Chapter 95 Awkward
In the evening, after coming out of the laboratory, I had a quick meal outside.
I opened the door and saw the familiar house, but the familiar breath and figure of that person were missing.
Too quiet.
That empty feeling came back, even stronger than in the cafeteria during the day.
My heart feels like it's blocked by something, stuffy and a little sour.
I know he is busy and working, but I just miss him, want to hear his voice and see his face.
Almost impatiently, I took out my cell phone and made a video call to Lin Yan.
This guy has been really busy these past two days. He just sent a message saying that he is still in the final negotiations with a certain company at this moment.
I don’t know if it’s over yet, and whether it will disturb him.
The phone beeped for a long time before it was connected.
The screen lit up, but the picture was shaking violently and the camera angle was strange. One could only see Lin Yan's clean-cut chin and a small part of his shirt collar.
He was obviously walking fast, his breathing was a little unstable, and his voice was hurried: "Baby, I just finished a meeting and am on my way." He didn't even bother to look at the camera.
“…” Looking at the shaking image that was only facing his chin, and listening to his somewhat anxious tone, an inexplicable feeling of grievance and bitterness suddenly rushed into his heart.
I haven't been able to have a proper video call with him almost the entire day today. Occasionally I would send him a message, but he would always hang up in a hurry.
I finally waited until night, thinking he would finally be able to catch his breath, but… the result was still the same! He didn’t even let me look at his face!
The rational little person told me: He is working, he is very tired, he is trying hard, and fighting for our future.
But the emotional villain clamored: I miss you so much, I want to talk to you, I want to see you...you don’t even look at me!
The two emotions fought fiercely in my chest, and in the end, the feeling of being ignored prevailed.
A sour feeling blocked my throat, making it impossible for me to speak.
Lin Yan seemed to be really busy, the camera was shaking, accompanied by the sound of him opening the car door.
He got in the car, his breathing calmed down a bit, and then he noticed the unusual silence on my side and asked, "Wife? What's wrong?"
"...What's wrong?" Almost as a reflex, these words with a hint of complaint and grievance came out of his mouth.
As soon as I said it, I regretted it.
My face felt a little hot instantly.
What am I doing?
I clearly called because I missed him, but how did my words turn into accusations? When did I become so twisted?
I was clearly "educating" Fang Qing righteously in the cafeteria at noon today, saying "you're being too twisted and it's torturing two people"...but when it came to my turn, the same thing happened!
My heart was pounding and I couldn't help but hold my breath.
How would he react? Would he think I was being naive? Would he think I was being unreasonable? Would he be disappointed in me? Would he think I had no understanding of his hard work? Would it... affect our relationship?
I waited nervously and could almost hear the sound of my blood pumping.
As a result, Lin Yan on the other side of the screen was not angry or blaming, but instead laughed softly and happily.
The laughter came through the receiver, like a feather gently scratching the tip of the heart, with a strange soothing power.
He seemed to have just heard not a complaint, but his own child acting coquettishly and mischievously.
"Ruirui," his voice was so gentle that it could drip water. The camera finally adjusted its direction, and his slightly tired but still handsome face appeared clearly on the screen. His deep eyes were filled with smiles as he looked at me intently. "Did you miss me? I was just on my way because I have to go to the company soon and I have something very important to pick up."
"...Is it that important?" I realized that instead of being blamed for my awkwardness, he gently and steadily accepted it, and even interpreted it as "I miss him". The little grievance in my heart softened instantly, but what followed was a kind of willful desire to "act up" even more and to be coaxed by him.
I mumbled deliberately, with a hint of nasal tone still in my voice.
"Well..." Lin Yan dragged out his words, his eyes filled with mystery and doting, "Because it's about you. I wanted it to be a surprise, but..."
He smiled helplessly, his tone a little indulgent, "My behavior just now made Ruirui angry and aggrieved. I can only explain it to you."
"It's all your fault..." He said that, and all the longing I'd accumulated during the day and the grievances that were now being appeased surged up at once. My voice unconsciously took on a sticky, coquettish tone, "It's been a whole day... I can't even talk properly... I can't even video chat..."
"It's my fault, it's my fault," he admitted immediately, his tone sincere and a little distressed. "I wanted to, Ruirui. But I've already visited three companies today, dealing with those old foxes. My brain is almost at a standstill. I'm really tired..."
He pinched his eyebrows, and there was indeed a deep sense of fatigue between his brows.
Seeing his tired look, my heart softened instantly. The little bit of willfulness I had just felt disappeared in an instant, leaving only heartache.
"Honey, you've worked so hard... I'm sorry..." I lowered my voice, apologetically, "Even though you're so busy... I still..."
"Don't say sorry!" He interrupted me, his tone very serious, "As your lover, I was not able to accompany you when you needed me, and I was not able to respond to you in time. It's my fault. Ruirui misses me and depends on me. What's wrong with that?"
He paused, looked at me tenderly, and softened his voice: "And... Ruirui is right, I need you too. I'm tired too, and I really need my baby to comfort me and hug me."
He gestured with his arms outstretched towards the camera, "So you see, we did nothing wrong. Blame the world. Besides sweet love, there's also the reality of making a living. Ruirui, bear with it for a while. I'll come back and make it up to you, okay?"
His words instantly smoothed out all the wrinkles in my heart like a warm current.
That little bit of awkwardness and grievance was wrapped tightly by his understanding and tenderness.
Not only did he not feel that my emotions were a burden, but he took it as proof that I needed him, and even frankly expressed that he needed me too.
This kind of two-way dependence and honesty makes me feel warm and happy.
"Wuwuwu Lin Yan..." I threw away the last bit of my reserve. I looked at the screen like a little animal that finally found its owner, and acted coquettishly, "Hubby... I miss you... I miss you so much..."
"Wife, I miss you too, very much."
His voice was low and full of emotion. Through the screen, his deep eyes were filled with longing and love that almost overflowed. "I love you."
Then, without further words, we just stared at each other across the screen, as if to carve each other's appearance into our hearts.
His tired brows and my slightly red eyes were clearly reflected in each other's pupils.
Occasionally, he would say some meaningless words like "What are you doing?", "Are you tired?", "Go to bed early", or just share some insignificant daily fragments - such as how bad the cafeteria food I ate today was, and the night view outside the hotel window on his side.
All the fatigue and distance seemed to disappear in this silent gaze and chatter.
There is no need for deliberate teasing, just looking at him, listening to his voice, feeling his unreserved love and tolerance, the feeling of being cherished and needed is enough to fill the emptiness of the entire night, and is more touching than any deliberate love words.
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