Chapter 130 If it happens again, will he still humiliate himself like this?
As soon as these words were spoken, everyone in the court knelt down.
This relatively gentle emperor rarely spoke to his ministers in such a heart-to-heart manner.
But today he actually said it for the first time. Not only that, but the meaning revealed in his words was that he would not go back to his old ways.
Even if Dashun does not reform for the time being, it will not be the same as before.
Even as the emperor, he had to change himself, and as his subjects, if they could not keep up with his pace and held him back, he would not be polite.
The entire hall was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. Everyone was shocked by the emperor's change, even the three members of the Qin family were no exception.
Qin Sheng knew that "The Great Qin Empire" had a great influence on the emperor, and he also knew that the emperor was already trying to change himself. He thought that he had to take it slow and ask him to correct himself slowly.
But I didn't expect that he could move forward in this way, almost in one step, no, almost half a step.
His determination to change himself was stronger than ever before, and this determination came so suddenly that Qin Sheng didn't know whether it was a good thing or a bad thing.
It is definitely a good thing that the emperor is willing to change. It is better than before.
But his talents and abilities are there, and if he makes rash changes without any knowledge, who knows what will happen to Dashun.
Instead of doing this, it is better not to change, or to take it step by step and learn while changing.
This kind of forced change is really unsettling.
In addition to feeling a little uneasy, the three Qin family members were actually more shocked than anything else.
This emperor has never admitted his faults since he ascended the throne, and has always been brooding over the edict of repentance issued by the previous emperor.
He felt that as the Son of Heaven, no matter how many faults he had, he did not need to tell his subjects. It was enough for the Emperor to know about his crimes within himself. If the whole country knew about it, where would the Emperor's dignity be?
Moreover, since ancient times, no matter how many faults a king has, his subjects cannot accuse him at will, nor can they use this as an excuse to manipulate him.
That's why he couldn't stand the Qin family so much and always regarded the Qin family as a thorn in his side.
But today, he actually said in front of so many civil and military officials that he was useless, saying that he had made the officials weak...
He...actually openly admitted his mistake?
The emperor's words seemed to have a dreamy tone, which made the Qin family's father and son feel a bit absurd and difficult to accept for a moment.
They felt like something was blocking their hearts, and it seemed as if someone had quietly opened up a hole in the blocked area, allowing some of the unspeakable emotions that had been stuck in their hearts to escape, but they didn't know where to release those emotions.
This made the three of them feel strangely confused.
The emperor...admitted his mistake.
Although he only said a little bit and didn't mention that he owed the Qin family a lot, but now that this door has been opened, can he... wait for him to sincerely admit his mistakes in the future?
Qin Sheng lowered his eyelashes, feeling mixed emotions.
He suddenly remembered his youth, and his father's weathered eyes and back, all of which were brought by the emperor above him.
The enemy's swords could not hurt him, but the suspicion of his own people made him very sad. He was afraid that if he did something wrong, his entire family would die.
He always walks on thin ice, speaks and acts cautiously, and even dares not say too much.
Qin Sheng was still young at that time. At an age when everyone else was still playing around, he understood the endless pain and helplessness hidden behind the vicissitudes of life in Duke Qin's eyes.
He read a lot of books trying to make his father feel more at ease and find a way to help the Qin family get rid of the emperor's suspicion.
But after thinking about it, I still don’t know what to do.
He lay on the grass and looked at the sky. Birds were flying by, feeling very free.
He felt more confused than ever before, as if his life had lost its direction.
His father went out to fight in the war, and he didn't know how to vent his anxiety, so he found his eldest brother, hoping that Qin Huaishu could say something to make him feel more at ease.
Qin Huaishu told him that he was still young and shouldn't think too much. When they all grew up and could hold power in their own hands, he could really stand at the table on an equal footing with everyone else and participate in this brutal fight.
Before that, they need to lie dormant, wait, and constantly hone themselves to become stronger.
At that time, the Duke of Qin's Mansion was only supported by Duke Qin alone. The brothers were still young and could not help Duke Qin in any way.
Back then, he seemed to understand what his elder brother said, but also seemed not to understand. He just stubbornly tried to figure out a way out on his own.
The Fourth Prince liked to cling to him when he was very young. Later, for some unknown reason, he did not push him away.
Qin Sheng could no longer remember how he felt at that time. He felt disgusted and disgusted, but it seemed that he got what he wanted in this way.
When his elder brother discovered his abnormality, he became very angry. Qin Sheng had never seen him so angry before.
However, Qin Huaishu did not punish him. After being punished, he locked himself in the ancestral hall.
He asked Qin Huaishu why he didn't punish him but punished himself instead. Qin Huaishu knelt in front of the ancestral tablet with blood all over his body and said that everything was his fault and that he had not taken good care of his brother.
That was the first time Qin Sheng felt regret.
He did not see the Fourth Prince again for a long time afterwards.
When Qin Huaishu came out of the ancestral hall, he had lost a lot of weight. He called Qin Sheng to the study and told him not to do such things again.
Qin Sheng didn't understand. It would quickly achieve his goal and he would only have to endure a moment of pain, which was worth it to him.
Qin Huaishu burst into tears before he finished speaking. It was the first time Qin Sheng saw Qin Huaishu cry. He didn't make a sound when he was tortured, but he felt so painful when he heard his words.
Qin Sheng still remembers what Qin Huaishu said at that time.
He said: Yes, doing so can achieve your goal, but Xiaosheng, life is long, you can't always live in such heavy hatred and pain, you will get married and have children in the future, and have your own life. You are constantly wasting yourself in the present time, and you will only hesitate when you can get happiness in the future. When you meet the woman you love, you won't even dare to touch her. I know you are doing this for the Qin family, but I am your brother, and I just hope that my brother can have a normal time, be happy when he should be happy, and be sad when he should be sad, instead of blocking his own life path.
Qin Huaishu talked a lot with him that day, but he still disappointed his elder brother in the end.
Qin Sheng disagreed with Qin Huaishu's words at that time. He had no romantic feelings in his heart, nor did he have anyone he liked.
As long as he can achieve his goal, he can give up anything, not to mention his body, even his life.
But when he heard the emperor's words at this moment, Qin Sheng felt unprecedentedly confused.
The thing they had been thinking about for so many years was really... solved so quietly, at least the most difficult part had been solved.
What Qin Huaishu said to him at that time seemed even more precious compared to what the emperor said now, but it also made him look even more ridiculous.
It turns out that from so long ago, the eldest brother had already known that he had blocked his own path, but he was the only one who was still immersed in the emotion of self-sacrifice...
Qin Sheng couldn't help but ask himself, if he had known that he would meet Chu Yian, and if he had known that she could help the Qin family get rid of the emperor's suspicion, would he still humiliate himself like this?
But after thinking about it, Qin Sheng's answer was always: Yes.
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