Chapter 17 Anxiety
On the twenty-sixth day of the twelfth lunar month, Liujia Village was filled with festivity because the head shopkeeper from the county town had come to deliver New Year's goods. There were several horse-drawn carriages in front and behind. People with good eyes could even see that Brother Gu was with the head shopkeeper.
"Sister-in-law Yin'er, Sister-in-law Yin'er, Brother Gu is back, Brother Gu is back." When Xiao Zhuzi saw Gu Wan, he ran back home like the wind, told Sister-in-law Li that he saw Brother Gu, and then ran to the next door anxiously, knocking on the door and shouting. Since the last time Sister-in-law Yin'er came back alone, she seldom went out. The greedy Xiao Zhuzi was thinking about the candies he could get every time he saw his sister-in-law. Now he had snacks to eat again.
There was a loud bang in the kitchen, and Liu Yin'er froze for a moment, her body frozen in place. No matter how the children outside yelled, she couldn't move an inch. When she could no longer hear the noise, she hurried to get some water, carefully dressed in front of the mirror, tugged at the hem of her neatly-knitted clothes, and then, after calming herself, opened the courtyard door. Then, she returned to her room, retrieved the unfinished soles, and began embroidery in the yard.
Gu Wan carried two bags of gifts in her hands and walked slowly towards her former home. It was not that she could not see through Li Yuan's deliberate arrangement, but she could not resist the desire to take a look. She wanted to see if she was doing well. She just wanted to take a look.
Along the way, neighbors greeted each other warmly, as if it was the same as before. Only occasionally a few sisters-in-law reminded Gu Wan not to stay outside for too long, because he had a lovely wife at home waiting for him and missing him.
Gu Wan responded to each one seriously, but secretly beat a drum on his chest, as if afraid of being heard by others. The sound of "dong dong" was faintly heard in the corner. In his heart, he vaguely guessed the possibility. Could it be that Yin'er did not tell others her identity, then could she still have hope?
When I arrived at the door, the yard was not closed as expected. I didn't use the excuse I had prepared to knock on the door. At a glance, I saw the person in the yard sitting sideways in front of the kitchen, slowly doing the embroidery in her hands, looking peaceful and beautiful.
The beating of the drum in Gu Wan's heart suddenly calmed down, and he suddenly sighed with a sense of peace in reality. His heart, which had been empty for a long time, suddenly became full and comfortable. It was great.
She walked step by step towards the person she had deliberately avoided thinking about for a long time. The person in the yard seemed to have heard the voice, slowly stopped what he was doing, paused for a while, and then raised his head to look at the person, revealing his beautiful face.
At this moment, Gu Wan's brain seemed to be paused. Without time to think about anything, he murmured affectionately and softly to the girl he was thinking about, "Yin'er"
"Oh~ I wonder who you are, sir, and why you are calling me so intimately." Liu Yiner suppressed the waves in her heart and asked in a puzzled manner.
"Yin'er, I am you... I am, it's me, Gu Wan." The words "I am your husband" almost came out of her mouth. She had already written the divorce letter, and Yin'er would not accept her anyway. Gu Wan's words were full of twists and turns, but in the end he chose to give his name.
"Oh~ I don't know what Mr. Gu is doing. If you have nothing to do, please go back." Liu Yiner stood up and said coldly, as if she was going to drive him away.
"Yin'er, I'm fine. No, I'm busy. I'm here on behalf of the Hu's Restaurant to deliver New Year's goods to the vegetable farmers." Gu Wan looked at the man who was much more powerful than he remembered. He couldn't help but become nervous when speaking, and blurted out the prepared excuse.
"Thank you very much. Please put down your things, Mr. Gu, and go back. I'm sorry I can't see you off." Liu Yin'er's face was calm. She looked at Gu Wan with sharp eyes and angrily said to drive him away.
"Oh, no need to see me off, no need to see me off, I can go back by myself." Gu Wan turned around in panic and walked outside. Is this still her soft and lovely little wife? Why does she look like she is going to torture her to death? She wiped the cold sweat from her forehead that appeared at some point, and just stepped out of the threshold, there was a "click" sound behind her, and the courtyard door was closed from the inside.
Gu Wan turned around in disbelief, her lips moving for a long moment before finally lowering her head dejectedly. Was she being kicked out? How anxious was she to get rid of him? If we couldn't be lovers, being friends would be fine. After all, they were husband and wife. Why was she being so unkind?
Listening to the footsteps outside the door fading away, Liu Yiner leaned against the door as if she had lost her strength, looked up at the sky for a long time, and made sure that no tears would flow from her eyes before she stood calmly, turned around and gently opened the door. Sure enough, the man was no longer outside. She stared blankly at the path that extended to who knows where. She didn't know how long she stood there before she silently closed the gate.
On the twenty-seventh day of the twelfth lunar month, since returning from last night, Gu Wan felt like she was falling on a cloud, lost in thought and unable to find a place to rest. Some people say that if you truly love someone, you can't remain friends after breaking up, because that would make the other person even more miserable.
Some people also say that if you truly love someone, you will be reluctant to part ways. Even if you are just ordinary friends, caring about them from afar can bring some comfort. But after all, if you have had an intimate relationship, you are destined to not be just ordinary friends.
Gu Wan didn’t know which type she belonged to, nor did she know which way was right, but she couldn’t help but have an idea that since they couldn’t be lovers, maybe it wouldn’t be bad to enter the other person’s life with another identity.
However, after experiencing yesterday's setback, she is now a little timid. Perhaps it is her unwillingness that is at work, or perhaps she is just too paranoid.
At this moment, she suddenly remembered a sentence she had seen in her previous life: Not disturbing is my last blessing! Gu Wan was silent. Was she really wrong?
At 10 o'clock in the afternoon, there were no restaurants open in the streets and alleys, and she was too embarrassed to go to a restaurant to eat and drink. She was starving and could only find a few pitiful steamed buns and a bag of rice at home. There was even less food and wine. So what had she been doing recently? Was she going to spend the New Year just eating these?
Just when he was at a loss, someone came to help him. "Brother, you don't have to cook these days. Come to our Hu Mansion to celebrate the New Year together. It will be more lively if we are all together." Hu Ziyan thought that Gu Wan was too lonely alone, so she discussed with Li Yuan to invite her to their home to celebrate the New Year. As they thought, the couple came to visit this afternoon.
Gu Wan was delighted, but before she could be happy, she opened her mouth and said something completely different from what she had thought. "No need, sister-in-law, I have important things to do these days, and I probably won't be in this county town during the New Year."
"Oh~ Brother Gu is going back to Liujia Village. This is the best. You'd better go back to find Sister Yin'er. Yan'er and I will feel relieved." Li Yuan had no intention of guessing what important matter Gu Wan had, but he accidentally revealed what was in Gu Wan's mind.
At night, Gu Wan lay in bed, tossing and turning, the conversation from the day still ringing in her ears. Did she actually harbor such thoughts? It was really ridiculous. What reason or face did she have to bother him again...
On the 28th day of the twelfth lunar month, Liu Yiner returned to her parents' home and made some snacks with her father and sorted out the ingredients for the New Year. She knew she couldn't avoid it, so she took the initiative to mention Gu Wan to Liu Lao Dad. "Dad, Ah Wan, her husband has been busy with work recently and will probably be back for a while. I will probably spend the New Year with you and my brother."
Seeing his daughter's unhappy face, Father Liu didn't want to interfere in the affairs of the young couple, but why didn't they go home during the New Year? He straightened his face and tried to slow down his tone and said, "Girl, what has your son-in-law been busy with recently? He can earn money slowly. How can he leave you alone at home during the New Year?"
"Dad, don't worry about it. She will come back naturally when it's time." However, based on that person's personality, she probably won't come back.
Seeing his daughter staring blankly out the door after she finished speaking, Old Man Liu didn't say the words he wanted to ask. Hey! Children are a debt. The child's mother died early, and he, as a father, didn't fulfill his responsibilities. Besides, his daughter is married, so he should just worry less! Although he thought so, he couldn't relax. When his son-in-law came back, he would definitely have a good talk with that boy.
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