The warmth of the night expresses my feelings, the cold snow breaks my infatuation
The case was concluded at the end of January, and with New Year approaching, every household was decked out in lights and decorations. On New Year's Eve, Gu Yanzhou was home alone. He heard the door open, and Pei Linyan approached, carrying wine and chicken. He smiled and said, "Yanzhou, being alone is hard to avoid, so I've come uninvited. I'll bring you some wine, and we'll chat by candlelight all night long."
Gu Yanzhou's heart skipped a beat. Ever since his parents passed away, he'd lived alone for years. Even though he still had a stepmother, she was warm on the outside but cold on the inside, never sharing their innermost thoughts. Yet, on New Year's Eve, this woman had come just for him, sharing his worries and longings. His stomach, heart, and mind were all warm as if spring had come. After a few drinks, they both felt dizzy, their faces rippled.
"Pei Linyan, let me ask you, do you have someone you like?" Gu Yanzhou asked with a smile.
Pei Linyan sobered up and replied "Yes"
"What about him? How does he compare to me?" Gu Yanzhou asked loudly while drunk.
"You are the most beautiful person in the world. Nothing else can compare to you." Pei Linyan said firmly.
"Then are you happy with me?" Gu Yanzhou asked confusedly.
Pei Linyan's heart was beating fast, his breathing became heavier, and his whole body, the whole night, and the whole time and space became bright.
Gu Yanzhou stumbled towards Pei Linyan, and they both fell on the couch accidentally. Gu Yanzhou fell into Pei Linyan's arms, his slightly red face and clear nose hitting Pei Linyan's face. He wished that time and space would stop, and that thousands of years would be just this moment.
"Pei Linyanlin Yanlin" Gu Yanzhou called out while kissing Pei Linyan's lips.
"Yan Zhou, do you know who I am?" Pei Linyan asked
"You are, you are my only son." Gu Yanzhou said with a silly smile
Pei Linyan had no more scruples and met Gu Yanzhou's lips. The two of them were inseparable and their lips and teeth were intertwined. Pei Linyan half sat up and Gu Yanzhou sat astride Pei Linyan, moving up and down like an earth-shaking mountain. The candlelight on the couch flickered.
"Yan'er, you can't escape in this life or in the next life." Pei Linyan said breathlessly in the darkness.
After a night of sleep, Gu Yanzhou felt aches all over his body and weakness in his limbs. He opened his eyes to see Pei Linyan lying naked next to him. His mind was in a trance, and he quickly fled.
Pei Linyan stood up and found that there was no one beside him, so he shouted, "Yan'er Yan'er." No one answered for a long time.
"Ka" the door opened, "Yan'er" Pei Linyan looked up and said with a smile. He saw the person coming and said, "Master, Master, I finally found you. You didn't come home all night, and the master was very angry at home. Come back with me." After that, he put on Pei Linyan's shoes. Pei Linyan thought Yan'er might have gone out for something, and came back in a moment, leaving a note saying "I'm going home, I will come back soon, don't worry, Lin."
The sun sets in the west. Gu Yanzhou has been wandering outside all day, without having eaten anything. Finally, he musters up the courage to walk home. When he opens the door, he sees no one there. He sees a piece of paper saying, "I'm going home. I'll be back soon. Don't worry, Lin."
The Anguo Mansion was bustling with guests. As Pei Linyan appeared, seven or eight matchmakers rushed forward and said, "This must be Master Pei. He is indeed handsome and talented, not an ordinary person, like a banished immortal. His every move exudes nobility. How can he not please others?"
Another matchmaker said, "Duke Anguo's family is very high, with three dukes in four generations.
, now he holds the position of Grand Marshal, helping His Majesty relieve his worries and solving problems for the people. The young master has solved two murders in recent days, making him a truly outstanding young man, unparalleled in the world. Now that he has reached the age of twenty and remains unmarried, we have been entrusted to come and talk to him about this matter, so that we can help him get married.”
Suddenly, a matchmaker pulled Pei Linyan over and said, "Look, this is the eldest daughter of the Taichang family. She is 28 years old, beautiful, intelligent, and elegant."
"Then I am the youngest daughter of the Imperial Household, eighteen years old, and also a member of the Eight Elegant Schools." Another person said
No one was willing to give in, so they started to quarrel.
"Be silent. I already have someone I love. My heart is not made of stone; it cannot be turned. My heart is not made of mat; it cannot be rolled up."
After saying that, he turned and left, leaving everyone stunned.
Pei Linyan came to the other courtyard and said as soon as he entered the door, "Miss Qingyan, are you willing to help me?"
Qingyan heard the voice and ran out quickly, saying, "Mr. Pei is here. What do you want me to help you with?"
"Someone came to my house to propose marriage, and I am very distressed. I also need Miss Qingyan to play a play with me so that I can prove my reputation as a playboy and dissolute man. I will persuade you to leave." Pei Linyan said helplessly.
"Mr. Pei, do you still want to choose someone who is in tune with you and you love each other?
Qingyan asked with a smile:
"I already have someone I love, and I want to spend my whole life with him." Pei Linyan said with a smile.
Qingyan's eyes wavered when she heard this. She clenched her fist slightly in her sleeve and said with a smile, "I will help you, sir."
In front of the Jinyu Tower, a man said, "Have you heard? Today, someone went to the Anguo Mansion to propose marriage, and Master Pei publicly announced that he already has someone he likes and will marry her."
"Who doesn't know that Master Pei spent 100,000 gold coins in the Treasure Pavilion just for Miss Qingyan's smile?"
"Could it be that Miss Qingyan is the one that Master Pei loves?"
"Who says it's not? That's 100,000 gold, enough to buy half of the Treasure Pavilion. If it wasn't the person he loved, why would he spend so much? It's just to make a beautiful woman smile."
At this time, a man and a woman were sitting in a gorgeous carriage. The man was handsome and the woman was beautiful. Carriage after carriage followed behind them, which must be the newly purchased treasures.
Gu Yanzhou watched the carriage go farther and farther away. His heart seemed to be missing a piece and shattered. He tore the silk strips with his hands and saw "I...don't...heart" written on it. He didn't feel any better. It was like falling into an ice cave. There was no breath. The icy water squeezed his chest and the cold air went straight to his heart. His hands and feet began to numb and the blood in his brain froze. He couldn't think at all. He just felt that it was over. In a trance, a lifetime had passed and this moment was eternity.
Pei Linyan walked into the inner room with the dishes from Jinyulou, only to see Gu Yanzhou sitting there blankly, like a clay figure without a soul. "Yan'er, I brought you your favorite stewed chicken," he said coquettishly.
Gu Yanzhou turned around and said like a ghost, "Master Pei, you and I are worlds apart. We met by chance and have not had much in common. Please don't come here. I'm afraid this place is filthy and I'm afraid it will pollute your feet."
"Yan'er, I made you angry. You hit me, you scolded me, don't ignore me." Pei Linyan pleaded.
"Mr. Pei, we are just a fleeting love. I am a rootless duckweed, while you are a noble. There is a huge difference between you and me. How dare I get entangled?" Gu Yanzhou said coldly.
"Yan'er, then I don't want this status and wealth. You and I will be an ordinary couple, working on the farm in the morning, reading at midnight, and retiring to the mountains." Pei Linyan said gently
Gu Yanzhou turned his back to Pei Linyan with a cold face, and the atmosphere was extremely solemn.
"Yan'er, why don't you want to look at me, don't want to get close to me, are you afraid of being misunderstood by the world? But the love of split peaches, the habit of gay sleeves, and the love of Longyang have existed since ancient times. Why are you afraid? Why don't you dare to hold hands with me?" Pei Linyan said with tears in his eyes.
"Pei Linyan, the love of a shared peach, as beauty fades, love comes later, love ends later; the habit of being a homosexual, how can it last forever; the love of being a man of integrity, will eventually end in separation. You and I cannot fight against the heavens; you and I cannot stop the gossips; you cannot resist the nature of human desire. No matter how strong the love is, it will eventually turn into mud under the grinding of time. What I want is a lifetime, not a short moment of happiness. We are different after all. Let go, you are like cranes in the sky and fish in the pond. You meet for a moment and think it will last forever, but it is not the case. In the end, we can only look at each other but cannot depend on each other." After Gu Yanzhou finished speaking, his whole face was washed by tears, and there were water droplets on his chin.
"So that's how it is between you and me. You have no confidence in me. To you, I'm just a fleeting romance. Okay, okay." Pei Lin laughed and left without looking back.
"The Xiongnu have repeatedly invaded the border, seizing Tibet in winter and Tibet in summer, and are becoming increasingly aggressive. One hundred thousand troops are now stationed in Wuwei County. The border is in urgent need of help. I have appointed Fu Guang as the Grand General and ordered you to lead a hundred and fifty thousand troops to drive the Xiongnu back to the northern desert," the Queen Mother said.
"Your Highness, I will obey your order." Fu Guang replied.
Pei Linyan has been disheartened and haggard in recent days. Looking closely, he has lost a lot of weight, with an unshaven beard and sunken eyes, looking like a living dead. Shen Shaobai has come to see him many times, but he has always been secluded in his room drinking. No one knows why he is like this. He has also been turned away many times when he went to Gu Yanzhou to inquire about him.
A few days later, Pei Linyan secretly asked someone to deliver a letter to the army and went to join the army.
The "beep, beep, beep" knock on the door was particularly eye-catching. Gu Yanzhou, who was resting with his eyes squinting, was awakened. He only heard a voice coming from outside the door: "Yanzhou, Yanzhou, are you there? Lin Yan is going to join the army and go to the front line today. I think he is already at the city gate. You have to see him off." Shen Shaobai finished speaking.
In an instant, a white shadow rushed out from the house. Before he could come to his senses, he saw footprints in the yard extending towards the city gate. "Go to the front line." Gu Yanzhou felt like his brain was about to explode, and everything in front of his eyes was white. Pei Linyan was really risking his life. In order to avoid him, he actually went to the front line. Now the Han and Hun armies were fighting, and the situation was extremely chaotic. People were killed or disabled every day.
Facing the wind, a huge amount of cold air rushed into my mouth, carrying a little bit of the first snow. I felt cold, and remembered the year my mother passed away when I was eight years old. On the day when I needed love the most, there was no one behind me. The cold air I inhaled had already entered my stomach. My lips were frozen purple. I could taste blood in my mouth. The air in my trachea was like a knife cutting, and the blood fell into my stomach and churned.
, pouring into the large and small intestines, like a violently shaking kettle, about to burst. Gu Yanzhou ran all the way, finally reaching the city gate. Through the crack in the door, he saw the man in the distance, shrunken into a black shadow. He was as stunning as he had been when he first saw him. He rode a Dayuan horse, wore a white jade crown, and dressed in a bright red Qilin stepping on the clouds brocade. What a young man in bright clothes and on a fierce horse.
I just felt that the figure was too far away, I couldn't see it clearly, and my eyes were blurry.
He stretched out his hand to grab it, but the door was already closed, leaving no gap at all. Gu Yanzhou's face showed a deathly expression. Suddenly, his body became weak and fell into the snow. He realized that he had run out without wearing any shoes and was only wearing his underwear. The cool feeling disappeared, and waves of stabbing pain came over him like a blizzard, pulling, tearing, and crushing his heart, and his brain exploded.
In a trance, a figure looked back and called out "Yan'er", then fell down dizzy and fell into darkness.
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