Chapter 87 Chapter 87 Growth
Zhou Su did not object to Li Jinglang's decision to give up postgraduate studies and start a business. On the contrary, she was very supportive and even felt that her son had rekindled his hope in life. She even celebrated for it.
She hadn't been a very good mother, she admitted, but now at least she wanted to make amends.
The ladder that Zhou Su pushed over had already been stepped on by one foot when Li Jinglang returned to her side. Now, with the help of the force, she was able to move forward smoothly.
The world has changed. One can no longer gain a foothold by relying on one's personal abilities or the halo of one's past in school.
Even if Li Jinglang wanted to prove himself, he had to compromise with the world. There were too many things he could not help but understand.
Everything he once had was only because someone protected him from the wind and rain. All his pride and arrogance were completely shattered after he entered this society.
He had no choice but to bow his head, to integrate into this bastard world, to clink glasses at the table like an adult, and to gradually move closer to the center of the world in the midst of debauchery like those people he once hated.
When Li Jinglang received his first order in his life, his colleagues in the company celebrated and cheered for him, but he hid in the bathroom and vomited all over.
It seems that worldly success did not alleviate his condition, but made it worse, and even gradually developed into a two-way disease.
During the day he has to wear a mask as he wanders around this so-called society, and at night he has to take various drugs to soothe himself to sleep.
He seemed to have fallen into some deep whirlpool.
The night was like a venomous snake that would spit its tongue, entwining and suffocating him if he lay down in bed. But during the day, he became a rising tech elite in Beining, surrounded by people and shuttled between tall buildings and mountains.
Life is like a masked stage. Everyone has a role to play. As you act, you will forget who you are and just become the role that society wants you to be.
Zhou Su had never thought that her relationship with her son would become so good. Now the two of them even discuss economic trends together, just like an ordinary mother and son.
Zhou Su felt that he had recovered and become the normal child she had prayed to God for.
She was very relieved and only saw the light on in the study every night, but she didn't pay much attention to the additional medicines in his room.
The time of pain often lasts longer than the time of happiness. Even though the company was established only about a year and a half ago, Li Jinglang already felt like his entire youth was over.
It seemed that he himself did not realize that he was gradually becoming mature.
It wasn't because he had become a sociable person that he felt mature, but rather that he felt he had completely transformed into a person that was even unfamiliar to himself.
A living member of society who is completely domesticated by the environment.
Li Jinglang hasn't had an attack for a long time, but his medication dosage is increasing. Weekends should be a time for leisure and fun, but he will sleep all day and cannot wake up all day. This is the price he pays for needing to maintain high concentration at work.
Occasionally he would chat with his colleagues and talk about his own illness. Everyone would laugh and say that they had the same problem, and the topic would be dropped.
No matter how much he said, it sounded like whining.
Everyone has their own difficulties that cannot be expressed and cannot be cured by medicine. Some things can only be alleviated and healed by oneself.
Others cannot empathize with you, nor do they have the energy to worry about lives that have nothing to do with them. Sometimes, just being able to ensure a normal life is already a great effort.
When he thought about it carefully, it had been almost two years since he had contacted Tang Ningyue. Sometimes when Li Jinglang thought of this, he would take a deep breath involuntarily.
She was already married, and Zhou Su had attended her wedding. Obviously, her departure now was different from before.
She has a stable partner, a man with great scheming.
In his dreams at midnight, Li Jinglang kept thinking about her. What positions would she use when making love with that man? How would she kiss him? Would they be together every day?
Does she...occasionally think of him who is far away in Beining?
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On the weekend, as usual, the mother and son agreed to have dinner together. That day, Li Jinglang was very silent and did not chat with her as usual.
There is a new aunt in the house, and she is no longer the one who accompanied him and Tang Ningyue when they grew up.
Li Jinglang said that his aunt was old and needed to retire and go home to recuperate, so he replaced her with a chef who had worked in a high-end restaurant in Singapore without discussing it with Zhou Su.
In the past, when her aunt was here, she only came to cook two meals, so anyone could be replaced. Li Jinglang only gave this explanation, and Zhou Su didn't even have time to say goodbye to her aunt.
"Every month I pay her double her salary as a pension, and I give her other subsidies during holidays. I have someone in charge of this, so you don't have to worry about her."
This is what Li Jinglang said, and Zhou Su couldn't even refute it.
Zhou Su felt a little dazed by the shadow cast by the ceiling light in the restaurant. She didn't know if it was because her eyesight had deteriorated due to her age, but she always felt that she couldn't see her son sitting opposite her clearly.
"All right..."
It seems that as he gets older, Zhou Su always subconsciously listens to Li Jinglang's opinions on some things.
The balance is shaking and people are rotating. Ordinary people always like to put a revolving dining table in the restaurant. As time goes by, the position in front of the dining table also begins to change.
The two chatted about some random things face to face, and at some point they got back to work.
"So, you want to merge your aunt's company?"
Zhou Su was a little surprised by what Li Jinglang mentioned casually.
She had never thought that Li Jinglang would grow so quickly, like biochemical smoke that quickly spread and covered the entire sky, unable to be controlled.
"That was originally mine."
“....”
For the first time, Zhou Su felt a coldness and ruthlessness from Li Jinglang that she had never felt before.
"What's more... I'm just a nobody, relying on my aunt."
Li Jinglang smiled and spoke in a high-sounding manner.
When did he learn to be so smooth, even in front of Zhou Su?
"I just don't want you to be involved in the past anymore. You know...it's not good for you."
"..." Li Jinglang's smile faded. He dropped the spoon into the bowl and said in a gloomy voice, "Mom, when you helped me set up the company, didn't you think this day would come?"
“....”
Zhou Su was hopeful. She looked forward to standing proudly in front of the Li family one day. However, the chaos in life told her that many things could not be successful just by holding out hope.
Business is not easy to do. Even if Zhou Su helps Li Jinglang, it is still difficult. Being able to get to where he is today is already a blessing. She doesn't want him to take such a meaningless risk.
"Why bother?" Zhou Su frowned. Things were going further and further off track, heading in a direction unknown to her.
"After so many years, why do we have to get involved with them again? They were so determined back then and never considered my situation."
"That's why I want to take it back." Li Jinglang said it calmly, as if he was just visiting his aunt's house.
"Just for this?"
“....”
Li Jinglang curled up his fingers on the table and did not answer.
"I'm full. I'm going to rest first."
"You should rest early too."
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The author has something to say: The real battle is still to come
The puppy will definitely not be as tolerant as before when he grows up, and will have a stronger plot (but... naturally there will be a sister to deal with him
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