was, but... her body truly belonged to him alone!
So, during those two years, she felt like a princess. Because Nan Tiancheng and his wife loved Xia Anan, her adoptive father no longer allowed her to attend the wine table, but asked her to work harder to please them.
But she did not try to please them on purpose. Instead, the Nan family cared about her very much. They would prepare a pink room for her, give her gifts she liked, cook delicious meals for her, and show great concern for her injuries.
She finally became a human being, a person with flesh and blood, someone who cared about her and loved her.
But... all of this was destroyed once again... by her... own hands.
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