Chapter 40 Strategy: How to Heal Her on Day 40
Xiang Di decided to play dumb.
When the heart beats beyond its maximum capacity, playing dumb is often the best way to escape.
Xiang Di: [Huh?]
Bai Jiangxin: [...]
Bai Jiangxin: [No, you know that.]
Xiang Di continued to play dumb: 【What?】
Bai Jiangxin: [5”]
Xiang Di didn't even dare to listen to a five-second voice message; he could only timidly activate the text-to-speech function.
- What, did you fall and hurt your tailbone and lose your memory?
Xiang Di suddenly reached out and touched his tailbone.
Bai Jiangxin was using this part of her body to remind her of what had happened.
She was completely stunned. Wang Sichen's appearance was so sudden that she was caught off guard. She got up too quickly and didn't even have a firm footing. She fell off his lap and landed hard on her bottom right in front of him.
Bai Jiangxin was clearly stunned at the time. He didn't have time to help her up, and by the time he realized what was happening, she had already run away.
Fortunately, he didn't say it outright, and the content of the voice message wasn't so bad that Xiang Di dared not listen to it. She sighed, "Damn it, even at a time like this, she's still craving his deep voice. I'm hopeless."
Desire triumphed over reason, and Xiang Di opened the voice message bar.
The familiar, indifferent voice, without any particular tone, still made her ears itch and her heart tingle.
One of the rules of unrequited love is to speak vaguely and never reveal your feelings proactively. Otherwise, if the other person finds out and you pretend to be clueless, you'll really be the clown. Xiang Di feigned sudden realization: "Oh, you mean the time I accidentally fell?"
She said: "I'm fine, I can run and jump again now, thanks for your concern~ [doge emoji]"
Bai Jiangxin: [This happened before you fell.]
Xiang Di: "..."
Her fingertips, hovering over the virtual keyboard on her phone, seemed to suddenly lose their strength, and she had no choice but to continue, going along with his words: "Oh, you mean the time we accidentally bumped into each other?"
Bai Jiangxin: [Do you remember where you were hit?]
Xiang Di was practically playing dumb for the life of her own: "I don't remember."
Bai Jiangxin: [It's okay, I remember.]
Bai Jiangxin: [Mouth.]
Bai Jiangxin: [Besides, we didn't just bump into each other, we kissed.]
Xiang Di threw down her phone and collapsed onto the bedsheets.
Her heart was spasming, she couldn't take it anymore, and she could feel her face turning red even through the phone. God, who can save her?
Luckily, she and he were talking on their phones. If they had been face-to-face, she probably would have fainted from embarrassment by now.
Xiang Di reluctantly took the phone, forcing herself to maintain her composure, and replied to him.
Xiang Di: [Oh, it was an accident. Besides, we drank so much fruit wine this afternoon. You probably didn't sit properly. It's okay.]
An impeccable, perfect answer that both blamed the cause on alcohol and demonstrated his nonchalant attitude.
However, in less than a second, Bai Jiangxin cracked her perfect answer.
Bai Jiangxin: [Didn't you lose your balance and sit on my lap first?]
Xiang Di could only deflect blame: "...It was your leg that tripped me first."
Bai Jiangxin: [You were the one who stood in front of me first.]
Bai Jiangxin: [I'm sleeping, and you're standing in front of me. What are you trying to do?]
Xiang Di's mind went blank for a moment.
How did he know?! Besides, wasn't he already asleep at the time?!
Or was he pretending to be asleep? And then waiting for her to succumb to his beauty and approach him?
What is he after?
No, no, no, Xiang Di tapped his head. Haven't he learned his lesson from the countless disappointments of the past three years? Don't be delusional, don't make a fool of yourself.
Xiang Di, of course, couldn't admit: "I only said it because your face had something dirty on it."
Bai Jiangxin: [If there's something dirty, why don't you use your hands to remove it? Can you even see it just by looking?]
Xiang Di: [But men and women shouldn't touch each other.]
Bai Jiangxin: [We've already kissed.]
Xiang Di was about to break down.
Why is he so persistent?
Xiang Di had a strong intuition that Bai Jiangxin had already seen through her clumsy excuse, but he deliberately didn't expose her directly, instead playing along with her in circles.
It was as if he was deliberately waiting to see how she would spout nonsense, and then finding loopholes in her words one by one, slowly exposing her flaws until she could no longer find any excuse to play dumb with him.
Xiang Di was still unclear about Bai Jiangxin's purpose; she only felt as if she was about to be exposed.
It seems that he has already noticed her feelings for him, which she has kept hidden for three years.
No, no, no, he absolutely cannot find out.
Perhaps because she had been secretly in love for so long, Xiang Di had become accustomed to this kind of unseen emotional attachment. No matter how bitter or sweet it was, she was used to processing it all on her own, so she didn't want to expose it to anyone, not even Bai Jiangxin.
She can indulge in her imagination, because it's a secret known only to her, but she can't be willful in reality, because that would cause trouble for Bai Jiangxin.
Although she sometimes felt heartbroken about unrequited love, she had a relatively happy life over the past three years. Now, with only two months left until graduation, she didn't plan to confess her feelings or expect any dreams to come true. She was the one with impure intentions in today's accident, so she naturally wouldn't hold it against Bai Jiangxin. She just wanted to smooth things over and look back on it later to cherish the memories.
Moreover, she was in the same grade for three years and the same class for one year. He didn't even know her name before. Although they had some contact during this time, it was just normal contact between people. How could he... suddenly have any feelings for her?
After calming my racing heart, I typed out the words on the flute.
[Hey, it was just an accident. Since nobody did it on purpose, let's sleep it off tonight and pretend nothing happened. Tomorrow we'll still be good classmates, okay? [doge emoji]]
She waited anxiously for several minutes before finally receiving his reply.
Bai Jiangxin: [Whatever you say.]
With just two simple words, he seemed to agree to her suggestion, letting the matter drop and allowing Xiang Di to breathe a sigh of relief.
But in that moment of relief, an indescribable emotion lingered in my heart.
Xiang Di clutched her chest.
She made the right choice to lower her expectations to the lowest possible level, so why does she still feel a little bitter?
Isn't it said that having a crush is actually liking an imagined person? Based on inner expectations and projections, you unilaterally imagine the person you like as perfect. But when you actually get close to that person in reality, you will find that they are completely different from the beautiful person you imagined. Then the illusion will dissipate, and you won't like them as much anymore.
But why... does she seem to like Bai Jiangxin more and more?
Is it because he is truly perfect without any flaws, or is it because she is so infatuated with him that she can't extricate herself from her feelings, so that no matter what he really looks like, she will love him, and only him?
The former is fine, it shows that she has a good eye, but what if it's the latter?
Xiang Di turned over in distress.
Given how much she likes him, even after graduating from high school and going to university, she'll probably never meet someone who can move her heart more than Bai Jiangxin.
Does that mean she's really head over heels for him for the rest of her life? Is she really going to have a crush on him forever?
If she can't fall in love with anyone, wouldn't she have to be a nun for life? No way! After reading so many erotic novels, she still really wants to experience that feeling of climaxing and squirting in real life.
-
Life is too long to think about now; finishing my studies is the most important thing.
Before the alarm clock rang in the early morning, Xiang Di had already opened her eyes.
That's how it is when you're in your senior year of high school. When the whole family is asleep, she's still awake, and when the whole family is still asleep, she has to get up and go to school.
Mondays used to be exciting because they meant seeing Bai Jiangxin again, but this week was different. Bai Jiangxin had turned from being her motivation for going to school into a source of pressure. Xiang Di dragged herself out of bed listlessly, her whole body resisting going to school, and she even wanted to ask for leave.
However, the house was quiet. As usual, Xiang Sheng played games until almost dawn before going to sleep. Xiang Rongqiang and his wife were busy until the early hours of the morning last night and she was the only one awake at home. There was no one to help her ask for leave.
Xiang Di had no choice but to accept her fate and go to school.
Because she woke up early, she arrived early as well. When she arrived, there were only a few students in the class yet. Xiang Di was afraid that she would get sleepy if she sat in her seat, so she picked up her notes on key points and went to the corridor to memorize them.
The sunlight outside the corridor window gradually brightened, filtering through the gaps in the leaves and into the long corridor. More and more people filled the corridor, and the sound of reciting gradually grew louder. Xiang Di covered his ears, completely immersed in his own world of reciting.
"concern, concern; consent, permission; contest, competition; contact...contact...background?"
"It's about contact and communication; the background is the context."
A voice reminded him, and Xiang Di froze, feeling that the voice was somewhat familiar.
She turned her head to the side, then tilted her neck back, meeting a pair of cold, dark eyes.
The moment she looked up, her dark eyes trembled slightly, and a hint of shame flickered across her lips.
Yesterday's events were still vivid in her mind, yet she acted as if she were ill, the more she tried to avoid looking, the more she looked at his pale pink lips, her heart pounding, embarrassment, helplessness, and all sorts of emotions surging up.
"I'm going to die," Xiang Di thought, clenching the heavy object in his hand.
[...I give up, just what I feared most has come to pass.]
Gone was the usual Monday joy of seeing him; instead, she was filled with lingering shock. The silence desperately needed to be broken, so Bai Jiangxin frowned slightly and said calmly, "You just recited it wrong."
Xiang Di lowered her head, her tone mechanical: "Oh, thank you..."
There was no movement; she stared at the flat shoes he was wearing today.
Why hasn't he gone into the classroom yet?
Please, please go into the classroom already! I really don't know how to face you right now!
[Fine, if you won't go in, I will. If I can't afford to mess with you, I can at least avoid you. Luckily, I changed deskmates before, so I'm not sitting next to you anymore. There's Wang Sichen in between, so I don't have to see your face.]
Xiang Di, clutching the key points, turned and walked towards the classroom.
She had previously thought Wang Sichen was in her way because he was blocking her, but now, in the blink of an eye, Wang Sichen has become her savior, again because he was blocking her.
Bai Jiangxin's face was gloomy, his lips opened and closed repeatedly, but in the end he did not call out to her.
...
During Monday's flag-raising ceremony, the senior year dean of students specifically reminded them that the citywide mock exam would be held this Thursday. The exam venue arrangements and procedures would follow the standards of the college entrance examination, urging everyone to take it seriously and prepare well for the exam.
Back in the classroom, the first class was Chinese. The Chinese teacher, as usual, told everyone to review on their own.
Xiang Di chose to do a mock exam. Before she started writing, she told herself that she must do it seriously from beginning to end this time and not think about anything else.
There was a reason she reminded herself of this: whenever a certain knowledge point appeared in class or during an exam, and it could be linked to a certain person, that person would suddenly pop into her mind.
Even though she had warned herself beforehand, it was still no use. Her feelings for Bai Jiangxin had become an integral part of her life.
The polyphonic character 辟 (pì) can be pronounced with the fourth tone (pi) in the phrase "开天辟地" (kāi tiān pì dì), or with the second tone (bi) in the phrase "覆辟" (fù pì)... By the way, his 柏 (bǎi) is also a polyphonic character, but such a simple polyphonic character probably won't be on the college entrance exam, which is a pity. If it were a multiple-choice question, I'm sure I could have chosen the right one...
That's how it is. Even when she's eating or sleeping, she might suddenly wonder what Bai Jiangxin likes to eat while she's eating, or she might wonder if he's asleep yet before she goes to sleep.
[At the head of the Xunyang River, seeing off a guest at night, maple leaves and reeds rustling in the autumn breeze... How coincidental, the character "Jiang" (river) from his name appears in this line...]
But this association didn't last long, and Xiang Di tapped his head.
[No, why am I thinking about him again? Xiang Di, I'm ordering you not to think about him right now.]
【You must forget about yesterday. The college entrance exam is in two months, and the mock exam is the day after tomorrow! There's no time for you to indulge in sentimentalities. From now on, if you think about Bai Jiangxin again, you'll get one less dish for lunch.】
To distract herself, she even threatened to eat lunch.
For the next morning, Bai Jiangxin truly did not hear a single word from Xiang Di about his own feelings.
When the school bell rang at noon, Xiang Di, who was hungry, thought to herself, "Great! I can get two dishes for lunch today."
After she left, Bai Jiangxin felt helpless that she was not as good as a lunch, but at the same time she was glad that she knew to eat properly. No matter what, health comes first.
As for Xiang Di's avoidance, it was all his fault. He had overstepped the boundaries of their relationship and put her in an awkward situation. She was avoiding him, and he had nothing to say about it.
But her evasive attitude really chilled him.
He couldn't help but feel a little resentful towards her. What exactly did she want from him?
She desperately wanted to be with him and dreamed of dating him, but when he finally took a liking to her and reciprocated her feelings, she started to back away.
Even if he was impulsive and didn't control himself yesterday, she was the one who fell in love first, and she was the one who first had the idea of kissing. She was the one who secretly stood in front of him, thinking he hadn't noticed, staring at his lips and imagining what it would feel like to French kiss him, which made him unable to resist thinking about it too.
Her thoughts about him and her physical reactions to him were always two extremes.
This was just a light touch on the corner of her mouth, and she recoiled like this. If it really progressed to something deeper than a kiss, she'd be scared to death on the spot.
His earlier thoughts were indeed correct. Some girls are all talk and no action, spouting wild and inappropriate words all the time. You might think they're seasoned pros, but when it comes to real sex, they run away faster than anyone else.
Oh.
Bai Jiangxin finally witnessed firsthand what it means to be a giant in words but a dwarf in deeds.
How could she even dare to fantasize about doing that kind of thing with him?
...
The bell rang for a long time, and almost everyone in the classroom had left. Ye Minjia waited for a long time, but Bai Jiangxin didn't move from his seat, so she had to go and ask him herself.
Are you going to eat or not?
Bai Jiangxin snapped out of his daze and looked at Ye Minjia calmly: "I have a question for you."
"Let's talk after we eat. I'm starving right now, and my brain isn't working properly." Ye Minjia said impatiently. "If we wait for you for ages and you don't go eat soon, all the food in the cafeteria will be eaten up by those starving bastards from the first and second years."
Bai Jiangxin: "I'll treat you to a meal at a restaurant."
Ye Minjia's eyes lit up immediately. As the saying goes, "He who takes a man's money is bound to be grateful," so his attitude immediately became respectful.
"Thank you for the meal, Mr. Bai. Please ask me anything, and I will answer to the best of my knowledge."
Bai Jiangxin has never liked using excuses like "I have a friend". He said directly, "There is someone who likes me. Before, when I ignored her, she liked me a lot. Now that I'm talking to her, she's avoiding me."
After a pause, Bai Jiangxin calmly stated his simple and direct request: "How should we deal with this kind of person?"
Ye Minjia: "..."
Bai Jiangxin: "Speak."
Ye Minjia made a "stop" gesture to him, her tone complicated: "Wait a minute, there's too much information here, let me digest it first."
-
Although only two dishes were ordered for lunch today, one meat and one vegetable, Xiang Di still ate with great relish.
This trick worked, so Xiangdi followed suit, continuing to use the number of dishes she could get for dinner as a warning to herself, and successfully got through the whole afternoon.
After a satisfying dinner at the cafeteria, Xiang Di rewarded herself by playing on her phone for a while.
She behaved very well today, only thinking about Bai Jiangxin less than four times, and she also restrained herself, not fantasizing about him all day, and being a pure and good girl all day.
Good, good. If this continues, she will be able to desensitize herself to Bai Jiangxin before the college entrance examination, and she will no longer need him as a motivation for studying.
Because she had accidentally liked a few of Xiang Sheng's videos, the big data system has been pushing various videos of handsome men to her lately. Xiang Di had just finished watching a cute pet video when she swiped her finger and was immediately pushed a video of a handsome man.
Moreover, it was a borderline video with particularly suggestive and ambiguous background music. Fortunately, Xiang Di was wearing headphones. She quickly looked up and glanced to the side, and no one noticed her.
So she secretly put her phone under her desk and mustered up the courage to watch the suggestive video.
Ambiguous background music, dim lighting, a handsome man kneeling in front of a mirror with his legs spread wide, his upper body completely naked. If you had to say he was wearing anything, it would be that the ropes binding him were not covering anything that should be covered, and following the lines of his chest and abdominal muscles, they made him an emperor's top.
[...OMG, this is ridiculous! Compared to this guy, even my attempt at borderline content is like something a primary school student would do. This guy must have secretly bribed the moderators to get this posted without getting banned.]
Xiang Di buried her head in her desk, couldn't help but cover her mouth, and stared wide-eyed.
[Oh my god, his chest is so big and round, it's practically daddy level! And his nipples are so perky and pink, they look so plump. Ugh, his pants are so tight, that guy definitely did it on purpose, you can even see the shape and position. Hmm, so he likes to put them on the left side—]
Just as she was enjoying the view, a tapping sound on the table interrupted her drooling.
All those years of schooling weren't for nothing. Xiang Di reacted quickly, shoving her phone between her legs, closing them, pretending nothing had happened, and raising her head.
It wasn't a teacher, nor a discipline committee member, but Bai Jiangxin?
Looking at Bai Jiangxin's handsome and indifferent face, Xiang Di couldn't help but compare the two, still unable to shake off the image of the handsome man she had just been captivated by.
[Bai Jiangxin is definitely more attractive, but as for his figure... well, after having tasted all that rich food, Bai Jiangxin suddenly seems a bit bland.]
Bai Jiangxin's face darkened.
Great, today, not only did she think about him much less, but she didn't even fantasize about him at all. One second she said she wanted to desensitize herself to him, and the next second she was brazenly watching other men's suggestive videos in the classroom. Not only did she look at their breasts, but she could even tell which side their penises were on.
Most unforgivably, she even said he was boring.
She hasn't even seen it yet, so why should she find it boring?
What right did she have to stir up his heart and then say he was bored?
He thought to himself that he was boring, but he didn't show it on his face. He politely asked, "Is there something you need?"
Bai Jiangxin: "Let's go out and talk."
Xiang Di put her legs together; her phone was still hidden inside. If she stood up, it would be obvious.
"...It's not convenient for me to go out right now."
Bai Jiangxin said calmly, "It would be convenient if you took out your phone."
Xiang Di looked shocked.
How did he know she hid her phone there?!
Could he have seen what she was looking at just now?
She immediately feigned ignorance: "What are you talking about? There's no cell phone here."
Bai Jiangxin's gaze swept lightly between her legs.
He vaguely remembered that Xiang Di seemed to have a mole on her left thigh. He had never seen it in reality, only in the scenes she fantasized about. He had even kissed it. Her thigh was very white, and although the mole was small, it was very noticeable.
It's not summer yet, and she's still wearing trousers, so Bai Jiangxin can't verify whether she actually has that mole on her thigh.
Whether he wanted to verify it or not, Bai Jiangxin restrained himself and looked away, returning his gaze to her face.
His Adam's apple bobbed, and he asked in a deep voice, "Do you want me to help you take it out?"
Xiang Di let out a cry, and then, as if burying his head in the sand, squeezed his legs together a little tighter.
No, did he already know she had hidden her phone between her thighs?
He even offered to help her carry it. What does that mean?
...Was he going to put his hand between her thighs?
The thought of Bai Jiangxin's long, slender, and fair hand with its distinct knuckles and slightly protruding veins reaching inside made Xiang Di's face flush instantly, and she felt a strange sensation between her legs.
Bai Jiangxin scoffed lightly.
...You little pervert, let's see how you desensitize yourself now.
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