Chapter 38 Strategy: Day Thirty-Eight [Want to kiss.]
The voice is transmitted through brainwaves. Under normal circumstances, it can only be heard. When it is vivid, there will be images, but there is no subtitle function. Bai Jiangxin can only piece together a few words based on Xiang Di's pronunciation.
Bai Jiangxin's keen intuition told her that these words were definitely not good. If they were just the literal meaning, she would definitely not have been unable to say them.
For the first time, Bai Jiangxin realized that he hadn't been online enough. Sometimes, the things Xiang Di said were even more abstract than science Olympiad problems, and he really needed to spend time understanding them.
The private room Zhou Linxiao had booked had already been used up. The waiter came to clean up, but found that someone was still inside. So he politely knocked on the door and asked, "Hello, the time for the private room has expired. Would you like to extend the time?"
Without hesitation, Ye Minjia said, "Continue, continue for another hour."
Waiter: "Okay."
Under Ye Minjia's equally expectant gaze, Xiang Di said dejectedly, "...I can't think of that."
Bai Jiangxin: "..."
Every time, it's all bark and no bite.
[Xiang Di, you coward, I despise you!]
At least they know how to despise themselves; they have some self-awareness.
Bai Jiangxin knew that even if she had a hundred times the courage, she would still do the same thing.
Forget it, expecting her to have that kind of guts is like expecting a sow to fly. He said indifferently, "Then forget it."
Ye Minjia, standing to the side, looked at Di, who had been holding back for so long without uttering a single word, and was utterly speechless.
He thought he would definitely be able to get something out of Bai Jiangxin this time, but instead of getting anything out of him, the relationship between the two became increasingly confusing and unpredictable, and now it was completely incomprehensible to others.
So what exactly is the relationship between these two? They dated, but never kissed? Are there really people in this world who date without kissing?
Or did they really never talk about it, and he was just overthinking it?
Why is their relationship so ambiguous? And what was the meaning behind the things Bai Jiangxin was tricked into saying last time?
Ye Minjia's previously unwavering reasoning was suddenly overturned, leaving him more distressed than a dog. He was as anxious as a badger jumping around in a melon patch. As long as he could get the whole melon, he didn't care about saving face for his good brother. He was willing to break off their friendship at worst. Ye Minjia practically wanted to press their heads together and force them to tell him, "Tell me! What exactly is your relationship?"
Seeing that Bai Jiangxin was about to leave, Ye Minjia stopped him and said, "Wait, I only extended it for an hour. If you guys don't continue playing, what will you do with the remaining hour?"
Let alone extending it for another hour, even if it were extended for another whole night, he, along with Ye Minjia and the rest of the group, would be busy here until midnight, and no one could necessarily change anything.
Although he didn't know how Ye Minjia figured out the connection between him and Xiang Di, he didn't want to waste his energy and wanted to advise Ye Minjia not to waste her time.
"You decide what to do."
Bai Jiangxin left a message and just as he reached the door, he ran into Zhou Linxiao returning from the bathroom.
Ye Minjia quickly explained to Zhou Linxiao that he had just taken it upon himself to add an hour, but Zhou Linxiao said indifferently, "It's okay, let's sit for another hour then, anyway, Wang Sichen won't be out for a while."
Ye Minjia asked, puzzled, "What's wrong with him?"
"I drank too much alcohol and got diarrhea."
"Huh? Is he alright?" Ye Minjia's lips twitched. "He shouldn't be drunk, right? I hope he doesn't accidentally fall into a trap."
Ye Minjia immediately took out her phone and sent a message to Wang Sichen to say hello.
Good news: Wang Sichen replied instantly, so he probably hasn't fallen into the pit yet. Bad news: Wang Sichen said he felt a little dizzy. If he really did fall into the pit, the guys might have to go to the men's restroom to pull him out.
Ye Minjia suddenly felt that her phone was no longer clean, and sighed, "I'm really fed up with this idiot."
Wang Sichen's current physical condition is unclear, and she is at risk of falling into a pit at any time. It would be inappropriate for anyone to leave first at this time, so Bai Jiangxin had no choice but to sit back on the sofa.
Zhou Linxiao said to everyone, "Shall we play a little longer?"
Bai Jiangxin declined calmly, saying, "You guys have fun."
Xiang Di also said, "I'm not playing anymore. I feel a little dizzy and want to rest."
I was so focused on the game that I didn't feel dizzy at all; in fact, I was quite excited. Now that I've calmed down, the dizziness is only starting to creep in.
There were only five of them. Two of them didn't want to play anymore, and the remaining three didn't have much fun either. They had already played all afternoon and drunk quite a bit of alcohol, so they decided to take advantage of this hour to relax in the private room.
The private room fell silent for a moment. Some people played on their phones, while others rested. In order not to waste the extra hour, Ye Minjia planned to order two more songs to sing. He felt it was no fun to sing alone, so he insisted on dragging Zhou Linxiao to sing with him.
Xiang Di leaned on Liang Qianqian's shoulder, still thinking about what had just happened with a dejected look on his face.
Bai Jiangxin listened calmly as she expressed her deep regret, showing no sympathy whatsoever. He then took out his phone and checked what she had just said.
You don't know until you check, and once you do, you're in for a world of difference. Bai Jiangxin immediately moved his phone a meter away from him.
Check my educational background; the pronunciation of that phrase is similar to "insert my hole."
...
Towards, flute.
That feeling of helplessness—being sexually harassed but having no recourse—surfaced again. Bai Jiangxin covered his forehead, the veins on his temples throbbing with each breath. He gritted his teeth and called out Xiang Di's name in his mind, both angry and helpless.
Ideological purification education is useless to her; this groundhog is beyond what can be described as lacking education.
How much erotic ideology must one have been poisoned by to grow such a brain?
Knowing full well that it wasn't a legitimate term, why did he do the stupid thing of searching for it?
Bai Jiangxin's ears burned, whether from anger or fear, he didn't know. His cold gaze held a hint of shame and indignation, as he glared at her fiercely across the coffee table in the private room.
The culprit, oblivious to everything, leaned on her best friend's shoulder, still wallowing in self-pity.
As she felt sorry for herself, she began to blame herself.
[Xiang Di, how could you be so cowardly? Even if you told him to just pick any person of the opposite sex present to drink a toast with, there's a 50% chance he'd choose you. How can you say you couldn't think of that?]
[You deserve to live your whole life in fantasy, you deserve to have unrequited love, you're a loser, a coward, a piece of trash, a useless show-off, a hopeless case, that's you!]
She suddenly pouted, and under the influence of alcohol, her eyes and nose stung and became wet.
Liang Qianqian, who was being leaned against, was completely unaware of what was happening and was enjoying Ye Minjia and Zhou Linxiao's duet.
Suddenly, she tasted the bitterness of unrequited love again. No one noticed, and no one handed her a tissue. Xiang Di felt even more wronged. Tears fell from her small nose to her lips. She stuck out her tongue and licked them. Suddenly, she started reciting a literary poem.
Seawater is salty, and so are tears. Did seawater turn into tears? Or did tears turn into seawater? Millions of years of tears have gathered into seawater. The bitterness of unrequited love is known only to oneself, sob sob...
Bai Jiangxin: "..."
He froze, speechless. On one hand, he found it amusing that she had shed a few unexpected tears, and on the other hand, he felt helpless for her.
He was just moments ago feeling ashamed and angry at her blunt words, but now he felt that getting angry with her was pointless, except for making himself feel frustrated.
Forget it, why bother getting angry at someone who has lustful thoughts but no courage? Didn't I already know she was like this?
No one noticed that she was crying quietly, and her inner voice gradually weakened. Bai Jiangxin struggled internally for a few minutes, and finally sighed resignedly.
After all, it's because of him, so let's do something about it.
He pulled two tissues from the coffee table and was about to hand them to her when he suddenly heard Liang Qianqian exclaim softly, "Oh my god, is she asleep?"
Bai Jiangxin took back the tissues.
He wondered why there was no sound; it turned out the person had fallen asleep.
After discovering that Xiang Di had fallen asleep, Liang Qianqian said to Ye Minjia and Zhou Linxiao, who were still singing, "Stop singing, Xiang Di is asleep."
Ye Minjia put down the phone, her tone somewhat amused: "How can you fall asleep in this noise?"
Zhou Linxiao said, "I guess they were tired from playing all afternoon, plus they drank fruit wine."
Liang Qianqian carefully lifted Xiang Di's head off her shoulder and then laid her down to the side.
Xiang Di is asleep, so there's no way she can sing. After stretching her sore shoulders, Liang Qianqian said, "Let her sleep. I'm going out to stretch my legs."
"Then I'll go downstairs for a walk too," Ye Minjia asked Zhou Linxiao. "Shall we go?"
Zhou Linxiao hesitated, "But it doesn't seem very safe to let Xiang Di sleep here alone."
"I'll stay here."
Bai Jiangxin suddenly spoke up.
When the three of them looked at him at the same time, he added, "If you want to go down for a walk, then go ahead."
The implication was that he could stay with Xiang Di.
Ye Minjia and Liang Qianqian exchanged a glance, and of course had no objections.
The two were just thinking about how to persuade Zhou Linxiao, this third wheel, to leave, but this third wheel didn't need any persuasion at all. He was very self-aware and readily said, "Then Xiang Di is in your hands."
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Only two people remained in the private room. Xiang Di was fast asleep on the sofa, while Bai Jiangxin watched her sleep quietly across a coffee table.
The ambient lighting in the private room changed colors. This was the first time he had observed Xiang Di's appearance in such a quiet environment since he established a connection with her.
She has a very well-behaved and fair-skinned appearance, with almond-shaped eyes, round eyes, and an oval face. When she is asleep, her mouth is slightly open, revealing a little bit of her upper teeth.
With a face that shows no hostility whatsoever, it's hard to imagine that such a docile appearance hides such a soul.
Bai Jiangxin didn't know how many adjectives she could use to fully describe her wonderful inner world. Sometimes she was quiet, sometimes she was noisy, sometimes she was lecherous, and sometimes she was innocent. She was lewd, noisy, and liked to fantasize, but she was also lively, cute, and incredibly vivid.
She also has a dark side, but that darkness pales in comparison to her sunny side.
Because of her gentle and quiet personality, no one would have the heart to dislike her. But it is precisely because of this unassailable personality that she is also hard to remember.
Before he unexpectedly formed a connection with Xiang Di and learned her true feelings, Bai Jiangxin had never paid attention to her and never imagined that she would like him.
If that accident hadn't happened, they might have really gone their separate ways right after graduating from high school. He probably would never have known, and she would never have let him know either.
Bai Jiangxin initially couldn't accept having such a chattering person, who also harbored inappropriate thoughts about him, intrude into his inner world, which was supposed to be his own. At that time, he only wanted to make this connection disappear as soon as possible, because her affection was a trouble for him, her admiration was a burden for him, he couldn't give her any response, and she was destined to be disappointed.
But gradually, under her subtle influence, he felt that it was not unacceptable.
Being liked unconditionally by someone isn't actually that troublesome, and it's understandable even if that person has ulterior motives.
From initially feeling uncomfortable all over, he has now begun to convince himself that she only has those kinds of feelings for him because she likes him.
Bai Jiangxin began to feel relieved that the accident had happened and that he had found out.
But what will happen when he finds out? What will become of them?
Should we maintain the status quo? Or try dating?
This was Bai Jiangxin's first time, so he didn't know how to handle the feelings Xiang Di had for him.
Human emotions are so complex. He is willing to connect with all things in the world. He has raised cats and rescued many stray cats and dogs, but he is unwilling to have too much involvement with people. He would rather stay at home all day doing nothing than deal with those so-called people and their emotions.
In the bonds between people, emotions need to be carefully maintained. But Bai Jiangxin doesn't want to. When a bond with someone makes him feel annoyed or uncomfortable, his brain immediately activates a protective mechanism, building a thick wall around his heart. He doesn't communicate or confront the issue, but quickly withdraws himself from the relationship to avoid being troubled by emotional entanglements and to avoid getting hurt.
When his mother chose to leave him, he decisively detached himself from his attachment to her. When his father distanced himself from him, he quickly became independent and no longer needed his father's care.
He had become accustomed to a lifestyle of isolation from others, and he was used to indulging in his own mental world, too tired to deal with those messy social relationships.
This so-called genetic disease that he carries in his genes seems miraculous, but for Bai Jiangxin, it's just a burden. He has no interest in other people's worlds and doesn't want to understand their inner thoughts at all.
He doesn't want too much from family and friends. He doesn't need those fake loves and concerns; they just annoy him. He's only willing to accept people who are worthy of his love.
He knew Xiang Di liked him, but he just wanted to stay where he was and wait for her to come closer.
This is to ensure that he can control her, and to ensure that he won't get hurt because of her someday.
Ke Xiangdi's affection was so intense that it made his heart burn as well. Once, twice, three times, four times, he was human and couldn't resist. That's why her timidity and retreat each time made him feel helpless and angry.
He gradually lost patience and didn't want to waste any more time waiting for her to come closer. But when he heard her cursing herself for being weak and even shedding a tear because of her cowardice, he suddenly understood her.
He feared the consequences of taking the initiative, and so did she.
He was angry at her timidity, but wasn't he also angry at her timidity?
Bai Jiangxin quietly watched her as she slept.
For the first time in his life, his usually indifferent and vacant eyes revealed a sense of helplessness towards someone.
What should he do with her?
What should he do with this ray of sunshine that suddenly entered his inner world?
Will she understand him? Understand that he can't wait any longer, understand that he longs for her to like him even more passionately, understand his hesitation and passivity, understand that he is actually a million times more timid than she is.
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Xiang Di slowly awoke.
She hadn't slept for long, so her mind wasn't completely foggy. She remembered that she was in a karaoke bar, and the effects of the fruit wine were slow to kick in. She fell asleep belatedly.
The private room was very quiet. She wondered why everyone was gone. She looked around and her gaze suddenly stopped on a certain spot.
The others have disappeared, but Bai Jiangxin is still here.
He was sitting on the other side of the coffee table, the ambient light shining on his black windbreaker, his legs stretched out vertically over the edge of the sofa, slightly apart, his arms crossed over his chest, his head tilted back on the sofa, and his eyes closed as he took a nap.
Was he asleep too?
Xiang Di called out to him softly, "Bai Jiangxin?"
There was no reply; she must be asleep.
She quietly stood up from the sofa, intending to slip away from the private room and go outside to see where the others had gone, but as soon as her fingers touched the door switch, she hesitated.
She missed so many good opportunities to get to know him today because of her timidity.
But now he's asleep.
How long will she have to be so timid? In two months, they will graduate, and she will have to say goodbye to her high school years and to him.
Xiang Di slowly walked to his side.
She leaned down quietly, wanting to take a good look at him and etch his features into her heart. Later, when she went to college and talked to her roommates about high school, she could proudly say that the boy she had a crush on in high school not only had excellent grades but also had a particularly great face.
For so many high school students across the country, three years are often uneventful, filled only with endless exams and homework. But she was so lucky; she had a crush on someone she could be proud of, and a period of unrequited love that filled her entire teenage years.
She was initially looking at him with a very innocent mindset.
However, as she looked at him, she became captivated without realizing it. It was all because he was so handsome. She bit her lip slightly, her gaze unconsciously lingering on his lips beneath his high, straight nose.
She liked the mole on Bai Jiangxin's Adam's apple, but when you like someone, the place you really want to kiss is that spot.
Which genius invented the gesture of touching lips to express affection?
She wanted to steal a kiss on Bai Jiangxin's lips, though it might be considered impolite.
She wanted to kiss him.
But she didn't dare.
Moreover, if he wasn't sound asleep and woke up in the middle of the night, she would die on the spot.
Xiang Di was rational; she knew she absolutely couldn't do that, and could only think about it in her mind at most.
I want to kiss you.
I really want to know what it feels like to kiss him. Will it really be like in novels, a feeling of being electrified?
If I could kiss him just once, I would remember that kiss for the rest of my life.
Xiang Di stared at his pale pink lips with longing and infatuation. His lips were really beautiful, with a distinct upper lip peak and a slightly full lower lip that formed a line when pressed together.
She hates eating pork tongue, beef tongue, and duck tongue the most, but if it's Bai Jiangxin's tongue, she'd be willing to eat it.
I really want to give those beautiful lips a French kiss. I wonder what it feels like to have your tongue entwined with his?
Xiang Di swallowed hard, but in the end, she managed to suppress this longing deep in her heart.
Okay, that's enough for today, it would be impolite to keep looking.
She straightened up, intending to find other people.
The gap between the sofa and the coffee table wasn't large. Still not fully recovered from her reverie, Xiang Di didn't pay attention to her footing and tripped over Bai Jiangxin's slightly outstretched leg.
Her body suddenly lurched forward. Xiang Di was already prepared to land face down when a steady force suddenly wrapped around her waist from behind, pulling her entire body backward.
Xiang Di sat down without any serious injury.
But the feel on my buttocks was very strange; it didn't feel like a sofa.
It was harder and more sturdy than a sofa, and she could even feel the slight elasticity of the fabric beneath.
Before the sensation of her waist being encircled had ended, she suddenly opened her eyes wide and realized that Bai Jiangxin's thighs were beneath her buttocks.
Xiang Di quickly realized that she was now sitting on Bai Jiangxin's lap in an ambiguous position. It was Bai Jiangxin who had caught her just now, preventing her from falling face-first to the ground.
She didn't dare turn her head, didn't dare look. Until a slow voice sounded in her ear: "I don't think you fell, how come you're stupid?"
Xiang Di wanted to stand up, but she couldn't bear to.
So she could only pretend to be stupid, using the excuse that she didn't know what the situation was, and wanted to stay on his lap a little longer.
She mechanically turned her head and met a pair of dark, deep eyes.
When did he wake up?!
He probably didn't notice that she'd been spying on him for several minutes, did he?
Bai Jiangxin curled his lips.
We discovered it a long time ago.
Not only had he discovered it long ago, but he had also clearly heard all her little schemes and thoughts, and he had taken them all in.
They could hear each other's breaths, so close that Xiang Di could kiss him with just a stretch of her neck.
Xiang Di also realized that this distance was dangerous. Perhaps she could pretend to have lost her balance, stumble, and accidentally kiss him?
Kiss him! This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity! At worst, you can just apologize innocently afterwards. You're a girl, he can't do anything to you! Besides, it was just a touch of the lips, he can't sue you for sexual harassment!
Xiang Di roared inwardly.
Bai Jiangxin heard it, but he didn't intend to hide.
Come on.
Everything should happen naturally. She has to be brave enough to kiss him first before she can even think about letting him penetrate her.
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