Chapter 35 Choice
The warmth in the snow did not last for a few days before it was completely shattered by the final exams and the subsequent winter vacation.
Winter, apart from the beautiful snow, is all debuffs - it's so cold that I don't want to go out. I just want to wrap myself in a quilt and be a happy homebody.
So, during the winter vacation, I completely turned on the "Goblin Cave Learning" mode.
The game was played until day and night, with dungeons one after another and killing people in the canyon.
Lin Yan was not idle. He was busy in front of the computer and mobile phone all day, like a spinning top.
From what he said, the company he previously cooperated with to sell his research results was very fond of him and seemed to be planning to "recruit" him as soon as he graduated.
That day, I had just finished a difficult game and was so tired that I didn't want to move my fingers. I slumped in my chair and watched Lin Yan still holding a video conference over there, giving instructions to the screen like a normal person.
When he finally closed his computer, I asked vaguely, holding a potato chip in my mouth, "Hey, Boss Lin, that company... are you really planning to go there after graduation?"
Lin Yan rubbed his eyebrows, stood up and walked over, naturally took the bag of potato chips from my hand (confiscated the junk food by the way), and sat on the armrest of the sofa next to me.
He didn't answer directly, but instead threw a question to me: "What about you? What do you think?"
"Me?" I was confused. "What else can I think of? Just to eat... Oh no, just to get a diploma, and then find a job to support myself." My life plan has always been simple.
Lin Yan pushed his glasses, and the look behind the lenses was filled with scrutiny and...expectation?
"Based on my current GPA, I should be able to get into a better school."
His tone was as calm as if he was saying that the weather was nice today.
I:"???"
"But I can't just think about myself, I have to think about you too."
Postgraduate study? A better school? Consider me?
"What...what does this have to do with me?" I laughed dryly and tried to bring the topic back to him. "You can go wherever you want. You're awesome anyway."
Lin Yan looked at me with a look of understanding in his eyes, but his tone was still gentle, even a little persuasive: "Of course it has something to do with you. Ruirui, we have to plan together."
He paused and then got to the point. "If you don't plan on taking the postgraduate entrance exam and want to go straight to work, then I'll go to that company and we'll settle down locally. But if you do want to move up, then my choice will have to match yours. I have to choose a school that's close to your goal and easy to get into. In another city?"
He chuckled, with an unquestionable certainty, "Impossible."
My brain seemed to have been blown into a pulp by this "planning bomb"!
Planning together? Going with me? Not being in the same place?
These words combined together contain so much information that my CPU is burning up!
The excitement I had just about started the next dungeon vanished in an instant.
I jumped up from my chair like a cat whose heart was poked, and circled anxiously in the living room.
"No... Lin Yan... you... your question is too sudden, isn't it?" I grabbed my hair in annoyance. "Graduate school entrance exam? Me? You must be kidding!"
"Don't I have any idea of my own level? How much effort would that take? Getting into a better school? Wouldn't that be exhausting?"
"I originally just wanted to get a diploma and a class and be done with it! But now... now you're doing this to me?"
A huge pressure and a sense of helplessness surged up like a tide. Lin Yan was too good, like a sparkling diamond.
What about me? At best, I'm just a stone with some edges and corners.
Being with him is really happy, but sometimes I feel stung by this gap.
Now he directly put the "future" and "choice" in front of me, and his meaning was clear: Ruirui, don't lie down, it's time to think! We have to move forward together.
I understand the logic.
Academic qualifications are not only a stepping stone, but also related to future development space.
If Lin Yan goes to a better school, he will definitely be more successful; if he goes to that company, he will definitely be successful with his abilities.
But if he gives up a better platform or compromises because of me... will I feel good about it?
But I'm supposed to take the postgraduate entrance exam? Compete with those top students? Just thinking about the atmosphere in the library makes me feel dizzy!
This question was like a fishbone stuck in my throat, making me feel uneasy. All day long, I was distracted while playing the game, and my teammates scolded me for losing focus in team battles.
The thoughts kept playing in my head: Should I take the test? Which test should I take? What if I don't pass? What if I drag Lin Yan down? Math one or two? (Oh my god, why is math divided into one, two, and three?)
That night, Lin Yan dragged me out of the game room to wash up and go to bed. Lying on the bed, he leaned over as usual, his warm breath brushing against my neck, a soothing kiss falling, and his arms naturally wrapped around me.
If it were any other time, I would have relaxed and even taken the initiative to move closer.
But today, I'm still struggling with the dilemma: should I take the professional or academic master's degree? Should I sign up for a class?
"Um... Ruirui?" Lin Yan's voice was a little sleepy and intimate, but his movements stopped.
He keenly noticed my stiffness and distraction. He raised his head and looked at me in the dim light from the window. His fingers gently pinched my arm. "Still thinking? So absent-minded?"
I was overwhelmed by the shadow of "Graduate Entrance Examination Mathematics", and when he asked me this question, the irritability and grievance that I had been holding back for a whole day suddenly came up!
"Hey! It's all because of you!" I said sullenly, trying to push him away a little (although Lin Yan immediately pressed him back into his arms even tighter), "You threw such a difficult problem directly at me! What do you mean by 'it's up to you'? My head is about to explode! Can I pass the postgraduate entrance examination just because I want to? What if I fail and it delays you? What if I pass and we're in another place? You make it sound so easy!"
Lin Yan was stunned by my sudden emotional outburst, and then he laughed softly.
The vibration of the chest was clearly transmitted through the tightly pressed body.
He didn't let go of my hand, but instead held me tighter, resting his chin on the top of my head, and said in a calm and gentle voice with a hint of indulgence:
"Silly... why are you in such a hurry? I just want you to... have an idea first..."
He paused, his voice softening. "I also want you to... go further, stand taller... I'm already very pleased that you can start to think seriously about this issue... instead of just saying 'no' directly..."
He shattered my thoughts, like a boat tossing in the stormy sea. The barrage of thoughts in my mind, such as "graduate entrance exam", "work", and "long-distance place", and the intense stimulation I felt in my body, were fighting like crazy. I was almost falling apart!
Finally, before my consciousness was completely turned into a paste, I squeezed out a broken accusation with my remaining sanity:
"Lin...Lin Yan...you...bastard...don't...don't...talk about...this kind of thing at a time like this...ah..."
In response, he kissed me even deeper, with even more forceful force, and a vague whisper with a triumphant smile:
"Okay... focus... my ancestors..."
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