Chapter 30 Chapter 30 Disappearance
Li Jinglang couldn't sleep again last night, but Tang Ningyue slept comfortably. After the quarrel, she lay down and fell asleep as if nothing had happened. Her sleep was faster than that of sleeping pills.
Before lying down, Tang Ningyue forced him to take medicine again. The medicine prescribed by Dr. Hailin was effective, but he didn't want to take it. Tang Ningyue turned it out and stuffed it into his mouth, forcing him to take it whether he wanted to or not.
She has always been domineering and he dared not fight against her.
Li Jinglang couldn't fall asleep while lying in bed. His heart was pounding and his mind was full of what she said. He was in a state of confusion. He looked at her again and found that she had fallen asleep long ago. Her chest was rising and falling regularly. Li Jinglang became even more irritated.
His mind was in a mess, but he couldn't resist the effect of the medicine. As dawn approached, he fell into a drowsy sleep. He slept so soundly that he didn't even hear the sound of the door opening and closing. Perhaps it was because of the medicine, he kept dreaming after falling asleep. In the dream, he returned to his childhood, to the rainy day when he returned home from school and found that Tang Ningyue had disappeared.
She left suddenly and hastily, but she took everything she could take with her and threw away everything she couldn't take with her, leaving nothing behind. Even the scent of her in the room vanished with the wind after she left, as if she had never been there.
The photo of her that he secretly put in his notebook was also found and thrown away by her. He always thought that she didn't know, but she told him in this way, throwing it into the trash can at the door of her house. When the community cleaning staff came to pick it up in the early morning, it was full of fragments of the photo.
There was a bag of gummy bears in the drawer. They had agreed that each person would eat one a day, but there was still half a bag left. She took them all away and didn't leave any for him.
All the promises she had made to him were gone like farts.
She just wasn't nice to him at all.
It was probably dawn when he was half asleep and half awake, but he couldn't wake up. It was as if he was grabbed by a nightmare and trapped in the dream. He couldn't open his eyes, but kept crying.
It was as if someone had wiped his tears, gently and with a sweet scent, but his tears kept flowing, unable to stop. The person who had wiped his tears lost their patience, pinched his face, and placed a handkerchief under his cheek. The sweet scent vanished with the wind...
It was already noon when Li Jinglang woke up. He hadn't slept so late in a long time, but his sleep was not comfortable. Before he opened his eyes and woke up, he heard Zhou Su making a phone call outside the door.
She kept muttering things like "okay, okay, don't worry" and so on, but he didn't want to listen. He tried to sit up in bed, but he knocked over the cup beside him, splashing water all over the floor.
The noise in the room disturbed the people outside the door. Before Li Jinglang had time to clean up, the door was opened and the person who came in was actually the nurse that Zhou Su hired every time he was hospitalized.
"Let me do it, let me do it." He said, stopping Li Jinglang and letting him lie down again.
Li Jinglang stared at him in a daze, and subconsciously looked in the direction of the folding bed, but before his sight could move on, he was blocked by the newcomer, so he had to turn back.
"Are you awake?" Zhou Su came in at some point, walked to his side and touched his forehead. It was clearly a caring gesture, but Li Jinglang subconsciously dodged and rejected the concern.
Zhou Su retracted his action, sighed, and said, "Why did you throw away the medicine again while I was away?"
"Why don't you take your medicine properly?"
"....." Li Jinglang lowered his eyelids and raised them again. He had clearly thrown the garbage containing the medicine out the door.
unless.....
He pursed his lips, his face calm as he stared at the cup that had been lifted up again. It was filled with warm water again, and ripples were still forming. "How did she know?"
"First, explain to me why you secretly stopped taking the medicine again? Don't you want to get better?" Zhou Su swallowed the answer and questioned him again.
As expected, she discovered it. Li Jinglang leaned on the pillow with exhausted energy, not saying a word.
"What's wrong with you, kid?"
"Can you tell Mom about this?"
Zhou Su sat on the edge of the bed and reached out to touch his hair, but when his hand reached Li Jinglang, he turned his head away and the hand hung in the air again.
"If you feel uncomfortable or unhappy, just tell me what you want. Just tell me what you want. As long as I can do it, I will satisfy you, okay?"
"Haven't you always known this..." Li Jinglang stared blankly out the window, clasping his hands together into a circle, trying to trap the dazzling sunlight outside. However, the sunlight was too strong and spread over such a large area that he couldn't trap it no matter what he did.
Zhou Su sighed and rubbed his shoulders: "...Jinglang, you are not a child anymore. You can't be so unreasonable. You have to learn to be considerate of others."
Li Jinglang has only had one wish since he was a child. Zhou Su also knows that he doesn't want anything else. Things bought, handmade, and things with heart are all bullshit.
No, he doesn’t want anything, he only wants Tang Ningyue.
"No one will be with you forever, Jinglang, don't trap yourself, you have grown up."
"Mom knows you've always been angry with Ning Yue, but you're too stubborn and awkward. Do you want to blame Ning Yue for the way you've become over the years because of your wild thoughts?"
"....." Li Jinglang's lips trembled, and he felt the scab on his lip hurting again.
"Jinglang, this isn't her fault. If Ningyue had never come to our house and you had never met her, would you have been fine and not gotten sick like this?"
"Some things can't be forced. Let go of others and let go of yourself, okay?"
“.......” His head was splitting with pain. Yes, it was his problem and had nothing to do with Tang Ningyue.
He knew all these words, and he understood those principles, but so what? People need water to drink, food to eat, clothes to wear, shoes to wear, and also... seven emotions and six desires, and they need happiness and health. But only she can satisfy these. He just wants her, nothing else, he doesn't care if he has to endure the cold or go hungry.
But no one allowed it.
"Mom..." Li Jinglang was almost speechless, tears streaming down his face again, big and endless. "Just kill me."
"I really can't hold on any longer."
"I can't stand it anymore."
"My illness cannot be cured, and it will never be cured."
It would be better to just stamp his seal and say he is a madman and a fool than to say here that there is medicine to cure him. It is all torture. It would be better to just break the jar and go out and make all those cheap men deaf and dumb. They will never be allowed to say sweet words to her again. They can only watch, watch him and her.
Then he tied her up too, tied him and her together, and kept them by his side forever...
But she didn't want to, and she didn't want him.
The crazy idea was useless except for making him feel more and more pain. His face was as pale as paper, but the expression in his eyes was still like a candle flame, dim and bright, which was frightening to look at.
"How can it not be cured? Just cooperate with me. My sister just called and said she will help you too. It will definitely get better." Zhou Su had no choice but to bring up Tang Ningyue again. She was the only one who could control him.
help?
Li Jinglang took a deep breath but couldn't exhale, it was stuck in his chest, "I don't need her help."
If she were to see him in such a miserable state again, he wouldn't even be able to retain his handsome appearance in her eyes, and she would never love him again in her life.
"I have completed the transfer procedures for you. Before the New Year, let's get good treatment for a while and go home to have a happy New Year, okay?" Zhou Su sat by the bed, feeling very distressed. Physical pain is easy to cure, but mental illness is difficult to heal.
"Transfer to hospital? To where?" Li Jinglang chuckled, a trace of blood seeping from his cracked lips. He ignored it, retracted his hand, and gently turned the navy blue bracelet on his hand. "Mental hospital?"
"Jinglang..." Zhou Su hadn't finished speaking when her cell phone vibrated again. She had been very busy. Not only did she have to make money, but she also had to spend a lot of effort to enlighten his bastard son. Li Jinglang didn't want this to happen, but he couldn't control it. Did he have to dig out his heart and replace it with a new one?
Zhou Su hung up the call and sat in front of him with a distressed expression, "Can't we just stop being like this? Can't we just be good like other kids?"
"What is a good child?" His eyes were dry, and he shed many tears unconsciously. Some dried tear marks were even on his face. "What should I do to make you think it's good?"
If you don’t like talking, you’re not a good kid. To be honest, you’re not a good kid either. If you don’t like interacting with people, you’re not a good kid either. If you interact with people too much, you’re not a good kid either.
It turns out that people in the world only like liars, fools, and assholes.
"Jinglang."
Zhou Su pursed his lips and wrinkled his face.
Li Jinglang blinked slightly and turned his head slightly to look in the direction of the folding bed. The bed was put away, the things in the room were cleared out, and even her scent disappeared.
He didn't know when Tang Ningyue left, and his resistance was always ineffective.
She doesn't want him anymore.
"Ning Yue went to work." Zhou Su thought he was looking for her and explained.
When he heard her name, his eyes moved slightly and he stretched his sleeves to completely cover the beads on his wrists.
"I didn't ask her."
Li Jinglang threw back the quilt and got up to wash his face.
“.....”
Zhou Su chuckled, thinking that he was sulking again, and walked to the bathroom door. Seeing Li Jinglang squeezing toothpaste, he coughed lightly, causing him to look up from the mirror and meet Zhou Su's gaze.
"Then you don't want the New Year gift your sister gave you?" Zhou Su teased him while standing outside the door.
"......" Li Jinglang paused while squeezing the toothpaste, his eyes blinked unconsciously several times, and the muscles on his face became stiff.
Zhou Su saw his expression and thought he was moved by the gift. He leaned against the door and smiled: "Would you like to see it? I'll give it to you."
Li Jinglang didn't react much. His eyes shifted from Zhou Su to himself in the mirror. He didn't care what Zhou Su said anymore. He only had one thought - she would not come back.
"...She will not be at home during the New Year." It was originally a question, but it became an affirmation when it was spoken.
"Ah?" Zhou Su thought he had misheard. He paused for a moment and looked at him again, "Ah...you, um, didn't I transfer you to another hospital? There's no one at home, so my sister said she'd stay in her new house for a few days..."
The more Zhou Su spoke, the lower his voice became. He had already rehearsed the words, but he couldn't say them when they came to his lips. While he was speaking, he was secretly observing Li Jinglang's reaction, afraid that he couldn't bear it again.
"She, her new house has been renovated for quite some time, she likes it very much..."
So I didn't go to work, I moved...
I just want to draw a line between us and him, I just want to get rid of him.
"Yeah." Li Jinglang replied suddenly, "I understand."
This was a bit beyond Zhou Su's expectations. She had actually anticipated the result of Li Jinglang going crazy and smashing things, but he accepted it so calmly that Zhou Su didn't know how to respond for a moment.
"Jinglang..."
"I'm fine, I'll get better."
"...I won't bother her anymore."
".....I won't need her anymore."
Stay away from her and forget her.
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