Chapter 175 175. The Narrator's Determination
Even though something unusual happened in the Federation, Xu Zhi still didn't choose to leave Yuncheng. It wasn't because she was too lazy to care.
It was just because at the beginning, Xu Zhi could repeatedly spot the fanatics who tried to sneak in through the perspective of the clansmen guarding the entrance, but after she killed them more than a dozen times, the other party seemed to have given up, but Xu Zhi and the narrator did not think that [Cup] would give up Yuncheng.
Since the fanatics from outside cannot come in to carve the formation, the problem must be from within Yuncheng.
Therefore, Xu Zhi chose to stay in Yuncheng. After all, no matter how you look at it, Yuncheng will be an important piece of the puzzle in his plan. If the arrangement in Yuncheng fails, it may bring some trouble to his plan.
Xu Zhi did not hold out hope of being able to completely and directly stop the other party's "arrival". She was not arrogant enough to that extent. Her goal now was just to cause trouble for the other party, and preferably to damage his strength as well.
Sometimes Xu Zhi felt that she was very indifferent. In fact, she didn't care much about the life and death of other people. When she learned that a large number of extraordinary people had died in the Federation and that this was just the beginning, she didn't feel any emotional fluctuation in her heart. There was no pity, sympathy, or other emotions caused by the death of her own kind.
I am just thinking about whether this will increase his strength and bring more troubles. If the Federation is not stupid, it should take some corresponding measures.
She didn't even feel anything about the fact that "humanity might perish in this disaster". To her, it was just an empty and meaningless topic. Sometimes, Xu Zhi even felt like a ghost wandering outside the group, and the world was just a small box used to hold her.
But sometimes, for example, when she saw Zhong Lingfan, Chen Jinwen or other residents of Yuncheng, she would find these flesh-and-blood people with different personalities quite interesting. If she were the only one left in the world, it would be quite boring.
Therefore, if she had the energy to protect herself, it seemed that giving them some protection was not something she could not accept.
However, this protection only applies to those who are within her reach. If it is too troublesome or too dangerous, then forget it.
Even so, Xu Zhi felt a little strange about his idea.
She didn't think she was such a "kind" person. Even though she did have some friendship with Zhong Lingfan, Shen Jinwen and others, and she had seen the support and admiration of the residents of Yuncheng for her, her heart was not actually touched. But why did she have the idea of "protecting them casually"?
"Is it because I regard them all as my possessions?" A sudden flash of inspiration came to Xu Zhi's mind, and he felt that he had touched the source of this strange "kindness".
Yes, that’s right, Xu Zhi nodded in agreement.
She regards the extraordinary people in Yuncheng as her own "property". When her life safety is guaranteed, it is normal for her to want to protect the safety of her property, right?
The narrator looked at Xu Zhi mumbling to himself and inferring a quite reasonable explanation for his "strange kindness", and said with some confusion:
[Couldn't it be that you are not completely cold-hearted and heartless, and that you still retain some human emotions?]
It didn't think that Xu Zhi had completely lost his "humanity" and become a completely indifferent and emotionless person.
Although she is indeed more indifferent and capricious than most people, it is precisely because she is more capricious that her "emotions" are highlighted.
She will do some meaningless things because she is happy, choose more dangerous methods because she is unhappy, and become a troublemaker because she thinks it is interesting.
In short, sometimes, emotions are the driving force that pulls her towards him. It is not surprising that she now has the desire to protect the residents out of a sense of responsibility.
But the strange thing is that Xu Zhi doesn’t think she is a person with positive emotions such as “responsibility”. She seems to think very badly of herself.
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The narrator realizes a problem.
Perhaps, Xu Zhi was not unwilling to admit that she had a sense of responsibility, but she simply did not understand what positive "sense of responsibility" was?
Looking back on Xu Zhi's past, the narrator believes that this may be the real answer.
Almost all the emotions related to "responsibility" that Xu Zhi has received in her life are negative. Although the fragments have brought her a lot of extraordinary knowledge, they have not taught her what positive "emotions" are. She is like a problem child who gains power before solving the problem, and thus runs all the way in the direction of paranoia.
What's more, as early as the beginning of the Yuncheng incident, Xu Zhi had abandoned all her "kindness, justice, and gentleness", as well as her "responsibility" which she herself was not very clear about.
She cut off all these emotions and feelings. Although these positive emotions themselves accounted for a very small proportion of her body, but after cutting them all out, Xu Zhi became more extreme.
Fortunately, even though she had cut off her ties, her emotions were not completely cut off. When facing her clan, she would still regain some of her "tenderness". In her interactions with Zhong Lingfan and others, she also developed some "responsibility" that she herself was not aware of.
Of course, the narrator does not think that Xu Zhi’s “problematic personality” is a bad thing. It just feels that understanding more feelings and emotions may help Xu Zhi go further. He can ignore those emotions, but he cannot be completely ignorant of or incomprehensible.
Thinking of His purpose, the fragment, and what Xu Zhi had been trying to do recently but failed, the narrator silently made a decision in his heart.
It’s not that it hadn’t anticipated this situation, but from the previous perspective, competing with “Him” was too far-fetched. Now that the opportunity is in front of it, why not give it a try?
The narration has never been so "bold" and unconventional. From being an "accessory" without any emotions at the beginning, it has gradually developed its own consciousness and thinking, and even has a "personality". All this is because of Xu Zhi.
It and Xu Zhi share a common destiny. Perhaps, now is the time to slowly tell her the "truth".
When the narrator made up his mind, the screen of the game console suddenly dimmed, and two white pixel fonts appeared against the black screen background.
【Xu Zhi.】
The narrator rarely addressed her by name like this. Xu Zhi raised his eyebrows slightly in surprise: "What's wrong? Is something bad happening again?"
Xu Zhi's familiar attitude and teasing actually caused the narrator to have some complicated emotions, which could be described as "mixed feelings".
When did it start? The relationship between it and Xu Zhi went from being a tool and user for official business to a feeling similar to that of "friends". This "friendship" was impossible to happen. After all, who would become friends with someone?
Although the narrator can understand human emotions, he is still surprised when these emotions appear in himself and Xu Zhi.
This was a change it hadn't anticipated, but it didn't seem so bad.
The narrator accepted his change calmly, and then asked Xu Zhi seriously:
Do you still remember how I appeared?
(End of this chapter)
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