Chapter 416 Unable to Fit into Your World
When Meng Zhen finished revising the meeting minutes for the third time, the lights outside the window had already come on.
She rubbed her sore shoulders and looked at her phone screen.
Xiao Han's chat box stopped at the message from six hours ago: "I have dinner with a client tonight, don't wait for me."
She tapped the keyboard lightly: [Remember to drink less.]
I didn't send it out, and I deleted it word by word. In the end, I just sent an emoticon of a nodding cat.
The sound of colleagues chatting and laughing came from the tea room: "Did Teacher Xiao take Lao Shao to meet China Resources' clients today?"
"Of course. Lao Shao is an elite overseas returnee and the face of our studio..."
Meng Zhen looked down at the cuffs of her carefully ironed shirt, which she had bought specifically for meeting a client.
I thought that Shao Lengyu would help her familiarize herself with the work, and she could also attend the business talks as an auditor and learn.
Unexpectedly, Xiao Han only took Shao Lengyu with him, and the two of them went.
It rained heavily at night. Around eleven o'clock, Xiao Han finally finished his social activities and returned home.
In order to take care of Mengzhen who had sprained her foot, he took her to live in his apartment.
"Why haven't you slept yet?" He looked at Meng Zhen curled up on the sofa in surprise.
"Can... we talk?" Meng Zhen's voice was so soft that it was almost inaudible.
Xiao Han took off his wet coat and rubbed her hair with a smile: "So serious? Let me take a shower first."
"You always say wait!" Meng Zhen suddenly stood up, tears welling up in her eyes. "I wait for you to work overtime, wait for you to accompany clients, wait for you to finish your social events. I'm always waiting! I don't want to wait anymore!"
Xiao Han stood there in a daze, water dripping from the cuffs of his suit, and the smile on his face froze little by little.
He didn't understand what was wrong with Meng Zhen. She usually didn't talk much and didn't get angry easily, but today she suddenly had such a hot temper.
"What happened?"
The first thing he did was to comfort her. He held her shoulders and asked her to sit down. He then squatted in front of her and asked her to speak slowly.
"Is it your period? Or did I do something to upset you?"
Faced with his gentle attitude, Meng Zhen calmed down a little.
She wiped away her tears and said, "Sorry, I was too excited."
"It's okay, take your time and tell me anything that makes you unhappy." Xiao Han has always been a hot-tempered and sharp-tongued person, but he can be so patient and gentle with Meng Zhen.
Meng Zhen did not deny this. She could sense that Xiao Han was serious about his feelings for her.
However, she could not deny that she was too humble in this relationship.
She was uncomfortable, she was unhappy.
She said, "Xiao Han, I tried my best, but I still can't fit into your world."
Xiao Han was startled and gently held her hand. "Speak clearly, what do you mean?"
Meng Zhen sniffed, pursed her lips, and pondered for a long time how to express her thoughts.
Xiao Han didn't rush her, but waited quietly for her to calm down and organize her words.
"I thought that by following you, I could learn what I like and also acquire some of your confidence and calmness."
Her voice was very soft, mixed with sobs, and revealed a deep pessimism.
"Now I realize that's not the case. You're too dazzling. I feel inferior and timid around you, and you're always busy with work and can't take care of my emotions. I don't want my emotions to affect you."
Xiao Han frowned, his eyes filled with confusion. "Why do you feel so inferior? You're a quick learner. Lao Shao often praises you for your talent in this area, and everyone in the studio recognizes your abilities."
"It's not about that." Meng Zhen shook her head, tears sliding down her cheeks and being gently wiped away by him.
“All your friends are accomplished people in business or art, but I know nothing. My only value is that I have a sister who is very famous in the business world.
"I clumsily learned how to appreciate red wine and financial terms, trying hard to understand what you were saying and to engage in your conversation. But..."
She choked and pursed her lips to control herself from crying out loud.
Xiao Han reached out and hugged her distressedly, "You don't need to change yourself, you are good as you are now. You can learn things that interest you, there is no need to worry about other people's opinions..."
"But I care!" Meng Zhen pushed him away, her eyes faintly revealing her unwillingness and inexpressible love. "I care about you, and I also care about what your friends think of me."
She lowered her head, took a deep breath, and continued, "We are from two different worlds. Being with you, the inferiority complex I feel is constantly tormenting me. If I ask you to pay more attention to my emotions and accommodate me more in the future, you will also be very tired."
Xiao Han's eyes trembled, he understood what Meng Zhen meant.
Looking back, he also noticed that Meng Zhen's mood was a little abnormal during this period. Every time he asked her if she was unhappy, she always smiled and said to him "It's okay".
Because he was too busy with work, he never asked carefully and just ignored it.
Now, after hearing what she said, I realized that the seeds of her worries were planted when she met his friend a month ago.
Unlike Meng Anran, he is naturally insensitive to other people's emotions, so most of the time he ignores other people's thoughts and just starts to criticize when he is unhappy.
But Meng Zhen is a person with an extremely delicate mind, and she is also a taciturn person who always keeps things deep in her heart.
So it became a situation where one couldn't speak and the other couldn't see any clues.
Meng Zhen did not receive timely emotional feedback, so she was repeatedly tormented in her heart. The seeds she had planted gradually took root and sprouted, until it evolved into the current situation.
It was two o'clock in the morning and the apartment was silent.
The two sat opposite each other in silence for nearly three hours, pondering the future of their relationship.
"I'm sorry." Xiao Han finally spoke first, "It's because I ignored your emotions that you are so sad."
Meng Zhen's eyes were red and swollen. After hearing his words, she couldn't help but shed tears. "It's not your fault. It's my personality that is too sentimental. I always like to daydream and am not good at expressing myself, but I can't change this habit..."
Xiao Han sighed secretly and scratched his short hair in melancholy. "So what are your plans for the future? If you're willing to continue studying in the studio, you can move back to your previous apartment."
"I want to go back to Beijing for a while." Meng Zhen felt that it would be difficult for her to get over this relationship in a short period of time. She could no longer communicate with Xiao Han about work normally.
Xiao Han nodded in understanding, stood up and walked towards the bedroom, "Go to bed early, I'll take you to the airport tomorrow."
Neither of them mentioned the word breaking up, but they both ended the relationship in a peaceful way.
After taking a hot bath, Xiao Han gave the room to Meng Zhen.
A person who never smokes went downstairs to the convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes, sat on the bench in front of the convenience store, lit a cigarette and waited for the sky to brighten.
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